by Gai-Jin(Lit)
"Ah Soh," he said in Cantonese, "bring your Mistress fresh tea but not a sound, say nothing and then leave." He sat near the bed again.
"Do you know where you are, my dear?"
She just looked at him.
"May I ask a few questions, if you're tired, tell me and don't be afraid. Sorry but it's important for you, not me."
"I'm not afraid."
"Do you know where you are?"
"In my rooms."
Her voice was flat, eyes blank. His concern increased. "You know what happened?"
"Malcolm's dead."
"Do you know why he died?"
"He died on our marriage night in our marriage bed and I'm responsible."
Warning bells sounded in the back of his mind.
"You're wrong, Angelique, Malcolm was killed on the Tokaid@o, months ago," he said, his voice calm and unshakable. "Sorry, but that's the truth and he'd been living on borrowed time ever since, not your fault, never your fault, it was the will of God, but I can tell you this with all my heart, we, Babcott and I, we have never seen a man more peaceful, more at peace in death, never, never, never."
"I'm responsible."
"The only part you're responsible for was the joy in the last months of his life. He did love you, didn't he?"
"Yes but he died and--" She almost added, and so did that other man, I don't even know his name but he died too, he loved me too and he died too and now Malcolm's dead an--
"Stop it!"
The snarled harshness jerked her from the brink.
Hoag began breathing again, but he knew this had to be done and done quickly or she was lost, like others he had seen. He had to rid her of the devil lurking somewhere in her mind that was waiting to break out, waiting to pounce, to turn her into a gibbering lunatic, at least to harm her radically.
"Sorry. You've got to get this correct. You are only re--" In panic he just caught himself before using that word, changing it to, "answerable for his joy. Repeat it for me. You are only ans--"
"I am responsible."
"Say it after me: I am only answerable for his joy," he said carefully, more of an order, noticing with alarm her abnormal pupils. She was brinking again.
"I am resp--"
"Answerable, God dammit," he said with pretended anger. "Say after me, I am only answerable for his joy! Answerable for his joy!
Say it!"
He saw the sweat break out on her forehead and again she said the same and again he cut in, repeated the correct word, "answerable, answerable for his joy!" and again she said the other and again and during this
Ah Soh brought the tea but neither saw her and she fled in terror as again and again Hoag ordered
Angelique and she refused until suddenly she shrieked in French, "All right, I'm only answerable for his joy but he's still dead dead dead
... my Malcolm's deadddddddd!"
He wanted to hold her and tell her that all was well and that she could sleep but he didn't, judging it was too soon. His voice was hard but not threatening and he said in his good French, "Thank you,
Angelique, but now we will speak English:
Yes, I'm terribly sorry too, we all are that your lovely husband is dead, but it's not your fault. Say it!"
"Leave me alone. Get out!"
"When you say it: not your fault."
"Not... not, leave me alone!"
"When you say it. Not your fault!"
She stared at him, loathing the tormentor he was, then again shrieked at him: "Not my fault, it not my fault, it's not my fault, not my fault, now are you satisfied, Get out gettout!"
"When you tell me you understand your Malcolm is dead but you are in no way responsible!"
"Gettout!"
"Say it! God dammit say it!"
Suddenly her voice became like the howl of a wild beast. "Yur Malcolm's dead yur
Malcolm's dead he's dead, he's dead he's dead but yu're not not resp not responsible in no way any God-cursed way not resp in any way any way not responsible... not respon
... not..." As abruptly as she had begun her voice changed to a whimper, "not responsible,
I'm not, I'm truly not oh my darling, I'm so sorry, so sorry, I don't want you dead oh Blessed Mother help me, he's dead and I feel so terrible so terrible oh Malcolm why did you die I loved you so much, so very much... oh Malcolm..."
This time he held her quiet, tightly, absorbing the tremors and weeping and the racking sobs. In time her voice trailed away, the sobbing lessened, and she sank into fitful sleep.
Still he held her, gently but firmly, his clothes stuck to him with sweat and did not move until the sleep was deep. Then he eased away. His back was sparking with pain and he stood carefully, tortured, his muscles in spasm. When he had managed to ease his shoulders and neck he sat to regain his strength.
That was a near one he thought, the pleasure that he had won this time eliminating part of his pain, seeing her as she was, young and beautiful and safe.
His memory rushed him to Kanagawa to that other girl, the Japanese sister of the man he had operated on, as young and beautiful but
Japanese. What was her name? Uki something. I saved her brother to wreak more havoc on this poor child. But I'm glad she escaped. Did she?
Such a beautiful woman. Like my own darling wife that was. How terrible and thoughtless of me, how insane to take her from India to an early
London death.
