by Eric Nixon
   Considerable hassle and expense
   And the inevitable awkwardness
   By clicking, and browsing
   Instead of traveling
   To see people reforming
   Old cliques for a night
   Sticking together
   Drinking together
   Like they did twenty years before
   Showing the world they’re still the same,
   Or seeing those solitary loners
   Who are only going
   Because they have something to prove
   And show how much they’ve changed.
   I, like most, am opting to choose
   Living in the present
   Eschewing the drive
   Down memory lane
   Declining the invite
   And spending the night
   At home, with family
   And the future
   April 3, 2012
   Northampton, Massachusetts
   My 20-year reunion is coming up this summer and it got me thinking about how Facebook has pretty much killed the allure of going to a reunion. When we had our tenth reunion, I had hoped that everything would be different from how I remembered high school being. I had hoped everyone would have grown up and people would not get all clique-y as I was genuinely interested in talking to pretty much everyone and getting to know what people were up to. I was so wrong. It was like most everyone had powerful magnets in them that pulled them back to their same groups. I was disappointed. 
   Anyway, because of Facebook, there’s no more mystery in it anymore. I know what and how everyone is doing and can see pictures and everything. 
   Ranting Old Man
   Ranting old man
   Agitated voice elevated
   Threatening everyone he saw
   Damning finger pointing
   Feeble fist pounding
   Hollow words spewing
   In a dizzying circular motion
   Like an angry CD left on repeat
   Until someone decades younger
   Scooted into the situation
   Put their arm around him
   Quietly apologized
   And guided him away
   While looking back
   With a sincere frown
   Of embarrassment
   April 3, 2012
   Northampton, Massachusetts
   This didn’t happen, but rather the idea for it popped into my mind, so I wrote.
   Spending Time
   Spending time is like
   Spending money
   The only difference is
   Life doesn’t take credit.
   Spend your time wisely
   And on what you truly love
   Because when you’re almost out
   And looking back on life
   You don’t want to see
   A house filled with useless junk
   But rather, one filled to the rafters
   With wonderful experiences
   And adorned with happiness
   April 3, 2012
   Northampton, Massachusetts
   When I was writing “Thanks To Facebook,” I wrote the line “spending time,” and the idea of comparing spending time to spending money came to me. This may seem basic, but I had never thought about how similar the concepts are.
   Break
   Back when I was young
   When the school day was done
   You only had two ways
   To communicate with friends:
   Seeing them and
   Calling them.
   Since phones were
   Hardwired and shared
   With the rest of the house
   We got a break from being social
   We got a chance to be ourselves
   Play in the yard, read a book
   Watch TV in peace
   Each and every evening
   Kids today are on-stage
   All night and all day
   Calling, emailing
   Texting, sexting
   Twittering, Facebooking,
   Skyping, KIKing,
   Instagraming, IMing,
   All of this and it’s still
   Nowhere near enough.
   Through their
   Hurried desperation
   They crave more
   Communication
   More ways to connect
   So many means
   And no way
   To turn them all off
   Kids today don’t get a break
   To step away and be kids
   April 3, 2012
   Northampton, Massachusetts
   Kari and I were talking about this the other night, how kids these days have to be “on” almost 24-hours a day. I can’t imagine the incredible social pressure they’re under with the complex array of online/social media/communication things they’re all into. 
   Whimmy
   For when
   Doing things
   On a whim
   Is the norm.
   For when
   Life sings
   Impulsive
   And you act.
   For when
   Living needs
   Description.
   Whimmy.
   April 6, 2012
   Northampton, Massachusetts
   This morning, on the way to work, Kari said something about doing something on a whim, and the word, “whimmy” popped into my head.
   Assumptions of Belief
   Religious holiday approaching
   Strangers broach the topic
   With biased assumptions
   Colored by their own
   Assumptions of belief
   Because of how I look
   And where I live
   They think therefore
   I must have the same beliefs
   Wanting to avoid
   Inevitable confrontation
   I don’t correct them
   It’s easier that way
   April 6, 2012
   Northampton, Massachusetts
   Unless specifically asked for, I think people should just be polite and keep religious and political statements tucked quietly in their heads.
