by Robert Reed
“An enemy could have managed this trick,” she offered, nodding with a sudden surety. “Someone who’s eager to make myself and my great office look like utter fools.”
Pamir said nothing.
“Authentic or not,” the Master continued, “these ghosts contacted only the two of us. I can see why I would be singled out. And you, of course. You’ve always claimed to have seen Washen after her disappearance. Haven’t you?”
He said, “Yes.”
Nothing else.
“That shit-world. Marrow,” the Master quoted. Pamir waited.
“Does that word have any significance to you?”
“Where blood is born. And that’s all it means to me.”
She gestured at a bank of AIs. “They’ve listed every known world with that name or some permutation. In alien tongues, typically. But none of our suspects are near us. Not now, and rarely in the past.”
“It’s an odd detail,” Pamir observed. “If you’re making a joke, that is.”
Now the Master decided to remain quiet; it was her turn to wait.
Pamir knew what she wanted. “I don’t know anything, madam. Seeing Washen and Miocene… it was a complete and total shock…”
“I believe you,” she replied, without conviction.
Then with a hard glare, she asked, “What do you believe? Based on your total ignorance, naturally”
With his heart pounding and an invisible hand to his throat, Pamir told her, “They were genuine, these ghosts were. And I think they’re still on the ship. Washen. Submaster Miocene. And presumably the other missing captains, too.”
“Each is free to his opinion.”
He bristled, secretly.
“Twice,” she said. “Once, and again. Twice.”
“Pardon me, madam?”
“I have taken my chances with you. Do you remember, Pamir?” The smile was wide and malevolent. “I nearly forgot the first time. But you remember it, don’t you? In the beginning, when the engineers uncovered your ruined carcass… they wanted to leave you in that state until you could be delivered to an appropriate prison facility…”
“Yes, madam.”
“But I saved you.” She said it with a mixture of bitterness and sublime pleasure. “I decided that a soul who wanted to be with us that badly had to be valuable, regardless of his talents. Which was why I ordered you reborn. And when your fellow engineers refused to accept you, wasn’t I the wise one who invited you to become a captain…?”
Not precisely. Joining the captains’ ranks was his idea and his initiative. But he knew better than to debate the point, nodding without kowtowing, saying to her big bare feet, “I have tried to serve you and the ship.”
“With a lapse or two thrown in.”
“One lapse,” he replied, refusing to fall into simple traps. “You honestly know nothing about these prank calls. Do you?”
“Or even if they are pranks, no. I don’t, Madam.”
“Which puts us where, Pamir? I want to hear this from you.”
With a quiet, firm voice, he told the Master, “If you wish. If I might. I could hunt the ship for Washen. For all those missing captains. In an official capacity, or otherwise.”
Eyes lifted. “You’d be willing to do that?”
“Gladly,” he said, meaning it.
“I suppose you’re qualified,” she remarked. Then taking delight in old wounds, she pointed out, “You did manage to evade my security teams for a long, long while. And apparently without much effort.”
He could do nothing but glance at her face, holding tight to his breath.
“And since you mentioned it,” she continued, “I could use a little more reassurance. About your loyalty, if nothing else.” She paused for a half-moment, then added, “If you find Washen, perhaps I can stop watching every step you take. Understood?”
It was easy to forget why he had rejoined the captains’ ranks.
Showing the Master a thin, cool smile, Pamir said, “Madam.”
Then he bowed slightly, pointing out, “If I find these lost captains, and they’re alive, then you’ll be too busy worrying about them to bother with me…
“Madam…!”
Thirty
Pamir sat in the darkened garden room, on the fragrant stump of a dusk pinkwood. The garden was at the heart of a luxury apartment set inside one of the oldest and finest of the human districts. A peculiar couple shared its spacious rooms and hallways—a man and woman married back in the early millennia of the voyage—and throughout Pamir’s visit, the lovers would hold hands and whisper into each other’s ears, causing their gruff visitor to suffer the sour beginnings of envy.
Quee Lee was a wealthy and extraordinarily ancient woman. Born on the Earth, she had inherited her fortune from a Chinese grandfather who made his money through shipping and legal drugs. On other occasions, she would talk about their home world with both fondness and horror. She was nearly as old as Pamir’s mother would be today, though he never mentioned that crazy woman. Quee Lee was old enough to remember when spaceflight was anything but routine and people counted themselves fortunate, or cursed, to live for a single century. Then came the day when the first alien broadcasts fell from the sky, washing away the Earth’s isolation. By the time she was middle-aged, everything had changed. Twenty technologically adept species were known, and their knowledge, coupled with a home-brewed intellectual explosion, brought things like star drives and eternal generics, and the probes that would leave the Milky Way, and eventually, this great and ancient and undeniably wondrous ship in which they rode in luxurious splendor.
Her young husband was born on the ship. Perri had been a Remora, one of those strange souls who lived on the ship’s hull. But he decided to leave that bizarre culture, preferring the greater strangeness of the ship’s interior. When Pamir was a captain on the rise, the two men were enemies. But after Pamir had abandoned his post, taking on new faces and identities, Perri had slowly evolved into an ally and an occasional friend.
