by Alex Barclay
‘I would say so. Yes. If you can decipher it.’
Danny looked up from his notebook. ‘How do you think her injury might have happened?’
‘Her medical records are confidential, as you can appreciate. Unless Mary gives you permission to access them. Or her guardian does.’
‘Who’s her guardian?’
‘Her older brother, David Burig.’
‘We’ll get his details from you, if that’s OK,’ said Joe.
‘Sure,’ said Julia. ‘Mary’s lucky to have David. There’s not a lot of support out there for people with a TBI. Places like Colt-Embry are not common. Most of the time, people are released from hospital into rehab and after that, they’re on their own, back home expected to function as they did before. It’s crazy. And a lot of people are not covered to stay in a place like this. If they don’t have the right insurance, they better have a wealthy family. Can you imagine? Just to be able to live normally? It’s crazy. And because a lot of people physically look the same as they did before the injury, people expect them to act “normally” and when they don’t, they can’t handle it. It’s a very hard thing for everyone to have to adjust to.’
‘How does Mary’s injury affect her, like day to day?’ said Joe.
‘Mary suffered right temporal lobe damage. The temporal lobe is all about memory, emotional stability, reading social cues – crucial parts of everyday life,’ said Julia. ‘Someone who’s had the right side damaged, like Mary, would have problems interpreting facial expressions, so would find it hard to know if you’re angry, sad, etc. Also there would be tone-of-voice issues – their own speech patterns are quite flat and also, they won’t recognize, for example, sarcasm in your tone. They’re not great with humor. Anything non-verbal: faces, music, shapes – she’ll have a problem with. A lot of Mary’s long-term memory is intact. Her short-term memory is where she has difficulties. For example, she may remember someone visiting her apartment this morning, but she may not remember why.’
‘What about all her writing?’ said Joe.
‘That’s because she has temporal lobe epilepsy and what can go along with that is hypergraphia. Basically, she is compelled to write. She can’t help herself. The length of what she writes can vary, so can the quality. Dostoevsky was hypergraphic. Poe was. And Lewis Carroll – you know Alice in Wonderland? Apparently the inspiration came from what happens in the aura part of a seizure when objects will seem to be getting bigger or smaller. You can go into Mary’s room and find her writings everywhere. She likes fancy notepaper, so she’s got stacks of that. She’s written on toilet paper, the back of receipts, cereal boxes, even the wall once.’ She smiled.
‘Do you read what she writes?’
‘No. Just because Mary has a brain injury doesn’t mean we can all waltz right in there and invade her privacy. She has an apartment, it’s her space, what she does there is her business. I mean, within reason. Obviously, we need to keep an eye on things.’
‘Why do you think she’s writing to us?’
‘I don’t know. You can ask Mary. I told her you were coming in. It really distressed her, just so you know. She’s been a little at sea, because her TSS was away.’
‘TSS?’ said Joe.
‘Sorry – that’s Therapeutic Support Staff. Her name is Magda Oleszak, but she’s been on vacation. Someone else was filling in, which always unsettles Mary.’
‘OK,’ said Joe. ‘We’ll bear that in mind. Back to why Mary got in contact with us …’
‘Right. It may be she saw you on the news, in the newspaper. It’s common that someone like Mary might feel responsible for every ill in the world. You and I could watch a news report on a murder or a natural disaster and feel terrible for the victims and their family, while Mary might feel genuine guilt and wish she could do something about it. The religious element to her condition taps into this too. She wants to reach out, help people. People with brain injuries can be very me-centric. Mary is no different. But she is also concerned with other people’s welfare in her own way. She’s very kind to the other clients here.’
‘Is Mary on any medication?’ said Joe.
‘As usual, I’m torn here, with what I can reveal to you.’ She sighed. ‘But I want to help. Let me check the file.’ She looked through it. ‘When she got here, Mary was taking 300mg of Dilantin – an anti-seizure medication – but that didn’t agree with her. So the doctors moved her over to 500 mg of Sodium Valproate three times a day, but her hair started to thin out. When she started losing patches of it, she was very upset, so she stopped all medication. And she was fine. Up until three months ago, when she had the first seizure.’
