by Claire Adams
“I own a clothing store,” I write. “The guy’s a contractor.”
I just close my eyes and wait.
My mom’s still got the TV blaring like she used to and my dad’s already in bed, though how he can sleep with that racket, I’ve never known.
A new message comes in, saying, “They’re different kinds of work, but I bet the basic principles are close enough that he could help you. Why don’t you ask him?”
“Maybe I will,” I write, “but have kind of a weird relationship. Things are starting to even out, but he doesn’t work for me anymore.”
I sit up and look back toward the closet and decide that tonight’s the night I open that door again and pack whatever I find in the car.
This is something I’ve done every time I’ve come home and stayed in this room, but I already know that the shot of courage is not going to last.
I lie back down and wait for the beep.
“Do you have his number?” he writes after a few minutes.
“Yeah,” I write, “well, his work number anyway, but he’s never answered it. I don’t even know if it’s a working number to tell you the truth.”
After a minute, another message comes in, “Well, now that he’s not working for you anymore, he might be more willing to answer that phone. Try giving him a call.”
He has a point.
Stupid as it is that Eric didn’t answer his work number—granted, I only ever called it while he was working on the other side of the store—he’s got to be hoping for someone to call, so I find the number and press send.
“Hello?”
“Hey Eric, this is Jessica from Lady Bits,” I start.
“Oh, hey there,” he says. “What’s up?”
“Hey, I know you’re probably really busy and everything, but I was wondering if you might be able to point me in the right direction on something.”
“What’s that?” he asks.
“I’ve decided to take your advice and move up some of my people. The problem is—”
“You’ve never trained a manager before and you’re worried that if you screw it up, all of your worst fears will come true?” he asks.
“Something like that,” I answer.
“Well, I am very busy,” he says over the unmistakable sound of an aluminum can hissing as it’s cracked open, “but I might be able to help. When did you want to get together?”
“Oh, no,” I laugh. “I was thinking more of a phone mentorship or something like that.”
“A phone mentorship?” he asks.
“Yeah,” I answer. “You know, if I get into a training situation where I don’t know what to do, I give you a call.”
“The problem with that is that you’re assuming you already know the proper way to train a manager in the first place. Did you take any business courses?”
“Yeah,” I answer, “but they only went over general theory.”
“All right,” he says. “I’ll meet you at the shop when you open tomorrow.”
He hangs up before I can tell him that tomorrow, we’re closed.
I try calling him back, but the number just goes straight to voicemail.
I can’t believe this is the guy that I’m really going to for advice on higher training for my employees.
This is going to be a disaster.
Chapter Ten
Threading the Needle
Eric
I’m still not sure if Jessica would slap me or hug me if she found out I’m the one she’s been texting back and forth, but I really don’t think that now is the time to find that out. I’m totally in to her after these messages and don’t want to fuck it up so soon.
First, I’ve got to charm her into the realization that I’m not nearly as despicable a person as she thinks I am.
This is not going to be easy.
“Hey,” I say with a smile as she pulls up in front of the store. “Ready to get to work?”
“We’re closed today,” she tells me.
“Oh, right,” I answer, putting my palm against my forehead. “I totally forgot about that.”
“Yeah,” she says.
“Why didn’t you call?” I ask.
Okay, that one was just because I am a bit of a despicable person.
“I tried to, but—”
She’s already flustered, but I interrupt her anyway. “It’s all right,” I tell her. “You and I can discuss the Eric Dawson approach to making great employees into great employees who can carry a little bit more of the burden so I, or in this case, you, don’t have to work quite so hard—trademark pending.”
“That’s quite a title,” she says, shaking her head.
She’s still guarded with the smile, but she’s already loosened up dramatically over where she was only a couple of days ago.
“All right,” I start again, “how did you tell your employee or employees that you were giving them a promotion?”
She hesitates.
“You did tell someone that they’re getting a promotion, right?” I ask.
“I just decided on it last night,” she says. “I haven’t really had the time to talk to anyone about it.”
“All right,” I say. “I can understand that. Since the store’s not opening today, are you hungry?”
“I ate before I came,” she answers.
“Can we talk in your office?” I ask.
She pulls the keys from her pocket and opens the door, quickly running over to the security system’s keypad on the wall. Her sexy ass bounces the entire way and I can only imagine how fantastic it would be to bend her over and give her the D.
“Who’s not open on a Saturday?” I ask.
“We’re not,” she answers as she puts in her code. “I thought you would have noticed that by now.”
“I just thought you didn’t want us working during your busiest day of the week,” I laugh. “Is that something you’re going to be looking to change when you’ve got a manager or two to take some of the heat off of you?”
“I don’t know,” she says. “I’ll think about it.”
This is going to be harder than I thought.
I catch up with her and we go to her office.
“You can leave the door open,” she says as I instinctually go to close it.
