“That’s horrible.”
“I thought so. Anyway, because of that, I have to warn you that I’m kind of a stickler for the truth. Please don’t lie to me, even if it’s something small.”
She thought about that and figured she could definitely agree with his stipulations. Feeling brave, she said, “If you can handle the truth about my vision, then I would like to get to know you better.”
To her disbelief, he held out his hand. Whether to shake it, or to clasp it, she didn’t know.
As she looked at his hand, reaching out to her, palm up, she felt flushed and flustered and tentative.
But she still placed her hand in his.
Then, to her surprise, he covered her hand with his other one and pressed their hands together. Warmth flowed through. It felt good to have her hand clasped in both of his. She felt almost protected.
And, even though she’d practically told him that she didn’t need his protection, it felt safe to know she wasn’t alone.
Before she knew it, he let go and stood up. “Elsie, would you care to go walking in Berlin tomorrow afternoon? We could stop and get a slice of pie or a cup of coffee.”
“I’d like that.”
He smiled. “Gut. I’m going to go now. You stay here, I’ll walk myself out.”
“Goodbye, Landon,” she said softly.
He flashed her another smile, then left the room. Leaning back against the cushions of the couch, she heard his footsteps enter the kitchen, heard the rustle of him slipping on his coat, heard the back door open and close.
Only then did she stand up and walk up the stairs to her bedroom, where she shut the door firmly behind her. She finally had all the time she needed to do what mattered to her the most.
She silently gave a little cheer and raised her arms above her head. It had finally happened.
Landon Troyer liked her. He liked her.
It was a wonderful, wonderful day. The best ever.
chapter sixteen
It was late, probably too late to be sipping chamomile tea at the kitchen table and talking. But here they were, doing it anyway.
“It’s been years since we’ve sat up late and talked, Aaron,” Lovina mused. “It almost makes me nostalgic for the past.”
Her husband smiled faintly. “I was thinking the same thing. Remember when our Sara used to get so sick with croup?”
“We spent hours sipping tea and walking the halls of that house with her in our arms.” Lovina took another fortifying sip of tea, hoping to cover up the pain. It had been years since she’d seen their eldest daughter. Years ago, they moved to Pennsylvania. To her amazement, Sara and Jay had decided to settle in Bird-in-Hand. Their home lay just a few miles from the bank where she and Aaron had met. The one place Lovina and Aaron had never wanted to see again. As the years passed, Sara had given birth to three children in five years, making it next to impossible for her family to travel back to Ohio.
Repeatedly, Sara had asked Lovina to travel north to visit. But of course she never had.
Until now.
“Do you have Sara’s phone number packed in our bags?” she asked tentatively. “I should call her when we’re in Lancaster County.”
Aaron shook his head. “I thought you had your address book in your purse. You’d better go put it inside there now.”
Quietly, she slipped her worn address book and calendar in her purse.
“Then we should get some sleep.”
“In a moment.” Though she knew she was only procrastinating, she murmured, “What do you think about Elsie and her man?”
He chuckled. “To be honest, the first thing I thought was that Got is always right.”
That was exactly the last thing she’d expected him to say. “What do you mean?”
“That for all our lives, the whole family has tried to do what we think is best for our Elsie. We’ve gone to the doktohs, talked about plans, protected her. Talked until we were blue in the face about what we should do about Elsie.”
“We prayed, too,” Lovina pointed out.
“Oh, yes, we prayed. And it seems as if our prayers were answered. Elsie is ready and willing to manage her own life . . . with the Lord’s help. I think it’s time we all took a step backward and let the inevitable happen. Our Lord won’t let sweet Elsie down.”
Lovina felt her heart soften as she gazed at her husband’s calm expression. For too long Aaron had been content to make statements and then walk away without having to explain himself.
She was finding that she liked hearing his reasons for doing things.
“I hope you’re right.”
To her surprise, Aaron picked up her empty teacup, rinsed it in the sink, then set it on the rack to dry. “I hope so, too,” he said lightly. “Come, Lovina. We’d best get some sleep. Morning waits for no man . . . or woman.”
She was still chuckling about that bit of wisdom when sleep claimed her.
As discussed, Landon and Elsie talked on the phone, and since he was working in Berlin, they’d decided to meet in town instead of him coming to her house first. She’d gotten a ride with her sister.
His two hours with her had been pleasant. More than pleasant. As they walked along the streets of Berlin, they talked about everything and nothing. And when they went to a local bakery and both chose thick slices of chocolate cream pie, they’d laughed.
All too soon, she left with her aunt.
And he drove his buggy to the Berlin Public Library.
He needed to get some answers, and to his way of thinking, there was only one way to do that: read.
After leaving the Keims’ home, he’d spent most of the night rehashing the conversation with Elsie in his mind. Ironically, learning more about Elsie’s condition had increased his interest in her instead of diminishing it. She was brave and seemed to approach her disability with grace instead of scorn.
Her understanding that she’d been afflicted with something she couldn’t change but would learn to deal with had awed him.