Only certain specialist AIs knew the ship better than Perri.
A masculine face, more pretty than handsome, was studying a series of holomaps.The occasional glowbat was gently waved out of the way, then the same hand adjusted the maps’ controls, changing the perspective, or the district being examined, or the scale of everything that he was examining with a perfect concentration.
“Another drink?” asked Quee Lee.
Pamir looked at his empty glass. “Thank you. No.”
She was a beautiful woman in any light. An ageless face was wrapped around ancient, warm eyes. She had a fondness for one-color sarongs and ornate, exceedingly alien jewelry. Clinging to one of her husband’s hands, she looked at the map, and with a gentle sigh, she confessed, “I always forget.”
“How big the ship is,” said Perri, completing her thought.
“It is,” she echoed, looking up at their guest. “It’s wonderfully huge.”
Perri marked a likely cavern, then moved to the next district. He didn’t volunteer why that place was worth a look. Instead, he asked the obvious question.
“Who are you hunting?”
Then with a smile that couldn’t have been more charming, he gave the answer. “It’s those missing captains, I bet. I bet.”
Familiarity was a powerful tool.
Pamir didn’t need to reply. He simply held his mouth closed and gave his head a slight, somewhat suggestive tilt.
Reading his posture, Perri nodded and grinned with a private satisfaction. Then again, he marked a location. “There’s a little river running through a practically bottomless canyon. Honestly, there might be a million square kilometers down there. All of it vertical. Black basalt and epiphyte forests. I know two settlements. Neither human. Between them, there’s room for a few hundred thousand people. If they were careful, and a little lucky, nobody would ever know they were there.”
Quee Lee regarded her husband with fond eyes.
“That canyon was searched last month,”
Pamir replied. “By security robots, and thoroughly”
“Captains would know tricks,” said Perri. “Shit, you’ve used those same tricks. It would be easy enough to make the machines see nothing but rock and clingweed.”
“You think I should look there?”
“Maybe.”
In other words: “I don’t see why they would be there.” Pamir said nothing.
Again, the map changed districts. Suddenly Perri was staring at a deeply buried city, nothing about its selection random. A wealth of colors and complicated shapes showed the presence of alien species. With a knowing touch, he moved past the catacombs and main arteries, following an obscure capillary to a waystation that appeared as a strong golden light, open for operation, welcoming all visitors.
Perri marked the waystation, then giggled.
“What’s funny?”
He smiled at the captain, saying, “This. What I know is what the gossip says.That someone destroyed this nowhere place. It was a random, meaningless act. Isn’t that the official verdict? Yet within minutes, the Master ordered a thorough sweep of a hundred districts centered on that single station.”
Again, Pamir used silence. And with it, a hard look.
Perri doctored the map’s scale, pulling back and back. Suddenly they were looking at nearly a tenth of one percent of the ship—a vast region, complicated and oftentimes empty, with a hundred thousand kilometers of major passageways blurring into a geometric puzzle too irregular to appear planned, much less attractive, and to any mind large enough to appreciate the distances, this was obviously a puzzle without any worthwhile solution.
Not for the first time, Pamir felt utterly helpless.
“This is how big the sweeps got,” said Perri. “And people are still talking about them. A couple species living down here have strong feelings about authoritative presences. One hates them, while the other loves them. Those sweeps made them feel important, and they’re still singing about them today”
“I can imagine.”
Inside that vast region, Perri’s six dozen markers appeared as purple dots of light. With his free hand, he gestured, remarking, “This is a waste. All of it.”
“Excuse me?”
“You’re bright enough, I mean. But really, you and the rest of the uniforms are attacking this problem in all the obvious ways.” Pamir grimaced.
Knowing the captain’s temper, Quee Lee leaned forward and smiled as if everything depended on it. “Are you sure you don’t want a fresh drink?”
Pamir shook his head, then echoed the words, “ ‘The obvious ways.’ ”
“It’s about your missing captains. And that’s not just a reasonable guess on my part. One of your Master’s AIs leaked that news to its psychiatrist, who dribbled it to a lover, who mentioned it in public once… at least that’s the way I heard it happened…”
Pamir waited.
“You’ve been busy since. I know that, too. You’ve been interviewing all your old contacts… for how long now…?”
“Six weeks.”
“So how does my list compare? With the others, I mean.”
“It’s thorough. It’s reasonable. I’ll find what I want in one of those places.”
“Well, I don’t think so.”
Quee Lee pulled her hand away from her husband’s, and with her short and smooth index finger, she touched the lowest, most isolated of the violet lights.
“What’s this place?” she inquired.
Perri said, “An alien habitat.”
“For the leech,” the captain added. “It’s been abandoned for a long while now”
“Did the Master search it?” asked Perri.
He nodded. Then he added, “By proxy, and with some security people, too.”
“What I think,” Perri offered, “is that you have to accept a difficult fact first. Are you listening to me?”
“Always.”
“You know absolutely nothing about this ship.” Suddenly it was as if Perri were angry. This perpetually charming man, who lubricated every social circumstance with a glib shallowness, leaned close enough that his liquored breath mingled with the night odors of the ancient garden. “Absolutely nothing,” he repeated. “The same as everyone else.”
