Dan shook his head and turned away. Over his shoulder, he said, “Talk to you later, McKay. Duty calls.”
And, just like that, I was free.
I walked into the cafeteria and stood off to the side. Waited for my eyes to adjust to the darkness. There were maybe twenty or thirty kids dancing in the shadows. Others were standing around or sitting in groups of various sizes. A handful stood all alone, trying their hardest not to look miserable and embarrassed. One guy looked like he wanted to cry, and I wondered why the heck he’d come to the dance in the first place.
The DJ—a bald guy with the worst mustache I’d ever seen—was set up against the near wall. By sheer coincidence, he was also one of the skinniest men I’d ever seen and every time he bobbed his head to the music, I feared for his life. His neck appeared no thicker than my forearm.
I caught myself staring at the guy in silent wonder and quickly looked away.
And then I saw him.
The Phantom.
Standing across the room, on the other side of the dance floor, talking to three other boys. None of the others were dressed in costumes. I didn’t know their names, but I recognized them as younger students.
I stood and watched them for a long moment…
Then, I started across the dance floor.
What in the hell are you doing? the voice screamed.
There was no response.
Twenty feet away.
Louder this time: Have you lost your mind?
Ten feet now.
You could get in big trouble for—
All four boys looked up at me. Stopped talking.
And the Phantom took off his mask.
“Hey, Mr. McKay. Cool dance, huh?”
My heart stopped.
The Phantom was Teddy Bogan. The Teddy Bogan. One of the most recognizable kids in school. Teddy, Sparta’s best known Special Education student…who could barely catch a ball thrown to him from ten feet away, much less operate a car. Teddy, whose left hand was shriveled beyond repair, the result of a childhood accident. Teddy, who struggled mightily to keep up with even the Special Ed. Curriculum.
“You okay, Mr. McKay?” It was one of the other boys talking now. They all looked up at me with wide eyes and uneasy smiles.
I nodded and said, “Yes, I’m fine. Just checking to see…if you’re enjoying yourselves.”
I didn’t wait for their response. Instead, I turned around a little too quickly. I could feel the heat rushing into my face, and I didn’t need a mirror to tell me that I was flushed a dark, embarrassed red.
“Okay,” I whispered to myself, taking a deep, calming breath. And then inside my head: Enough is enough. Who did you think you were anyway, Sherlock Holmes? Barney Fife’s more like it, pal. It’s time to call the police and tell them everything. Tell them you were scared and panicked. Tell them—
I blinked my eyes.
Swallowed.
Blinked some more.
The Phantom was right in front of me.
Slow dancing with Kerri Johnson, gliding past me now. If my arms had been working, I could’ve reached right out and touched his flowing cape. Grabbed him.
Kerri, dressed as a dark and exotic gypsy, giggled and tossed her long, black hair. It was a move that had doubtlessly given dozens of Sparta’s young men any number of wet dreams. She laid her head back on the Phantom’s shoulder, and they held each other close, spinning ever so slowly. Soon, they melted into the center of the crowd.
I couldn’t believe my eyes.
The Phantom was here…
In my school…
Dancing with Kerri Johnson…
But…
Only one person ever danced with Kerri Johnson…
And it couldn’t be…
A month-old memory slammed me in the face—hard and swift and crystal clear.
Last week of September. An hour or so after the final bell. I’d turned the corner and stumbled upon a red-faced and flustered Amanda Hathaway standing outside the assembly hall. The boy standing next to her, as polite and cool as ever. I’d said a quick hello and left them alone, sensing that I had interrupted something intense and private, but at the same time, thinking that it made no sense. Just my imagination was all. Hell, even all the teachers knew that he was going out with Kerri Johnson. Everyone knew that.
I stood in the shadows and watched them dance, thinking about that afternoon back in September. Even in a dark and crowded room, they stood out. They really did. If circumstances had been different, it would’ve made for a pretty picture indeed: two beautiful young people with the world at their fingertips; the Phantom dashing and mysterious in his mask and cape; the gypsy girl innocent yet alluring in her silk and beads. I watched them dance until the song ended and prayed that I was wrong.
