"Well," he said, "you know me, always pining for the haut monde. See, I even dressed for success.
We ended up at a taco stand on Pico near Twentieth, in the bad part of Santa Monica, inhaling traffic fumes and sitting at a knife-scarred picnic table, eating soft steamed tortillas filled with coarse-ground pork and marinated vegetables, and drinking Coca-Cola Classic over crushed ice out of waxed-paper cups.
The stand stood on a corner patch of devastated asphalt, between a liquor store and a check-cashing outlet. Homeless people, and a few people who wouldn't live in homes if they had them, loitered and scrounged nearby. A couple of them watched us collect our food at the counter and find our seats. Panhandling fantasies or worse brightened their clouded eyes. Milo kept them at bay with policeman's looks.
We ate looking over our shoulders. He said, "Basic enough for you?"
Before I could answer, he was up and heading toward the order counter, one hand in his pocket. A filthy, emaciated, mat-bearded man around my age seized the moment and approached me, grinning and flapping toothless gums incoherently as he waved randomly with a short-circuited arm. The other limb was drawn up to his shoulder, frozen stiff and bent like a chicken wing.
I held out a dollar bill. The mobile arm snapped it up with crustacean precision. He was off before Milo returned with a cardboard carton full of yellow-papered parcels.
But Milo'd seen it, and scowled as he sat down. "What'd you do that for?" say?"
"The guy was brain-damaged," I said.
"Or faking it."
"Either way, he'd have to be pretty desperate, wouldn't you He shook his head, unwrapped a taco, and bit into it. When the food had traversed his gullet he said, "Everyone's desperate, Alex.
Keep doing that and they'll be all over us like fungus."
It didn't sound like something he would have said three months ago.
I looked around, saw the way the rest of the street people were regarding him, and said, "I wouldn't worry about that."
He pointed at the food parcels. "Go ahead, this is for you, too."
I said, "Maybe in a little while," and drank Coke that had turned insipid.
A moment later I said, "If you wanted information about an excon, how would you go about it?"
"What kind of information?" he said, forming the words around a mouthful of pork.
"How the guy behaved in prison, what he's up to now."
"This con on parole?"
"Post-parole. Free and clear."
"A paragon of rehabilitation, huh?"
"That's the question mark."
"How long's Mr. Paragon been free and clear?"
"Bout a year or so.
"What was he in for?"
"Assault, attempted murder, conspiracy to commit murder he paid someone to damage someone else."
"Paid for it, huh?" He wiped his lips.
"Paid with the intent of doing serious damage or worse."
"Then just assume he'll continue to be scum."
"What if I wanted something more specific?"
"To what end?"
"It's related to a patient."
"Meaning hush-hush confidential?"
"At this point."
"Well," he said, "it's really no big deal. You meaning a cop, "cause a civilian's gonna have a hell of a time doing any of this you follow the chain. The past is the best predictor of the future, right? So first link is the guy's sheet. NCIC and local. You talk to any cops who knew him back in the bad old days. Preferably the ones who busted him.
Next you eyeball the D.A."s packet there'll be sentencing recommendations in there, shrink stuff, whatever. Step three is talk to the prison staff find out what kind of time he served. Though the ones who'll really know him best are the assholes who served it with him. If you've got a hook into any of them, you tug. Then checkout his parole officer problem there is caseload and turnover. Lot of what they do is rubber-stamping; the chance of getting anything meaningful is slim. Final step is locating some of his current K.A."s known associates the scum he's been socializing with since he's been out.
Finis. Nothing profound, just legwork. And in the end it won't tell you much. So if you've got a patient who's worried, I'd tell him or her to be careful. Buy a big gun and learn how to use it. Maybe a pit bull."
"The trace you just described could a private attorney do it?"
He eyed me over a taco. "Your average attorney? No. Not in any reasonable length of time. One with access to a good private eye could pull it off, but it would still take a private guy longer unless he's got great police connections."
"Like an ex-cop?"
He nodded. "Some of the private guys are vets. All of them bill by the hour and this kind of thing is going to build lots of hours. So having a rich client would help."
"Sound like the kind of thing you'd be interested in?"
He put his taco down.
"What?"
"A little private consultation, Milo. A real hobby. Are you allowed to work while on suspension?"
"I'm Joe Citizen, can do whatever I want. But why the hell would I want?"
"Better than chasing blurs on crab grass.
He grunted. picked up his taco, finished it, and began unwrapping another.
"Hell," he said, "I wouldn't even know what to charge."
"That mean you're considering it?"
"Mulling. This patient of yours-is he or she the victim?"
"Victim's daughter," I said. "Eighteen years old. I treated her years ago, when she was a kid. She's been accepted at a college out of town and isn't sure about going, even though it's probably the best thing for her."
