I shouldn't have been so affected. It wasn't like I'd never met this man or his band before. I was a fan, after all. I'd seen them backstage dozens of times. I'd shaken their hands and spoke a few words to each, gotten their autographs and given them my thanks.
I'd even seen a few members of the band up close at a private event, once. Being a music student and having friends with connections in the industry had its perks. Of course, at the time, all I'd been able to do was stare at them, mouth gaping open and blushing. It had been mortifying.
I wasn't going to let that happen again. I had to get out before I made a fool out of myself.
But I had stood in the doorway for too long. I should have left when I had a chance. Noah turned to leave. He froze as his eyes met mine.
Immediately his expression shut down, eyes shuttering. His face went blank, no trace of the pain I'd seen before.
"What are you doing here?"
"I'm so sorry," I replied immediately, shuffling my feet back and forth awkwardly.
His voice was flat. "No one's supposed to be here."
"I-I'm lost," I stammered.
The expression on his face was chilly, except for the lingering frustration in his eyes and the downturned corners of his mouth. He set down the papers he'd picked up from the floor on the piano.
"I'll just… leave," I said weakly.
Noah eyed me up and down slowly. My cheeks flushed with embarrassment at that penetrating gaze. I couldn't help eyeing him back. Damn, but those jeans were tight. I'd heard rumors, but he couldn't really be that big, could he? I could practically see his outline through the rough fabric.
"Do I know you?" he asked coldly.
I shook my head, trying to suppress the heat flaring between my legs.
"I've seen you before." The words weren't a question. "It was at a party. That album release."
My heart sank. The last thing I wanted was for him to recognize me. I didn't want him to think I was just another one of his swooning fangirls. Even if it was true.
"I remember." His eyes narrowed. "You were so starstruck you couldn't say a word."
I fought to shake myself out of my daze. Noah was right. I had been struck speechless before. Almost like I was now. I didn't want to let that happen again. I could pull myself together. Definitely. I could totally do that.
"Well. You know." I gestured to him.
He tapped his fingers on the top of the piano in an impatient rhythm. "No, I don't know. What?"
"You're Noah Hart," I shrugged helplessly. Noah. Fucking. Hart. I still couldn't believe it.
"You're a fan?"
I tried to make light of it. "Who isn't a fan of Darkest Days?"
"So the answer is yes?" he asked, almost mocking.
I stayed silent.
"How lucky for you to have stumbled upon me."
I swallowed hard. I was either lucky or cursed. How could I possibly manage an interview after running into the lead singer of Darkest Days? My heart felt like it might explode out of my chest. My limbs were trembling. My insides were throbbing.
I had to get a hold of myself.
"I didn't mean to intrude. I'm here for an interview."
"This area is off limits to non-employees."
"I'm sorry. I think I got off on the wrong floor."
I hovered in the doorway, unable to make myself walk away.
"You want an autograph or something?" His voice full of snark. "I can't imagine why else you'd still be standing here."
"Sorry, I'll just…" I trailed off, breath hitching as Noah strode over.
He moved like a wild animal, purposeful, with a barely restrained edge. As he approached, he scanned me up and down, his dark eyes intense. I felt my nipples tighten and peak underneath my blouse.
His eyes lingered on my chest. I had no doubt he could see the effect he was having on me. I fought back a flush.
"Or maybe you want more than an autograph?"
I folded my arms over my stiff nipples to hide them. "I don't know what you mean."
"Fangirls throw themselves at me all the time. You think I don't recognize that look you're giving me?"
"I'm not throwing myself at you. I'm just standing here."
"Your nipples are hard as a rock."
A sense of shame swirled and combined with outrage inside my chest. "It's cold in here."
"It's almost summer."
"The air conditioning is on."
"Is that why your face is red?"
I put my hands to my cheeks. "It is not."
Noah smirked. "I bet your pussy's soaked, too."
My mouth popped open, appalled and turned on at the same time. Hearing those dirty words out of this man's mouth made my inner walls pulse.
"Famous rock star or not, you don't get to makes comments on my pussy."
"Am I wrong?" He took another step forward, crowding me until my back was nearly to the wall. My breathing sped up. I couldn't even tell if I was angry or turned on. He smirked. "Have I turned you speechless again?"
I inhaled a sharp breath, but nothing came out.
He narrowed his glinting eyes at me and backed away. I let out a wavering whimper, my vocal chords beginning to work again.
Noah gave me a darkly amused look as he walked through the open door. "Good luck with your interview, fangirl."
The moment he left I clung to the doorframe, my knees going weak. Shivers ran down my spine, half in arousal and half in anxiety. I only had room for one thought in my head.
Who exactly was this Noah Hart I'd met, and what the hell happened to my soulful, romantic poet?
I couldn't believe I'd met Noah Hart.
I couldn't believe Noah Hart had been so moody and abrasive.
I also couldn't believe I was actually sitting in the vast foyer of Etude Entertainment with marble floors and expensive leather furniture. My stomach was doing flips, and it had nothing to do with the sexy, gruff rock star I'd encountered.
Well. Maybe it had a little to do with that. Okay. A lot to do with that.
