by S. Moose
As soon as she says the last part I come all over the bed and moan her name. “Cameron. Fuck, baby, that was so hot.” I lift the phone and see her biting her bottom lip.
“Really?”
“Yeah. Please know I don’t expect anything. This was hot and I enjoyed it. I don’t want you thinking this is what you need to do to make me happy. You in my life, as my girlfriend, by my side, that makes me happy.”
I mean every word. Sex is great and I love it. With Cameron, it’ll be different with her. It’ll be passionate and full of tenderness. Her experience level compared to mine doesn’t bother me. She needs to understand I don’t expect or want anything if she’s not comfortable.
“That’s so sweet, Jacob. It means a lot to me that you’re thinking of my feelings. I’m ready though. I’m ready to do more and experience it all.”
“Soon, baby.”
“Okay fine.” She rolls her eyes and laughs. “Go to sleep. Text me tomorrow. Goodnight.”
“Goodnight beautiful.”
Before I’m about to shut my eyes and sleep, my phone beeps and I know it’s Cameron again.
Girlfriend: Dirty text messages and FaceTiming sex are necessary.
Me: Always.
I PUT THE bags of snacks on the counter and Grace gives me a wide-eyed look. “What?”
“Did you buy the whole snack aisle or something?”
“Okay so,” I take out the snacks and place them on the counter. It’s movie night tonight and Carter’s patiently waiting for us in the living room. “I got popcorn, cookies n’ cream ice cream, animal crackers, peanut butter, chocolate chip cookies, chocolate milk, pretzels with cheese sauce, and whipped cream.”
“You’re going to give us all a sugar coma,” she nudges me with her elbow and we take the snacks over to Carter in the living room.
When I was little, my parents and I would have movie night every Friday. No matter what, they were home and we spent the night together, watching a movie of my choice. There’d be snacks everywhere and I always got a little hyper afterward.
Doing this with Carter makes me think of my parents. If they were alive, they’d love Carter, and would do the same.
After two movies and most of the snacks are gone, Carter’s bouncing around and kicking around the soccer ball I got him. Grace and I are so tired and I’m pretty sure I slept through some of the movies.
“Aren’t you tired?” Grace whines and tries to get the ball from him. “Seriously, Carter. Aunt Grace can’t keep up.”
“Come on! I want to play!”
“No, Carter. It’s time for bed.” Grace chases Carter around the living room when all of a sudden he stops and gives us a sickly look. “Oh no!”
Before we know it, Carter’s throwing up and crying. I run over to him, rubbing his back, and telling Grace to get paper towels and water.
“Shh, it’s okay, buddy.”
“I’m sorry, Cameron. I didn’t mean to throw up. I think I ate too much.”
“It’s okay,” I tell him. Still rubbing his back, he heaves a little bit, and slumps in my arms. While Grace is cleaning, I take him upstairs to his room, which is Jacob’s old bedroom, get him cleaned up and ready for bed. “How are you feeling?”
“Better.” He gives me a smile and throws his arms around my neck. “Thank you for tonight and taking care of me, Cameron.”
“You’re so welcome!”
Carter turns on his side and looks at me. “My dad told me my mom left when I was a baby.”
“I know, buddy, and I’m really sorry.”
He sighs and blinks a few times before talking again. “I don’t really miss her. My friend Alex’s mom doesn’t come around either. He told me that she left with her trainer. Alex likes his dad’s girlfriend,” he smiles and sits up on the bed. “You’re pretty cool, Cameron.”
“You’re pretty cool too, Carter.”
I tuck Carter in and read him a bedtime story before kissing his forehead and slowly leaving the room.
“I love you, Cameron,” he whispers and I immediately stop and turn to look at him. I can see his eyes are partially open, like he’s waiting for me to say something back.
“I love you too, Carter. Goodnight.”
I head downstairs and see Grace slumped down on the couch. It smells lemony fresh in the living room, thank goodness.
“Carter okay?” I nod and I turn to look at her. “You all right?”
