After Halley Keracides had left, I wondered for a moment why she’d lumped herself in with the Vestral employees with that ‘we.’
#
A week later to the day, Halley Keracides was leaning against the entry to my quarters, her arms crossed over her chest. “I just learned a funny thing.”
I sighed and leaned back to look at her. “What’s that?”
“First Officer Chen saw a part in your engine room that looked a lot like something Vestral uses. Proprietary design. It’d been modified to fit your system.”
I pretended to think about that. “So?”
“Vestral doesn’t sell those parts. Where’d you get it?”
“A bulk salvage supplier. He gave us a clean bill on it.”
“Uh huh. What’d he charge?”
I let annoyance show. “I’d have to look that up.”
“Don’t bother. I bet it was fairly cheap, right?”
I stared down at my desk. “We could afford it. The supplier gave us a clean bill.”
“Kilcannon, I’m not an idiot and neither are you. That part was obviously stolen property.”
I looked back at her, keeping my expression controlled. “The supplier gave us a clean bill,” I repeated.
“And you expect me to believe that you never suspected the part was stolen.”
“I’m not a cop and I don’t have the time or money to do the cops’ jobs for them.”
“An ethical sailor wouldn’t do that kind of business,” she shot back.
“Some kinds of ethics are luxuries, Ms. Keracides. We can’t afford a lot of luxuries on the Lady.”
Her face closed down and she started to spin away, then stopped herself and eyed me. “’Some kinds of ethics are luxuries,’ you said. Just some kinds?”
“Other kinds are necessities. I haven’t forgotten that.” I rubbed my lower face with one hand, looking away from her again. “I believe I’m still an honest person, Ms. Keracides. And I know the Lady is still an honest ship. Captain Weskind wouldn’t have it any other way.”
“I’ll have to take your word for that, since I’ve yet to meet her.”
“I’ll try to set up a meeting.”
“Thank you.” She was silent for a long time, and when I finally looked back at my entry I saw she’d gone.
#
Two days shy of jump I felt the shock of something, then the Lady shuddered and bucked. I was halfway to the bridge before the motion damped out. One scan of the instruments told me where the problem was. “Engineering? Are you okay down there?”
“Yeah.”
“What the hell was that?”
Chen came on. “The primary waste heat vent has blown.”
I dug my knuckles into my head, trying to think. The engines couldn’t run long with the primary vent out. If we didn’t get it fixed soon the engines would overheat. Then we either let them blow or shut them down, in which case the radiation shields would drop and the high-energy particles being hurled out by Carnavon would fry us in short order. Unlike the Canopus, the Lady didn’t have a radiation-shielded citadel where we could hide for a while. “How long to fix?”
“You tell me. That’s an external job. What shape is your external repair ‘bot in?”
I almost laughed at the question. “External repair ‘bots are for company ships. Ships like the Lady can’t afford that stuff.”
Chen took a moment to answer. “You’ll need to send a sailor out. It’s hazardous, but there’s no alternative”
“Yeah.”
“He or she has to know the equipment and how to replace the vent and be qualified for external repairs underway. I’m afraid my own sailors don’t know your layout well enough.”
“I wasn’t going to volunteer them.” Maybe my reply had come out harsh. Chen didn’t talk again for a while. “There’s a couple of people on Lady who can do it.” Yeah. Two of us.
Fifteen minutes later, Dingo checked the last seals on his suit and gave me a lop-sided grin. “Gonna make me earn my pay this time out, eh?”
I tried to smile back. “You know how to do this, Dingo. Better than anyone else on the ship. I talked to the Captain and we agreed you were the only one who could do it.”
“Yeah. Sure. You’re gonna keep them engines goin’ while I’m out there, ain’t ya?”
“We don’t have any choice.”
“Gonna be no fun, Kilcannon. Not hangin’ on the outside while the engines are goin’ and me wrestling with that duct.”
I nodded. “I swear, Dingo, I’d go if I could.”
