by Boyett-Compo
At long last, she laid the letter lovingly aside, then moved on.
In that envelope, there were seven more letters from her, the rest from Brian. When she opened the next envelope, she started looking only at the postmarks. If the letter came from Florida, she put it aside. If it was from Iowa, she thumbed past it without bothering to look at the return address.
She found thirty more letters from her in the next six envelopes. Some were thin, only a page long; most were two pages. One or two were several pages thick.
“I guess it depended on how sorry I was feeling for myself at the time...”
She remembered complaining about college classes, professors, dorm room conditions, and roommates who didn't have a clue how to keep a room livable. There had been reviews of books she'd read or movies she'd seen that had struck a chord. A particularly moving homily at church might warrant a comment or two.
And there had been clippings that Dorrie had asked to see when Bronwyn had made the Dean's list, or when she had won an academic award of some sort.
And there were pictures of Bronwyn through the years: self-consciously sent and graciously accepted and acknowledged in the letters Dorrie had written back to her.
Opening one of her letters to Dorrie, Bronwyn realized the picture that should have been there had been removed and she wondered what Sean's mother had done with it, with any of the pictures, for when she opened several that should have had photos, she found none.
Neither were they in the box.
“I wonder what they did with her belongings,” she said and made a mental note to gently query Brian.
She knew there would be only seven letters from her to Dorrie in the last envelope. Four had been sent from Florida and the other three from Iowa. She had to look at the return address to see which ones were hers and which ones were Brian's.
It was then her world came crashing to a sudden stop.
* * * *
Bronwyn pounded on the security headquarters door. The man behind the desk looked up and frowned. “What can I do for you, Dr. McGregor?”
“I'm looking for Captain Cree.”
“This is his day off. He doesn't like being bothered on his day off.”
Digging her fingernails into her palms, Bronwyn stepped into the office. “I neither need nor want your opinion about what Viraiden does or doesn't like, Mr. Cahill,” she snapped, putting all the haughtiness she had ever heard her mother use into her tone. “All I need from you is his whereabouts.”
Douglas Cahill's eyebrows shot up. “He's down at the stables.”
“Which is where exactly?”
“Down where the road into Baybridge t-bones into paved on the left and gravel on the right. Take the gravel road about a mile and a half east. You'll see the farm buildings. Turn in there and keep on the road until it winds ‘round to the stables.”
“Thank you,” Bronwyn muttered.
She turned on her heel and left the office, her jaw clenched, her eyes narrowed. Five minutes later, she left the paved section of the street at the kiosk, and with gray dust roiling up behind her car, took the serpentine curves of graveled roadway out to the farm. She barely noticed the pretty scenery surrounding the crimson-hued outbuildings with their green metal roofing. She drove past a duo of tall brick silos and turned in at the opening of the winding split-rail fence that swept from either side of the farm access road. Absently, she waved at several workmen gathered around a tractor and hay wagon when they greeted her.
The road passed beneath a modern version of a covered bridge perched over a narrow stream, then became shrouded with the branches of old-growth maple and walnut trees as it wound its way east by northeast. The curving road would have been beautiful had Bronwyn's mind been other than where it was. The lush growth and the changing colors of approaching fall barely registering with her. By the time she caught sight of the sprawling stables and white paddock, she was as tense as a coiled watch spring.
She didn't see anyone milling about, and when she stopped the car and got out, went into the dusky interior of the stable, her calls of “hello” went unanswered. Going back outside, she stood by her car, her hands on her hips, and gazed around with growing frustration. There were two horses in the paddock, one lying in the sun and the other drinking at the trough.
“Is anybody here?” she called.
When there was no answer, she opened the car door and tapped the horn. She waited a minute or two, then pressed again on the horn, longer.
“Stop that! You're scaring the horses!”
Bronwyn turned. A tall black-haired woman was sitting bareback astride a pinto. Anger was carved on the woman's tanned features and her vivid sapphire blue eyes were narrowed.