“He just said I love you to me, Grace, and it felt so good to hear. I don’t know. I mean,” I pause and try to collect my thoughts. “It felt good to be here for him and take care of him. And he said I’m cool!”
“You’re good with him and that’s awesome. Sometimes it’s hard for the new girl to come in the picture and accept her man’s previous life. But, you, you’re doing it with such class.”
“I’m trying. Jacob and I are so new. I don’t want to step on any toes, ya know?”
“I don’t think you are or you will know. My brother is so into you. I won’t be surprised if he’s in love. The way he looks at you, it’s like you’re the best thing that’s happened to him. He only sees you and when you’re together, there’s this current of electric love that binds you two together. It’s epic.”
I’m not sure how to respond and I think about what she’s telling me and I know she’s right because I feel it when we’re together. I feel it all.
“Good morning, beautiful.” I don’t want to wake up. This dream is way too good. It’s as if he’s standing near me because I can smell him. I can feel him. “Wake up, Cameron.”
Slowly opening my eyes, I see Jacob standing before me wearing jeans and a blue tee shirt. The smile he has on his face, showing off his adorable dimples, is making me feel all cheesy and gushy inside.
“You’re back early.”
“Um, Cameron.” I see his eyes on my body before he quickly turns away and looks down. Well, damn, that kind of hurts. “You, ah, ha, might want to fix your shirt.” I look down and see that my boob is pretty much out in the open. “Don’t get me wrong, I love your boobs,” he laughs and kisses my lips, “but there’s too many people in the house and I don’t need an audience when I cherish your body again.”
My annoyance drifts away and I can feel my face redden. Dirty thoughts are going through my mind and I really want to get him alone and let him cherish my body.
“I changed my flight to as early as possible. I didn’t want to stay away any longer. I’ve missed you.” He sits down next to me and leans down to kiss me gently on the lips. Our eyes lock and I can see that he’s telling me the truth, that all his words are true and sincere. That’s what I love about Jacob. He’s honest and genuine and there’s nothing behind his words because I know what he’s telling me and what he feels. Throughout the weeks I’ve been here, as much as I fought the idea of being with Jacob, the idea of being without him sucks. I’ve gotten to know him the way I want and I feel comfortable with him. I feel good and it’s been so long since I’ve felt this way.
“I’m so glad you’re back.” I lean my head against his shoulders and pull my legs over his. “How’d everything go?”
“Pretty good. I’ll most likely be traveling to and from Chicago more often for this project. Do you think you and Carter can come with me sometimes? I’d love for you both to be there with me. I missed you guys when I was gone.”
“Yeah, for sure,” I tell him and entwine my fingers in with his. “I think that’ll be a lot of fun.”
“I want to take you out tonight. My parents said they’ll watch Carter and you can be all mine.”
“I’d love that, Jacob. Where are you taking me?”
“Don’t you worry about that.” He kisses the side of my head and we hear Carter running down the stairs. He jumps on the couch and hugs Jacob, telling him how much he missed him and how much fun he had with Grace and me.
“Can we go swimming, Daddy?” Carter asks and looks at me too.
“Yeah, buddy. Go get ready and we’ll t
ake you outside.”
“Okay cool.”
He gets out of Jacob’s arms and runs upstairs to change. Without a pause, Jacob kisses my lips and I deepen it, getting up and straddling his lap. The feel of his tongue against mine brings back the ache between my legs and I want him so bad.
When Jacob and Carter leave to go home, I quickly Google a salon and spa to get ready for tonight. It’s been so long since I’ve been on a date and I want to look beautiful for not only Jacob, but also myself.
Dressing in shorts and a loose pink tee, I head to Lari James spa and am sweetly greeted. Today, I’m having my brows waxed, a Brazilian, getting my hair washed, cut and styled, and a mani and pedi.
While sitting in the chair after getting waxed, I send Jacob a text to see what he’s up to.
Boyfriend: Carter’s down for a nap. I guess you guys had a fun night, huh?