Dharma? Fate? Like this child and poor
Malcolm. Poor them, poor me. No, not poor me, I've just saved a life. You may be squat and ugly, old boy, he thought, taking her pulse, but Christ Almighty you're a bloody good doctor, and bloody good liar--no, not good, just lucky. This time.
Thursday, 11th December:
"'afn, Jamie," Phillip Tyrer said sadly. "Sir William's compliments, here are three copies of the death certificate, one for you, one for Angelique, and one for Strongbow to go with the body. The original he thought should go by diplomatic pouch to the Governor's office for the
Chief Coroner Hong Kong who'll register it then pass it on to Mrs. Struan. Ghastly, isn't it, but there you are."
"Yes." Jamie's desk was piled with incoming mail, and documents concerning affairs to be arranged. His eyes were red from tiredness.
"How's Angelique?"
"I haven't seen her yet but Hoag was here first thing. He said to leave her alone until she made the first move, that she was better than expected. She slept for fifteen-odd hours.
He thought she should be well enough to travel tomorrow and recommended the sooner the better. He'll go, of course."
"When's Prancing Cloud rescheduled for?"
"Tomorrow. Evening tide. Strongbow will be here any moment for sailing orders. You'll have mails to go with her?"
"Definitely. And a pouch. I'll tell
Sir William. Still cannot believe Malcolm's dead. Dreadful. Oh by the way, the Norbert inquest's been fixed for five. Would you like a bite of supper afterwards?"
"Thanks, but not tonight. Let's do it tomorrow, all being well. We'll confirm after breakfast." Jamie wondered if he should tell
Tyrer about the machinations of his samurai friend,
Nakama, and the meeting with the local moneylender--that
Nakama wanted private from Tyrer and Sir
William. Nakama's suggestion had intrigued and he welcomed the opportunity of talking direct to a local businessman, however minor.
Yesterday's meeting had of course been cancelled. He had considered putting it off until next week, but had decided to meet the man tonight
--it might divert him for a moment or two from the tragedy.
It's none of Phillip's business--and don't forget Phillip and Wee Willie have been hiding all sorts of information when the arrangement was for everything to be shared. "See you later, Phillip. And thanks for these."
"See you later, Jamie."
The death certificates were signed by Babcott and Hoag. The autopsy confirmed what had already been said about
death being caused by internal bleeding of a damaged artery that had ceased to function correctly, its weakened condition being directly attributable to wounds sustained during the unprovoked Tokaid@o incident.
Jamie nodded to himself. The doctors had skirted the matter of what had caused the rupture. No reason to be more specific, unless someone required a specific answer. Like
Tess Struan, he thought, a twinge in his stomach. She's bound to ask and then what will Hoag say? The same he told me this morning: "In
Malcolm's condition, Jamie, such a rupture could be caused by any one of a dozen sudden motions, like sleeping awkwardly, then turning suddenly because of a bad dream, even the strain of a constipated bowel."
"Or particularly during intercourse?"'
"Yes, that's only one of many possibilities, why?"'
"You know Tess Struan, for God's sake."
"I'm not going to damn Angelique if that's what you're asking, it takes two to bed, we both know he went out of his way to marry her and was madly in love."
"I'm not asking anything, Doc. Tess will damn her whatever the certificate says."
"I agree, Jamie, but she will get no help from me. Nor from George. That a violent climax caused the fracture, and their subsequent euphoric sleep masked the fault for both of them is logical, but not provable, and even if it did, she is in no way to blame, no way, dammit..."
Poor Angelique, she'll be blamed, like
I'll be blamed. Doesn't matter in my case. "Yes? Come in? Oh hello,
Edward!"
"Do you have a second?" Gornt asked.
"Come in, of course." Since yesterday his relationship with Gornt was different. He had insisted being on first-name basis. My God, he thought, how wrong I was about him. "Sit down.
Listen, I've said it a dozen times but thanks again--you certainly saved my life."
"Nothing, I was only doing my duty."
"Thank God you did. What can I do for you?"
"The rumor is that you'll be sending
Malcolm's remains back to Hong Kong for burial, and I wondered if I could have passage on your ship?"
"Of course." Jamie hesitated.
"To report to Tyler Brock and Morgan?"
Gornt smiled. "We can't avoid the truth,
Jamie. I'll take the result of the inquest with me but it's up to me to tell them direct, man to man."
"Yes, you're right." Jamie's sadness swooped down again. "I'm sorry Malcolm's not alive to know what you did for me, sorry that he won't be around to be friends with you, I know he admired you greatly, sorry too that you work for them."