“What do you want?” she inquired in a husky voice.
“I'm looking for Viraiden Cree,” Bronwyn grated.
“Do you see him here?”
“Are you the stable manager?”
The woman smiled nastily. “I might be. Who the hell are you?”
Bronwyn raised her chin. “I am a friend of Aidan's.”
“Aidan, is it?” the woman snorted, swinging one long leg over her mount's rump and sliding to the ground. She walked toward Bronwyn, the pinto following her. “Does he know you call him that behind his back?”
Bronwyn opened her mouth to tell the woman it wasn't any of her business what she called Cree, but the sound of barking made her look to the west. She thought she recognized Ralph's excited ululation.
“Who are you?” the woman asked. “And why are you looking for Cree?”
Knowing she could never drive her car over the rough-looking land she was sure must border on the crescent-shaped lake off to the west, Bronwyn turned on her heel and headed for the paddock.
Ignoring the woman who had fallen into step beside her, Bronwyn stopped at the paddock, put two fingers to her lips, and whistled for the horses. Both equines turned their heads, but only the one at the trough headed her way, ambling along, tossing its thick mane.
“I asked you your name,” the woman insisted.
“Bronwyn McGregor.”
“What do you want with Cree?”
The horse that sauntered over to Bronwyn was a roan mare with a coat gleaming so brightly, it hurt the eyes. Its sleek body rippled with healthy muscle and its soft brown eyes were filled with friendliness. Looking down the mare's legs, Bronwyn saw that she was shod.
“If you're shod, sweetie, you're rideable.” Bronwyn patted the velvety nose.
“Do you even know how to ride?” the woman inquired, her voice filled with insult.
“Do you know how to mind your own business?” Bronwyn gave a look she hoped would shut up the bitch.
The woman snorted. Crossing her arms over her lush chest, she cocked her head, amusement settling on her pretty face. “Horses can tell when a human is inept at riding them. The beast will throw you quicker than you can bat an eye.”
“I've been riding since I was five.”
Bronwyn went in the stable and came back out with a set of reins. Not even looking at the tall woman, she opened the gate arm of the paddock, went inside, and speaking softly to the mare, draped the reins over its head. Tightening the reins in place, she led the mare outside the paddock, then closed the gate.
“He belongs to me,” the woman said.
“He is a she,” Bronwyn snapped.
“Fool! I don't mean the horse.”
Bronwyn grabbed a handful of the little mare's mane and swung up onto its back. She settled herself, then pulled lightly on the reins, turning the mare's head to the right.
“You don't mean Cree, either.” Bronwyn walked the mare forward, her gaze locked on the woman. “I don't know who you are and I don't care, but Viraidan Cree belongs to me.”
“That I will not allow!” The woman grabbed for the mare's reins, but Bronwyn dug her heels into the horse's sturdy sides. The animal shot forward, pulling away from the strange woman's grasp.
“Eat me,” Bronwyn threw
at her.
“He is mine!” the woman yelled as Bronwyn nudged the mare into a fast trot. “Do you hear me, McGregor? The Reaper is mine!”
Bronwyn could hear her shouts, but couldn't make out what she was yelling, for the mare's hoof beats were loud and the wind rushed in her ears, blowing her hair, which blotted out the woman's words.
“Ugly black-haired witch,” Bronwyn murmured, but the woman's exotic beauty was enough to put seeds of doubt in her mind. Cree had made no mention of seeing another woman. The witch, as Bronwyn mentally labeled her, could be like the young girls at church on Sunday—lusting after Cree but having as little chance of attracting his attention as an ant underfoot.
She guided the mare toward where she had heard what she thought was Ralph's excited bark. The lacy umbrellas of the red maples and gingko trees brushed past as the mare ventured deeper into the forest beyond the stables. The ground was rocky, rippled with low hills, and smelled of a recent mowing. Looking at the area over which she passed, Bronwyn realized she was traveling over a hay field.
