The next message is from my mom. “Abby, sweetheart, you’re going to have to get a better carrier. I’m sure this call went straight to voicemail again.” She sighs forcefully. “Your dad and I are looking forward to seeing you. I love you, baby. That’s what I called to say. You don’t have to call me back. I’ll see you on Friday at the airport. Goodbye.” She ends the call.
Although I feel somber, hearing my mom say “I love you, baby” makes me smile.
I listen to the next message from Nolan. “Just calling you.” He pauses. “Right. I’ll see you at the funeral—I hope. Bye, Abby.” He ends the call.
I sigh with relief. I guess I’m going to the funeral tomorrow.
15
I walk up the steps of the Basilica. The building feels cold and grand. A lot of people are stirring around, and by the looks of it, Bill touched a great many lives. I stand on my tiptoes and glance across the large cathedral. My eyes bounce from head to head, looking for Nolan.
I walk the center aisle toward the front of the church. A large number of people are standing between the first row of pews and the altar. There is a taller gentleman who seems to be at the center of attention. Based on the color of his hair, I’d say it’s Nolan. I want to say something to him, but there’s no way to do it without pestering my way into the center of the circle. I decide it’s best to find a seat. The first rows of pews are reserved for family, and those several rows back are filling fast, but I want to sit close enough so that I can see him.
“Excuse me,” one of the guests says while passing by to take a seat in the pew I’m standing next to.
The one I like puts me several rows back and just to the right of the reserved section, and that row of benches is now filled. The row directly behind it has a couple of places open toward the middle. Just as I begin to enter the pew, I receive a tug on my shoulder. It’s Liza.
She opens her arms and gives me a hug. “I’m so glad you came.”
“I am, too.”
“Well you look great,” she says.
“You, too, especially under these circumstances.” We both take a step back. My eyes turn down with thoughts of all that she must be going through. “Bill was such a good person. I’m so sorry for your loss.”
“Oh, thank you,” she says as she wipes a tear from the bottom of her eye. “Yeah, it’s been pretty tough.”
I somewhat frantically open my handbag and dig for the little box of tissue I packed. I look up and hand her one.
“He’s going to be missed,” I say.
She takes the tissue and smiles. “Yes, he will.”
“Excuse me.” Another gentleman squeezes by me to take one of the last seats in the row. I look back at Liza with concealed desperation. I want to be there for her and offer support, but if I don’t get a place soon, I’m going to be sitting about a half mile from here.
Liza’s eyes widen with a smile. She takes my hand with hers. “I guess we’d better get our seats.”
I smile and place my other hand over hers before turning and sliding to my seat after saying “excuse me” a couple of times myself. I get a clear look at Nolan making his way to his seat. He’s wearing a black suit and looks fantastic. He allows everyone to be seated before he sits. The last person behind him is Kelsey. I shift my position to get a clear look and nearly lean onto the gentleman next to me.
“Ahem,” the man coughs.
“Sorry.”
I lean back into my seat. Nolan places his arm on Kelsey’s back to direct her. He follows and sits directly next to her.
I try concentrating on the eulogy, but Kelsey’s proximity to Nolan is distracting. Her body language suggests that they are still close. Several minutes later, she’s got her arm around him, rubbing and caressing his shoulder.
After a little while, Liza gets up to speak a couple of words. It’s noticeably difficult for her to maintain her composure. Nolan gets up and stands at her side. She keeps her words fairly concise before taking her seat.
Nolan gently clears his throat. “I’d like to say a couple of words. First, I can’t convey Bill’s love much better than my sister.” He looks toward her with a supportive smile. “I would, however, like to share a couple of stories with you about my dad.”
Nolan is noticeably emotional, and I am impressed with his ability to maintain his composure. He’s naturally eloquent, appropriately humorous, and downright enjoyable to listen to. My favorite part is when he talks about being a kid out at the cabin. The details sound an awful lot like the areas we spent time together in. My heart warms.
