“Sorry, Ryder, Dorothy needs to stay in tonight,” I say, slowly sliding my hand from his. “Please give Scarecrow and the Tin Man my apologies.”
“So does that make me the cowardly lion?” he questions. Only when my mother is around, I think.
“No, you can be my Toto,” I say and his boisterous laugh fills the room. Thoughts of all the time we’ve spent together over the past two years flood my mind. Ryder has been my rock and I’m not sure I would’ve made it through without him, especially since his presence seems to keep my mom in check. I’m also not blind to the fact that any girl would be lucky to be with Ryder. He’s gorgeous and sweet and oozes southern charm by the bucketloads.
“I’ll be your Toto if it means I’m always by your side,” he replies, his voice suddenly soft and sultry. I immediately remember why I’ve been distancing myself from him lately—the last thing I want is to give him the wrong idea. “Why don’t I stay here and watch the movie with you.” He follows up his statement by sitting back down next to me, taking the blanket off my legs, and pulling it over his own.
Outside the bus, I hear a group of high-pitched voices, giggling and talking, who I predict have joined us for the ride. “I think there are some girls calling your name,” I say in hopes that he’ll decide to join them.
“You’re the only girl calling my name,” he responds, his eyes pleading with mine. As he inches closer and closer, my body switches into defense mode. Shit, it’s too late. I can feel the desire radiating from him, and I’ve got to put the brakes on this—now.
“You’ll always be like my brother, Ryder, you know that.” As soon as the words leave my mouth, he slowly blinks his eyes closed and guilt consumes me, knowing I just hurt him. He removes the blanket and stands up before replacing it on my lap. He then leans forward, his mouth descending toward me, and my heart races. Our mouths are mere inches away from one another when he slowly licks across his top lip. I brace myself, not knowing how to react but instinctively closing my eyes, when I feel his wet lips give me a chaste kiss on the outside corner of my mouth. “Good night, sister,” he whispers in my ear, and before I can think straight, he’s gone.
Damn, what was that all about? I’m about to stand up and plead with him to not ruin our friendship when I hear him yell from the open doorway, “Hold up, Jack, how many girls did you wrangle up for us tonight?”
A potent mixture of guilt and anger rages through me. What exactly does he want? I don’t even think he knows. Was he just trying to get some sort of rise out of me? Ugh, I hate him for attempting to alter our relationship—what was wrong with the way it was? I release a breath when I hear the driver’s voice come across the intercom, informing me that we’re about to hit the road again. If there had been any confusion at all about my feelings toward Ryder, the grateful sensation that washes over me with the knowledge that that he’s in another bus for the night should tell me all I need to know.
***
The next morning, the buses pull into a large, dusty, and mostly empty parking lot where they’ll remain while we’re in LA. I step out into the bright sun, squinting my eyes before digging in my purse for my sunglasses. Once the dark lenses are covering my eyes, I walk toward the waiting limos. As I pass the band’s bus, the guys begin to emerge, trailed by a slew of girls wearing miniskirts and tight tank tops, whose faces are smeared with makeup.
One of the tagalongs is clinging to Ryder and his eyes find mine before he whispers something in her ear. Now I know he’s trying to get a rise out of me. Annoyed with whatever game he’s playing, I roll my hidden eyes and dip into my limo. As my luggage is being loaded, I can’t help but notice the girl get into the same car as Ryder. Then again, where else would she go, since we’re in the middle of freakin’ nowhere?
An hour later, I’m situated on the record label’s plane, enjoying my latte and a bagel, which I would never be able to have when my mom’s around. As I reach for it, I spot a letter on the table that I didn’t notice before. When I see my name scratched across the envelope in familiar writing, I grab it and tear it open.
Hope you have a safe flight, Peaches. I’ll be seeing you soon.
Trace
Sighing, I read it three or four more times before I catch the flight attendant staring at me. I want to ask her twenty questions…when he left it, where he usually sits, what does he drink? But I don’t ask any of them, wanting to discover the answers for myself.
