Evil in the Land Without
By Colin Cotterill
Evil in the Land Without
Copyright © Colin Cotterill, 2003
First Published 2003
Smashwords Edition
eBook Edition published by
Proglen Trading Co., Ltd.
Bangkok Thailand
http://ebooks.dco.co.th
ISBN 978-616-7817-04-0
All Rights Reserved
This book is a work of fiction. All names, characters, and other elements of the story are either the product of the author's imagination or else are used only fictitiously. Any resemblance to real characters, living or dead, or to real incidents, is entirely coincidental.
Dedicated to the minority groups in Burma.
The Karen live in Southeast Asia, mostly in the Irrawaddy Delta and on the Thai-Burmese border. Since 1942, they have been fighting for their traditional homeland, Kawthoolei, “The Land Without Evil.”
Contents
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Chapter 35
Chapter 36
Chapter 37
Chapter 38
Chapter 39
Chapter 40
Chapter 41
Chapter 42
Chapter 43
Chapter 44
Chapter 45
Chapter 46
Chapter 47
Chapter 48
Chapter 49
Chapter 50
Chapter 51
Chapter 52
Chapter 53
Chapter 54
Chapter 55
1 - Kawthoolei, 1978
You are to leeve this place. If you are found here when we return in seven days, you will be considered enemys of the state and distroyed.
It was a simple note, written by hand and not carefully spelt. The paper had been torn from a pad of greying report sheets and fastened to the wall of the elder's hut with brown masking tape. It hung slightly askew like a loosened tooth and flapped in a breeze that warned of an incoming storm.
Sherri stood before it and wondered at the magic of the flimsy sheet that could wipe away her history. It was indeed a powerful paper. The village had been the whole of the six years of her life. She had seen her first daylight through the bamboo slats of her family hut. She had played in each of the nine homes and grown up with the assortment of naked babies and toddlers that ran amok through the world there. She had learned from a woman so old she was unable to walk unaided to the latrine, but who was so much of a genius she could make marks on paper that spoke to the children she taught.
This was the history that the grey note with its rudely spoken words was wiping away. Thanks to old No Ay Me, she could understand the words but not the scrawl at the bottom. She was told it was the signature of a great soldier. The great soldier wore the uniform of the government and he could kill a man, they said, just by clicking his tongue against his teeth. Since she'd heard that, Sherri had been afraid to let her tongue make any sounds in her mouth. Sitting at dinner had filled her with dread as she listened to the clumsy smacking of chops as people ate.
And as she stood alone in front of the drunken paper, she wondered how there could be any other home, any other life beyond this village. To a six-year-old, what you know is your world, and any event in your life is world altering. The complete removal of that world is tantamount to erasing a life.
Everybody else—the entire population of the village, less the old teacher—was assembled down by the pond. They sat under the swaying banyan trees silently waiting for hope to arrive on the breeze. For some it was inevitable that they wouldn't be excused the displacement. For the majority who had been able to shut out the thought, this was an unwelcome reality.
“We should fight them,” came one comment out of the quiet. It's speaker received no more than raised eyebrows, much more than the statement deserved. The sons and grandsons of the village had fought them and had nothing to show for it. The Karen Army had been fighting them for 33 years and had nothing to show for it. What did the small ragged band of children, women, and elderly have to fight them with?
No, it was agreed they would pack together their few belongings and begin the 18-day march to the new development zone. They knew what to expect. There they would receive small patches of infertile land and inadequate building materials, and struggle to survive. Eventually they would be forced through starvation to offer themselves as porters to the Military Council of Burma, the Tatmadaw, and eventually die of exhaustion. Such was the fate they knew was awaiting them, but against which they had no remedy.
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They were a week into the walk. Sherri had never seen death before, or at least she couldn't remember anyone being dead. But it seemed a lot like sleeping. No Ay Me lay beside the dirt track with a troubled look on her crinkly old face. It was a look of annoyance that she had been forced to leave the village. It had been on her face since they put her on the litter and started to drag her away from everything she loved. Sherri knew just how she felt.
But as for being dead. That didn't seem to trouble the old lady nearly as much as being dragged. No Ay Me had told Sherri once about how the spacemen fly away from the earth and the air gets thinner and thinner until eventually there isn't any. If they don't take bottles of air with them, they can't breath.
The further they dragged her away from her earth, the harder it became for No Ay Me to breath. Sherri walked behind and watched her chest rise and fall as she fought to catch her breath. But on the sixth day, her chest didn't rise any more. Nobody was sure how many kilometers they had dragged the corpse, but it could have been a whole day. Sherri hadn't been bold enough to tell anyone about her suspicions that the lady wasn't searching for air any more. As the sun played hide-and-seek behind the trees at the end of the day, they lay down the bamboo stretcher and announced that the teacher was gone.