“Right,” I chuckle. “I’m just so used to you calling me in here to yell at me that I—”
“You’re usually the one who wants to come in here and yell at me!” she protests.
I hold up my hands and, smiling, I say, “Calm down. It was just a joke.” I rub my hands together and ask, “So, where would you like to start?”
“Well, I guess I’d just like to know where I should start,” she says. “I’ve trained cashiers and salespeople, but never anyone with the kind of responsibility I’m looking for.”
“You know, I’m sorry, but would you like to go get some coffee?” I ask. “I’ve gotten into the habit of sleeping in on Saturdays, and I’m having a hell of a time keeping my eyes open.”
“There’s coffee in the break room,” she says.
“You have a break room?”
“It’s for employees only,” she quips, the hint of a smile creeping up one side of her face.
I get coffee and the morning goes on. As capable as she is and as willing as she keeps saying she’s become to start handing off some of her day-to-day duties, she’s really fighting me on just about everything.
Finally, it gets to the point that we’re not going to make any progress whatsoever until she learns that she can trust people that she employs. As I’m technically an employee right now, although we never really got around to discussing whether there would or wouldn’t be payment, I’m ready to do my part to help.
“Do you know what a trust fall is?” I ask.
“Kind of,” she answers. “I mean, I do, I’ve just never done one. I didn’t get that far in the cheer auditions.”
“You were a cheerleader?” I ask.
“No,” she says, “I just told yo
u that I didn’t get that far. You really don’t listen very well, do you?”
“What?”
She clenches her jaw.
She doesn’t think I’m being anywhere near as charming as I so obviously am.
“All right,” I tell her, “the process is simple. You stand with your back to me and on the count of three, simply fall backward.”
“You’re going to catch me, though, right?” she asks.
“Of course I’m going to catch you,” I tell her. “It’s not a breaking trust fall.”
“Okay,” she says, obviously trying to gear herself up for the difficult task of believing that I’m not just trying to get her to fall on her ass. “Where should we do this?”
“We can do it here,” I tell her. “It really doesn’t matter so long as we both have room to stand and you have room to fall.”
“Let’s not do it in here,” she says. “The floor’s slippery and I can just see you losing your balance and breaking a hip or something, and I’m really not sure if my insurance covers trust falls.”
“Whatever,” I tell her. “Let’s go to a carpeted area then, and we can do it there. It’s really not that big a deal. I’m not going to let you fall too far before I catch you. It’s just about going just past that point where you could catch yourself and trusting that I’m behind you and that I don’t want to see you get hurt.”
We walk out onto the sales floor and she spends five minutes trying to find the perfect spot despite my assurances that it really doesn’t matter where we do it.
“Okay,” she says. “We can do it here. You’re going to catch me, right?”
“I don’t know what kind of friends you have, but yes, I’m really going to catch you,” I tell her.
“That’s the problem,” she says, turning her back toward me. “I was never really that good at making friends.”
“That’s because you don’t know how to do a trust fall,” I tell her. “Now, cross your arms and on the count of three—”
“Who’s counting?” she asks. “Am I counting or are you counting?”
“I’m counting,” I tell her. “If I let you count, we’d be here all day.”
“You’re going to catch me, though, right?”
“If you ask me that again, I might just change my mind and not catch you,” I tell her. “Now, one… two… three.”
She just stands there.
“Three,” I repeat.
She sways back a little, but quickly rights herself.
“Should we do it here?” she asks. “It might be better over—”
“We’ve got space to do it and carpeted floor,” I tell her. “Just go. One, two, three.”
Nothing.
“You’re not really filling me with confidence here,” I tell her.
“Why are you helping me?” she asks.
“What do you mean?” I return. “You asked me to.”
“Yeah, but what are you getting out of this? I can give you some money for your time, but it’s probably not going to be anywhere near what you were making with the remodel and everything.”
“It came out great, though, didn’t it?” I ask. “Actually, I’ll tell you what.”
“What?” she asks.
“These can work a lot better if you’re falling from a higher place than where I’m standing, so why don’t we do it over in the plus department. You can stand on the bottom stair and I’ll stand on the low floor. It’ll give you a little more time to fall, but I’ll still be there to catch you,” I propose.
“Yeah, I don’t know about that,” she says. “I think we should just start with something smaller before we—”
“Oh, come on,” I start. “If anything, that extra little bit of backward momentum will just help you learn to trust even faster.”
I don’t know it yet, but I’m about to come to regret those words.
“All right,” she says. “We’ll do it there, but you’ve got to swear that you’re going to catch me.”
“You know, this really shouldn’t be the most difficult part of the exercise,” I tell her and start walking over to the sunken floor space.
We get there and she positions herself, rather obsessively, on the bottom step.
“You’re going to—”
“Yes!” I interrupt. “I’m going to catch you. Just go: one, two, three.”