“If something happens to me before I finish the job you’ll have to go. And good luck trying to finish it yourself. You’re not half the outer hull rider that I am. Not half the sailor, neither, though you’ll never admit it. Tell you what, Kilcannon, when we hit the next port you pay for the beers. And no bitchin’ from you on account I’ll be drinkin’ the good stuff. Deal?”
“Deal.”
“And if worst comes to worst, you put in a good word with the saints for me.”
“I’ll do that.”
I watched the lock mechanism cycle, not knowing what else I could do, while Dingo exited the lock and headed aft along the outer hull. At some point I realized Halley Keracides had come up to stand nearby. “I understand the primary waste heat vent blew,” she stated softly.
“Yeah.”
“I’ve never heard if that happening.”
I gave her an icy stare. “Not on a Vestral ship, I’m sure. But if you go long enough between engine overhauls it can happen.”
“Saints, Kilcannon, it takes more than a missed overhaul to lose a primary waste heat vent.”
She was right, which made me wonder again just what kind of ‘manager’ Halley Keracides really was. “The part was reworked. We got it quite a while back.”
Her voice stayed soft. “That’s one hell of a way to keep a ship running, Kilcannon.”
“It’s the only way I’ve got.”
Instead of answering she just stared at the airlock controls along with me. In my mind, I traced the path Dingo would be taking, out the airlock and crawling up over the last row of cargo containers strapped around Lady like a huge belt. The containers that came carrying our cargo tended to be old and poorly maintained, so handholds were often loose or missing entirely. After getting over that obstacle, he’d have to work his way back down onto Lady’s hull to where the vents lay not far from the stern. Even in dock the trip could be a pain in the neck. Out here it’d be, as Dingo had said, no fun at all.
Given that, I wasn’t surprised it took another couple of minutes before Dingo called in. “Hey, on the Lady. You there, Kilcannon?”
“I’m here. How’s it look?”
“Like hell’s own mess.”
“Can you fix it?”
“If I can’t, no one can.”
As the minutes crawled by I tried not to think about Dingo out there on the hull, the energies of the engines thundering not far from him. Even the tightest grip on a hull felt too light when your ship was running through the dark. But Dingo would have to anchor himself using tethers and employ both hands to replace the failed sections of the vent, wrestling with warped metal in the dark and the cold, wearing a suit I knew was too old and too worn. “Dingo.”
“Waddaya want?” Dingo sounded out of breath. Tired.
“Maybe I should swap out with you.”
“Hell, no. It’s almost done.”
I checked with engineering. “We’ve got thirty minutes until shut off will be required. That’s plenty of time for you to get in here and rest and me to take care of what’s left to do.”
“Not your bloody damned job, Kilcannon! Shut up and let me work. It’s almost done.”
Halley gave me a questioning look and I shrugged. I couldn’t go out and drag him back. We waited.
“Almost.” Dingo’s voice sounded ragged now.
“Kilcannon, this is Chen in engineering. We’re getting a heat spike.”
Whichever saint had been w
atching us had just looked away. “Dingo, drop it and get inside. Now. We’ve got a heat spike.”
“I drop it now and we’ll lose it.”
“That’s an order, Third Officer Dingo.”
“Didn’t hear it.”
“Kilcannon, this is Chen. We have to vent that spike. We’re holding down the overrides, but the safeties won’t let us do that much longer. If the heat spike vents through the secondary it may blow.”
“Dingo, damn you -.”
“Got it!”
“The safeties overrode our commands! They’re dumping the spike!”
“Dingo!” Lady shuddered again. I waited a long moment. “Dingo. Third Officer Dingo. Respond.” Halley Keracides had her eyes hidden behind one hand. “Third Officer Dingo. Respond.” I grabbed the other suit and started getting into it. “Dingo. By all the saints, Dingo…”
I’d never realized how slowly the airlock cycled. I couldn’t feel anything, including fear, but out of force of habit I made my way cautiously over the battered cargo containers and along the hull as I moved toward the vent. I found Dingo still tethered there. The emergency vent through the secondary had blown away part of its shield, and some of those parts had gone through Dingo’s suit and Dingo on their way to forever.