Since I didn’t get sleep well the night before, I pass out quickly. I’m awoken hours later when the same attendant as before nudges my shoulder, and after blinking my eyes a few times, I notice we’re already on the ground. I peek out the window and spot my mom, standing beside a limo with her phone to her ear, pacing back and forth and looking utterly annoyed.
I thank the flight attendant and pilot, then take a deep breath before walking down the stairs. My mom is waiting at the bottom, and I haven’t even made it on solid ground when she says, “Taryn, change of plans. We’re leaving straight from here to film.” She rushes me over to the limo and climbs in.
“Ms. Starr, Ms. Starr.” I turn around to find the blonde flight attendant waving my letter in her hand. Oh shit—I do not need my mother to see this. As she approaches, she hands me the envelope and I quickly shove it into my purse. “You forgot it,” she says, smiling at me.
I thank her and she pats my arm before turning back and heading toward the plane.
When I slide into the limo, I only have to wait two seconds before she asks. “What was that?” My mother already has her hands in my purse, but I snatch the note away from her.
“It’s a fan letter,” I lie.
“It must be a good one, if you’re keeping it. Let me see it.” She attempts to grab the note again, but I move my purse out of her reach. “Taryn!”
“It’s my letter, Mom. Now please tell me about this change of plans,” I say, hoping the diversion is successful.
“Oh, what a mess,” she says dramatically, always eager to discuss my schedule. ”I just got the call that they’re thinking it will take a couple days to get it all done so they want to start immediately. Trace got in last night and now they’re just waiting on you.”
“So everyone’s already there?” I ask her.
“Yes, and I can’t tell you how important it is to get this right—we don’t have time to waste. Not to mention, if all goes well, you can count on a ton of collaborations in the near future,” she says, sitting back and getting comfortable, obviously pleased with this recent development in my career.
I can’t imagine singing with anyone else; it wouldn’t be the same. But I can’t tell her that.
***
When we arrive at the film location where the video will be shot, the guard at the gate passes us through and I’m relieved I won’t have to deal with any fans today. I don’t usually mind but I’m a bundle of nerves right now, wondering how Trace will act after weeks of texts and phone calls. Not to mention, I have absolutely no idea what the plans are for this music video. And considering the vast differences between Trace’s videos—or the one I saw anyway—and my own, I can’t help but feel nervous.
A beautiful dark-skinned brunette greets us at the door, introducing herself as the production assistant, Caprice. She shuffles us through several hallways while giving instructions, which I immediately tune out because I’m too busy scanning every face I see. We enter a large room with numerous people milling about that I assume is the set where we’ll be filming. My throat goes dry and my heartbeat increases when I spot his bodyguard—Trace can’t be far behind. Despite stifling heat in the room, I feel goose bumps climb up my neck so I close my eyes, willing myself to chill out.
When I open them, a pair of stunning blue ones stare right back at me. Every bit of noise vanishes and all I feel and see is Trace, standing across the room, not moving toward me but not looking away either. “Ms. Starr,” Caprice’s voice interrupts this moment we’re having—if that’s what you can call it. “We need to get you changed.”
My mom tugs on my arm with Caprice leading the way. Before we exit the room, I look back and see that Trace is now having a heated conversation with another guy, one I recognize but haven’t been introduced to yet. I can’t hear what they’re saying but it’s obvious that Trace is upset. Before I can find out what the commotion is all about, the door closes behind me and we continue toward my dressing room.
Once there, Caprice opens a hanging bag from the clothes rack, pulling out a matching black bra and panties set, along with a black satin robe. “That’s what I’m wearing?” I gawk at the tiny bits of clothing.
“Yes, Ms. Starr,” she confirms. If I thought my breath escaped me when I saw Trace, I was dead wrong—there is literally no oxygen in my lungs now.
“What kind of video are we shooting?” I look to my mother for answers and the smirk on her face tells me she already knows. “Mom?”
Caprice passes both hangers to my mother and then quickly exits the room, closing the door behind her.
“Relax, Taryn. It’s a love song, for crying out loud. What did you expect?” she asks.