It also made him want to learn more about keratoconus. The word was hard to say and even harder to spell.
But more important, it represented a mystery to him. He needed answers.
But he didn’t want to be the person in Elsie’s life who peppered her with questions or made ignorant statements. Instead, he was determined to be one of the people in her life who supported her. Not by diminishing her abilities, but by acknowledging them—and then moving forward.
If he’d learned anything yesterday, it was that Elsie craved her independence as much as anyone else. Maybe more so, because she was forced to be dependent for some things. She also had a family who was used to doing things for her.
With that in mind, he’d spent more than an hour carefully writing down questions about eye diseases. Though he realized this first visit was the first of many he would take to the library for answers, he felt proud of himself for taking the first step.
As he entered the building on Elm Street, he walked right over to the librarian at the circulation desk.
“I need some information about eye diseases,” he said bluntly.
The gray-haired lady’s eyes lit up like she’d just been issued a challenge. “I can help you with that. Do you want books, or to use the computer?”
“I’m not sure how to use the computer.”
“I can help you with that.”
“That would be better than a book?”
“Maybe to start with,” she said easily as she walked over to one of the computer terminals lining the back wall. “The information will be more current and, depending on what you need, it’s sometimes easier to understand.”
“That’s what I need then,” he said, hoping he sounded far more confident and self-assured than he felt.
As he followed the lady through the maze of books, he kept his eyes averted from the other patrons in the building. There was the usual mix of Amish, Mennonite, and English here, like in just about every store or public area of Berlin.
But he did notice that he was in the definite minority when it came to age. Mostly he saw people far older or younger than him.
But perhaps that made sense. After all, he usually was working in the middle of the day.
After he took a seat, he listened carefully as the librarian clicked on her mouse to different screens. Next thing he knew, he was unfolding his list of questions, borrowing one of the library’s pencils, and trying to understand all about macular degeneration.
Slowly, Elsie’s problems became more apparent and easier to understand.
He also began to realize that Elsie had been kind to him while giving him her explanations about her disease. Most folks he read about in the case studies talked of fear and a little bit of pain, too.
They also talked about how emotionally difficult it was to lose their independence.
More often than not, Landon felt himself staring at the screen, lost in thought. Now that he knew a little more, he had more questions to ask Elsie instead of less.
Carefully, he wrote down his new questions, hoping the Lord would give him the tools to ask Elsie without being too intrusive.
Just as he was clicking on the mouse and clearing the screens, the librarian approached him.
“Did you find the information you needed?” she asked kindly.
“Some. I bet I’ll be back with more questions soon, though.” He rubbed a hand down his cheeks. “I hope I’ll be able to get back on that computer site.”
“If I’m not here, someone else can help you.” She smiled encouragingly. “That’s what we’re here for, you know.”
“Danke.”
She paused. “Do you happen to have a friend who has this disorder?”
“Yes.”
“I’m not sure what your church district would think, but we have a lot of books on tape.”
“What does that mean?”
She walked him over to a large area with row after row of plastic cases. “Some of our patrons who don’t see too well rely on listening to books instead of reading them.” She paused. “Is your friend a man or a woman?”
“A woman.”
“We have a lot of fiction titles that she might enjoy. You might mention that to her.”
As he looked at the rows of audio books, he made a quick decision. “Could I check two of them out, to show her?”
“Of course. Do you have a library card?”
“No.”
“But you live in Berlin?”
“I do.”
“Then it will be no problem. Want me to pick out two popular titles?”
After he agreed, she picked out two cases with women on the covers, one who looked to be an Amish girl, the other a woman in an old-fashioned gown. Then he followed the lady to the counter, presented his identification card, and in no time was walking back to his buggy.
He drove toward the work site with a sense of satisfaction. He just hoped that when he saw Elsie that evening she would think he had done something nice, and that he wouldn’t make her feel worse about things.
chapter seventeen
Elsie’s grip on the phone cord was so tight, she was surprised the curly cord wasn’t tearing in half. So far, her call to the doctor’s office was taking far longer than she’d anticipated.
The receptionist kept getting interrupted by people in the office, and then she kept making mistakes with the doctor’s schedule. It seemed no one could decide just how long Elsie’s visit was going to take.
Through it all, Elsie tapped her fingers on the counter and looked at the open doorway furtively, praying for the family to give her some privacy and space.
But that was what happened when a person had to make a private phone call in the middle of the busiest room in the house. Then and there, she vowed to herself to have the house phone installed somewhere far more private than the kitchen whenever she had her own home.
At the moment, though, she had to make do with praying that the phone call would finish soon. It was bad enough that Amanda was standing again by her side. She couldn’t bear for anyone else to overhear her conversation.
The receptionist’s voice came on the line, but it was a different one than the one she’d started with. “Elsie, this is Jennifer. I’m sorry but Alice had to help someone here in the office. Could you tell me why you called?”
With barely controlled patience, she said, “I need to come in and get my eyes checked. Alice said I needed to call back this week.”