I'd been sitting in the same spot for over twenty minutes, though. Straight-backed to avoid slouching, chin up to convey confidence, thighs pressed together to prevent a flashing incident. I exuded a sense of calm, competence, and professionalism.
On the outside, anyway.
On the inside, my mind gibbered away at me non-stop.
Why were they making me wait so long? I didn't care. This was the opportunity of a lifetime. But what if they decided to go with someone else? Of course they'd go with someone else. I was nothing special.
It didn't matter how long they made me wait, though. I'd sit there forever if it meant I had a chance to work with one of the biggest entertainment companies in the world.
Despite my misbegotten encounter with Noah Hart, I'd wait forever if I had a chance to work at the music label that had signed Darkest Days.
I gave myself a mental shake. No use getting all worked up. I might not even get the job. I'd been left waiting for so long. Maybe they really had forgotten me. I'd been a single minute late. That might have been enough to disqualify me.
Light footsteps sounded down the hallway. I stood up with haste, smoothing down my pencil skirt and blouse. I forced myself to breathe deeply, hoping to wipe away any hint of nerves. Thank god my nipples were no longer stiff with arousal.
A woman wearing a smart pantsuit, in her late-twenties or early-thirties at most, stepped into the lobby.
"Jennifer Young?"
I pushed aside all thoughts of a certain grumpy, gorgeous, and goddamn sexy rock star god. I plastered a pleasant smile on my face.
"Yes, I'm Jen."
"Naomi Sera." The woman held out her hand for a shake. I made sure to grasp it firmly. She pulled out a sheet of paper and handed me a pen. "Before we do anything else, you need to sign this NDA."
"A non-disclosure agreement?"
"Exactly. You can't tell anyone the details of what we talk about today."
I scribble
d my name with haste and handed it back to her.
"I'm sorry to keep you waiting." Her black hair, cut short in a severe bob, swayed back and forth as she shook her head, an apologetic look on her face. "I had some trouble with—" She cut herself off with an almost exasperated laugh. "Never mind. You'll see soon enough."
My interest piqued, I followed her through hallways decorated with framed vinyl album covers, each one labeled with its recording sale award, either Gold, Platinum, or Diamond. I recognized almost all the names.
"Will I be meeting with any others?" I wanted to get a feel for how this interview would go. Naomi had sounded nice through the emails we'd exchanged, but who knew how many other people would be interviewing me.
"Just myself and…" she paused for a moment before continuing, "…and one other person. That's the reason I'm so late. He was being difficult. You aren't the first person we've interviewed for this position. The others… didn't work out."
That small hesitation made me nervous. Why wouldn't she tell me who else I'd be meeting with? Could it be one of the big wigs? Someone from the C-suite? And why hadn't the other people worked out?
That question was answered the moment Naomi waved me into an open office.
Scanning the room quickly, I immediately zeroed in on the man leaning against the wall, tattooed forearms crossed over his chest. No leather jacket. From what I could see, the tattoos were random designs, odd shapes and geometrical patterns. If they had any meaning, I couldn't decipher it.
Even with his face turned away and his mouth twisted into a scowl, his presence dominated the room. Although his eyes were averted, he seemed to sense the exact moment I walked in. He tilted his head a fraction of an inch toward me. Dark glinting eyes met mine.
Noah.
"I assume you know who this is." Naomi motioned to him with a wave.
Noah stiffened, shoulders tensing, the only indication of his surprise. "You?"
I straightened my back. I wasn't going to let him know I was rattled. Or aroused. Again.
Naomi looked confused. "Do you two already know each other?"
Noah stayed silent, not bothering to explain, so I did.
"We've met."
He ignored me and turned to Naomi. "Why is she here?"
"She's here to interview for the job."
"She's barely out of school," he said flatly.
"She is actually called Jen," I cut in. He was trying to needle me. Trying to throw me off balance, maybe. I didn't know why. His very presence was enough to do that. "I'm not a student. I've graduated college." Only weeks ago, but he didn't need to know that.
"I know seeing Noah Hart must come as a surprise," Naomi told me as we sat down at the conference table. "But we don't want to let interview candidates know too much about the position before they sign a NDA and are officially offered the job."
I resolved to put aside my feelings. I needed to act professional. I couldn't let him get to me. I wanted to get off on the right foot with Noah.
Although I had a feeling on the wrong foot was the only way Noah Hart knew how to interact with people.
"As the manager for Darkest Days, it's my job to interview candidates for this position," Naomi said.
I wondered why Noah Hart was part of the interview process. He didn't seem to want to be here at all.
"The professor who recommended you sent us some samples of your work," she continued. "We were impressed. But I'd like to learn more about you personally." Naomi turned to Noah, who was still leaning against the wall, arms crossed over his chest. "Sit."
He glared, but did what she said. He turned his head toward the wall, away from me.
"How much do you know about Darkest Days?" Naomi asked.
I forced back a nervous smile. I knew everything about Darkest Days. Everything. I didn't know what this had to do with the job, but if they wanted an answer, I'd give it to them. I turned away from Noah and focused on Naomi.