"Because of the scumbag being back?"
"There are other reasons for her to have doubts. But the scumbag's presence makes it impossible to deal with any of those. I can't encourage her to go away with this guy lurking in the background, Milo."
He nodded and ate.
"The family's got money," I said. "That's why I asked about attorneys if they don't already have a battalion on retainer, they could hire one. But with you doing it I'd have confidence it was being done properly."
"Aw, shucks," he said, and took a few more bites of taco. He pulled up his shirt collar and gave a furtive look. "Milo Marlowe, Milo Spade.
.. which do you think is catchier?"
"What about Sherlock Sturgis?"
"What's that make you? The New Age Watson? Sure, go ahead, tell the family if they want to go that route I'll check him out."
"Thanks."
"No problema." He picked his teeth and looked down at his sweat-stained clothes. "Wrong climate for a trench coat any such thing as a trench shirt?"
"Go all the way," I said. "L.A. Vice. Armani."
We drained our drinks and polished off more food. On our way to the car, another of the panhandlers approached us a heavy man of indeterminate race and creed, wearing a shit-eating grin while doing a palsied boogaloo. Milo glared at him, then reached into his pocket and came up with a handful of pocket change. Thrusting the money at the vagrant, he wiped his hands on his pants, turned his back on the man's gibbered benedictions, and cursed as he reached for the door handle.
But the epithets lacked conviction I'd heard much better out of him.
Dr. Ursula Cunningham-Gabney had called back while I was gone, leaving a number where she could be reached for the rest of the evening. I dialed it, got a throaty, well-modulated female voice.
"Dr. Cunningham-Gabney?"
"Speaking."
"This is Dr. Delaware. Thanks for returning my call, Dr. Gabney."
"Is this by any chance Dr. Alexander Delaware?"
"Yes, it is."
"Ah," she said. "I'm familiar with your research paper nocturnus in children. My husband and I included it in a bibliography on anxiety-mediated disorders we compiled last year for The American journal of Psychiatry. Very thought-provoking."
"Thanks. I'm familiar with your work, too."
"Where do you practice, Dr. Delaware? Childre
n are outside of our bailiwick, so we do have occasion to make frequent referrals."
"I'm on the west side, but I don't do therapy. Just forensic work.
Short-term consultations."
"I see. The message I got said you were someone's therapist."
"Melissa Dickinson. I was her therapist years ago. I remain available for my old patients. She came in to see me recently."
"Melissa," she said. "Such a serious young woman.
"She has a lot to be serious about."
"Yes. Of course she does. The family pathology is deep-rooted.
I'm glad she's finally reached out for help."
"Her main concern seems to be her mother," I said. "Separation.
How her mother will deal with her going away to Harvard."
"Her mother is very proud of her. And eager for her to go to Boston."
"Yes, Melissa's told me that. But she's still worried."
"No doubt she is," she said. "But those worries are Melissa's alone."
"So there's no chance of her mother's relapsing if Melissa goes away?"
"Hardly, Dr. Delaware. In fact, I'm sure Gina Mrs. Ramp would appreciate her newfound freedom. Melissa's a bright girl and a devoted daughter, but she can get a bit cloying."
"Is that her mother's term?"
"No, Mrs. Ramp would never say it that way. But she feels it. So I hope you'll be able to confront Melissa's ambivalence head-on and do it quickly enough for her to make the break. I understand there's a deadline involved. Harvard tends to be impatient I know from experience. So she's going to have to commit. One would hate to see a technicality get in the way of forward movement."
Thinking of McCloskey, I said, "Does Mrs. Ramp have any other worries that might be transmitting themselves to Melissa?"
"Transmitting? As in emotional contagion? No, I'd say it's just the opposite the risk is of Melissa's anxiety transmitting itself to her mother. Mrs. Ramp presented as one of the most severely phobic patients we've ever treated, and we've treated many. But she's made extraordinary progress and she'll continue to do so. Given the chance."
"Are you saying Melissa's a threat to her progress?"
"Melissa means well, Dr. Delaware. I can certainly understand her concern. Growing up with an ineffectual mother would give her a stake in being hypermature. At some level, that would be adaptive.
But things change, and at this point in time, her hovering serves only to reduce her mother's self-confidence."
"How does she hover?"
"She tends to make herself rather conspicuous during crucial therapeutic moments.
"I'm still not sure I understand."