Me: Well, define fun LOL.
Boyfriend: You gave him a sugar high and then he threw up. Sorry he was like that.
Me: Don’t be. It was our fault. I wanted Carter to have fun and things got a little out of hand. No worries though. We had fun.
Boyfriend: Thank you again for watching him while I was gone.
Me: Of course.
Boyfriend: Have fun at the salon. I’ll pick you up at seven and be sure to wear something nice.
Me: Will do. I’ll see you later XO.
Before I put my phone away, it vibrates again and I look to see a text from Grace.
Grace: Hey, random question, but, have you looked into any real jobs?
I lean back in the chair and let out a sigh. It’s been a while since I’ve looked at my contacts. I’m not sure what I want to do in life. I have a marketing and communication degree, with a minor in finance, and even though I’m good at what I do, and did really well at my internships, I’m not sure if that’s what I want to do in life.
Me: Not really. I want to enjoy the summer and not worry about anything I guess. What are you thinking?
Grace: Honestly, I want to take a year off and travel. Just do something that’s not mundane. I’m not ready for the real world yet.
Me: LOL I know what you mean.
But, eventually, I need to get my shit together and figure out what I want to do.
AFTER AN AMAZINGLY romantic and perfect first date, I’m in Jacob’s arms at his house, relaxing outside on the deck. Everything’s perfect.
“Thank you for everything tonight,” I tell him and squeeze his arm a little. “The food was so good and I had a lot of fun.”
“Anything for you, Cameron. And damn baby, you look beautiful.”
“Thank you.” I’m thankful that it’s night time and I’m not facing him so he can’t see how badly I’m smiling and blushing.
“Like I said, anything for you, Cameron.” He kisses the top of my head and holds me tighter. “You’ve gotten under my skin and all I do is think about you. I want to know everything. I want to know what makes you smile. I want to learn your body again. If there’s a test about you, I want to make sure I score one hundred percent. You’re in my head and it’s been a while since I felt this way. I want to be the one who puts a smile on your face. I want to be the one who can answer any question about you and get it right. There’s nothing I don’t want to know and every day we’re together I’m going to study you and figure you out.”
I turn and face him, holding his hands in mine, and seeing the terrified look in his eyes. He’s opening up to me and even though I know how he feels, it’s sweet that he’s saying all of this to me.
“I want to get to know you again too. Every day we’re together is great, Jacob. All that I ask is for us to communicate with each other and that we’re honest. If I’m doing something that scares you, then tell me and I’ll do the same.”
“There’s one thing I’ve been meaning to ask,” Jacob asks me.
“What is it?”
“Are you going back to your hometown when summer’s over?” His tone seems sad and unsure. I let the question sink in because I don’t know the answer. There’s no way I’m selling my childhood home. That’s the only thing left I have of my parents. If I sell that house, then what will I have of them?
“At first I was going to leave at the end of the summer, but now, I plan on staying. I’m actually meeting with a real estate agent tomorrow to look at some houses.”
“No, don’t do that.”
“Why?” His response throws me off and I try to move away from him. Instead, he pulls me closer and kisses the side of my head.
“Move in with me,” he blurts out and looks down. The confident man I know isn’t so confident anymore. “I know this is going fast. I want you to live with me and Carter.”
“I’m not going to say yes or no,” I explain. “Can we put that thought on the back burner and revisit it in September?”
“Of course, Cameron. Enough talking.” He smirks.
The moment I feel his arms lifting me up, I smile because I know what’s about to happen. My V is jumping up and down and I can feel my panties getting wet. Each step Jacob takes to his bedroom is a step closer to what we both want.
Once we’re in his bedroom, Jacob lays me down on his bed, ever so gently and his body hovers over mine.
“I still can’t believe you’re here,” he tells me and kisses my cheek, moving slowly to my lips.
“Why do you feel like that?”
His fingers brush through my hair and every fear melts away. All of my nerves calm down to his simple touch and I want more, so much more. “I was afraid you’d want to leave me. It scared me. I finally have you and I’m trying to not fuck up.”
