“Um, sure,” I said. Surely there was a spell in the Book of Light that would erase this conversation from Dr. Wellington’s memory. I hoped.
He gave a little nod and disappeared into the emergency department. I raced back to where I had left Logan, but Michelle was gone, as was the gurney. As fast as I could walk without drawing attention to myself, I moved out the doors into the back lot and toward the ambulance. I hoped Michelle had made it without me, but the vehicle was dark and quiet. I looked in the window and saw the keys were in it.
“Psst,” Michelle’s voice came from the back. “Get in. You need to drive so I can stay back here with Logan.”
I climbed behind the wheel and took off for home.
I’ve always loved sunsets, especially the orangey-pink ones that happen low in the sky on a cool fall night. But as I raced for home, I cursed the setting star that would without a doubt beat us there. I sent up a silent prayer that Logan would wait to decide his fate, that he would resist Rick’s spell.
Then I yelled to Logan in the back, just in case some part of his unconscious got through to his soul. “Logan, if you can hear me, don’t choose. Please don’t choose.”
By the time I reached home, the sun was completely behind the horizon. I tore through the front door. Logan’s ghost hovered over a bowl of blood. Rick, in some kind of a trance, chanted in front of the circle of bones.
I did what any woman would have done. I slid, screaming, across the floor, crashing into the skulls and pushing the bowl out from under Logan. To be honest, I had no idea what the consequences of my actions might have been and in hindsight, it could have been disastrous.
I don’t know if it was because I was the witch or simply that the stars were aligned in my favor that night. But I got lucky.
Chapter 30
For The Best
“Grateful, what is going on?” Logan yelled, his molecules separating and rejoining with his anger.
“Yes, explain yourself,” Rick said.
“You stay out of this, dirt jockey.” Logan turned, pointing a finger in Rick’s direction. “Do you know what this bastard almost did to me? I might have never seen you again!”
“It was for the best. She agreed,” Rick said, pointing at me.
The brutal force of the words slammed into Logan, and he broke apart in a flash of light. “You knew, Grateful? How could you agree to this?” Logan’s voice blasted at me, shaking the walls and making the hanging pots in the kitchen clink together.
“I didn’t want you to spend eternity forgetting yourself in my attic,” I yelled. “I thought it was for the best.”
“Why did you stop me?” Rick asked. “Have you changed your mind?”
“Of course she’s changed her mind! Grateful and I have something. She wouldn’t do this to me.” Logan’s orb form floated closer to my face.
“Actually, Logan, it would have been for the best if I hadn’t found what I did.”
“What did you find?” Logan and Rick asked in unison.
I walked to the door and opened it for Michelle, helping the gurney’s wheels over the threshold. Logan floated over to his body, and Rick stepped closer. After a moment of awestruck silence, Rick jerked backward.
Logan took longer. He hovered over his body until I wondered if I’d caused some type of metaphysical shock. Eventually, he reformed in front of me, looking like a younger, healthier Logan than the body on the gurney. With a glance toward Rick, he nodded in my direction and said, “Can you put me back in?”
“I hope so. I don’t know yet. I need to check the book.”
“Can I suggest we move Logan’s body to the attic and get cookin’?” Michelle said. “I mean, we do need to sneak Logan back into the hospital tonight if this works. He’s already been gone a long time for a CT scan.”
“I agree. Rick, can you carry him up the stairs?” I asked.
“What? I don’t want that guy touching my body,” Logan protested.
“You should have had such qualms when you possessed me, you insolent ball of gas!” Rick threw up his hands in disgust.
“Rick has a point, Logan. And furthermore, there is no way Michelle and I are making it up those stairs with this gurney. If we’re going to do this, we need Rick’s help.”
Logan frowned, placing his hands on his hips and pacing around his body. “I don’t look good. Are we sure I’m not going to die anyway?”
“Logan! Are we going to try this or not?”
“Okay, okay. He can carry me up the stairs.”
“Good. Let’s go.”