“I can’t believe you’re all for this. What the hell happened to the ‘America’s Sweetheart’ image you’ve always wanted?” I shake my head in disbelief.
“I spoke with the record label and they believe this is the next step, sweetheart,” she says, but there’s nothing ‘sweet’ about the way she says it. “Besides, you’ve been wanting the world to see that you’ve grown up so I thought you’d be happy with the change. And doing this video with Trace will bring you so much more exposure.”
“Oh, I’ll be exposed, alright,” I mutter under my breath.
“It’s like wearing a bikini,” she says, handing the pieces of material to me. I look at the lingerie and bite my lip. Maybe she’s right; I’ll just think of it as a bikini. How bad could this be?
After I change, I sit down at the makeup station to be reinvented into a sexy supermodel. As one woman curls my long hair into flowing waves, another begins gluing on fake eyelashes before applying several layers of “natural-looking” makeup. When they both agree that I’m as ready as I’ll ever be, I stand up and knot the robe tightly. My mom doesn’t say a word before leading me out of the room.
As we enter the set, the first thing I spot is a king-sized, four poster bed with cream-colored satin sheets—how did I not notice that before? Oh yeah, I was too busy making googly eyes at the guy who is now standing near the catering table, wearing a robe similar to mine. If he’d been dressed like that before, I never would have been able to walk away.
“Hi, I’m Marcus.” The guy that Trace’s anger was directed at earlier walks up to me and reaches out to shake my hand. “I’ll be directing the video today. Did you want me to go over what’s going to happen?” His voice is so soothing and nice, I immediately calm—well, as much as I can while standing half-naked in a roomful of people anyway.
“Sure,” I say quietly. He walks with me closer to the bed and I can’t help but feel Trace’s eyes on me. Marcus attempts to ease my anxiety, explaining that there will be a sheet covering the two of us. He also tells me that the cameras will be filming at different angles and that I should try to act as natural as possible. Easy for him to say. Although I’ve filmed videos before, this will be the first time that there’s been lingerie or a bed involved—not to mention, Trace.
“All done, Marcus?” His deep voice penetrates every fiber of my being, like the heat of the sun on a warm summer day. I turn around to find him looking at me cautiously, as if he thinks I might run out of here at any moment.
“Yeah man, we’re done.” Marcus looks at me for confirmation and I nod my head. He walks away after fist-bumping Trace, and I’m glad to see they worked out whatever the problem was between them.
“Are you okay with this?” Trace asks.
“I guess so,” I answer honestly. I don’t know if the butterflies in my stomach are because of what I’m about to film or who I’m going to film with.
“Don’t worry, I won’t let anyone see anything you don’t want to be seen,” he assures me and a few of the butterflies die down. Okay, so most of them are because of Trace.
“Thanks,” I say. I don’t know why it’s so awkward being around each other. We’ve had some form of contact practically every day since our tours began, but now that we’re face to face, the conversation feels forced. Luckily, Marcus draws our attention back toward him and the set quiets down, just as the lights begin to dim.
Trace takes his off robe with confidence and for good reason—the way he looks in those black boxer briefs puts every other man I’ve ever seen to shame, even the ones on TV and in the movies. Caprice clears her throat for my attention and I snap my mouth shut. I didn’t even know it had fallen open. Someone switches on the spotlights and the area where we’re standing is immediately flooded with light.
I squint into the darkness, where I assume everyone is waiting for me to reveal myself. I look back at Trace—it’s hard to not look at him—who says softly, “It’s okay, Peaches. Trust me.” I pull the end of the belt, letting the robe fall open and then hand it over to Caprice, watching as she rushes off the set, while I fight the urge to throw my arms around myself to conceal my body.
When I turn back to Trace, it’s his mouth that’s hanging open this time and his eyes that are roaming up and down my body. “Damn, Taryn” is all he says, and every single one of the butterflies take flight at once. Meanwhile, I can feel myself getting uncomfortably wet—how on earth will I hide that?
