Five minutes. It surely wasn’t too much to ask. Five paltry minutes, and then she’d turn her feet around and return to face it all once more, as if she had never been away. No one need notice. Indeed, no one ever did notice plain Kathryn Marchant, which is why Aunt Anna and Uncle Henry had agreed to have her to live with them after her papa’s death. She was the perfect backdrop against which to exhibit their own sweet Lottie, and, of course, it saved on the expense of employing another servant. It was something that Kathryn had firmly resolved not to dwell upon, as such thoughts could do nothing except produce a bitterness that was unworthy of all that her dear departed mama and papa had instilled in her.
The hallway had become a corridor, which continued through a set of doors towards the rear of Lady Finlay’s large mansion house. Not another soul was to be seen. Evidently Lady Finlay had the servants engaged elsewhere and no other guest would be so rude or so bold as to wander so freely. The corridor became a gallery and Kathryn paused to examine the paintings that lined the walls. Faces, some faintly reminiscent of the elderly Lord Finlay, peered down at her. Just as she was examining a lofty-looking young man’s features, footsteps sounded in the distance.
Lord above, she could not be found here! Why, just imagine Aunt Anna’s reaction to the news that her niece had taken it upon herself to inspect her ladyship’s family portraits. Glancing around in panic, she spied a single door at the end of the gallery, just at the point where the corridor turned and led away to the right. The footsteps grew louder.
Kathryn did not wait to hear any more. Within the blink of an eye she ran towards the door, and, finding it to be unlocked, whipped into the room beyond. Just in time, for the footsteps, large and plodding, passed her hiding place and continued off into the distance. She heaved a sigh of relief and turned to look at the place in which she now stood.
It appeared to be a large room with a few items of dustsheet-covered furniture clustered around its periphery. There were no candles burning and no fire within the blackened grate. Yet the centre of the room was bathed in a silver light that flooded in through a pair of glass doors. The magical illumination drew Kathryn like a moth. Lottie and Aunt Anna were no more. All else was forgotten as the moonlight lulled her under its spell. Through the panes of glass she could see the deep darkness of the night sky studded with the glitter of distant stars. But the moon itself was what held her attention—huge and white, a glowing orb amidst the darkness. Kathryn stared with increasing fascination. Such a feeling of peace. Within the silent silver room anger ebbed, indignation crumbled.
There had been nothing unusual in Lottie’s behaviour; Kathryn had long since grown used to her cousin’s high-handed ways. What was it, then, that had instigated her outburst? The question perhaps should have been who rather than what. And the answer, to Kathryn’s chagrin, was patently obvious: Lord Ravensmede.
It was one thing to escape the reality of her life by daydreaming, but quite another when those dreams involved a particular nobleman. Unfortunately, she had been thus affected since first seeing the arrogant man across the floor at Almack’s Assembly Rooms a month ago. It was just an imagining, a game that she played inside her head, nothing more. Harmless, or at least it had been until now. But she had reckoned without this evening. She knew that no man of quality would look twice at such a plain penniless creature as herself. Witnessing the obvious disdain in which Lord Ravensmede held her was humiliating, as if the cloth had been torn from the mirror and she had been forced to stand exposed before it. Kathryn’s life did not make for a pretty picture.
She thought of the past eight years, of the deaths of her parents and her sister. Nothing of Aunt Anna’s dislike or Lottie’s tantrums could compare with the pain that those losses had wrought. At first she had thought it intolerable, but as the weeks became months, and the months, years, Kathryn had learned to live with the ache buried deep in her heart. She could take whatever Aunt Anna wished to throw at her. Wasn’t that what daydreams were for? To make life bearable? To make one impervious to hurt? Lord Ravensmede could not be allowed to change that. His behaviour was an abomination of all that was gentlemanly. He was as arrogant a scoundrel as his reputation told. For certain his place in her dreams was now forfeit. She would not think of him again. Most definitely not. And all the while the cool silver light stroked her with its comforting caress.
Kathryn could never be sure of what it was that made her suddenly draw back into the darkness of the shadows, but barely had she done so when the door creaked open and a large figure slipped inside. The door closed with a quiet click.