The glint of light on water shone through the stand of trees ahead. Bronwyn slowed the mare to a walk. She thought she heard music. When she listened closely, she recognized the strains of a Celtic folksong, its haunting melody drawing her like a magnet.
She found him at the water's edge. Ralph was chasing snow geese, which seemed to be delighting in the game of landing on the water, then flapping away to taunt the big dog. A huge black stallion was tethered to a sapling nearby, its gaze seemingly on the man standing a few yards away.
Cree was glistening with sweat as he went through the paces of a form of martial arts Bronwyn had never seen before. He was barefoot, shirtless, his broad back to her. The only clothing he wore was a pair of tight black denim jeans that molded his rump like a second skin.
Sliding down from the mare's silky back, Bronwyn quietly tied the horse's reins to a low-hanging branch. Careful where she stepped, she eased forward. Creeping closer, watching the graceful body maneuvers that made the muscles bunch and ripple across his upper torso, she was mesmerized by the beauty of his movements. The fluidity with which he moved, the strength in the muscles of his arms bunching beneath his sweaty flesh, the power exhibited in his thighs as he shifted position, all combined to capture and hold her attention.
The music coming from the battery-powered CD player added the right amount of erotica to the scene. The lyrical strains of the Celtic tune, the beat of the bodhrán, the skirl of the tin whistle, all added to the mystery of the physical dance being performed at the water's edge. Cree moved slowly, putting his finely honed body through its paces, synchronized with the rhythms coming from the folksong.
As quietly as she could, Bronwyn hunkered down behind a spreading bush and parted the branches. She wanted the target of her rapt attention to turn so she could see his face, for from the glimpses she had of his profile as he exercised, she knew his eyes were closed, his concentration high.
It was as though the thought reached him like a lethal missile. Cree turned, his eyelids flying open, one hand going to the center of his chest where his medallion lay nestled in the damp hair. He slapped his palm over the golden disk, hiding it from view.
“What are you doing out here?” he asked, his voice harsh.
Bronwyn stood, her eyes locked with his, and came into the clearing. She stumbled on an exposed root, but Cree made no move to go to her aid.
He unhooked his T-shirt from a branch and turned his back to her, drawing the black fabric over his head in a savage jerk. Turning, he glared at her. “What were you doing spying on me?” His breath came heavy and rapid from his heaving chest.
Bronwyn took a few steps closer. “Did he give it to you?”
His eyes narrowed. “Did who give me what?”
“The medallion you wear. The one you are trying so hard to keep me from seeing. The one you removed before we made love so I wouldn't recognize it. Did Brian give it to you?”
“I don't know what you're talking about!”
Bronwyn shivered. She wrapped her arms around her, holding his gaze. “It's a Claddagh, isn't it?”
“What if it is? What difference does it make?”
“None, unless it's the one Sean gave me. It was one of a kind.”
“Oh, you mean the one you gave back to him on his deathbed?” A vein throbbed wildly in his neck. “It ceased being yours the moment you put it in his dying hand!”
“Did you and Brian think I wouldn't find out, Aidan?” she asked, ignoring his hateful remark.
Cree growled low in his throat, his hands clenching and unclenching at his side, but he didn't answer. Neither did he back up when she came closer.
“You were his friend. Brian was his father. Brian is a Reaper, so it stands to reason Seannie was, too. And unless I miss my guess, you were the one who taught him how to be a Reaper, how to kill for the IRA. You protected him and you're protecting him now.”
“What the hell are you talking about?”
“Where is he, Aidan? Where is Sean?”
“Sean is dead!” he shouted. “Dead and gone, Bronwyn!”
“Dead men don't write letters to their mothers.”
Cree's eyes widened and his full lips parted. He stared at her, his posture rigid. She could hear his breathing, heavy in the still morning air. When he remained silent, she dug into the pocket of her lightweight jacket and pulled out an envelope and extended it to him.
“Go ahead, look at it. His initials are there in the return address space.” She thrust the envelope closer to his chest. “It's postmarked two weeks before Miss Dorrie died.”