“I know enough,” Pamir countered, meaning it.
Perri shook his head, shook his empty hands. “The fuck you do! You don’t know who built this ship, or when, or even where it happened!”
The captain wanted that drink suddenly, but he decided to sit quietly and say nothing, letting his posture and his glare do their worst.
“And worst of all,” said Perri, “you don’t even know why this machine was built. Do you? Without compelling evidence, you can’t even pretend to have a workable theory. Just some half-broiled guesses that haven’t been changed in a hundred millennia. All of this is someone’s galaxy-hopping ship. You hope. Launched too late, or too soon. Although does anyone have any real evidence to say this is so?”
Pamir said, “No.”
Perri leaned back and grinned like a man who knew that he had just won an important fight, his hands knitted together and stuck behind his head.
Quietly, the captain said, “Marrow.”
“Excuse me?”
It was the first time that he had said the word since seeing the Master, and the only reason he used it now was to deflect the conversation.
“Do you know anyplace with that name?”
“Marrow?”
“That’s what I said. Do you know it?”
Perri closed his eyes, considering the single word until finally, with a grudging conviction, he could admit/Nothing conies to mind. Why? Where did you hear about it?”
“Make a half-broiled guess,” Pamir advised.
The man had to laugh. At himself and his companion, and at everything else, too. “Is that where the missing captains are?”
“If I only knew…”
Then Quee Lee said “Marrow” in a different way, using an extinct dialect. Straightening her finger, she said, “Long ago, before human beings were reengineered to live forever… back when we were simple and frail, marrow was in the middle of our bones. Not like today. Not laced through our muscles and livers, too.”
Both men turned and stared at her.
“You’re too young to remember,” she offered, as if giving them an excuse. Then she turned her finger, pointing down past the deepest purplish lights. “Marrow sometimes meant the center of things. Their heart. Their deepest core.”
Then she glanced up, smiling now, her very round, very old-fashioned face lit up by the map’s glow.
Again, Pamir thought that she was a beautiful woman.
“Look at the ship’s core,” she advised.
Quietly and almost politely, the two men enjoyed a good long laugh at poor Quee Lee’s expense.
Thirty-one
Pamir constructed a list of promising sites, then made foot-and-eye searches of each, always in disguise, always taking the sort of time and obsessive care that comes naturally to an immortal working alone. Over the next few years, he uncovered an ocean of sharp rumor, slippery lies, and dreamy half-sightings. As far as he could determine, the only certainty was that every sentient organism had seen the missing captains at least once, and judging by the sightings, the captains were everywhere. Even Pamir was infected with the hysteria. Missing colleagues appeared without warning. Old lovers, usually. Washen, more than not. Without warning, he would see a tall human woman casually strolling down a busy avenue, her gait and color and the bun of her gray and brown hair recognizable from half a kilometer away. Pamir would break into a sprint, and as he drew closer, a dead run. But by the time he reached Washen, she had turned into another handsome woman, flustered and perhaps a little flattered to have a strange man tugging on her arm. On a different occasion, he spotted Washen sitting cross-legged in the middle of an otherwise empty chamber, nude and elegantly beautiful. But in the time it took Pamir to approach, she turned into a statue twenty meters tall
, and just when he convinced himself that this was his first genuine clue, her statue became nothing but a suggestive pile of badly lit rubble. Then it was a year later, and Washen was kneeling on a ledge among the purple epiphytes growing above the grave bar where Pamir had made camp. Glancing up, he saw her familiar face smiling at him, watching as he baked a fresh-killed chinook salmon. Then the wind gusted, and he heard Washen’s voice asking, “Enough for two?” But by then Pamir knew his mind, and he didn’t allow himself excitement. A gust of wind lifted, and Washen’s face turned to a knot of dead leaves. And Pamir shook his head, smiled at his own foolishness, then set the fish closer to the sputtering fire.
Passengers and the crew learned about his hunt, and for every conceivable reason, they led him astray.
Some wanted money for their lies.
Others begged for attention, for praise and love and fame.
While a few were so genuinely eager to please, they didn’t know they were lying, inflating half-memories with wishful thoughts, building coherent epics that could withstand every battery of physiological testing.
The missing captains were living with radical luddites somewhere in the Bottoms.
They had formed their own luddite community hidden inside an unmapped chamber somewhere beneath the Gossamer Sea.
They had been abducted by the Kajjan-Quasans—a tiny part-organic, part-silicon species who kept them as slaves and rode them like livestock.
A gel flow in the Magna district had entombed them.
Or there was the common, almost plausible story of bitter, vengeful aliens. Phoenixes were the preferred villains, though there were many worthy candidates. Whoever they were, they had returned to the ship in secret, and in retribution for the Master’s ancient crimes, they murdered her best captains.
One earnest human claimed that an unknown alien had carved away the captains’ high mental functions, then left the brain-damaged survivors living inside a local sewage-treatment plant. Unlikely as it sounded, the witness remembered seeing a woman identical to Washen. “I talked to her,” he swore. “Poor lady. Dumb as can be now. Poor lady.”