   Comments Section
   If you’re the kind who revels
   In wholesale, anger, hatred,
   Bigotry, negativity, and vitriol
   Plan to visit the comments section
   Of any news website
   Common sense and
   Thoughtful discussion
   Are in short supply
   It’s where the crows
   Who are looking to
   Demean and belittle
   Bemoan and libel
   Come home to roost
   Cawing on about conspiracies and 
   Shouting down any opposing view.
   The sites allow this
   Because the bitter crows
   Keep coming back
   Increasing the page hits
   And making them money.
   In this equation there is
   No place for positivity
   April 6, 2012
   Northampton, Massachusetts
   Gee-whiz! The comment section of any news site (local or national) is filled with the most awful, angry comments. Now, after I read an article, I refuse to scroll down further; I don’t want to have my mind tainted with their poisonous negativity.
   Members Only
   Older smug man
   Wearing a forgettable
   Flimsy gray jacket
   The thin epaulettes
   Popping from the shoulders
   Catch my eye
   Which drop to the tag
   Members Only
   Sewn over his heart
   White letters on black
   Meant to sound elitist
   Like some private club
   You have no hope
   Of ever getting into
   If you have to ask
   You don’t belong
   Members Only
   Which implies
   He’s better
   He’s a step up
>   He’s a cut above
   In reality
   It merely shows
   He buys into brands
   He needs the names
   The exclusivity
   To feel good about himself
   Like a mild form of
   Economic bullying
   Showing he has
   Poor self-esteem,
   A set of values,
   And a fashion sense
   That hasn’t progressed
   Since the 1980s
   April 12, 2012
   Northampton, Massachusetts
   Released From The Cerebral
   Characters
   Stories
   Plots
   Sub-plots
   Twists
   Turns
   Dialogue
   Action
   Endings
   Beginnings
   Ideas for
   Dozens of books
   All of which
   Turning
   Churning
   Bouncing
   Back and forth
   In my head
   Waiting
   Wanting
   Straining
   To get out
   Through my
   Fingertips
   Clicking
   On my
   Keyboard
   All of them
   Everything
   Needing to be
   Released from
   The cerebral prison
   They were created in
   April 12, 2012
   Northampton, Massachusetts
   I’ve got too many book ideas and not enough time to get them all out.
   The Dachshund Emerged
   Tiny heart-shaped nose
   Poking out from under the covers
   Like a periscope
   Sniffing, sensing, learning, informing
   Him of how his day may start
   Shaking his head
   Freeing it of the blanket
   Stretching his comically long body
   Making his dappling dance
   Like an elongated
   Cute tube of dog
   The dachshund emerged
   And trotted on with his day
   April 12, 2012
   Northampton, Massachusetts
   Every morning, when I get up, I look back at the bed and see the two noses of our two dachshunds sticking out from under the covers. It’s really cute.
   Lack of Permanence
   Packing
   Unpacking
   And repeating
   Constant upheaval 
   Constant repetition
   Sometimes it seems
   We live out of boxes
   I find the lack of permanence
   Somewhat distressing
   Something like
   Twenty residences in
   Twenty years
   Is a lot to take
   Each time I ask
   Will this finally be it
   Then, after a while,
   The process begins anew
   Jump into a moving truck
   And again, off we move
   Hopefully, this time
   Will be the last time
   Then again, I believe
   I’ve said that before
   April 17, 2012
   Northampton, Massachusetts
   Subpar
   Wrote two
   Deleted two
   They were subpar
   Didn’t make the grade
   Too trite
   Too simplistic
   To allow them to continue
   This one isn’t so great either
   But serves more as a warning
   For the other
   Lesser poems
   Yet to be
   If not for this poem’s purpose
   I’d be three for three
   April 19, 2012
   Northampton, Massachusetts
   I wrote a poem, thought it wasn’t that great, deleted it, immediately wrote another, thought it was trying too hard, deleted it, and then wrote this one.