"Okay," she said, "I'll spell it out. As you may know, treatment for agoraphobia needs to be in vivo to take place out in the real world, where the anxiety-provoking stimuli are. Her mother and I literally take steps together. Out the front gate, around the block. It's a slow but steady process, calibrated so that the patient experiences as little anxiety as possible. Melissa makes a point of being there during important moments. Watching. With her arms folded across her chest and this absolutely skeptical look on her face. It's almost comical, but of course it's a distraction. It's gotten so I've scheduled things around her aiming for breakthroughs when she's at school. Now, however, she's out of school and more... conspicuous."
"Have you ever talked to her about this?"
"I've tried, Dr. Delaware, but Melissa shows no interest in talking to me.
"Funny," I said. "She sees it differently."
"Oh?"
"She perceives herself as trying to obtain information from you and getting rebuffed."
Silence. Then: "Yes, I'm sure she does. But that's a neurotic distortion. I'm not without compassion for her situation, Dr. Delaware. She's dealing with a lot of ambivalence intense feelings of threat and jealousy. It can't be easy for her. But I need to focus on my patient. And Melissa could use your help or someone else's, if you're not so inclined in sorting things out.
I said, "She'd like me to talk to her mother. In order to clarify her mother's feelings so she can sort out the Harvard thing. I'm calling to find out if that's okay. I don't want to disrupt your treatment.
"That's wise of you. What, exactly, would you discuss with Mrs. Ramp?"
"Just her feelings about Melissa's leaving which, from what you've told me, sound pretty clear. After hearing it firsthand, I'd be able to deal with Melissa's doubts."
"Using your advocate role to propel her forward?"
"Exactly."
"Well, I don't see any harm in that. As long as you keep your discussion circumscribed."
"Any particular topics you'd like me to stay away from?"
"At this point, I'd say everything other than Melissa's college career.
Let's just keep things simple."
"Doesn't sound as if anything about this case has been simple."
"True," she said, with a lilt in her voice. "But that's the beauty of psychiatry, isn't it?"
I called Melissa at nine and she picked up on the first ring.
"I checked with my contact-he's a police detective on temporary leave so he has some free time. If you still want McCloskey looked into, it can be done."
"I want it," she said. "Tell him to go ahead."
"It may take a bit of time, and investigators usually bill by the hour."
"No problem. I'll take care of it."
"You're going to pay him yourself?"
"Sure."
"It could end up being substantial."
"I've got money of my own, Dr. Delaware I've paid for things for a long time. I'm going to pay your bill, so why not this "Melissa "No problem, Dr. Delaware. Really. I'm a very good money manager. I'm over eighteen, meaning it's totally legal. If I'm going to go away and live independently, why not start right now?"
When I hesitated, she said, "It's the only way, Dr. Delaware. I don't want Mother even knowing he's back."
"What about Don Ramp?"
"I don't want him involved, either. It's not his problem."
"All right," I said. "We'll work out the details when I see you tomorrow. Speaking of which, I spoke to Dr. Ursula and she says it's fine for me to meet with your mother."
"Good. I already talked to Mother and she's willing to meet you.
Tomorrow isn't that great? So can we cancel our appointment and do that instead?"
"All right. I'll be there tomorrow at noon."
"Thanks, Dr. Delaware. I'll have lunch set out for you. What do you like to eat?"
"Lunch isn't necessary, but thanks anyway."
"You're sure?"
"I'm sure."
"Do you know how to get here?"
"I know how to get to San Labrador."
She gave me directions to her house.
I copied them and said, "Okay, Melissa, see you tomorrow."
"Dr. Delaware?"
"Yes, Melissa?"
"Mother's worried. About you. Even though I told her how nice you are. She's worried about what you'll think of her. Because of the way she treated you years ago.
"Tell her I understand, and that my horns only come out during the full moon.
No laughter.
I said, "I won't be in the least bit rough, Melissa. She'll be fine."
"I hope so.
"Melissa, part of what you're dealing with-a lot more important than money management is breaking away. Finding your own identity and letting your mother do things for herselo I know it's hard I think it's taken lots of guts for you to go as far as you have.
Just calling me took guts. We're going to work it out."
"I hear you," she said. "It's just hard. Loving someone that much."
The stretch of freeway that connects L. A. to Pasadena announces itself with four tunnels whose entries are festooned with exquisite stonework.
Not the kind of thing any city council is likely to approve nowadays, but this bit of progress was carved into the basin long ago, the city's first conduit to ceaseless motion mas
querading as freedom.
It's a grubby and graceless asphalt belt now. Three narrow, street-level lanes, bordered by exhaust-warped maples and houses that range from Victorian Relic to Tobacco Road. Psychotically engineered ramps appear without warning. Concrete overpasses that have browned with time L.A."s stab at patina-throw spooky shadows across the blacktop. Every time I get on it I think of Nathanael West and James M. Cain a Southern California history that probably never really existed but is gloomily gratifying to imagine.
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