After a faint rustle of papers and clicks on the computer, Jennifer asked, “I’m sorry. I can’t find those notes right here. Can you tell me specifically what is wrong?”
Feeling half resigned and half frightened to death, Elsie answered. “I think my vision’s gotten worse.” She lowered her voice. “A lot worse.”
“Headaches?”
“Yes.”
“Increased blurriness?”
“Jah.” Elsie felt her pulse race. It was hard to be honest about the extent of her difficulties.
“Anything else?”
Elsie didn’t know if she had the right words to describe what was happening. It was as if her eyes had finally decided that they’d had enough of struggling to see. “I’m just having trouble seeing,” she said finally. “More than usual.”
Now that she was being forced to explain her symptoms, Elsie felt her anxiety growing. Why had she waited to call?
“Hold on one more time please,” Jennifer said, her tone now a bit more serious.
As she held the phone again, Elsie watched the doorway. Then felt her stomach fall to the floor as little Regina walked in.
“Hi, Elsie!” Regina said.
Elsie waved, but put a finger to her lips, making a universal “shh” sign.
“Do you want me to take her out?” Amanda whispered.
“Jah. That is, if you don’t mind.”
“Come on, Gina,” Amanda said. “Let’s go check on the horse for a few minutes before we have our snack.”
Elsie breathed a sigh of relief when they left, just as Jennifer got back on the line. “Elsie, we just juggled some meetings around. Dr. Palmer can see you tomorrow at eleven. Will you be able to find transportation that quickly?” They were all used to her needing to find an English driver for appointments.
Elsie wasn’t sure how she would arrange it that quickly, but she didn’t want to back down now. If she did, she wasn’t sure when she would have the nerve to pick up the phone and call again. “I will be there.”
“We’ll see you then, Elsie.”
When she hung up, Elsie realized that she’d become so anxious her hands had turned damp. She knew she was going to have to tell her parents about the doctor’s visit. They were going to have to help her pay for the driver.
Mentally preparing her speech, she headed out of the kitchen, and to her parents’ room. She might as well just get it over with.
She lightly knocked on her mother’s door before entering.
Her mother was dressed, and sitting on top of her neatly made bed. She was reading a novel and had a vibrant teal and purple crocheted throw loosely thrown over her lap.
For a split second, Elsie forgot her problems and simply gazed at her mother in happiness. It really was such a blessing that her mamm was recovering so well.
She looked up with a pleased smile. “Hello, dear. Have you come to check up on me?”
“Jah. But also to let you know that I have a doctor’s appointment tomorrow.”
She set her book to one side. “With Dr. Palmer?”
Throat feeling thick, Elsie nodded.
Her mother frowned. “Gosh, I must have really lost track of time while I was sick. I thought your next checkup wasn’t for a few weeks.”
Seeing the chance to be evasive, Elsie grabbed hold of it quickly. With a studied shrug, she said, “It snuck up on me too. But I guess we have had a lot of other things to occupy us.”
“You’re right,” her mother said with a laugh. “Yes, I would say that we have
had quite a number of other things on our minds besides eye checkups. So, who is going with you tomorrow?”
“I thought I’d go by myself this time.”
“All the way to Ashland? Definitely not.” She bit her lip. “I bet I might be well enough to go tomorrow. . . .”
“Nee, Mamm. You are supposed to stay in bed, and that’s where you need to stay. I’ll see if Viola or even Aunt Lorene could go with me.”
“I think Viola is working.”
“Then I’ll go call Aunt Lorene right now. She cut back on her hours at the cheese store now that she’s married to John.”
“Oh. Gut! Yes, do that, then call the driver service. I’ll tell your daed to make sure we have enough cash for you to pay the driver.”
Elsie thanked her mamm and then went back to the kitchen.
But this time, she didn’t get so lucky. Amanda and Regina had returned and were joined by Roman. Goldie was sitting at her brother’s feet, looking hopefully at the sandwich he was eating.
Inwardly, Elsie sighed. She still wasn’t happy with her brother.
She ached to turn right around but she had to call for a driver before they were all booked up. There was no escaping that.
“Excuse me, but I need to make a phone call.”
“Another one?” Regina asked. “Who are ya callin’ now, Elsie?”
“The English driver service. I need to go to the doktah tomorrow.”
“What’s wrong?” Roman asked.
“Nothing. I’m merely going to the eye doktah for a checkup.” She was so tired of him trying to manage her, she added snidely, “Not that it’s any of your concern.”
“Of course it’s my concern. You’re my sister.”
“Yes, but that doesn’t mean you need to know all of my private business.”
He looked at her strangely. “I thought we were talking about your eyes, Elsie. What’s so private about that?”
What she was going through was much more complicated than simply her eyes.
Deciding to ignore the question since she had no intention of answering, she looked through a drawer for the driver service’s phone number. Luckily, she found it easily, and the number was written large enough that she didn’t have to ask Roman or Amanda to tell her the numbers.
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