SEVEN
A long and winding hallway connects the back corner of the cafeteria with the Sparta High gymnasium (when the new school year began, the administration asked us teachers to start referring to this area as the “Physical Education Department,” but it’s really just a drafty, old gym, two ancient locker rooms, and a couple of glassed-in offices, so despite the request, most everyone still calls it by its most practical name: the gym).
During the day, this hallway is one of the busiest places in the school—there’s an almost round-the-clock flow of students rushing in to dress before gym class or hurrying out to shower after gym class.
Or just hanging around.
You see, this hallway is also one of the few “cool” places in the school—along with the courtyard out back and the front lobby—so there’s usually a pack of students clustered around each corner and outside each doorway. Standing, talking, waiting to be seen.
But that’s during the school day.
After classes—day or night, it doesn’t matter—this hallway is dark and quiet and deserted. It’s a pretty scary place to be.
Unless you want to be alone, that is…
After the slow song ended, I watched Kerri Johnson walk right past me out into the lobby, probably on her way to the bathroom or the snack bar.
And then I watched as the Phantom slipped from the back corner of the cafeteria into the dark hallway.
I followed him.
Quietly.
Carefully.
After what felt like a very long time, I rounded the last corner and found him bent over, drinking from one of the two water fountains outside the boys’ locker room. He must’ve heard my footsteps because when I was still a fair distance away, he looked up.
“Oh, hey, Mr. McKay. How’s it going?”
He straightened up and wiped a dribble of water from his chin. His voice echoed in the empty hallway, and the familiar sound of it brought about an immediate transformation. Despite the mask and cape, he was no longer the Phantom. Now he was just plain, old Bobby Wilcox. Eighteen-year-old Bobby Wilcox. Hometown boy with the dashing good looks of a movie star. The scholarship officers—in two different sports, mind you—all lined up and waiting.
Bobby Wilcox—smart, popular, handsome…a killer?
Maybe you’re wrong about this? the voice inside my head whispered. You can’t be sure—
When I reached his side, I got right to it. “I think we need to talk, Bobby…I think maybe you’re in some trouble.”
I spoke softly, for I didn’t want my words to carry, and for a long moment I was sure he hadn’t heard me. But then:
“I know, I know,” he said, looking at the floor. “You’d think I would’ve learned after last time. I just…I just…I guess I was just being stupid again.”
I paused for a moment, genuinely confused. “Exactly what does that mean?” I asked.
“You don’t remember? Sophomore year, I got caught drinking at the Christmas dance. Got suspended from the basketball team for five games. Got detention, embarrassed my folks…”
I smelled it then. On his breath. Hard liquor—whiskey, most likely.
I flashed back to him throwing up in the parking lot.
Jesus, he thinks I’m nailing him for drinking.
My head started shaking back and forth. “No, no, no,” I said. “I don’t care about your drinking. That’s not it.”
The expression on his face told me that he didn’t understand.
I sucked in a long breath of air. Blew it out. Thought about it for a second, then said very carefully: “Tell me about Amanda.”
It was as if I’d pressed some invisible button: the color drained from his face. His entire body sagged. And he started shaking.
I placed a hand on his shoulder, finding it hard to believe that I was actually touching him. “Bobby, calm down. Take some slow and easy breaths and talk to me. Tell me—”
“You know about Amanda?” he said, shrugging off my hand. He looked like he wanted to run away.
I nodded.
“How?”
“It doesn’t matter.”
“But how could you—”
“I told you it doesn’t matter. Now, Bobby, you need to tell me what happened, and then we need to go to the office and call the police. Just you and me. No one else needs to know—”
“But everyone will know, won’t they? Everyone will know what I did.”