The service concludes, and a line of people waiting to offer condolences to the family forms. I’d love to see Nolan before I go, so I take a place in the line. I’m nervous about what to say. We really haven’t spoken since the weekend, and the circumstances are, after all, less than ideal. My heart picks up pace the closer I get to him. Soon, we’re standing eye to eye.
The warmth of his gaze washes over me. “I just wanted to let you know that I’m sorry for your loss,” I say.
“Thank you, I’m glad you came.”
I want to discuss so much more, but I also want to give him the time he needs to mourn. “That was great. There was so much I didn’t know about your dad.”
Before he can say anything else, Kelsey steps up, leans into Nolan, and wraps her arms around his bicep. “Remember Nolan,” she says with her lips nearly pressed to his ear, “there is another service we have to get ready for.” She then looks directly at me. “And only family members are invited.”
Nolan looks at Kelsey. “Oh, okay.” He seems kind of out of it. “Thanks for coming, Abby. I’m glad you came.”
He turns, and Kelsey whisks him off.
Dumbfounded, I slowly make my way toward the side of the church. I can’t shake the image of Kelsey practically wrapping herself around Nolan. I know it’s a family affair. But they weren’t acting divorced.
I just about walk into the large marble pillar when I hear, “Hey, Abby.” I snap out of it and scan the vicinity for the person who said that. Off to the right is some guy dodging his way through people like a fish swimming upstream. I squint.
“Abby.” He looks at me, his face under stress.
He gets through the last herd of people, and standing before me is Lance from the company Christmas party.
I can’t help but feel slightly disappointed.
Lance is smiling ear to ear. “Hey, Abby, how are you?”
I force myself to smile. “I’m fine.” Now there’s a lie. “I think it’s just sad we have to meet at a funeral.”
The corners of his eyes turn down. “Oh, me, too.”
I glance off toward the large stained-glass windows.
“So, how’s your week been?” he asks.
I opt for the cliché, intentionally vague answer. “Fine,” I say.
“Yeah, me, too, I guess.” He scratches the back of his ear nervously. “So, do you have any plans for Christmas?” he asks.
My stomach tightens. I can’t be talking about this right now. I need to find some privacy.
“I sure do, and I’m kind of in a hurry, you know. Got some packing to do.” I turn toward the door.
“Oh, great. Well I don’t want to keep you from that.”
I start walking, and Lance follows.
“I guess I wanted to let you know that later tonight, or, ah, after the services, me and a couple of other guys are going to grab a drink downtown. I know you’re busy and all, but wanted to let you know you are welcome to come.”
My pace quickens. “Thanks, Lance. I’ve really got a full day ahead of me.”
“Okay then, well maybe another time?”
“Maybe.” I hate that I have to be so abrupt, but this just is not a good time.
We near the door, and I recognize a couple of other guys from the Christmas party.
“Well, Merry Christmas,” they say.
I lift a hand as I pass them. “You, too.”
Lance stops by the guys,
and I continue outside. The light is bright, compared to being in the Basilica, yet the day is predominantly overcast. Piles of snow adorn the sides of the long row of steps to the church entrance. Vestiges of salt crystals are scattered across the stone stairway. I set my sights on where I parked my car and start down the walkway. The wind pricks at my face like a ball of needles.
My stomach sinks deeper. What if Kelsey didn’t just leave the women’s clothing in the closet at Nolan’s cabin? What if the clothes are there because he and she are still together? Would he be that brash?
All of a sudden, I hear a man call my name. I stop. Maybe it’s Nolan chasing after me. Yes, he must have realized how rude and insensitive Kelsey was and how confusing his behavior must look to me. He’s here to apologize, maybe even tell me that he’ll be in touch as soon as everything calms down. Yes. We’ll wish each other a Merry Christmas at the least, and maybe we’ll even kiss.
I turn, ready to embrace Nolan.
“Abby!” It’s Lance again.
This time, I don’t smile. “Yes.” My tone is as cold as the air.