Rick lifted Logan’s body in his arms and carefully moved toward the attic. Michelle and I followed with the liquid nutrition and his IV fluids. As we turned the corner at the second floor landing, Logan’s head bumped into the banister. I didn’t think Rick did it on purpose. I really didn’t. But Logan was not happy.
“Hey! Do you mind?”
“Sorry,” Rick said, but I caught the tiniest of smiles flash across his face. I gave him my best death stare.
We all spilled into the attic, and I conjured a hospital bed for Logan’s body. Once he was settled in with his fluids safely hung, I hurried to the Book of Light. I started with P for possession but the only spells in my book were to force a ghost out of a living body. I found some promising spells under H for healing, but while they would make Logan’s body stronger, they wouldn’t bind his soul to it. After an hour of searching, I slammed the thing shut and turned toward Rick.
“Before I die, I’m upgrading this thing into a searchable database. I can’t find anything useful. What do you know? Any caretaker magic that can put him back?”
“No. Caretakers usually exorcise ghosts, not the other way around.”
“Maybe we’re making this harder than it needs to be.” I moved to the hospital bed. “Logan, try to possess your body.”
Logan floated to himself and placed a hand over his body’s heart, but before he proceeded he looked at me with something close to panic in his eyes. “I don’t think I want to do this. Look at me. Will I ever be normal again? I don’t even know if my limbs work. Did I break anything in the crash? Will I be in pain?”
Michelle piped up. “You have a broken femur and collarbone. They should heal eventually, but you’ve endured a nasty bump on the head.”
“The bottom line is that we don’t know, Logan,” I said. “There are no guarantees but it’s your life to live, whatever there is left of it.”
“Maybe I don’t want to live it. Maybe it would be better if I let this body die and didn’t have to go through the horror of seeing myself waste away every morning. I’m not sure I want to grow old and crippled. I’m not sure I want to live again.”
Fear is a poor decision-maker. I saw it strangle all of the logic out of my friend, felt the weight of it on my shoulders. The terror of crawling back into a broken body was a feeling I would never want to experience, but the worst part was doing it alone. I’d read some things about him in his file. Logan was a chef, a restaurant owner, an avid biker. But the one thing he wasn’t was a husband and father. His next of kin was a cousin who lived in Albuquerque. Recovery was bad enough when you had a support system, but when you were alone, every day could be a struggle.
“Logan, I know you’re scared. I’m not sure what condition your body is in right now or how long it will take for you to get better. But I can promise you this. I’ll be there for you. I won’t let you do this alone. I’ll help you with your recovery.”
Michelle had known me long enough to pick up on when to chime in. “Hey, when Grateful promises something, she does it. I’ll help too. We’ll be your support system.”
Hovering over his body, he seemed to consider this. He looked from me to Rick as if weighing the costs and benefits of what it would mean to have his body back, his life back. I couldn’t help, in that moment, to question what my life would be like without Logan. I’d quickly become accustomed to his presence in the house and wondered how empty it would feel without him.
But like a lost dog, I couldn’t keep him. His life did not belong to me.
“I’m going to hold you to your word,” he said to me and then sank his hand into his heart. His body jerked as if we’d hit it with a defibrillator. Logan sank in deeper until there was no more ghost. The body’s green eyes fluttered open.
“How do you feel, Logan? Can you wiggle your fingers and toes?”
I saw his finger twitch and then the sheet over his feet move. He opened his mouth but no sound came out.
“That’s good,” I said.
Logan sat up out of his body. “It’s not that bad in there. I think I can move everything but my throat feels weird and, obviously, I’m not sticking. I mean, I can’t just possess my own body, right? I need to somehow join with it.”
“Yes, of course,” I frowned and rubbed my chin. “Let’s try one more thing—although, I have no idea what will happen. We are in uncharted territory here.”
“What the hell. It’s just my soul.”
“I’m sorry, Logan. I don’t mean to use you as my guinea pig, but I think this is our best bet.”
“Shoot.”
“Lay back into your body.”