He started crying then. Not the sniffle-type of crying and not the whimper-type of crying. This was full-fledged, tears-streaming-down-the-cheeks, sobs-racking-the-body crying. It sounded very loud in the deserted hallway. I checked over my shoulder. The last thing I wanted right now was company.
“You wouldn’t understand,” Bobby cried. “I had to take her there. I had to do it. I had to…”
His voice dropped off.
His mouth opened wide and, for a moment, he looked like he’d just swallowed a large insect. Then, he started making loud, wheezing sounds and his eyes fluttered open and closed, open and closed.
I moved quickly. Took off his mask.
“Easy, now, Bobby,” I said. “Easy now. Just breathe, nice and slow.”
I reached over and took him by the elbow. Guided him toward the wall. “You just need some air is all. Why don’t we sit down for a minute? Why don’t we just sit down and—”
But that’s as far as I got.
Because that’s when I felt something hard pressed into the center of my back and heard the voice say: “We’re gonna walk out the side door and we’re gonna do it quietly. Listen to me and no one will get hurt.”
I listened.
EIGHT
“Damn it, I wish you would stop all that blubbering! You’re nothing but a goddamn baby…
“I knew I shouldn’t have trusted you. You always were such a wimp…”
It was like that all the way across the parking lot. White-hot anger, dripping with disgust.
And Bobby never said a word. Not one word.
We were sitting inside the red Mustang. The three of us.
Bobby in the back seat—curled up on his side, still crying, still lost in his own little world.
Me in the driver’s seat—looking straight ahead, hands on the steering wheel, knuckles squeezed bone-white, heart pounding so hard I was afraid it was going to stop altogether.
Kerri Johnson in the passenger seat—turned sideways with her back against the window, facing me, a shiny black pistol in her hand.
She was still wearing her costume, but she no longer looked exotic and alluring. Now, she just looked dangerous. She leaned over and inserted the key into the ignition, and I smelled her perfume. It was sweet and airy and reminded me of summer afternoons and suntan lotion.
“Drive,” she said.
“Where?”
She nudged me in the ribs with the barrel of the gun. “Just drive. I’ll tell you where to go.”
I started the car, turned on the headlights, and eased onto Route Nine. The high school disappeared behind us. Thick treeline crept up close on both sides of the road, blocking out the moon. It got very dark and—except for Bobby’s sobbing—it got very quiet. Moments later, as we neared the turnoff into town, she said, “Take a left here.”
I turned and kept my eyes on the road. I took this as a good sign—we were heading into town and not away from it. A million jumbled thoughts were ricocheting around inside by head but nothing was making any sense. More than ever, I just wanted to go home. Back to Janice and the kids. The baby would be waking up soon. She’d be hungry and cranky and—
“Too bad you had to get mixed up in all this, Mr. McKay,” she said.
I said nothing.
She looked over the headrest into the backseat and said, “Jesus, Bobby, can’t you shut the hell up! Enough is enough. This is all your damn fault, anyway. You and that goddamn Amanda—”
Bobby surprised her (and me) by responding so quickly and so loudly. I jumped in my seat. “You can just go to hell, Kerri Johnson! Straight to hell where you belong! Don’t you ever say—”
She hit him in the face. Hard. With the gun.
There was a wet smacking thud, and Bobby stopped yelling.
I couldn’t stop myself from taking a quick peek at the rearview mirror. Bobby was sitting up, holding the side of his head, his face red and puffy and glistening with tears and saliva. His eyes were wide and panicked; they looked more scared than angry.
Kerri laughed, and it was a hideous sound.
“Keep your eyes on the goddamn road,” she said, poking me in the shoulder with the gun.
I nodded. Kept my mouth shut.
We rode in silence for several minutes. Except, of course, for the sniffling sounds coming from the backseat. I was actually thankful for the quiet. I used the time to think, to run everything through my head. The whole thing was beginning to make sense to me now. The pieces were slowly falling into place, and they were forming a very ugly picture.
We turned left onto Longley Road.