“Listen, I know it’s freezing out here, and I know you’ve got to go.” Acknowledging that earns him courtesy points. He takes a business card out of his pocket. “I just wanted to give you this, you know, in case you ever want to grab a cup of coffee.”
I quickly take the card out of his hand. “Okay, thanks.” I start walking to my car again.
“Wait,” he calls.
I throw my hands up impatiently. “What?”
“Why don’t you give me your number, or rather, I’d like to have it, if you wouldn’t mind.”
Frustration shoots through me like a lightning bolt.
“Here, let me get my phone,” he says, fumbling through his jacket.
I sigh impatiently. “Just take this.” I reach into my purse and pull out a card.
His face lights up like a Christmas tree. “Thanks.”
“You’re welcome,” I say then head to my car. This time, I make it to my vehicle without getting interrupted, get in, and pound my fists against the steering wheel. How could I be so stupid to fall for a guy like Nolan Patrick? Tears start rolling down my cheeks. I remember what Misty said about him—how he played the girls in the Chicago office. I thought it was a lie, but maybe it wasn’t. Maybe he just wanted a quick fuck after all.
I speed off, and when I get home, I pack, eat dinner, and sleep, hoping for morning to come as soon as it can so that I can escape this cold city and haunting thoughts of Nolan and Kelsey together.
16
A couple of hours before sunset, I land in St. Kitts. I exit the plane on the runway and take a deep breath atop the airstairs. The warm, humid air carries the scent of the ocean. When I get to the tarmac, I look up and behind me. A magnificent volcano is the centerpiece of the island. It can’t be more than just a few miles from where I’m standing. I wonder how things would look from the top.
I walk through the airport, all fifty steps of it, and find Mom and Dad waiting for me. It’s been a while since I’ve seen them, and as usual, my mom is looking dapper. Her rosy cheeks are high with a smile, and in an instant, I’m tickled to see her.
My dad looks pretty good, too. He’s wearing shorts, a nice T-shirt, socks, and tennis shoes. The same Coke-bottle glasses adorn his face. I smile at them both, and we hug.
“I’m so glad to see you,” she says.
“Me, too, Mom.” I look at my dad.
“How are you, sweetie?” he asks.
I shrug coolly. “I’m fine.”
“Well you don’t look so fine,” Mom says.
I touch the skin under my eye. It’s tender because I’m exhausted, even though I slept throughout the entire flight in order to avoid thoughts of Nolan and Kelsey together.
“It’s been a long week,” I say.
Mom puts her arm around my shoulders. “Well, welcome to vacation, baby. Everybody needs one.”
She kisses my forehead, then we get my luggage and head to the car.
Once we’re on the road, I roll my window down. Wow. We’re surrounded by beaches. We pass some places that look like condos, and shortly after that, we pull into an impressive resort.
“Where is Brian?” I ask.
“Your brother has gone to the beach,” Mom says.
I should have known. Brian loves the ocean. I can’t wait to join him. We get to the villa, and I put my suitcase in my room.
“Dinner will be at eight o’clock,” my mom hollers from the other room.
“Thanks!” I shout back. I put on a light dress and my flip-flops then head out to find Brian.
The good thing is all I have to do is open this sliding glass door, and I’m there. I walk to the sandy shore, and as I get closer to the ocean, I can see my brother in the water. He waves, and I wave back.
“Are you coming in?” he calls.
I cup my hands around my mouth and yell, “Not today. Maybe tomorrow!”
Brian shows me an “a-okay” sign and dives into the crystal-clear water.
I stand in place and admire my surroundings. The rhythm of the water rolling onto the beach and back to sea again makes me feel like I can forget everything.
Five minutes later, Brian is making his way toward me. “Hey, sis,” he says, dripping with water.
“Hey, Brian, how are you?”
“Pretty good, and you?”
“I’m pretty good, too.”
“I would hug you, but I don’t want to get you wet,” he says.
“That’s okay.” I grab him and hug him anyway.