Sherri was unsure about how to feel. Her teacher was still there after all. She knelt beside the body and looked at her. Her mother told her that No Ay Me had gone, but that wasn't true. She hadn't gone anywhere. She wasn't lost. She just wasn't breathing. That was all.
Sherri leaned over the old woman and whispered to her, "It's okay, Ah Ah, I can see you. You're still here. They're sorry they dragged you. You can start breathing again now."
She waited for several minutes, but there was no response except for the buzzing of flies. "Listen, Ah Ah, they're talking about what they should do with you. They say they haven't got any tools to put you under the ground, but they don't want the animals to get you. Somebody said they should set fire to you and say prayers. You're going to have to start breathing again really soon if you want me to help you."
It was the frustration of No Ay Me's reluctance to co-operate, and the loneliness away from the village that finally drew tears to Sherri's eyes. Death was still a concept
too distant to grasp. But once she started to cry, she had no way of stopping the tears. From then on, death would always suggest frustration and loneliness.
There would be a cremation that evening. The elders had decided that the most appropriate end to No Ay Me would be to show her the respect she had earned while alive, in a private ceremony on the plot of dirt where she had expired. She would be burned on a pyre of bracken and distributed to the spirits of the earth.
The preparations had even begun. They cut a bed of twigs upon which No Ay Me was to lay, and had cleared away surrounding vegetation so as not to raze the whole countryside.
The elder had dispatched many a body to the beyond. Through eyes bunged up with tears, Sherri watched him prepare for the ceremony. He produced the prayer book from his cloth shoulder bag. He carefully unwrapped the white gown from his pack and hung it over a branch for the creases to drop out. And that was as far he got.
The soldiers approached in such a casual manner it seemed unlikely they had bad intent. The elder seemed unfazed also. He produced all the legal papers from his bag and summoned a smile to welcome the ranking officer of the bunch. There were eight, all silent and ragged in mismatched uniforms.
"Welcome sir," the elder greeted the young man in almost faultless Burmese, a language he only used for official duties. He knew the soldiers were unlikely to speak Karen. Most were from the central plain, sent to oppress a race they knew or cared very little about.
The officer was in his early twenties and his 'men' were barely post-pubescent themselves. He had a face so smooth and inanimate it could have been molded from river clay. He stopped a yard from the elder and focussed his yellowing eyes on the old man. Sherri had noticed the machete hanging from his hand. She watched it rise and slice through the elder's neck. In a fraction of a second it was back hanging at the soldier's side barely pink with blood. The elder's head wobbled slightly then toppled to the ground. His body, as if suddenly realizing it had no head, turned slowly in search of it, then crumpled to the dirt.
Sherri looked about her to see that the same fate had befallen the other four men in her group. There was a moment more of silence before the screams of the women brought on the screams of the children. Only the machetes of the young soldiers could quiet them. There was a flash of light inside Sherri's head that distanced her from the horror. She was numb. She was somewhere else. She looked at the scene without understanding what had happened or why. When the bloodletting was over, only five villagers remained alive; two younger women, Sherri, and another two girls her age. Each of them stood silently, hoping their silence would render them invisible to the boy soldiers and their boy officer.
2 - England, 2000
He recalled his penis.
"I recall my penis," he said to the small gathering before him. The other seven unattractive men chuckled like schoolboys into their wine glasses. The speaker continued:
"It was once such a magnificent creature, so proud and unashamed in its exuberance. I could barely restrain it when I was in school. Just the close proximity of a naked inner thigh, or the sight up a pair of baggy shorts, and it was up and away. And I can't begin to tell you of the trouble I had wrestling the beast down in the shower room."
The audience laughed loudly. They were in a stuffy suburban living room lit desperately by one desk lamp. Brownish oil paintings of dales and rustic fences adorned the papered walls. With the heavy curtains drawn, the lamp provided just enough light for the present speaker to see his script but not enough to draw the faces of the other men out of the shadows. A couple of them were quite drunk. Some had already taken advantage of the man sized tissue box on the coffee table and been to the bathroom to wank themselves off. Such was the tradition at gatherings like this.
It was a full Saturday afternoon programme, and one they had been looking forward to for several months. They didn't gather nearly as often as they should. To the neighbours, they looked like a bunch of chaps getting together to watch the rugby on ITV. They were all likeable enough fellows. There were two schoolteachers, one local councilor, a postman, two retirees, John, and a football referee. Two were married; two divorced.