I checked the work on the vent. Dingo had done a good job. Better than I could’ve done. Then I untethered all that remained of my Third Officer and towed him back to the airlock.
There was a group waiting at the airlock. Dingo had never been a particularly good-looking man. Explosive decompression hadn’t improved things any. “Let’s get him into the burial capsule.” I’d kept one. I could’ve hocked it, like I had the others, but was afraid if I got rid of the last one I’d suddenly need it. Now I needed it anyway.
The other sailors wrestled Dingo’s body into the capsule. “Drop it into the cold storage bin. We’ll hold a service later and send it toward Carnavon.” I watched them carry the capsule away, wondering what I’d say at the service.
Halley stood watching me. “Did he have any friends?”
“Who? Dingo? No.”
“You’re sure? Nobody he went ashore with?”
I managed a short, sharp bark of laughter. “I’m the only one who ever went ashore with Dingo.”
“Really?”
“Yeah.” I rubbed my forehead, trying to push away the pain there. “Dingo was a drunk, and he’d usually get mean.”
“Why’d you go with him, then?”
“Somebody had to. Somebody had to make sure he was okay and get him back to the ship.”
“You could’ve told someone else to do it.”
I frowned and shook my head. “No. I couldn’t trust anyone else not to ditch Dingo when he started getting mean drunk. And it was just easier for me to keep an eye on him.” I looked up and saw Halley still watching me. “What?”
“I was just thinking that Dingo did have one friend. And I think he knew it, too.”
I shrugged. “And I was just thinking that I wish I’d checked Dingo’s suit before we sealed that capsule to see if it could be repaired.”
I don’t know what kind of reaction I was expecting from her, but Halley Keracides just shook her head. “You’re a damned liar, Kilcannon.” Then she walked away and left me standing there alone at the airlock.
#
We made it the next two days without further problems. Before Lady jumped for Fagin, I held a brief service for Dingo, going over the standard burial in space service and saying some things that were true, like he’d been one hell of a sailor, and some things that weren’t so true, like he’d also been one hell of a human being. But the saints expected praise when we sent them a new spirit and Dingo deserved whatever boost I could give him.
The burial capsule dropped back toward Carnavon as we accelerated to jump. In time, Dingo’s body would be cremated in the fires of that sun. There are worse grave markers.
It’d be a long run to Fagin, with nothing to do but hope nothing else really important broke. I briefed Captain Weskind again. She told me we just needed one good run. I agreed. It looked like we might finally be getting that first good run.
I took Dingo’s watches on the bridge. The other qualified watchstanders were stretched thin enough as it was.
That’s where I was one ship’s night when Halley Keracides came to see me. “I thought you could use some company.”
I let my skepticism show. “That’s the only reason you’re here in the middle of the night?”
“No.” She sat down and stared at the displays for a long time. In jump space, they’re mostly blank. Whatever’s out there doesn’t register. There’d been a time when I’d whiled away boring night watches thinking about what I’d do if something ever did show up on the displays while we were in jump. But nothing ever did, and there were a lot more likely to happen things to spend my time worrying about, and after a while I stopped thinking about it. Halley finally looked back at me. “We need to talk. About what happened to Third Officer Dingo.”
I nodded, trying not to look angry or defensive. “Talking won’t make it not have happened.”
“Kilcannon, you know as well as I do that running a ship with systems this old and in need of repair is just asking for more accidents like the one that killed Dingo.”
I kept my voice level, somehow. “It’s been a real long time since anyone died on the Lady.”
“I know. I checked. And, frankly, given the shape this ship is in that means you’ve been doing an incredible job.” Halley paused while I tried to absorb what seemed to be an unexpected compliment. “But no human can beat the odds forever. Not when the odds keep getting longer. Skill and hard work and determination can keep a ship going for a long time even when she’s only held together by spit and prayers, but sooner or later the saints get tired of staving off disaster and let the worst happen.”
