by Lauren Wood
Mr. Grumpy meowed next to me and pulled me from my thoughts. He was hungry and I picked him up as I puttered towards the kitchen. At least he was a good distraction, one that I apparently needed as I lost my mind. Pregnancy hormones were no joke.
Chapter 15
Grey
“It’s her alright boss. Are you sure you don’t want me to come in with you?”
I gave Leo a dirty look and wanted to throttle him. “I am still trying to figure out why you are here?”
“Because I am your right hand man Grey and she called me, remember?”
How could I forget? It was bad enough that I had been looking for her for months and now it was Leo that she called. The only good thing about it all, if there was a good thing was that she was in front of me now and I finally had her in my sights. It didn’t change that fact that she hadn’t called me, but Leo instead. He was easy to get along with, but I still wanted to know what she had called him about.
“Did she look different to you?”
I had noticed some changes, slight, but she did look a little different. She was still a sight for sore eyes, but I had to wonder why I was feeling so nervous. I wasn’t a nervous guy, but everything had been different with Cameron. I had always felt something different when I was near her and this was no different. My body was all jacked up like I was about to run a race.
“No, not really Grey. Are you actually worried?” He chuckled and I gritted my teeth to the sound of his mirth.
“Why the hell do you sound so pleased about it?”
“Because it is about time you had some girl that tied you up in knots. I was starting to think you were never going to find her and I was going to have to see you mope forever boss. You know I don’t like to see you like that. It just isn’t right.”
I felt the same way. Ever since I had seen that damn dentist and heard what happened, I was worried about her. It took a couple of weeks to track down her roommate, only to find out that she had moved away. Anne wouldn’t tell me where she was, but now I knew where. She hadn’t told her, but I had learned a little bit about her while I was there. Apparently I was the one that made her smile again.
“Well I am not moping anymore.”
“Then why are you still sitting in the car?”
He had a point, Leo always did but I didn’t want to hear it right now. Right now I wanted Cameron back in my arms. It had been a long time coming and my eyes were tricking me into thinking that she had changed. She hadn’t. She was still the most beautiful woman that I had ever seen and Leo was right, I needed to get out there and go to her.
“I don’t know. What if…”
“We did not fly all the way to Timbuktu for you to sit here and stare at the apartment building. Get your ass out of here and go to her. If you don’t, then I am going to. I still think she is one hot piece…”
“Don’t even say it.”
Leo chuckled and I was still not sure if bringing him was the best idea that I had ever had. I wanted him to shut up and to let me think, but there was no more time for thinking. All there was time for was action. It was time.
“Are you going to wish me luck?”
He nodded his head that he wasn’t. “I would if I thought you needed it Grey, but you have always been the smoothest S.O.B. that I have ever met. Nothing has changed.”
It had changed as far as I was concerned. I had never cared so much before and even now with her so close to me, I was still unsure what I was supposed to do. But Leo was right. I had to get out of this car and see what was going to happen next. I didn’t come all this way for nothing. I came all this way for the girl. It was as simple as that.
I got out of the car, palms sweating and made my way to the building that I had just seen her get out of. She was in there and the idea of it made me smile, even though my heart was going a mile a minute. It was strange that I had come this far to see her, but in my world, I had never felt this way before and once she left, I knew that I didn’t want to step away from the feeling. I knew that I wasn’t going to find it with anyone else. I had tried, I really had and every experience had left me wanting more. It was too late to go back.
Knocking on the door, I looked back and saw that Leo was grinning at me. He had convinced me that I had to come see her, but the reality of it was that it hadn’t taken much to convince me. Really it had taken not too much prodding at all because I wanted to be here. I wanted to see her and I had to know once and for all what was going on. I had to know if this feeling that I had for her, the one that I couldn’t seem to shake was real or not.
She opened the door and everything stopped. The world actually stopped for a moment when I saw those beautiful blue eyes looking back at me. “Grey?”
She was surprised to see me and I was happy to see her. “Cameron. It has been a while.”
“What are you doing here Grey?”
It took me a minute to answer because I still wasn’t sure, but the changes that I had thought I had seen before were real. She was beautiful, but now that she had her coat off, I could see that she was thicker than I remembered and her tits were larger. It took my mind a minute to realize what all of those things meant. When her hand went to her stomach protectively, I knew. She was pregnant.
My heart dropped and questions started to roll around in my head. Whose baby was it? I didn’t know much about pregnancy and babies, but it looked like she was a bit along. Did that mean that it was mine?
“You’re pregnant?!” I hadn’t meant for tat to be the first thing out of my mouth, but the revelation was a surprising one.
She looked away and asked me again what I was doing there. “I came to see you. You are pregnant.”
Now it was a statement and she was not answering me. Why wasn’t she answering me?
“Yes, I am.”
“Is it mine?”
Cameron looked down and shook her head that it was. This was not the conversation that I played in my head when I played this scenario in my mind the whole trip here. It was not at all what I had expected, but somehow it felt right. It felt like the right thing to happen. I had waited a long time for her, but now I didn’t have to. She was going to be mine one way or another. She was carrying my child.