He did as I asked. I retrieved the canister of salt, making a mental note to buy more, and emptied the remainder around Logan’s bed. I stepped into the circle with my bowl and blade. The concentration it took for me to center my power within Logan’s body and soul was more than when he was a ghost. A bead of sweat formed on my temple as I pushed my power into him. Like forcing Jell-O into mashed potatoes, fingers of power oozed into the space where his soul was supposed to be. When I had an imprint of his metaphysical energy, I raised the blade, opened my eyes, and said, “Logan Valentine, I release your soul into your body.” I sliced my arm; blood flowed into the bowl.
The seizure that hit Logan shook the entire bed. I rolled him onto his side and held him so that he wouldn’t hurt himself. Michelle tried to help but she bounced off the salt circle I’d drawn as solidly as if it were made of glass. Luckily the shaking didn’t last long.
“Logan! Logan!” I called. “Are you okay?”
The body under me opened its mouth and a raspy whisper floated to my ear. “Are you stupid? Of course not.”
I rolled him back and squealed.
“I’m me again,” he said. As weak as his body had become, for a moment Logan’s face looked positively radiant.
Chapter 31
Come Daylight
Sneaking Logan back into his room at the hospital was easier than you might think. Nightshift nurses are woefully overworked and aside from a cheery hello from the unit secretary, no one questioned us about why Logan was missing for so long. The hardest part was bringing him into the hospital without going through Emergency. We ended up rolling him through a service entrance.
Michelle and I did allow ourselves one tiny pleasure before going home for the night. We waited in an empty room next door to Logan’s for his nurse to do her assessment. The wail of joy she emitted when he opened his eyes was priceless. We climbed on the elevator smiling. We’d just created a medical miracle.
“It’s been quite a night, Grateful,” Michelle said.
“Yes, it has. Did you ever think we’d be up to our armpits in magic and immortals?”
“Only on Halloween.”
We laughed.
“Seriously girl, you know your life just got a hell of a lot more complicated,” Michelle said.
“Why? My attic is free of ghosts, I have a boyfriend—sort of, and I think I’m handling this witch thing pretty well.”
“Logan is alive and has a body. When you say you have a ‘boyfriend—sort of,’ are you talking about Rick or Logan? Judging by what you’ve told me, you’re attracted to both.”
“I’m with Rick. It’s practically part of my job description.”
“A relationship shouldn’t be a job. Can you honestly admit that you don’t feel a connection to Logan?”
I couldn’t lie to Michelle, so I remained silent. Lucky for me, the doors opened, and I escaped into the hospital atrium.
Michelle didn’t let it drop. “Mmmm-hmmm. I thought so. Your offer to help Logan recover was your subconscious way of maintaining a connection to him. You weren’t ready to say goodbye, not really.”
Thank you, mental health nurse, for that unsolicited diagnosis. “Is it wrong to not be sure? I’m not married to Rick, after all.”
“It’s not wrong, as long as you’re honest about where things stand with both of them. Does Rick know how you feel?”
I stared at my coupled hands.
She gave me a hug and headed for her car.
I said a silent prayer that Manny wouldn’t give her a hard time about being so late again.
The ride home was the perfect time to think about the last week and the way my life had changed. I hadn’t agreed to marry Rick, but making love to him was a life-altering decision. It meant that I accepted my role as the Monk’s Hill witch and believed I’d lived before as Rick’s wife. It was a commitment to Rick, even if there wasn’t a license involved. But I couldn’t deny what Michelle said. Logan and I had a connection that was forged in this lifetime. As much as I thought I could love Rick, I didn’t think he was in love with the real me. It was much more likely that he was in love with a memory.
I pulled into his driveway, resolved to set Rick straight. With the number of disastrous relationships I’d left in my wake, it was important for Rick to understand what he was getting himself into, that I couldn’t promise him monogamy. Prudence had said that he needed to feed on me. I wasn’t sure how that worked. What if my noncommittal heart altered the amount of energy I could give him? Honesty was the best policy.
