by J Peach
“You is so damn dramatic. Give me him and help Ace.” I took my son from him then went into the house to change him. Once we were in his room, I took off his bottoms and gagged. “Ugh, where yo daddy at?” A whine left my mouth as my stomach turned.
BJ laid there smiling hard with all eight of his teeth showing. Laughing, I changed his stanky butt, then picked my baby up. “You smell good now, don’t you?” I talked to my baby, laughing. “Give mommy kisses.” My lips puckered up. BJ grabbed my face and gave me a kiss. His little lips popped as he did.
“Where my kiss at?” Blaze asked from the door.
I looked at him and smiled. “Give mommy kisses.”
Blaze walked over to me and leaned down toward me. I dodged sideways and kissed my baby girl before looking to her dad. “I was talking to Brie not you.”
“Oh, it’s like that?” Blaze leaned down and kissed me. He stood up straight and looked at his son, smiling. “What up, man? You been good?” Blaze he held out his fist.
BJ little fist pounded his dads before he started reaching for him.
We swapped babies. I took my baby girl from him and kissed her fat cheeks.
Blaze was right when he said I was having twins. I was beyond surprised. Blaze was excited because he knew. He even had the nerve to call the doctor dumb as fuck for not listening to him.
The doctor went on to explain that BJ was hiding behind Brienna and their heart beats were in sync so there was no way to tell that it was another baby in my stomach.
Even though I was surprised and wasn’t expecting another baby, I couldn’t have been happier. I loved my twins to death and beyond.
Blaze DeShawn Carter Jr. aka, BJ and Brienna Alexis Carter aka Brie completed our dysfunctional family.
I honestly thought Blake wasn’t going to like the babies but he was the opposite. Blake was just as happy and he was a great big brother to the twins.
“Where y’all been at?” I asked him as he wrapped one arm around my shoulder.
“Brie and I had to do a little shopping.” He smiled a crocked smile.
The muscles in my face went straight. “What you get?”
“She picked it out, not me. What you mean? How you gon’ blame that on me. Brie said daddy that one.” Blaze explained before looking at his baby girl. “Didn’t you, Brie?”
Brienna’s arms went out for him to get her. She wrapped her arms around his neck and tried to push BJ off of him.
“Brie, you better stop it.” I gave her a stern voice. She was always doing him like that. Couldn’t nobody be on Blaze without her trying to fight them.
Her bottom lip quivered and her fat cheeks puffed up, her shoulders started to shake before she started crying.
“Peaches, I’mma beat yo ass.” Blaze snapped at me, pushing me away from him. “Sssh, it’s okay, Bri-Bri. Mommy gon’ make me kick her ass for yelling at my baby.” Blaze cooed.
“Really, Blaze?”
“Yeah, really. You ain’t gotda take that tone with her. Yo ass acting like she knows what she’s doing.” He fussed at me.
My mouth opened and then closed. “You better be glad you holding them.” I walked away from. “Gon’ fuss at me like I’m his damn kid. Boy,” I fussed as I walked out the back door.
“Auntie Peaches!” Keema yelled for me as I stepped outside.
“Hey baby, what’s up?” I picked her up giving her a big hug. Linnea was right behind her with her doll.
“Hey, Auntie Peaches,” Linnea spoke, giving me a hug. “Can we spend the night at your house and play with the babies?” she asked in her cute little voice.
“Hell no!” Blaze said from behind me. “No y’all can’t spend the night unless you sleep outside.” He shut it down quick. “Go find who brought you here and stay with ‘em.” He waved them off.
I loved my nieces as if they were my own but those two girls together were hell. I just couldn’t take it. The last time they stayed the night, one of them colored all over the walls and blamed Blake before saying the twins did it.
Ever since then, Blaze’s answer was hell no. When they asked me, I sent them his way. I was a sucker and would say yes but not no more.
“Blaze, don’t be mean.” I pretended to scowl him.
“Those two little girls are demons together. Hell no! I got a daughter now and they asses can’t be nowhere near her. Hell n’all.” His head shook as he held the kids.
I looked at Brienna play with his ear as she slowly started to fall asleep. My eyes then slid to Blake who had just pushed Keema down before taking Linnea’s baby doll. My eyes glanced to my youngest son who was eating his fist.
They all had Blaze flowing through them and he had the nerve, no the audacity to talk about somebodies kids?
“Did you forget how Blake was when he were younger than them? Look at the twins now. Dude, don’t say anything about nobodies kids when ours are just as bad. Give me her, she’s about to go to sleep.” I grabbed Brienna and her eyes open. She pulled away from me and turned more into her dad. “Forget you too, little girl. Come on, BJ.” He came to me with no problem. “Give mommy kiss.” He gave me a wet kiss. When he finished, I stuck my tongue out at Brienna.