“Why didn’t you tell me Cameron? Don’t you think that it is something that I should know about?”
“I was going to. I tried to call you or Leo really because I don’t have your number, but I got scared and backed out. I didn’t know what to say and I don’t want you thinking that this was because I want your money. I know that you are rich, I looked you up. I just wanted to tell you, but I just couldn’t. I am sure you have had lots of women tell you the same thing. I know what kind of man you are Grey. I thought I was making it easier on both of us. I didn’t want to see your face when you denied it all and tried to get out of it.”
She was upset and I didn’t like to see her like this. “Why don’t you let me in Cameron? We have so much more to talk about then I thought we did.”
Cameron didn’t move from in front of the door and I looked at her with a question in my eyes. “I don’t want to talk about it and get my hopes up Grey. You don’t owe me anything.”
“You are carrying my child Cameron. This isn’t something that we can just ignore. You get that right?”
Cameron bit her lip and looked away like it was too hard to look me in my eyes. I knew that it was a lot, all coming down so quickly, but there was nothing else that I could do. I wasn’t leaving, not then and certainly not now. Now I wanted to know everything and I wasn’t leaving until I got all of the answers that I sought.
“Let me in Cameron. We have a lot to talk about.”
My eyes kept going to her stomach and my own tightened with the idea that I wasn’t going to get to see her anymore. I know how she was and I know that she didn’t want to do this alone. I didn’t want to give up the right and chance to be a father. It wasn’t something that I had ever really thought about that much, never conceived to want, but a l
ot had changed since I met Cameron and this seemed to just be something else.
She finally moved back when I made it clear that I wasn’t going anywhere. I knew now that I wasn’t going to be able to stop how she felt at the minute, but I was sure in time she would see that we could be together, we could be a family.
“You look really good Cameron. It feels like I haven’t seen you in forever.”
She smiled and waved me off. “I don’t feel like I look good. I feel huge and the last thing I worry about is the reflection in the mirror. Most of the time I am just tired anymore.”
She didn’t have any makeup on and I could tell by looking at her that she was in fact tired. I didn’t blame her of course and she still looked amazing. It must be a lot to take on. It made me realize that I knew so little about her, the woman that was carrying my child. It felt like we were going to have to start all over because it wouldn’t be long until we were together.
Before she could say anything else, I did what I had wanted to do for so long. I pulled her to me and hugged her. I wanted to feel her body against mine, even if hers was trembling. There was no reason to pretend anymore. There was really no reason for me to hold back all of the emotions that I had for her. I loved her and now I didn’t have to hold it in. I could be straightforward, which was always the best way for me to handle things.
“God, I have missed you Cameron. I have been looking for you for a long time. Ever since your old boss came to me with that tape, I have been trying to find you, but you just disappeared. You are very good at that.”
Cameron finally pulled out of my arms and looked at me a little queer. “Why have you been looking for me?”
She really didn’t see, did she?
“Because I am in love with you Cameron. I think I have been since I met you at that rest area. Ever since then, I haven’t been able to get you out of my mind. Then we had those moments at your work and I haven’t been able to stop thinking about you ever since.”
Chapter 16
Cameron
I wanted to believe him. I really did. It was even more perfect what he was saying, then what I had heard in my mind when I played it out. It was all just too perfect and for a second I leaned in towards him. My body was at odds with my mind again and all I wanted to do was kiss him and feel him against me. Grey had always done this to me, making me feel more than I was supposed to. But I knew him. I knew him too well and I still remembered how everyone reacted to me when I stayed there with him. It was all just so normal for him to have strange women staying around.
I tried to think of why he was here now and why he was saying the things that he was saying. It wasn’t for my benefit, was it? Maybe I was just the one that got away and his ego wouldn’t stand for it. I really didn’t know, but I felt like I had to guard myself and my heart from him.
I took a step back before his lips could capture mine and Grey followed me into the apartment, shutting the door behind him.
“Where are you going Cameron?”
“I don’t know Grey. This is a lot to take in. I mean, I haven’t seen you in months and I couldn’t even get the courage up to talk to you on the phone and now you are here. I don’t know what this is or what I am supposed to do. It just…”
I didn’t have the words for it. I thought that I would tell him and he would blow me off. I never imagined that he would come looking for me. I never thought that he would tell me that he loved me. Did I love him? I certainly felt something, something strong that took over everything in my mind half of the time, but it also scared the hell out of me. I knew that Grey could hurt me because I cared too much. It was hard to imagine what it would be like with him.
“I just know how you are Grey. I remember when we first met and you let me stay with you for that night. Everyone that works for you didn’t bat an eye about some strange woman being in your apartment. You even had a whole drawer full of new toothbrushes. Who were they for?”
He was still walking towards me and he stopped. “You are right. I used to be that kind of man. I didn’t care about anyone and I had a lot of flings. But you changed all of that Cameron. I have missed you so much and I want to be a better man for you.”
“You don’t even know me.”