I waited to see if she’d say more but she seemed to waiting for me. “What do you suggest I do? This run should pay out well. Well enough to springboard us for an even better run. That’ll pay for a refit. Not a great one, but good enough.”
Halley leaned forward, searching my face for something. “Kilcannon, a ship’s only got so much life in her. Lady’s old. You can’t make her new again for any sum of money you’re ever going to see running cargos on the fringes.”
“She doesn’t need to be new again.”
“Okay, you can’t make her safe again. Not really. Not for any sum of money you have any realistic chance of generating on cargo runs.”
“One good run. That’s all we really need.”
“Do you really believe that, or are you trying to believe that?”
I ignored her question. “Then we’ll fix Lady up and she’ll keep taking care of us. That’s what Captain Weskind always says. Take care of the ship and the ship will take care of you.”
“Captain Weskind.” Halley shook her head. “As far as I’ve been able to determine, she hasn’t left her cabin since I came aboard.”
“She’s busy.”
“Does she really know what shape the ship is in?”
I hesitated and I could tell Halley Keracides noticed. “She’s been briefed. I brief her daily.”
“I see.” I couldn’t tell from her tone of voice just what Halley Keracides saw. “Does she know her entire crew could die at any moment?”
“That’s not true.”
“Yes, it is, and you know it. Those engines are running on borrowed time, Kilcannon. This whole ship is. Sooner or later the engines will fail and you’ll never come out of jump.”
I pretended nonchalance and shrugged. “I hear Haven’s pretty this time of year.”
“Haven?” She obviously knew about Haven, the sailor’s paradise, which wasn’t something you could say about a lot of managers. “Is that where you believe ships go when they don’t come out of jump?”
“They’ve got to go somewhere.”
“No, they don’t. Not according to the physics. And even if they di
d, they couldn’t go to Haven because there’s no such place.”
I made another shrug even though I could tell they were annoying her. “It’s a big universe.”
“Not that big. One single place where every sailor would be happy? No such place could be real.” Halley slammed her palm down onto the arm of her chair. “Dammit, Kilcannon, I can’t believe this. Why won’t the Captain talk to me? I’ve never seen her and none of the crew will talk to me about her.”
“I told you. She’s busy. You know a ship Captain’s responsibilities.”
“I know they allow a few minutes a day to leave her cabin and talk to people her ship has rescued.” She fixed me with a demanding look. “The truth, Kilcannon. In the saints’ names, what’s wrong with Captain Weskind?”
“She’s…” I looked away but something made me tell the truth for the first time in a long time. “Multi-polar degenerative cognitive disorder.”
When I looked back, Halley’s jaw had actually dropped in amazement. “Untreated?”
“Yes. No. I mean, we haven’t been able to keep the right meds in stock.” It wasn’t something I got to talk about and now the words tumbled out of me. “The right meds could help her even now, maybe. I don’t know. Probably not. But the right meds cost money. A lot of money. So did doctors authorized to prescribe them. Weskind spent the money on the Lady, instead. It wasn’t enough, but it was more. That’s what she said every time I suggested keeping her body on an even keel, and even I couldn’t explain how she’d get refills for special meds in some of the ports we hit.”
“By the saints, Kilcannon, someone with untreated multi-polar can’t run a ship!”
“Captain Weskind can.”
She sat back, eyeing me with an expression I couldn’t read. “You do realize you have a legal responsibility to report a captain who’s incapacitated?”
“Captain Weskind is not incapacitated!” I realized I’d yelled and my face felt hot. Halley’s non-expression hadn’t changed, but I tried to speak more calmly. “She needs a little extra help. That’s all. She’s in command.”
“I see,” Halley answered again in a tone that conveyed nothing. “How long have you known Captain Weskind?”
I rubbed my face with both hands, feeling embarrassed. “Since Galpin Prime. The Lady was in port. I met Captain Weskind there. I was just a kid.”
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