“Don’t be nervous. We’re not perfect and we’re going to mess up. I’ll piss you off with something I do or say and you’ll irritate me with something you’ll do or say. Like I told you,” I lean up and kiss his lips before lying back down. “We have to be honest with one another. We have to tell each other what we’re feeling. That’s the only way we’ll make it work, Jacob.”
“I never thought you’d walk back into my life. When I look into your eyes, I can see your heart and I can feel my own heart healing. You’re breathing life back into me.”
My heart’s beating so fast against my chest. The words he’s spilling into my soul are everything I feel. I don’t regret how we met. I think we needed to go through the bumps to get where we are now.
“I want every day with you. With you, I see purpose and I want to give you my heart. My whole heart. It’s yours, Cameron, and I hope it’ll be yours forever. Besides Carter, you’re the next most important person to me. I can barely breathe when you’re not here.”
I have no idea what to say. Tears well in my eyes because he’s opening his heart to me. We were two broken souls in the world and suddenly our world is together and we’re both breathing life into each other.
“I love you, Cameron.”
“Say it again,” I finally let out.
“I love you, Cameron,” he repeats and kisses me with so much passion I can feel it throughout my body.
His lips travel down my body as I lift myself up and get up from the bed. Turning to face him, I slowly strip out of my dress and see his eyes widen when he sees me in a lacy black bra and thong. Reaching behind me, I unclasp my bra and let it fall to the floor.
“Come here,” he orders and I listen.
Sitting back down on the bed, Jacob pushes me down on my back, and his lips cherish my body. I watch as he takes his time, kissing my body, and being gentle. The muscles in his arms flex and when his mouth presses against my hip, it makes my body tremble with need. He spreads my legs apart, kissing my inner thighs, and slowly takes off my thong.
“Fuck you’re so wet, baby. Are you wet for me?”
“Yes,” I moan, twisting my hands in the sheets, waiting for more. “For you, Jacob.”
I can feel the smile on his lips as he licks my clit and sends my body into shock. My breathing picks up when he slides a finger into me. I open my
eyes to see that he’s looking at me while devouring my pussy. It’s the hottest thing. He sucks a little harder on my sensitive clit.
“Oh God,” I scream and grip his hair, pushing him further into my aching pussy. “This feels so good. Don’t stop.”
I feel my orgasm building and I’m ready to explode. Jacob feels me almost there. He picks up his speed and soon I’m screaming his name. He pulls himself up and crashes his lips onto mine. The passion in his lips makes me moan.
When his lips leave mine and I see him reaching for a condom, I stop him and he looks at me with question.
“I’m on birth control and I’m clean. I want to feel all of you, Jacob.”
“I haven’t been with anyone since you and I’m clean too. But are you sure?”
“Yes.” I nod my head and reach for his hand to bring him closer. “I’m positive.”
Jacob brushes his lips against my neck and I want to scream for him to make love to me. When his lips touch mine again, he really kisses me and his kiss isn’t holding anything back. This is the first time we’ve been together since that night, our first time together. His hands grip my waist, possessively and hungrily, as his tongue slides across my lip.
“Jacob,” I beg, “I need you now.”
My whole body jerks when he slowly slides himself into me. He stops and I can see his hesitation. When I push my hips up, Jacob stops me and looks down into my eyes.
“Slow, baby. If I go fast, this will be over before you know it and I want to make slow, sweet love to you. I want you to feel me and I want to cherish you.”
I move my hands down his back and to his nice ass. Damn, my man’s ass is yummy.
“I want you, Jacob.”
He pushes in more and lets out a moan. It feels so good to feel him and once he’s all the way in, our moans are matched and fill the air. He moves his lips to mine and kisses me with that passion and love again. The way he’s moving in and out of me, taking his time, and making sure I feel good too, there’s so much pleasure and when he picks up his speed I feel my orgasm again.
“Jacob,” I moan, “yes, yes. Right there.”