Dawn lurked on the horizon. The night’s icy fingers slid from my ribs, darkness lifting from my skin, scurrying from the impending sunrise. This was a new skill, a magical thing. I’d been a witch for all of forty-eight hours, and already I was changing, my cells tuning in to the force of things around me. Suddenly, I missed Prudence and wished I’d asked more questions while she was with me.
I rapped on the wood door to Rick’s stone cottage. The wind chimes tinkled softly in the gentle breeze, and the smell of herbs wafted through the waning dark. The door opened, and light filtered around Rick’s body. He was shirtless and barefoot, wearing only loose, straight-legged pants that hung low on his hips. Maybe he’d just shifted back. Was it a dangerous night? How many undead had he sent back to the underworld?
In the shadow of his sexy silhouette, all I could squeeze out of my mouth was, “Hello.”
He didn’t answer my salutation. My feet left the stone slab and I was whirled inside, his mouth finding mine under the arch of the doorway. The kiss was hard and wanting, as if he were trying to drink me in. I concentrated on our connection. He was weak. He needed me. He needed me like a drowning man needs air.
I wrapped my legs around his waist. He planted my back against the wall and ground his hips into me, trailing his nose up my neck. The pounding of his heart came through our connection, quickening my pulse. I rode waves of palpable desire, a decadent ache blossoming deep within me, begging to be soothed. He was the only medicine for my malady.
His body stilled, pressed against mine, and he met my eyes, his need filling their hollow blackness. An unspoken question lingered there. He was an honorable man, not at all like any other man I’d ever been with.
“Yes, Rick. Yes,” I whispered.
His mouth found mine again, and he leaned his weight into me, the hard bulge in his pants rubbing in just the right place. I moaned.
“The sounds you make. It lights a fire within me.”
“Ditto,” I said, sliding my hand between us. Down between my legs, I rubbed him through the thin material of his pants.
Rick gripped me under the butt and carried me into his bedroom, tossing me on the bed. The sunrise filtered through the filmy window dressings and gave me an impressive view of his expansive chest. God he was gorgeous. All lean muscle
and tanned skin. My heart broke from the gate and galloped around my psyche. As he crawled on top of me, I opened for him, more than ready for anything he had in mind. I untied the string at his waist and yanked his pants down to his knees. In one graceful move, he pressed his lower body toward the ceiling and kicked them off. His knees slowly descended on either side of me in a move I’d only seen male gymnasts perform on television.
I had some moves myself. I slid down between his legs and licked a wet trail up his shaft. I circled my tongue around the head, tasting him. Lightning bolts shot through the length of my body. What I was doing was a turn-on, but through our connection, my world became lips, tongue, and wet heat.
He growled. In a heartbeat, my scrubs landed in ribbons on the floor. I crab-walked backward on the bed, watching Rick remove what scraps of fabric still clung to me. The added space gave me room to appreciate the view. He was glorious. Dark and dangerous. I traced the scythe-shaped pattern of his scar—the scar I gave him. The thought was highly erotic, and I leaned in to lick the raised skin.
I worked my hands down his abs and was suddenly airborne. When I landed, he was under me.
“Oh,” I said, feeling the head of him pressed against my slit. His hands circled my waist, thumbs caressing my bottom ribs. I sank deeper, taking the tip of him into me and watching his breath hitch in his throat. His jaw lengthened at the tease, the animal within fighting for the surface.
He leaned his head back, closed his eyes and raised his hips, plunging himself deeper into me. The pleasure was so intense, I could have come right then, but I was afraid if I did it would bring him to orgasm and cut this short. I wanted more, much more.
Instead, I rolled off him and the bed, landing on the balls of my feet. I glanced over my shoulder and grinned. “When you catch me, you can have me.”
With a squeal, I ran out of the bedroom and to the opposite side of the couch. He was there in a split second, playful and hard. He circled after me to the right, and I dodged left. He changed direction, but so did I. Then in a leap that was humanly impossible, he was over the couch and behind me. His right hand wrapped itself in my hair, pulling almost to the point of pain. His left circled my waist from behind. He lowered his lips to my ear.
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