She started crying as she reached for me. I laughed. “See what I mean? Give me kiss, Brie.” She gave me a kiss and then laid back on her dad.
Blaze’s arm went around my shoulders and he pulled me to him. “She acts just like you. Stuck up and spoiled.” He joked.
“I am not spoiled or stuck up.” My lips pursed together as I playfully rolled my eyes at him.
His head tilted to the side. Blaze’s smile slowly faded and he stared down at me for a long time not saying a word.
I didn’t know why but my cheeks turned hot and I looked away from him as that giddy feeling formed in the pit of my stomach. I glanced back at him and my eyes rolled. His facial expression didn’t change a bit. “What?”
“I love the fuck outda you, Peaches.” He told me with that same serious face.
I didn’t know why but it was something so different about the way he said that from the way he normally did. I didn’t know exactly what that something was but I was scared. Something wasn’t right. “B, I love you, too.” I pushed BJ up on my hip.
Blaze’s eyes slid to him then back to me. His eyes dropped for a second as he seemed to fade into thought.
“Bae, what’s wrong?” My hand caressed his forearm getting his attention.
“Ain’t shit wrong. I mean, I’m good. I love the fuck outda you, tho’. I mean that shit. I done told you this many of times before, but I don’t think I really knew what it meant or felt like until right now. Seeing all this shit right here,” his hands waved around us, “looking at my kids that you done gave me, you accepting my son and making him yours. You ain’t have to do that shit. It ain’t too many females out here that would have done half the shit you did or continued to ride with me through all this bullshit. Especially with you getting hurt behind my fuck ups. Most mothafuckas would’ve bounced a long time ago.
“When that shit happened with Le’Ron, you ain’t have to stick with me after that. You had no ties to me at all, but look at you Peaches, you’re still here. You done gave me two kids and never asked for shit since we’ve been together. You never asked me for shit, ever. This been fuckin’ with me hard lately because it seem like I’m the one always asking and asking for shit. I can’t remember one time you actually told me no and if you did yo ass never stuck to it. I remember you telling at the beach, How do you know what place is for you if you never left where you’re from?—?” And “Don’t claim what’s not for you when you haven’t given any place a chance.
“True to fact, I never gave nothing a chance because I didn’t care about shit else. A hood is what I am or was. I never expected to be no damn father. Hell, I didn’t know what it meant to be a dad or a family man because I never had that. Regardless of not knowing, I’m finding myself not wanting to be anything but a family nigga. Shid, I never expected to l
ive this long and I think if it wasn’t for you, I wouldn’t have.
“Now what I’mma do is give you the chance to ask me for anything, anything you want and if I can I promise on my life, I’mma give it to you. Think about it now. I done put you through a lot of shit. If you could ask me for anything, what would it be?” His fingers stroked the back of my head as his face lowered, coming to mine.
I stood on my tip toes, kissing him. It never failed how random Blaze would be and leave me completely speechless. I didn’t know how to respond.
Blaze’s hand tightened in my hair and he pulled back, laying his forehead against mine.
My head tilted and my lips played with his. I couldn’t help how he made me feel. I was in love, helplessly. And regardless of what I’d been through while dealing with him, I wouldn’t change it for the world because in the end it gave me everything I always wanted.
He had given me my three babies and I had him. I couldn’t ask for anything else.
“Peaches, you better stop before you start some shit.” He bit at my top lip then sucked on my bottom.
I smiled at him before kissing him again.
“Tell me what you want. Price don’t matter.”
My eyes rolled up in my head at that. “Blaze, what I wanted you couldn’t buy me. And I couldn’t tell you what I wanted because it wouldn’t have been real at the time. Now it is and I have everything I want and need.”
His brow raised. “What’s that?”
My smile widened. “Baby, all I wanted was you in the beginning. Now I have you and three beautiful, heathy kids. I have everything I need and you’ve given that to me.” My hand ran over Brienna’s ponytails as I kissed Blaze Jr. on the head. I looked over at Blake and then back to him, smiling. “You, Blake, BJ and Brie are all I want and need. I’m happy,” I told him honestly. I couldn’t ask for anything else.
“That’s it? You don’t want to move from Gary? Move to a bigger house? You don’t want a new car? Nothing? Just us?” He questioned with a disbelieving stare.
I laughed as my head nodded. “Yes, none of that matters to me. Just y’all.”
“I love the fuck outda you, Peaches.” He laughed before he kissed me.
“I love you too, Blaze,” I laughed again but harder. His reaction was too funny. It was like he was expecting me to say something else instead of what I said.
“Peaches, marry me.”
I couldn’t stop myself from laughing.
Blaze stopped laughing. “I’m dead ass serious, Peaches. Marry me.”
My laughter died down, only little chuckles left my mouth as I took in his serious expression.