‘We received the first letter a month ago.’
‘Yes. And she’s had more seizures since then.’
There was a knock on the door.
‘Yes,’ said Julia. ‘This will be Mary,’ she said to them. ‘Come in, Mary.’
Mary Burig squeezed through the tiny gap she made for herself in the door and closed it behind her. She was dressed in a pale pink oversized cardigan, a blue silk tank, jeans and flip-flops. With her head bowed, her hair – black and shiny, parted in the center – hung down in front of her face.
‘Hi Mary,’ said Julia. ‘Come on in. Sit down.’
Mary raised her head slowly and looked first at Danny. Something caught in his chest.
‘Hi Mary,’ said Joe. ‘I’m Detective Joe Lucchesi.’
‘Oh, hi,’ she said, reaching out to shake his hand.
‘Detective Danny Markey,’ said Danny, half standing.
‘Hi.’
‘Take a seat, Mary,’ said Julia.
‘We met Stanley Frayte earlier,’ said Joe. ‘He was mailing a letter for you. We have your letters here. Did you write these?’
‘Yes.’ She frowned. ‘How many do you have there?’
‘Three,’ said Joe.
‘But I sent you fifteen.’
‘Fifteen,’ said Danny. ‘You’ve been busy.’
She smiled. ‘Can I see the one you have there?’
Mary took the plastic bag with the napkin and stared down at it, slowly reading through it, her head bent, her hair falling down to cover her cheeks. She shifted in the chair, pushing her feet back underneath it, crossing her legs at the ankles. Several minutes passed. Joe looked towards Julia Embry who gave a tiny shrug. He gave her a small smile and waited. Lights flashed across the bottom of Julia’s phone. Her focus stayed on Mary, whose hair was now covering most of her face, until she tucked one side of it back behind her ear and they could all see the tears streaming down her face. When she looked at Julia and then Joe, the pale eyes that had seemed so shining and clear were now dark with fear and confusion.
‘Mary, does this letter mean anything to you?’ said Joe.
‘No,’ she said. ‘I’m sorry.’
FIFTEEN
Someone had brought Stanley Frayte a Coke and some chocolate. The can was crushed as small as it could go and the chocolate wrapper was twisted tightly and rammed into the hole. He jumped when Danny and Joe walked back in.
‘OK, Stanley, we spoke with Mary’ said Joe. ‘She’s confirmed what you told us. So we’re done here for now. You can go home.’
‘Thank you,’ said Stan.
‘Hey, why don’t we give you a ride?’ said Joe.
‘You sure?’ said Stan.
‘Not a problem,’ said Joe. ‘Back to Tuckahoe?’
‘No. My van’s at the clinic.’
‘Sure, OK.’
Joe had asked a lot of people if they wanted a ride home after spending hours grilling them in a small interview room. They often said yes because they felt it was a test. Maybe if they said no, it would be like they had something to hide. Sometimes they said no because, innocent or guilty, they just wanted to get the hell out of the station house. It looked like Stan thought he was passing a test. When they got to the car, he glanced at the milkshake stain on the hood.
‘Don’t ask,’ said Joe, throwing Danny the key
s.
They got in and drove the short journey to 21st Street. Joe turned in his seat to talk to Stan.
‘So how long you been an electrician?’
‘Eight years,’ said Stan.
‘Really? You like it?’
‘Yeah,’ said Stan, ‘yeah I do.’
‘What did you do before that?’
‘I drove a truck.’
‘My father was a truck driver. What was your route?’
‘I delivered a lot to Riker’s Island.’
‘No shit. With who?’
‘Barbizan Trucking.’
‘Did you give it up because of all the Frayte jokes?’
Stanley smiled. ‘Something like that.’
They pulled up outside the clinic.
‘Here,’ said Joe. ‘Here’s my card. If you think of anything else or if you need anything, let me know.’
‘Sure,’ said Stan. ‘Thanks for the ride.’
‘Thanks for your help today.’
Stan walked over to the van. In the rearview mirror, Joe could see Julia Embry standing at the front door, waving to Stan to come in.