Then right onto Baker.
A few blocks later, I broke the silence. “Why are you doing this, Kerri?”
She looked over at me. Sneered. Her upper lip practically did a dance. “Why don’t you ask loverboy back there? He’ll tell you all about it, won’t you, loverboy?” She paused for effect, and then said, “No? What’s the matter? Not in the mood to talk right now?”
“How long has he been cheating on you?” I asked. I skipped a beat for my own effect, then added, “With Amanda, I mean.”
She didn’t answer for a long time.
“Ever since school started,” she said quietly. “Ever since the first week of classes.”
“That’s not true,” Bobby said from the back seat.
“SHUT UP!” she screamed. She whirled around and pointed the gun directly at him. Her hand was shaking wildly. “No more lies, loverboy, no more of your fucking lies.”
“Stop calling me loverboy,” he wailed. “Please, please stop all of this.”
And just like that, her hand stopped shaking. Her finger caressed the trigger. Her lips pulled back into a snarl. “You’re nothing but a lying, cheating bastard—”
“Easy, Kerri,” I said, slowing the car and hoping she didn’t notice.
“You shut the hell up, too. None of this is your goddamn business, anyway. You poked your nose in the wrong place at the wrong time, and now you’re gonna pay for it.”
“Kerri, listen to me—”
“No, you listen to me! I said shut up and drive. Not even one more word.” She stabbed the gun in my direction and cold steel kissed my cheek.
I looked at her and shuddered. I couldn’t help it. There was madness burning in her eyes. She was afire with it.
Once, back in college, I’d watched a film about predatory jungle cats. Nothing special, but there’d been several minutes of footage showing a pack of adult male cats in a blood-soaked feeding frenzy. At that moment, driving across the darkened streets of Sparta, that’s precisely what Kerri Johnson’s eyes reminded me of: pure bestial hunger and rage. Uncontrollable and without conscience. There was nothing human left inside those eyes. Nothing at all.
I shut my mouth and followed her directions.
A left, then two more rights.
It was seventeen minutes before midnight when we pulled into the parking lot behind the old post office.
NINE
“Jesus, no wonder you found the body,” she said.
The wind had died down considerably, and the woods were ominously still and silent. Nothing seemed to move. Overhead, the cloud cover had mostly blown away and now thick shafts of moonlight fell from between the treetops. Amanda’s body laid in clear view.
“Send a boy to do a man’s job and this is what you get,” Kerri snickered.
Bobby elbowed me and said, “He already told you that he found her and uncovered her. I swear I did a better job than this. I buried her real good.”
“Oh, shut up and stop whining,” she said. “I’m so sick of all your goddamn whining.”
Kerri stood on one side of Amanda’s body. Bobby and I stood on the opposite side. She held the gun in front of her. I could tell she wasn’t sure what to do next.
I didn’t look at the body. Not once. Instead, I searched for a way out. I considered making a run for it, just sprinting off into darkness, but quickly decided against it. I’ve never been the most coordinated man, and call me a coward if you wish, but it was pure and simple fear that stopped me. The fear that I would stumble and fall before I got even ten or twenty or thirty yards away; the fear that I would roll over onto my back and have to watch as she stood above me and smiled and slowly pulled the trigger…
No, it would have to be something else.
“Tell me, Bobby.” Her voice was sweet and mocking. “Exactly what was it about dear little Amanda that made you want to leave me? What…could…it…be? She do your homework for you? Rub your back after practice? Was she good in bed, Bobby?”
“Shut up.”
“No, tell me. I really want to know. She had everyone else fooled, but I bet she was a real slut in bed, wasn’t she? Was that it?” She was enjoying this. Getting louder. Her voice was frantic. “Did she suck your cock the way I used to, Bobby? Did she fuck you the way I used to? Come on, don’t be shy. Tell us.”
“Stop it. Just stop it. The only thing we ever did was kiss. And talk. It wasn’t the way you said it was. I swear.”
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