‘Amanda?’ The whisper was clearly that of a man.
She stood quiet and motionless, hoping to hide her presence from the stranger.
The soft tread of his footsteps sounded against the floor.
Her back hugged the floral-print wallpaper. Please stay where you are and come no further.
‘Amanda?’ the voice whispered again and a figure advanced into the moonlight.
The breath caught in Kathryn’s throat as the light illuminated his face. Dear Lord, no! It cannot be. As if summoned by her thoughts, there stood the stark figure of the Viscount of Ravensmede.
His head lifted, as a hound that scents the hare, and it seemed that he could see through the darkness to look right at her.
Do not see me. Pray, do not know that I’m here. Kathryn tried to quieten her ragged breathing.
‘Amanda, what game are you playing? Have you forgotten our little arrangement?’ He walked slowly, determinedly towards her.
A meeting with his inamorata, except that it isn’t Amanda, whomever she may be, who is here. She swallowed hard, and heard the smile in his voice.
‘Very well, we’ll proceed as you prefer. I must agree that it is a rather entertaining novelty…for now.’
There is nothing else for it; I will have to own my identity. Kathryn was just about to step forward when his fingers touched to her wrist. A short sharp intake of breath. She made to warn him of his mistake, only to find herself in the Viscount’s arms and her would-be protestations silenced by the warm touch of his lips. She stiffened and tried to pull away.
But Lord Ravensmede clearly had other ideas. His hands stroked sensuously against her back, imprisoning her with their caress. His heat burned through the fabric of her bodice.
She pushed hard against his chest, her fingers all too aware of the unyielding muscle beneath. Panic gripped her. She struggled. Opened her mouth to scream.
Slowly, deliberately, he intensified the kiss, his tongue tracing a spell against her lips before it probed within.
Something fluttered deep within her, and all her good intentions disappeared in a warm fuzzy haze. Kathryn moaned and gave up all semblance of resistance as reality and daydream merged within the passion of the moment.
She didn’t understand what was happening to her. Knew that her behaviour was reprehensible. But her blood surged wild and strong, and the sensations assailing her would not be denied. Taste of nectar on her tongue. Touch of lips that slid against hers—demanding, enticing. Smell of clean masculinity mixed with the subtle undertones of bergamot. Even when every rational thought screamed out that she should stop she could not. Common sense fled. Kathryn answered the call of Lord Ravensmede’s body. She relaxed into his arms, her rigidity shed like a cloak upon the floor. So warm, so comfortable. She sighed and nestled closer. For that one brief moment in time Kathryn was the woman of her dreams, neither poor nor dowdy, but desirable and loved. Dewy breath caressed her cheek. A soft whisper tickled her ear.
‘Amanda.’ The name rolled lazily off his tongue.
Kathryn descended back down to earth with a crash, all her dreams shattered in an instant. What am I doing letting him kiss me? It’s not Kathryn Marchant that he holds so tenderly, but another woman altogether. If he knew the truth … ‘No!’ Her whisper was loud and urgent. She thrust herself back from him.
‘What the…?’ His puzzlement was palpable.
‘No!
’ she said again, louder this time and with quiet determination. She tried to move away. But she had reckoned without Lord Ravensmede.
He stepped closer, backing her up against the wall. ‘What’s wrong? Was the diamond bracelet not to your liking?’ One large thumb drizzled slowly down her cheek to brush against the soft cushion of her mouth. ‘Come, Amanda, we’re both hardened players of this game.’
Kathryn’s heart thundered in her chest, her pulse leaping at her throat. Her whisper was loud against the hiss of silence. ‘You’re mistaken, my lord. I am not…’
Ravensmede halted her words with an ardent kiss. ‘Am I then mistaken in that? Or in the fact that your kisses are the sweetest I’ve ever tasted?’ His hands slid over her shoulders as he pulled her to him. ‘Trembling like a virgin, Mrs White? Did I not know just how determinedly you had courted my attention, your timidity might be believable.’ He made to kiss her again, but was thwarted by Kathryn’s wriggles and succeeded only in planting a chaste kiss upon the tip of her nose.