   Hypocriting
   Santa look-alikes
   Each and every one
   Torsos obscured
   Unseen and invisible
   Floating hands out
   Demanding money
   Conflicting with the snake
   Warning not to tread
   Preaching from the truck’s bumper
   Thinking takes a backseat
   Twisting around morals
   Hypocriting at every turn
   April 19, 2012
   Northampton, Massachusetts
   Lazy Tumble
   Looking at the faint reflection
   Of the vertically-lined wood paneling
   Of the wall behind me
   The round piece of glass
   From the dryer in front of me
   Behind which our clothes tumble
   Counterclockwise, distracting me
   From the tidy wall lines I wanted to see
   At the other end of the humming dryer wall
   Was an older woman, with glowing red hair
   Sorting, drying, folding, choreing
   While being bossed around
   By an older man, roundly large
   Parked in a motorized scooter
   Porkpie hat on his head
   “AC/DC” strangely on the side
   Childlike shoes on his feet
   Kept snug with Velcro
   He pointed and spoke sharply 
   In a language I didn’t know
   Paying him no mind, she did her duty
   Ignoring his terrible tone
   As I’m sure she’s done for decades
   I turned up the volume on my iPod,
   Sat back, and allowed the lazy tumble
   Of the clothes to re-distract me
   April 21, 2012
   Northampton, Massachusetts
   It’s a tiny laundry and I really prefer it when I have the whole place to myself. 
   Shoe-Deep In A Puddle 
   A big storm forecasted for tonight
   They say it’s a nor’easter
   And, while they might be correct,
   I look at the rain and doubt it.
   Instead of snow measured in feet
   Rain will be totaling a few inches.
   To me it’s not a nor’easter
   Unless we’re buried in snow
   Not shoe-deep in a puddle.
   April 22, 2012
   Northampton, Massachusetts
   MAY
   Someone Else’s Desk
   Working out my notice
   Day-to-day desk-hopping
   As I’m assigned to sit
   At someone else’s desk
   I take inventory of my surroundings
   And am having trouble finding anything
   Everything seems to be in the wrong place
   Nothing but awkward positioning
   And careless placement
   I have a good mind to re-arrange
   But I know this is a temporary desk
   So I sit and try to conform to their settings
   I wonder if it was the same for them, at first
   But maybe they learned to make do
   Instead of changing their surroundings
   I wonder if they are as miserable as me
   Or if they even notice it anymore
   May 4, 2012
   Northampton, Massachusetts
   Things I’ve noticed and the thoughts inspired by them while working out my two-week notice.
   Photo From The Future
   Out somewhere 
   Where someone helping us 
   Was wearing a name badge
   I looked at the photo
   And up to her face
   And back to the photo
   And tried to figure out
   The half-decade discrepancy
   In the opposite direction
   It was as if her older self
   Was there in the picture
   Like a photo from the future
   While the youn
ger her
   Was standing before us.
   If I were her
   I would lose my ID
   If I were her
   I would want a new picture taken
   A newer, younger picture
   May 4, 2012
   Northampton, Massachusetts
   Kari went to see a doctor and a nurse helping us had the weirdest photo on her badge. It was like she was visibly half a decade younger in real life than how she looked in the picture. I know it was because she had a much older-lady hairstyle in the photo and a much younger one today, but it still struck me as funny.
   Whose Benefit
   Pick a desk
   Any desk
   In any office
   Look for personal pictures
   Which way do they face?
   Will they go unseen
   By the casual visitor
   But are always visible
   To the desker?
   Or, are they front and center
   Facing out, away from
   The occupant
   Looking at a client or co-worker
   Think for a moment
   On the message being sent
   Whose benefit is that picture for?
   Theirs or yours?
   Are they trying to impress,
   Or reminisce?
   Answer that and you’ll know
   What kind of person
   You’re dealing with
   May 4, 2012
   Northampton, Massachusetts
   While working out my last two weeks at work, I was told to work from the desk of someone who was out today. On top of the cabinet above his desk, he has pictures of his kids. From his seat, he cannot see those pictures; only people who walk into the office can. What he can see from his seat are pictures he clipped out of magazines of deer that are hung up inside his cubicle. It got me thinking, which, in turn, got me writing.
   Five Years
   Like a flash of light
   In brightness and intensity
   The years have flown by
   With you and I
   Having jumped off so many
   Cliffs, personal and professional
   Riding high on the clouds
   Of our dreams and desires
   Not stopping to look
   Back or down
   Forward we go
   Leaving realized dreams
   And happy memories
   In our wake
   Thank you for these five years
   And for the place we are
   A long way from where we started
   And a long way from where we’ll end
   May 5, 2012
   Northampton, Massachusetts
   For our fifth anniversary. 
   940 Saturdays
   Looking at the box
   Perched at the end of the row
   The one we all focus on
   The one we wish would grow
   Wider than normal