Each of them had prepared a presentation. They had already seen two videos and one slide show, listened to a diary reading, and been given samples to take home from a photograph display. It was the function of the host—today a paunchy, red-faced man called John—to provide the equipment, drinks, and snacks, although John had actually laid on much more than the others realized. It was the host who traditionally provided the final show of the day and John, thirty but in a much older body, had prepared a finale they would never forget.
The speaker, stirred by the wine-stoked rapture of the audience, drew on his teacher storytelling voice to lead into his slide demonstration. "So you can imagine my distress, as the years passed, to see that the beast had not only become domesticated, but that there were days that I could barely find the little fella as it cowered quivering amid the pubic bush." He pretended to be calling a lost dog. "Here, here boy. Where are you my little lost dachshund?"
The men now roared with laughter as much from empathy as from amusement.
The thick curtain across the French windows kept out the Surrey autumn chill and made the single oil heater all the more influential in the carpeted room. The breaths of the unattractive men, the wine, the buzzing lamp of the old slide projector, all contributed to the uncomfortable warmth that smelled sweet and deliciously sordid.
The speaker clicked the remote lead and then he himself appeared on the wide screen, naked but for a pair of Y-fronts, spread-eagled on a bed pretending to be searching in his underwear for his fondly remembered organ. The speaker whose membership code name was 'Sir," was particularly popular at these get-togethers because he put so much work into his presentations. He was obviously a frustrated thespian, and there were so few outlets for works such as this.
"Naturally . . ." he went on, and to whistles from the audience, clicked the next slide. Here was a close-up of his hand holding his own insignificant penis. “. . . after the effort of searching for the animal, there was always the disappointment, the regrets, the memories. Would I never return to those dizzy heights of orgasmic greatness experienced in my school days? Would my Grecian javelin never fly again?"
One of the audience was so convulsed in laughter he almost choked himself on a cocktail sausage. A neighbour slapped him on the back, and the mood was lost for a moment as attention was diverted from the screen. But the next slide regained the rapt awe of everyone in the room.
"Only through the help of Anthony, my mathematics pupil, would I ever be sure." There were audible groans and sighs from around the room. On the screen was an angelic boy no older than nine. He was wearing a school uniform that was too small even for a child as young as he was.
"You dirty old bugger," came a voice.
"You lucky sod," came another. But there was complete attention to the screen and to the big-eyed blond boy who smiled from it, looking directly into the eyes of the eight men in the stuffy room.
To the unskilled novice watching the ensuing 24 slides, it may have appeared that young Anthony began by enjoying the play the old teacher and himself were acting out for the camera. But then there were expressions on the boy's face that suggested fear and eventually terror. But to most of the men in the room, there was no doubt that Anthony enjoyed every second of his time with Sir, and was a fine actor. There was a queue for the bathroom after that particular performance. For the postman it was already too late. He'd soiled himself where he sat, and apologized humbly to the host who grinned back at him.
The Boy Lovers of the United Kingdom Society—BLOUKS—had been arranging meetings such as this for the previous three years. It maintained a small membership because every application had to be checked thoroughly. There were far too many law enforcement agencies, too many tabloid newspapers, too many we-are-better-than-God child protection organizations trying to infiltrate these groups. To admit a ne
w member, there had to be no doubt in the minds of the committee that he was to be trusted. Every potential member had to be recommended by a present member, and even then there were endless security checks. The committee had the resources to know more about applicants than they knew about themselves.
The society's website contained nothing that could be called pornography. It was an academic forum for the ill-informed to learn that BLOUKS was not a paedophile or pederast ring, but rather a club through which boys who desperately needed love and intimacy from older gentlemen could express themselves. For interested observers there were scientific readings on the desires of young people and the need for father figures in their lives. There were historical data from apparently more enlightened times when young boys had unrestricted access to older men without interference from the law. After a few hours at the site, one could not fail to be impressed by the good intentions and sincerity of BLOUKS and its small membership of unattractive men.
When the academic gentlemen were all nicely wanked off and washed down and back in the stuffy living room, there was a general feeling that the host would have to produce something pretty special to top Sir's little drama with angel-faced Anthony. John had only attended one previous meeting, and his contribution then had been rather lame: downloads from the internet that anyone could have found, and that most of the members had already seen.
But he was a new member and just starting out. He hadn't had time to put anything together that first time he said, but he promised that this next one would be special. He'd even volunteered to host it at his own home. Members usually had a lot of material at their own places.
John, sweating a little and ruddy from the wine, had put a video cassette into the player. He was obviously nervous, but they all had been at first. He creaked the old desk lamp up to reflect off the peeling white ceiling of his living room. It allowed him to see grey images of all the men gathered at his house. He looked at them one by one and smiled. Some smiled back while others felt a little uncomfortable at leaving the womb of the audience, even through eye contact. John was a man who read people's eyes.
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