"After I see them I probably won't, I was only loaned by Rothwell's, so it's of no consequence. I'll go back to Shanghai after
Hong Kong."
"You know, if I can help in any way, I will."
"You owe me nothing, I was just doing my duty but a man always needs a real friend. Thanks, if I get lost I'll ask. A cabin's all right then on Prancing Cloud?"
"She'll leave tomorrow evening."
"I suppose Mrs. Struan will accompany him? Difficult to think of him as dead, isn't it?"
"Yes. Dr. Hoag says she'll be fit to travel then."
"Rotten luck. Terrible. Thanks. See you later."
Jamie watched him leave, curiously unsettled. Nothing he could articulate.
Guess I'm just so disoriented that anything and everything seems odd. My God, even Hoag acted peculiar, again nothing in particular.
He forced himself to work for a while, then, needing some documents from Malcolm's desk, got up and went out along the corridor to the tai-pan's office, automatically raised his hand to knock.
Grimly, he didn't, and opened the door to stop in midstride. Angelique was sitting in
Malcolm's chair, behind Malcolm's desk.
Seated in front of her Heavenly Skye was saying, "as far as I know and..." He looked around.
"Hello, Jamie," Angelique said quietly. Her dark dress set off the alabaster texture of her skin, hair up off the nape of her long neck, eyes clear, the faintest natural color to her lips. "How are you?"
"Oh, er, fine," Jamie said, nonplussed by her poise and new beauty--different than before, now somehow distant, unattainable but even more attractive. "Sorry, I didn't expect
... Dr. Hoag told me not to disturb you until you called me. How are you?"
"I asked him to do that. I'm... I'm fine, thank you. There were some things I wanted to arrange this morning. I was sorry to hear about your, your ill luck with Norbert Greyforth. Poor Jamie, you're very bruised, are you all right?"
"Yes, thank you," Jamie said, even more off balance. Her voice was calm, too calm, and there was a dignity about her that he could not for the moment isolate. "Edward Gornt saved my life, did you hear that?"
"Yes, he told me about it a few minutes ago--actually that's not right, he came here a few moments ago to add his condolences and I saw him.
Mr. Skye told me about his bravery. And about the duel."
"Oh." Jamie wanted to curse Skye for his interference.
"Poor Malcolm," she said, "I'm awfully glad I didn't know about that foolishness. If I had I would somehow have stopped it. But Edward, how lucky he was there, but how awful, how awful some people are."
"Yes, but more important how are you really?"
"Not good and not bad. I'm nothing, and, well, empty."
"That's the right word, empty. Me too."
Jamie looked at Heavenly who smiled noncommittally. The silence gathered.
Discomforted, he knew they both wanted him to leave. "Anything I can do for you?"
"Not at the moment, thank you, Jamie."
Jamie nodded thoughtfully. "I need a few papers."
"Please help yourself." She sat back in the chair that dwarfed her, composed and in control.
Uncomfortably, he began to sift through the ladened In and Out trays, decided to take them as they were and put one on top of the other. "If there's anything... just call."
"After Mr. Skye and I are through, perhaps a few minutes if you're free."
"Whenever, of course. Just ring that bell."
Skye said, "Jamie, did you get the death certificates yet, by chance?"
"Yes I did."
"Could I see a copy, please?"
Jamie stared at him. "For what purpose?"
"To check it."
Angelique said, "Mal... my husband had retained the services of Mr. Skye--I believe you knew that, Jamie?"
"Yes I did." Jamie had noticed the way she had changed Malcolm to my husband and saw Heavenly nod approvingly and a danger signal went through him. "So?"
Skye said smoothly, "When I heard the disastrous news I felt beholden to offer my services to his widow..." The word was imperceptibly accented. "... which she has kindly accepted. The tai-pan had asked me to undertake certain research for him which I thought
Mrs. Struan might wish to continue."
"Good." Jamie nodded politely and began to leave.
"The death certificate, Jamie?"
"What's your pleasure, Angelique--
Mrs. Struan?"
"Mr. Skye is my solicitor now,
Jamie. He understands these things, which I don't, and he has agreed to act for me," she said clearly in the same unemotional way. "I would like you, please, to give him whatever help he needs."
"Of course. If you'll follow me,
Heavenly." Jamie walked out and went into his office and stood behind his desk, pretending to look for the papers that he had put into his drawer for safety. "Would you shut the door, there's a terrible draft." The small man obeyed.
"Listen," he said keeping his voice down but there was no mistaking the undercurrent, "if you bamboozle her, or play silly buggers or overcharge her I'll kick the shit out of you."