He snatched the envelope, his lips pulled back over gritted teeth. “I suppose you read the gods-be-damned thing, didn't you?”
“I wanted to, but I didn't.”
“How did you get this?” he said, shaking the letter at her.
“Mr. Ludlum gave a box of letter to me. He said one of the nurses at the hospital sent them along. She thought Brian and his son would want them.” An uneasy smile trembled on Bronwyn's lips. “That part didn't register with me until just now—Brian and his son. I guess the nursing staff knew Miss Dorrie's son was alive.”
“No one has said anything about him being alive!”
“But he is. I know he is and I want to see him. I need to talk to him.”
Cree threw up his hands. “By the gods, woman! Why?” There was obvious misery stamped on his handsome face. “Why?” he asked again in a whisper.
When she didn't answer, he flung the letter away from him as though it were a Frisbee and went to her, grabbing her upper arms in his strong grip. He shook her lightly.
“You lay in my arms last night,” he reminded her. “You gave yourself to me. You told me you loved me!”
“I do love you,” she said forcefully. “My needing to see Sean has nothing to do with you. This is between Sean and me, Aidan.”
Cree laughed mirthlessly. “That's what you think.”
“It's obvious he doesn't want me, Aidan,” she said, tears forming in her eyes. “If he did, he would have sought me out. If he had loved me the way I loved him, he would have come after me. He would have told me about Alistair Gallagher, the man who detonated the bomb that killed my father. He would have explained what happened.”
“And you would have listened?” he scoffed, his grip on her arms tightening.
“I don't know if I would have or not. I was angry, in shock that day in the hospital. My father and my child had been killed. That is not something easily accepted.”
He searched her eyes, his hands relaxing a little on her flesh. She watched emotions pass over his face: anxiety, hurt, uncertainty. When his shoulders drooped and his hands fell away from her arms, he lowered his head and squeezed his eyes shut.
“I love you, Bronwyn,” he said so softly she had to strain to hear him. “I love you with all my heart and with what soul I have left. I could not bear losing you again.”
Bronwyn moaned, stepping fo
rward to place her trembling hands against his cheeks to lift his head. He opened his eyes to look at her and she saw moisture glistening in the amber orbs.
“Oh, Aidan. You aren't going to lose me.”
A solitary tear fell down his cheek. He reached up to cover her hands with his own, then drew her palms to his chest, her right hand pressed firmly over the medallion beneath his T-shirt.
“It is your Claddagh. I've worn it since the day I came back.”
Bronwyn moved her hand so her fingers could touch the impression of the medallion through the fabric. “Sean gave it to you, didn't he?”
Cree sighed heavily. “Sean died that day.” When she started to protest, he put a hand to her lips. “Let me finish. He was Brian's son and he was a Reaper, that's true. The parasite inside him was an offspring of the Queen I have inside me. There are only a few ways a Reaper can truly die—by drowning, beheading, or by fire. Sean's parasite was so badly damaged it could not survive. When the healers pronounced him dead, he truly was.”
“But you were burned just as badly,” she reminded him. “When you crashed in Ireland all those centuries ago, you were hurt just as severely as Sean, weren't you?”
After a long pause, he nodded. “Aye, and I knew the agony he had endured. But there was a difference.”
“What difference?”
“The Queen is more powerful than her offspring, and each generation is less powerful than their dam when they are produced. What She could withstand, Her progeny could not. The parasite in Sean Cullen ceased to exist, and when it ceased to exist, his mortal body succumbed to its injuries.”
“But he's alive. Somehow they brought him back to life.” She drew in a breath. “Did they give him a new parasite?”
“They tried, but the implantation didn't work.”
“Then how—”
He shushed her, then reached inside his shirt and withdrew the Claddagh. He pulled the gold medallion over his head and placed it in her palm, curling her fingers around it.
“This was in his hand when they brought him back to Fuilgaoth. Not even death could have taken it from him. It was there when a part of him came back from the dead.”