‘Your father’s a truck driver,’ said Danny, taking a right out of the clinic. ‘How many jobs have you given Giulio over the years?’
‘Hey, it’s the only time I get to see him as a regular guy,’ said Joe.
‘Jesus, you’re cruel.’
‘So what do we make of Miss Mary?’ said Joe.
‘Those eyes,’ said Danny.
‘Mary’s?’
‘Yeah. They’re like those dogs. What are they called? Those wolfy dogs.’
‘Huskies.’
‘Yes. That’s it.’
‘Down, boy.’
‘It’s just her eyes I’m talking about. You gotta admit, they were really something.’
‘Yeah.’
‘I mean, not that the rest of her …’
‘You’re not right, Danny. The girl looks like she needs to be wrapped up in cotton wool and, I don’t know … let nowhere near you, that’s for sure.’
David Burig sat on a short wooden bench in the grounds of Colt-Embry. Mary was beside him, facing him, her legs curled under her body. Her eyes were red and tired.
‘Mary, Mary, Mary,’ said David. ‘What am I going to do with you?’
‘Go to a movie?’ she said.
David smiled and hugged her. ‘Sending letters to the cops. You really thought you could help them.’
He could feel her nod against his chest.
‘You have a good heart,’ he said, rubbing her hair. ‘Remember the little kid around the corner who cried all the time and I used to say to him, “would an ice-cream make it better?” and he’d say, “yes” and I’d say, “well, when you’re at the store, will you get me one too?” Your little face – you’d laugh, but you felt so bad for him at the same time.’
She smiled. ‘I remember him. You were so mean.’
David pulled her away gently and looked at her. ‘Do you want to talk about these things? I don’t know if you do. I don’t know if I’m upsetting you.’
‘I do,’ said Mary. ‘Because I remember them. They mean that I had a good life. And people loved me. And I did things myself.’ She stared down at the ground. ‘I know I’m not intelligent any more.’
‘God, that’s heartbreaking,’ said David.
‘But it’s the truth,’ said Mary.
‘Look at you,’ he said, ‘you’re just so pretty and you look …’ He trailed off. ‘You made me laugh so much, Mare.’
‘And I don’t any more.’
‘Don’t say that. You do make me laugh. You cheer me up. You remind me that the world is good and pure …’ He stopped, because sometimes she reminded him that the world was a terrible place.
‘Look at your shirt,’ she said.
He looked down. ‘What?’
‘It’s shaking. Is your heart beating really fast?’ She frowned and reached out her hand.
‘No,’ he said, quickly taking hold of it. ‘That’s just the breeze.’ He smiled.
Mary looked at him. ‘Do you get tired of visiting me?’
‘No, no, no,’ said David. ‘Please don’t tell me you think that. It’s you and me, Mary. It always was. And always will be, OK?’
She nodded. ‘Thanks.’ She paused. ‘I’m sorry about the letters.’
Joe and Danny were pulling up at the car wash on Columbus Avenue when Joe’s phone rang. He pulled it out and flipped it open.
‘Joe? It’s Rencher. This Mary Burig broad? She was admitted to Downtown Hospital nine months ago, GSW to the head from …’ he paused, ‘… a twenty-two caliber automatic.’
Julia Embry had been paged to reception in the main clinic by the time Joe and Danny arrived back. She leaned over the desk to the receptionist. ‘Send Magda to the coffee shop when she comes in. Thank you.’
They took a quiet table in the corner and got coffee.
‘I’m sure you know every shooting is reported to the police in the ER,’ said Joe ’so when we ran Mary’s name, it came up.’
Julia nodded. ‘I didn’t know if it was relevant.’
‘I don’t know if you’ve been watching the news or reading the papers, but The Caller is killing his victims with a similar weapon …’
‘Oh my God,’ said Julia.
Joe nodded. ‘It’s looking like Mary could possibly have been a victim.’
‘But weren’t the victims all male?’
‘So far, yes,’ said Joe. ‘But it’s too much of a coincidence that Mary has been sending in these letters, she seems to have some information about the crimes and now she has an injury just like the other victims.’
‘I suppose you need to speak with her again.’