The first problem is that I hadn’t expected her to actually do it this time.
The second problem is that, as soon as she feels herself losing her balance, her arms start flailing wildly about her.
Those two problems add up to the back of her hand smacking me hard across the face as I’m trying to catch her. My eyes close on their own with the impact, but I still manage to put my arms out well enough to catch her, although things don’t go quite as planned after that.
She hits against my body while I’m still trying to process my brand new injury and before I can get my eyes open again, we’re both falling backward onto the floor below.
On the positive side of things, I do eventually break her fall. On the negative side of things, due to our respective positioning, I get a pretty solid shot to the fellas when we land and it’s a beautiful fucking sight.
“You said you were going to catch me!” she shouts as she springs to her feet.
I would love to offer a response, but as I’m currently in the fetal position, rocking back and forth with one hand over my eye and the other covering my junk, there’s not much I can physically manage to add to the conversation.
“Shit,” she says. “Are you okay?”
Yep, still can’t answer.
I take a breath and try to be a man about it, but the fact that I took a shot to the jewels kind of makes this the only manly thing I can do in this situation.
“Oh, I didn’t do that, did I?” she asks.
“No,” I said. “I figured it would be a great idea to squash an incredibly sensitive part of my anatomy after strategically placing my face where the back of your hand could reach it.”
“Well you don’t have to be a jerk about it,” she says, and I try to laugh, but it just comes out as a gasp for air.
After a minute or so, I stop writhing and collect myself. It takes me another minute or two before I can get off the floor, and even then, it’s with plenty of her help.
“I think we’ve got a little bit of work to do,” I tell her.
“Maybe we should just give up. Maybe I’m just not the kind of person that can trust someone else is going to be there for me.”
Fixing her trust issues was supposed to be like constructing something but this was harder.
“I don’t believe that,” I tell her.
“It’s true,” she says. “This is stupid. I should just give up.”
“I’ll tell you what,” I say, still hunched forward, my hands on my upper thighs, “why don’t we change spots.”
“You’re bigger than me,” she says. “I don’t think I could catch you.”
“We’ll do it on the flat ground,” I tell her. “Stand just a foot or two behind me and just catch me when I start to tip. If nothing else, that’ll teach you that you can be a part of a trusting relationship.”
The look on her face tells me that I wasn’t particularly clear with that explanation.
“What I mean by that,” I explain, “is that I’ll trust you to catch me. You, I have no doubt, are going to prove yourself worthy of that trust. That’s what I meant by trusting relationship. This might be an easier place to start, as I know you trust your own ability.”
She looks at the ground, then at me, then briefly at my crotch, although I have no illusions that there’s any sexual context to the glance.
“Okay,” she says. “Are you ready or do you need another minute?”
After a glass of water and some pacing, I manage to get myself in a somewhat more upright position and we get in our places.
“You do the count,” I tell her.
“All right,” she says. “O
ne, two, three.”
Against my better judgment in this scenario, I fall backward and she easily stops me from falling to the ground.
“Oh, well if I knew it was that easy,” she says as I get my feet back underneath the rest of my body, “I wouldn’t have freaked out when you tried to catch me.”
“In my defense,” I tell her, “even after the smack in the face, I did still catch you. Do you think you’re ready for this?”
“Yeah,” she says. “I can do this.”
“All right,” I tell her. “We’re going to start you on the flat floor this time just so you can get used to it and this time—”
“Keep my arms folded,” she says. “I got it. Sorry about that.”
“It’s okay,” I tell her, swallowing all of the many parts of myself that want to stay angry at her for inflicting such a massive dose of pain.
She gets into position and I start the count, “One, two, three.”
Jessica falls backward and, managing to keep her hands at least next to her body this time, I catch her easily.
“Whoa, that was cool,” she says. “Can we do that again?”
I snicker, “Sure. Do you want to try it from the step or do you want to do another one from the floor?”
“The floor,” she says. “I’m still kind of nervous.”
We do it again and this time she even manages to keep her hands crossed over her chest. One more time and Jessica’s actually starting to get comfortable doing it. And I’m getting comfortable feeling her body.
Finally, she says she’s ready to try it from the bottom stair.
“All right,” I tell her. “Now, what’s the point of this exercise?”
“To trust you,” she says.
Technically, it’s to show her the benefits of being able to trust, period, but it’s kind of nice to hear the words “trust” and “you” coming from her after having the opposite be the rule for most of the time we’ve known each other.
I think I had a game plan at some point before we started this, but that went out the window when my boys got the pinch of doom. Since then, my brain’s gotten a little hazy.
I do know that I was going to try to work the fact that I’m the one that she’s been sending messages to into the conversation at some point today, but given the fact that she’s only now learning to trust me at all, I’d say it’s worth saving for another lesson.