He disagreed and told me that he knew enough to fall in love with me. “Hell I even think you made Leo fall for you. Now you are carrying my child Cameron. How else could this turn out, but with us together as a family?”
I had imagined it a lot different. I imagined taking care of our son by myself, had for a while. My brain didn’t want to process everything and Grey being so close was really hard to deal with. I didn’t know what it was that he wanted, not really. Why was he really here now and what did that mean for me?
“I don’t know Grey. I need time to think.”
Grey shook his head and took his jacket off, moving towards me. I was already halfway into the apartment and I didn’t have much more room to move away from him. My body didn’t want to move away from him. I was just as drawn to the man as I had been before. He had some kind of spell over me and the hormones running through me made it clear that that part of me hadn’t changed. I still wanted him, so badly. I was afraid if he touched me, it would all be over.
As he advanced, my back was up against the side table and there was nowhere else to go. I was stuck.
“Do you really need time to think Cameron? I have had too much time to think and I have missed you. I don’t want to think anymore. I just want to feel.”
He stopped right in front of me and so helps me I wanted to reach out to him. He was so close, the man that I dreamed about every single night. He was on my mind all of the time and after I called Leo, it had just gotten worse.
“Don’t you want me Cameron, like I want you?”
There was no real answer except yes. I did want him, badly and my trembling body was giving it away. How easy would it be to feel him against me? How easy would it be to just reach out and touch him?
“You know that I want you Grey.”
That seemed to be the answer that he was looking for as he moved towards me once more. It was only a step, a few feet that separated us and then his hands were on my face, pulling me to his waiting lips. I whimpered as our lips touched and sighed when I felt the heat between us. It was just like last time and I wanted more, so much more.
There was a sound of submission that came from between my lips as I opened them to his demanding tongue. Grey had a way of making everything so much more and now I wanted him right now. It was like when I was at work and he had just shown up. It was like he knew my body, better than I knew it myself.
“I have missed these lips Cameron. Surely you have to see that we are meant to be together. It was fate that led us to each other.”
His words were blurry as my mind was still on his kiss. I wanted more. I didn’t want to talk, no matter how sweet his words were. I wanted him inside of me, touching me as he had before. When I told him as much, he lifted me up as if I was made of glass and set me on the edge of the table.
“No skirt this time Cameron.”
Instead he pulled my pants down and moved his hand to my panties. I whimpered out his name and whined with the touch. I hadn’t been touched in so long that my body was immediately on fire and I was already ready for him to move inside of me. I told him as much and I felt a finger slip inside of me as he pulled the soaked panties back.
“I never had time to take you slowly Cameron. It is always rushed with you.”
I didn’t care and I told him that I wanted him inside of me right now. The finger that was twisting and pumping inside of my wet flesh wasn’t enough. I needed all of him. Right now.
“Please Grey!”
He growled at me and I knew then that he wanted me as badly as I wanted him. It was just like the last time and his hand struggled to free himself. I had to have him and I moved down to help him get free of his zipper and the pants that were in our way.
“You push me so much Came
ron. You make me crazy.”
I didn’t care how crazy he felt. When his hands were on me, I was mad as well. It wasn’t enough that we were so close. Close wasn’t enough. Only Grey inside of me was going to be enough and when his pants fell to the floor, I wrapped my legs around his waist. It was all that I wanted and I heard my own sounds of pleasure when his hot skin touched mine. It was all I needed and then it was all too much as he surged inside of me suddenly. My eyes closed to the pleasure and for a time, I was speechless. My arms wrapped around his neck and Grey pulled me in for a kiss.
“Fuck, you are perfect Cameron. You have to know that.”
I knew that when we were together like this, perfection was exactly how it felt. I knew then that this was never going to end any other way then the way it was going right now. I couldn’t stop the surge of feelings that came out of me, or the pleasure derived from his touch. It was impossible and it wasn’t something that I ever wanted to end.
He took me slowly, sliding in and out at a mind-numbing pace. It wasn’t enough and it was as if I was on the edge of reason and just one more touch was all that I needed to lose myself completely. I clung to him, whispering in his ear for more. I wanted him deeper and I wanted him faster, but for now I was only able to deal with the heaviness inside of me and the tension that was released from his touch.
My insides convulsed around him and I heard his own groan of pleasure through gritted teeth as he pushed in deeper, unfazed by my pleas. It wasn’t enough. I don’t think it was ever going to be enough.
He was going to lose it, Grey told me so and I squeezed harder, hoping that I could push him over the edge and finally have a moment to catch my breath.
“I can’t hold back anymore Cameron. You just feel too good and I don’t want to.”
“Then don’t. I like the feel of your cum inside of me. It is so hot and fills me up just the right way.”
I grimaced at the sudden surge of pleasure as he started to plow into me at a breakneck speed. It was more than I could handle as the second wave of pleasure washed over me, overwhelming my senses like a tsunami over an island. Everything left of me was devastated and I tried my best to hold in the cry of pleasure, his name repeated on my lips over and over again.