The time for speaking was past. Kathryn knew she had but one opportunity for escape and she created it with a sudden exclamation. ‘My lord, there’s someone at the window!’ When Ravensmede turned to look over his shoulder, she bolted and ran for the door. Blood pounded in her temples and her breath shortened. Movement sounded behind her, but she did not look back, just kept running. Her fingers reached forward, the tips touching to the cool brass of the doorknob before their contact was severed. A strong arm wound around her waist and yanked her back against a wall of solid muscle.
‘What the hell is this about, Amanda? You’ve been flirting with me for months, practically begging me to visit your bed, and when finally I agree you flee as if the very devil is on your heels. Let’s resolve this matter once and for all, madam.’ He waited with patience, but did not loosen his grip.
A thousand thoughts whirled through Kathryn’s brain. Plans to escape, words of excuse, fear and panic, but through them all she knew her time had come. There was no alternative other than to let him see the truth and await his reaction. Dear Lord, if there was any other way! She steeled herself to the task, to the revulsion and anger she knew that she would see in his face. There could be no further prevarication. She ceased her struggle.
‘An explanation, please, if you would be so good, Mrs White.’
‘I did not mean for this to happen, my lord.’
She allowed Lord Ravensmede to turn her in his arms, knowing full well it would be the last time ever she would feel his touch. The shadow had lightened a little, but as she looked up she could see nothing more than the dark outline of his face, and was thankful that it was so. ‘I am not Mrs White,’ she said simply.
Silence stretched between them.
Abruptly he pulled her across the room to stand before the glass doors. Moonlight captured his stunned features, proclaiming the perfection of each contour, every plane. Dark eyes glittered incredulously, raking every fibre of her being until she thought she could stand his silent scrutiny no more. She stood stiff and erect, her pride holding all else in check.
‘I am Miss Kathryn Marchant, the cousin of Miss Lottie Marchant.’
No reply, just the soft sound of his breathing, and the continued pressure of his hands around her upper arms.
A tremble set up in her legs. ‘I only sought some…somewhere where I could be alone.’ The words were stilted, awkward. ‘I did not know that…that the room was to be used by another…others,’ she corrected.
Still he did not speak.
‘What has occurred here has been a mistake. I beg that you’ll speak of it to no one. If my aunt was to hear …’ She could not finish what she had started.
His voice rumbled low, little more than a whisper. ‘Why did you not speak earlier? Inform me of my…error?’
A hot blush flooded her cheeks. ‘I tried—’
He raised an eyebrow. ‘Not very convincingly.’
‘I could not, my lord.’
‘Could not, or would not, Miss Marchant?’
She quailed beneath the intensity of his stare.
‘You play a very foolish game…a downright dangerous game.’
The touch of his fingers burned where they contacted the bare skin of her arms.
‘Don’t tell me you have not heard of my reputation?’ he mocked, then glanced away as if there was something he could not quite fathom. When his gaze slid back to hers there was something in it that caused her heart to race even faster.
She did not answer. Aridity threatened to close her throat. When finally her words came they were nothing but a hoarse whisper. ‘Please excuse me, my lord, I must return to my cousin.’
‘Really?’ There was a lazy drawl in Ravensmede’s voice that did not match the glint in his eye.
‘Indeed, my lord.’
His lordship showed not the slightest inclination to withdraw his hands.
Beneath the magical glow of the moonlight her skin was pale and smooth as alabaster. Her hair was still pinned back, but some of the curls had escaped to dangle enticingly against her cheek and throat. One finger lifted a curl from her cheek, then slid down to trace the delicate line of her jaw. His gaze followed where his finger led, then meandered back to her eyes that appeared opalescent in the moonlight. Fringed with long dark lashes, glittering with unshed moisture, her eyes were quite simply beautiful. And contained in the stare that she returned him Ravensmede could see shock and guilt…and passion. She was playing with fire. Already the heat within him kindled.