‘Yes,’ said Joe. ‘How was she when we left?’
‘She was down, frustrated that she couldn’t help. And scared. She’s back at her apartment now. I can take you over there.’
‘We don’t want to do anything to upset Mary,’ said Danny. ‘We just think there might be more information there that could be useful. If we can jog her memory in any way …’
‘OK. First, you can speak with Magda. Here she is. I called her when all this happened with Stanley earlier. She said she needed to come in.’
Magda walked towards them with a blue canvas tote bag clutched to her stomach.
‘Hello, detectives. My name is Magda Oleszak, Mary Burig’s support worker.’
She took a seat in front of them and pulled the bag onto her lap.
‘Hi,’ said Joe. ‘How you doing?’
‘Here,’ she said, reaching in, taking out a large brown envelope. ‘These are from Mary.’
‘She asked you to give this to us?’ said Joe, taking the envelope.
Magda shook her head. ‘No. I mail letters for her sometimes. But she writes so many I can’t mail all of them. Like the one she wrote to welcome the new Pope. Or the ones to you. She saw the news conference. Lots of people saw it, but they don’t send you letters. When I came back from Poland, I heard she told you she mailed you fifteen letters. She didn’t. She has problems with her memory. But she did write these other things that I can give you now. She writes sometimes before she has a seizure. Stan will tell you that. He arrived one day after she had a seizure and her papers were on the floor all around her.’
As Joe sliced through the envelope, the contents spilled out: receipts, Post-Its, strips of newspaper margins, toilet paper, magazines, floral notelets, Rolodex pages, greeting cards, the pale cream interiors of cereal boxes. Every surface Mary could have found to write on, was covered with text and stuffed into envelopes.
‘It was distressing for her,’ said Magda. ‘Mary tries to make sense of what she has written and she can’t. Not all of it. I see her crying, I see how I can make that go away and I do it. I take these writings away. For her. Stan did not know this. So he mailed those letters to you. And now …’ She shrugged. ‘You can make no sense of them too.’
‘Have you read
through these again?’ said Joe.
‘I never read them the first time,’ said Magda. ‘I still don’t like reading in English.’
‘Does anyone mind if I take a look at her letters?’ said Julia.
Joe handed them to her.
‘Hmm,’ she said. ‘I can see how these could be difficult to understand. Mary’s thought patterns are disassociated – you can tell from how she’s written all this. It probably made sense to her at the time but the order is all out of whack.’
‘There’s a lot there to take in,’ said Joe.
‘Don’t forget Mary’s long-term memory is strong,’ said Julia. ‘It’s very hard for her that, since the attack, she has difficulty forming new memories. She’s aware that she can’t do everything she used to be able to do. I wish I could be of more help, but ultimately, only you know what you’re looking for. The best I can say is to scrutinize these again and see is there anything that means anything to your investigation. To me, Mary talking about her swimming classes in Astoria Park is no big deal, but if you knew the killer swims fifty lengths a day there, then that could be important.’
‘I looked at some of the drawings,’ said Magda, shrugging. ‘But, no. They’re weird.’ She pointed to the cereal box. ‘On there.’
Joe flipped over the box and saw angry black mouths staring back at him, some of them big, some of them small, all of them wide open with ragged teeth. Joe passed it to Danny.
‘Did she talk to you about this one?’
Magda shook her head. ‘This was after a seizure. I found it on her writing desk. I can’t show her that. It’s too creepy.’
Danny shrugged. ‘Thank you for bringing these to our attention. We’ll take a look at all this, it might not mean anything, but we’ve got to check everything out.’
‘Yes. Probably nothing,’ said Magda. ‘But you’re here now, so maybe we could go and see if Mary can help you.’
‘If you don’t mind,’ said Julia. ‘I’ll leave you to it. We’re in the process of setting up a second clinic upstate and I’m under a lot of pressure.’
‘That’s not a problem,’ said Joe.
* * *
Mary sat on the corner of her bed with the pages spread out in front of her. Magda sat beside her with a hand on her arm. Joe and Danny stood beside her. She had been this way for fifteen minutes. No-one spoke.