“What?” The smile on my face slowly left as his words started to settle.
“Peaches Monique Johnson, will you marry me?” He repeated.
I looked around the backyard to see everyone looking at us. But I just didn’t know. I had to admit I was hella slow sometimes but only because I never knew when it came to Blaze. He was so random at times. I didn’t know when to take him serious.
I leaned closer to him. “Blaze, I don’t know if you’re being serious or playing right now. So if you’re not serious, stop please.” I whispered to him.
That made him bark out a laugh. “Baby girl, I’m dead ass serious right now. I have never been so serious in my life. You said all you wanted was me and the kids. The kids already yours, now I’m giving you me. This yo shit, remember?” He reached in his pocket and pulled out a box then opened it. “Will you marry me?”
He was serious? Oh, my God! “You’re serious?” My eyes were wide as I stared up at him, shocked.
He thought that was funny. “Yes, dead serious. You gon’ marry me or not?”
I laughed out an excited squeak. “Yes, yes! Oh, my God.” I didn’t even look at the ring as I pulled him to me. “You’re serious.”
“Yeah.”
I looked at my girls and we started screaming. I didn’t know what else to do besides that. I never expected Blaze to ever ask me that question.
“Peaches, where you going?” Blaze pulled me back to him.
“I gotda tell the girls.” I told him excitedly.
“They heard me plus they’re about to watch.” He laughed at me.
“Watch what?”
He ignored me at first as he waved Ebony and Kim over. “Get them,” he handed Ebony Brienna.
Kimmy grabbed BJ from me.
“Watch what, Blaze?” I asked him as he pulled me to him again.
“Us getting married.”
I’m sure my confusion showed on my face. “When?”
“Right now. What’s a better time or place to get married besides right here with our friends and family?”
“Are you serious?”
“Yes, Peaches, I’m serious.” He laughed again.
I looked down at my yellow and purple sundress. “Okay. Wait! I don’t have a ring.”
“Don’t worry about that. I told you we went shopping earlier.” He grabbed my hand and brought me to the pool. “Reverend James,” Blaze called to an older man I hadn’t noticed sitting at the table until now.
Where the hell did he come from? I glanced at Blaze. How long had he been planning this? And on the twins’ birthday, no less. “Blaze, when did you plan this?” I whispered to him.
“Yesterday. I woke up that morning thinking about it. And figured why not. Neither of us is going anywhere, time has proven that. I’m in it for the long haul. Are you?”
“Why would you ask me that stupid question? Yes I am.” I stood on my tip toes and kissed him.
“Let’s do this, then.” Blaze beckoned the man over. “Yo, Blake come on. You my best man.”
Blake jogged over to us. “You’re a Carter, now we are officially complete.” He hugged me.
I laughed at Blake as I hugged him tightly. That was what he wanted, he told me that a while ago.
Reverend James stood before us and started. “Dearly beloved, we are gather here today…”
***
Once the ceremony was over the party was in full swing. Blaze and I had the twins and Blake in the middle of the pool, dancing on the plastic floor as the water flashed different colors beneath us. We laughed and danced all night long with our friends standing around dancing with us.
I must admit we had been through so much during the past few years we’d been together. It was times I wanted to say forget it and walk away completely with no regrets. But I could never seem to stick with it.
Blaze was most definitely bad for me but he was also my perfect match. I couldn’t have asked for a better soulmate or go through hell with any other person besides him.
We were both broken at one point in time and it took us finding each other to mend our pieces perfectly back together.
Blaze was my everything. He made me complete as I had done him.
I stared at him and my kids, I couldn’t help but laugh as I remembered the times we fought constantly and the time I told him I would never date him because of who he was, a hood.
Now look at us. The both of us were head over heels in love, grown with three amazing kids and for once in our lives, carefree.
For the life of me, I couldn’t find an ounce of regret from the time I had meet him to now. I wouldn’t had done anything differently.
I sat BJ down and wrapped my arms around Blaze’s waist. I stood on my tip toes, smiling hard and wide, kissing him through my smile.
He picked me up and I laughed, wrapping my arms around his neck and my legs at his waist.
“Blaze De’Shawn Carter Sr., I love you so much.”
“Peaches Monique Carter, I love you with everything that’s me.” His hands tangled into my head and he kissed me deeply.
I never knew the meaning of A Dangerous Love until I fell in love with Blaze. It took everything I went through to make me truly understand the price of loving a hood.
With the cheating, beatings, losing my baby, having my house blown into pieces, nearly losing my husband and ha
ving my son witness such brutality was a lot to go through, but I still gained so much more.
My wonderful life and beautiful family.
Now I could live, love hard and cherish every waking moment with my kids and husband with no regrets.
The price of A Dangerous Love was so well worth it in my eyes.
The End!
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