We walk back to the villa, grab a beer, and sit on the patio to watch the sun set. Brian updates me on his job, his love life, which is non-existent, and his intention to travel to the Galapagos Islands in the spring. I don’t tell him anything about Nolan because I don’t think there is anything to tell.
After the sun sets, we go inside and get ready for dinner. After we are dressed, Mom, Dad, Brian, and I walk over to the resort restaurant. We are quickly seated. My parents spend the first half of the night talking about all of the fun they’ve had traveling this year. Mom won’t stop talking about how much Dad fishes with his shirt off and how he keeps getting a bad sunburn. Some of their stories are so outlandish that Brian and I can’t stop laughing.
“When we were in Madrid, watching flamenco dancers, one of them kept clapping her little clappers in your father’s face,” Mom says, sounding entertained.
Brian pats Dad on the back. “That’s because you’re hot, Dad.”
I want to laugh my head off, but a veil of sadness keeps me from having as much fun as I know I could have.
“So what did you do, Mom?” Brian asks.
“I asked if she could give me a lap dance, too!”
That gets me to chuckle a little. I look away from the table, and across the dining room, I connect eyes with someone who looks familiar. I tap Brian on the shoulder.
“Hey, is that the Christensens?” I ask.
He stares across the room. “Yeah, I think so. Hey, Dad, look who’s here.”
Dad turns, and the Christensens see us and wave.
“Come on over,” my dad says.
We add an extra table, and Tom and his family join us. His son, Daniel, sits next to me. He and I are the same age. I haven’t seen him for a few years, but he still has those same green eyes and delectable lips. We smile at each other, and for a moment, I forget Nolan Patrick exists.
“So, Tom, how’s it been?” my dad asks.
“Fine, Jerry,” he says.
“Oh, there you two go again. It’s already the Tom and Jerry show,” my mom says.
Only the parents laugh.
“I see you still got it, Judy,” Sharon, Daniel’s mother, says.
There’s more laughing, and before long, they are all getting caught up on what’s happened since they last saw each other.
“You look great, Abby,” Daniel says.
I turn, and our noses nearly touch. “Thank
you. So do you.” I lean back to put some space between us.
“When was the last time we saw each other?”
I put my finger to my lip to think. “Was it four years ago?”
“Something like that.” He shifts in his seat and leans in close again. “Boy, have you changed. I hardly recognized you. Did you see me looking at you?”
I lean back again. “Yeah,” I say while I nod. This is feeling very uncomfortable. But I’m also intrigued. They say the best way to get over someone is to get under someone else. He’s cute, other than the fact that he’s looking at me as if I’m a fish taco and he hasn’t eaten in a decade.
“So how’s your trip been?” he asks.
“Just got here today.”
He taps his fingers nervously on the table. “Wow, you’re beautiful. Do you have a boyfriend?”
I’m not sure how to answer that. If he had asked me a week ago, I probably would’ve said yes. But now, I have no prospects. “Nope.”
The waiter sets our food on our table, and our parents admire each other’s dishes. I ordered the pan-seared scallops with asparagus. One bite, and I’m in love with the taste.
“So, Abby…” Daniel stops cutting into his steak.
I’m chewing. “Um-hum.”
“I rented a yacht.”
“You did?”
“Yeah. I’m planning a party for the day after Christmas.”
“You are?”
He flexes his eyebrows flirtatiously. “I would like for you to come.”
You can do this, Abby, I say to myself. He’s cute and rich, and I’ve known him since my family started vacationing on St. Kitts for Christmas six years ago. Of course an invitation to a party isn’t a marriage proposal or some kind of declaration of love. However, it’s a start… the beginning of getting Nolan Patrick out of my head.
“Sure,” I say. “What time does it start?”
“We dock at three o’clock.”
For the rest of dinner, our parents drag us into their conversations about the difference between current pop culture and yesteryear. It’s so funny to hear them say things like “big booty” and “so hot” and discuss the meaning of acronyms like LOL and WTF. All the while, Daniel constantly brushes his leg and arm against mine. I figure it’s his way of telling me that he’s interested.
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