"They're one of the biggest rock groups to come out in the last few years. They've gone Platinum multiple times over. Their latest album won a dozen awards." I wondered how much else to say. Naomi gave me an encouraging look, so I continued. "Industry insiders often remark on their ability to take multiple music genres and blend them together into a hard rock sound that's still commercially accessible. Some say their influence is redefining rock music itself."
"You're familiar with the band and their music," Naomi nodded. "Good. And what about you? Tell us about your musical background."
My hands went cold and clammy again. I tried to remember the interview tips I'd read online. They all said to sell yourself. I didn't think I had very much to sell. I was sure nothing made me stand out from all the other applicants they'd probably interviewed. I wasn't an expert in anything. I just fooled around with a lot of different instruments. Maybe that could be enough to impress.
"I've been playing my whole life. I started with piano and violin as a child. Later on I learned the cello and harpsichord. I can also play guitar and bass."
Noah shifted, staring at me out of the corner of his eye. When he saw that I caught him, he immediately looked away.
"I'm also a fan of the hammered dulcimer," I continued, starting to feel self conscious. I started playing it because no one else at my academy did. I didn't have anyone to compare myself to. No one to feel inadequate next to. If I was only mediocre it didn't matter as much.
"I'm not an expert by any means, though," I continued. "I wouldn't call myself an expert in any of them, but I can play well enough, I suppose."
"And what about composing?" Naomi asked. "You write your own songs, yes?"
"Yes, although I only started composing in high school." Most of the students at my music academy had been writing music since they were kids. I almost felt embarrassed to have only started in my late teens in comparison.
"A few of your compositions have been performed professionally, your professor told me."
"Those were mostly songs I worked on with other students. I can't take all the credit."
Naomi looked thoughtful. "You went to the prestigious Academy of Orchestral and Performance Studies for college, is that right?"
"Yes, OPUS Academy. I double majored in Composition and Music Theory."
Noah grunted. "All the theory in the world means nothing when it comes to writing real music."
"Play nice," Naomi admonished.
He grunted and looked away.
Naomi continued. "Your professor did say you were one of the brightest students she'd ever taught. She was right to recommend you."
I tried not to duck my head, embarrassed. "She's exaggerating. There are many students much more talented than I am."
"How modest," Noah muttered under his breath.
"How accomplished," Naomi spoke over him. She made a sharp movement under the table. Noah flinched and scowled at her, rubbing his knee. She continued speaking without a pause. "I'm impressed with your qualifications."
All the praise made me flush. I looked down, wavy long hair falling over my face. "I recently graduated, so I'm not sure how qualified I am."
I could name a dozen classmates who had more talent than me, people who were naturally gifted. I often struggled with my schoolwork, and even though I loved learning new instruments, it sometimes felt like I took forever to become even mildly proficient. I wasn't all that special.
Naomi stared me down for a few moments, a considering look on her face, then nodded once.
"Jennifer, I'd like to offer you this job."
"Are you serious?" Noah said, voice flat.
Naomi ignored him. "Are you interested?"
She said it so matter of fact, I wasn't sure I'd heard right. Had I done it? Was I really going to be working with Etude Entertainment?
The words sank in. Maybe I was more qualified than I thought. Maybe Naomi saw something in me I didn't see in myself. I let out a small choked cough and hurried to reply.
"Yes! Of course I am."
"
Wonderful."
Noah sank back into his seat. "Yeah. Great."
Despite his lack of enthusiasm, I couldn't suppress the glee that rose up in my chest. Then the rational part of me gave me a kick. I placed my clasped hands on the table and cleared my throat.
"Although, before I formally accept, I would like to know about the position. What exactly were the others hired to do? And why weren't they able to do it?"
"We need you to write a song," Naomi said.
"That's it?"
Noah scoffed, crossing his arms over his chest. Naomi threw him a vexed look, then turned to me.
"It's not quite so simple. We need you to write a song for Darkest Days."
I gaped. "Are you kidding me right now?"
"Not in the slightest."
"I'd get songwriting credits?"
"No. But you'd get royalties."
My mind nearly exploded trying to imagine the sum of money that entailed. Way more than I'd ever gotten at my crappy part time jobs.
"But the band always composes their own songs," I protested, still unbelieving. "They never use outside songwriters. They have one hundred percent artistic control."
"You're right. August composes the basis of their songs and Noah writes the lyrics, then the guys all work together to flesh it out. But this time, each member of Darkest Days is creating a song solely on their own for their newest album, from composing the music to writing the lyrics. Therein lies the problem."
"Problem?"
"Noah is a lyricist."
I quickly glanced at the lead singer of Darkest Days. That was why he'd been so frustrated at the piano. I immediately felt bad for him. I understood that feeling all too well.
"You can't write songs? Just lyrics?"
The withering glare I received in return nearly made me shrink back, all sympathy fading.
"I can write songs," he said through gritted teeth.
"Then why haven't you?" Naomi arched an eyebrow. "You've had months."
Noah looked away with a disgruntled expression.
"I don't care if you've got writer's block or performance anxiety or what, but you need to compose something," she stressed.
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