‘Miss Marchant, someone should teach you …’ deliberately he leaned down and allowed his breath to caress her ear ‘.the perils …’ his lips hovered by the side of her face, so close yet not touching ‘…of allowing yourself …’ he closed the last small space that divided them until he felt his thighs brush against her skirts ‘…to be kissed by a rake.’ Her clean feminine fragrance filled his nose. Where their legs touched he could feel the slight tremor running through her. He watched her eyes widen, but she did not try to pull away. ‘Shall I, Kathryn?’ he exhaled the question in a soft breath. He looked at her a moment longer, then gently, insistently, covered her mouth with his, massaging her lips in a slow, sensual motion.
She tasted sweet and innocent…and completely alluring. Desire leapt. Their first kisses had not lied. He wanted nothing more than to deepen the kiss, to drink in every last drop of her. Attraction scorched as hot as if he were the greenest of lads. He wanted to reach in and touch her as she had touched him. Temptation loomed large. And Nicholas Maybury, Viscount of Ravensmede, had never been a man to deny himself.
‘By the heavens, Ravensmede! You arrange an assignation with me then fill my place with another before I arrive!’ A woman’s shrill voice shrieked at full volume from the doorway. ‘You, sir, are a damnable scoundrel!’
He felt the girl jump within his arms, heard her sudden shocked gasp. It was with a great degree of reticence that he removed his embrace. ‘Mrs White, how very good of you to join us,’ he said.
The voluptuous young widow’s eyes slid towards Miss Marchant and narrowed further.
He sensed rather than saw the girl’s withdrawal. ‘Miss Marchant and I were just admiring the night sky.’
A derisive snort sounded from the beauty. She stepped fully into the room, leaving the door gaping wide behind her. ‘I know full well exactly what you and…Miss Marchant…were doing and it had nothing to do with the stars! Don’t take me for a fool, Ravensmede!’
‘I must insist that you’re mistaken, my dear Mrs White.’ He moved to stand between the two women, shielding Kathryn from the other’s view. Mrs White’s abundant bosom expanded before his very eyes, rising and falling with alarming speed. There was about her face a slyness that he had not observed before. He wondered that he ever could have mistaken one woman for the other, for in the clear moonlight there was certainly nothing of a similarity between them. Amanda White was tall with a curvaceous figure. Kathryn Marchant was not. And yet it was the smaller, sl
immer woman in the unfashionable plain gown that he wanted; the woman whose eyes were cool silver, and whose lips were hot with untapped passion.
‘I know what I saw, sir,’ Mrs White said harshly. ‘Miss Marchant, indeed.’ Her head bobbed to look down upon Kathryn’s pale face. ‘My, how your standards have dropped if you have taken up with such a plain little specimen. You know, of course, that she’s nothing but a poor companion.’ Her pretty face hardened into malice as she stared. ‘But then gentlemen will be gentlemen and have whatever they can from whoever will give it. It signifies nothing other than the perfidy of men in general. You, my lord, are no exception to the rule.’
Kathryn skirted Lord Ravensmede’s large frame and made for the door, but not before Mrs White had moved to block her exit.
‘You’re a trifle late in leaving, Miss Marchant. In fact, you never should have arrived. Scuttle back to your aunt, I’m sure she’ll be very interested in this evening’s activities.’ The widow laughed, a cruel and petty sound.
Through the dimness Ravensmede could see Kathryn’s face, white as a ghost, her eyes huge and round, staring with a horror that even her controlled façade could not disguise. Such vulnerability, such innocence. In one fleeting moment her life had been ruined…and he was not without blame in the matter. It was one thing to have a little fun, quite another to allow the woman to suffer. He knew what would happen if Mrs White’s gossip was allowed to spread. Guilt flickered. It was not a familiar feeling for Lord Ravensmede, and it led to contrariness.
‘Miss Marchant,’ he said with more asperity in his tone than was necessary, ‘return to your family.’ It sounded cold and imperious even to his own ear. She walked towards the door as if heading to her own execution. ‘We shall continue our study in astronomy another time.’ And he meant it. Kathryn Marchant’s kisses had shattered the monotony of his boredom and awakened a long-forgotten part of him. Ravensmede had no intention of just letting her walk out of his life. But first, and more importantly, he had to deal with Amanda White. He waited until he heard the soft click of the closing door.
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