Trace’s soft hand captures mine and gently leads me beside the bed. He climbs in and holds the sheet up, indicating for me to join him. Once I’m situated in his arms the way Marcus described, I no longer feel apprehensive, just undeniably turned on. He rubs his hand up and down my arm, but the goose bumps spread across my body aren’t because I’m cold. In fact, it’s so warm in here I can feel the sweat beginning to form.
“I think they want us all hot and bothered,” he jokes, obviously trying to make me feel at ease.
“Mission accomplished,” I say, smiling back at him. Not that the temperature in the room has anything to do with it, I think. I stare up at those mesmerizing blue eyes and a surge of electricity is shared between us.
“Okay, guys,” Marcus says and I startle to find his face suddenly in front of us. Shit, I already forgot we have an audience.
“Say something before you fucking put your head in our faces,” Trace says in a clipped tone. Marcus gives him a confused look before shaking his head and giving us our final instructions. Before walking away, he makes a joke—something to the effect of how far it goes is up to us.
The thought strikes me that the first and maybe only time I kiss Trace will be watched by roughly twenty-five people, scrutinizing our every move. I don’t have time to dwell on it though because a second later, Marcus yells, “Action!”
Trace’s arms encase my head and my body automatically responds by inching closer to his. As his leg weaves between mine, his full lips begin to brush across my cheek, trailing over to my ear. My hands freely move to his toned muscular back, pulling him toward me. He grazes my earlobe with his parted mouth and I can hear and feel his rapid breathing, making me even more aroused.
The sheet slowly starts to descend as our hands and legs move around each other’s bodies. Trace’s long fingers spread through my curls as his lips tentatively linger above mine. He gently pulls my lower lip between his teeth and then kisses it tenderly, while reaching his hands behind my back and expertly unhooking my bra. His fingers slowly pull the straps down each of my bare arms, keeping my body firmly against his as he tosses it to the floor. Our kiss becomes more urgent and he slips his tongue in between my slightly parted lips. I open fully and my tongue quickly unites with his. As we gradually shift closer, I can’t miss the way his body responds to mine—one part of his body, in particular. I have no doubt he can feel how wet I am, since there are only a few thin pieces of material separating us.
I can’t get enough of him—I want more. My free hand reaches down and grabs his ass, pulling his hardness into me. A moan escapes his mouth but he doesn’t pull away. Instead, he begins to circle his hips slowly and I let out a whimper, imagining him doing the same thing but without any barriers between us. Our mouths never leave one another while our hands and bodies remain in constant motion, exploring.
“CUT!” Marcus screams and I jolt back, realizing we just did all that in front of a captive audience. Heat rapidly consumes my body and not from the warmth of Trace but from embarrassment. Trace pulls me back into him abruptly.
“Hold up, Taryn. Just wait for the robe.” I feel his slick, sculptured upper body against my breasts and his hardness pressing against my stomach. “Please,” he adds softly. I nod my head and stare up into his eyes. “See, that wasn’t so bad, was it?” He smirks and I nod again. Somewhere between ’action’ and ‘cut,’ I appear to have been struck mute.
When Caprice rushes over with my robe, Trace holds up the sheet and looks away so I can put it on in privacy. After I stand, I see him casually adjust himself before putting his robe back on. Marcus approaches us, gushing, “That was great guys. Got it on the first take.”
“All of it?” Trace asks and the disappointment in his voice is evident. Hell, I feel the same way.
“Yep, you guys are good to go. Trace, we film your solo scenes tomorrow and Taryn, I’ve got you scheduled for the next day.” We both head toward our respective dressing rooms, though I can’t help but sneaking one quick peek at him before I enter mine.
Shit, I think I’m hyperventilating. I literally cannot breathe. That was the single best kiss of my life. Like the Grand ‘Ol Opry of kisses. A tingly sensation hits me thinking about how hard he was—and holy hell, he was huge! I collapse into a chair, smiling at myself in the mirror like an idiot.
“What the hell was that?” My mom bursts in and I quickly lose the smile as she throws her hands on her hips, glaring my way.
“Acting—just like you told me to do,” I remind her.
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