Scarred (Damaged Souls)

by Twyla Turner

  Sloan stepped towards the bed till his thighs hit the edge. He bent down and placed Lexi on the mattress. She looked up at him with fear and arousal clouding her eyes. Sloan could tell that her emotions were at war inside of her.

  “Alexis, I swear to God that I won’t hurt you. Please trust me.” Sloan said passionately.

  “I trust you.” Lexi said softly.

  Sloan hands trembled with need and anticipation as he reached for the bottom of her tank and slowly raised it up her body and whipped it over her head. Tossing the top to the floor, Sloan gazed at her large breasts that nearly spilled over her simple bra. He reached around her back to release the clasp of her bra and slowly pulled the straps down her arms. Pulling the material away from her body, her heavy breasts spilled into his hands. He stroked his thumbs over her large areolas and nipples making them draw up and harden. Lexi gasped at the touch.

  Tremors started in her hands. Trying to ignore it she placed them lightly on Sloan’s chest, stroking the tight smooth skin. Her fingers were drawn to the multiple scars that blemished his left side. Her fingers danced over the raised flesh and Sloan closed his eyes, absorbing the feeling of the first touch he’d received on his scars since they’d happened.

  Overwhelmed, Sloan grabbed her hands, pulling them away from his skin and slowly laid her back on the bed. He slid his fingers under the waist of her pants and began to pull them down her hips and legs. Underneath she wore adorable low-rise panties with little hearts all over them. He smiled slightly at the cute panties and Lexi blushed in response.

  “I…I wasn’t expecting this to happen when I got dressed this morning.” Lexi explained in embarrassment.

  “They’re adorable and so are you.” Sloan looked down at her in adulation.

  He grasped her hips and flipped her over onto her stomach. Starting at her shoulders, Sloan stroked his hands down her back and leaning over, kissed down her spine till he reached the band of her panties. The tremors that had started in her hands started to travel through her whole body and she bunched the sheets in her hands, gripping them tightly, fighting the need to bolt.

  Sloan crooked his index fingers under the waistband of her panties and started to inch them down as he continued to kiss the skin he exposed. Once the material cleared her round globes, he pulled them all the way off. Sliding his hands back up her smooth calves and thighs, Sloan saw the birthmark that Lexi had briefly mentioned. It was in the shape of a lopsided heart, at the top of her thigh just under her right cheek. Unable to resist Sloan bent down and kissed the mark.

  Bringing his attention back to the most beautiful smooth golden brown backside he’d ever seen, Sloan peppered kisses all over Lexi’s soft skin, sneaking in a few nibbles here and there. Ready to burst with the need to taste her, he stopped worshipping her delectable ass for the time being and turned her back over. Her eyes were tightly shut and the trembles gained speed as Sloan caressed the skin of her thighs, skating over the skin near her scars.

  “Alexis, look at me.” Sloan said gently.

  She opened her eyes that were glassy with unshed tears.

  “Aw, baby! Don’t cry!” Sloan exclaimed.

  “It…it’s okay. Ignore it. I am. I…I need this, so don’t stop. It’ll take months, maybe years to slowly recondition my brain and I can’t wait that long for this, and I don’t think you can either.” Lexi said with choppy breaths as she looked down at the bulge pressing against his jeans.

  “Are you sure? I don’t want to rush or force you to do something that you don’t really want to.” Sloan asked with concern.

  “Yes. Please…Sloan.” Lexi begged wanting to continue before she lost all her nerve.

  “Okay. Scoot back for me.” Sloan instructed.

  Leaving his jeans on so he didn’t overwhelm her or freak her out, Sloan crawled onto the bed with Lexi. Drawing her knees up and gently separating them, Sloan laid his shoulders down between them. He kissed the inside of each of her knees and kissed down her left thigh, trying to infuse love and healing into each scar and then turned his head to her other thigh giving it the same attention.

  At his loving ministrations the tears in Lexi’s eyes spilled over and wouldn’t stop. She had never been given such loving touches from a man and the joy and elation from finally getting what she’d always wanted, poured out of her.

  Sloan kissed back down her thigh and bypassed her aching fragrant core to the wide expanse of her hips. He noticed the stretch marks that snaked down the skin of her hips from the rapid growth of her curves. He traced his fingers over them, his lips following their path. He kissed and licked across her soft quivering tummy to her other hip to give it equal devotion, giving loving consideration to all of her flaws and perfections.

  Ready to give Lexi all the pleasure that she deserved but never had. Sloan rubbed his nose down the small triangle of hair covering her mound breathing in her scent. He lightly kissed the top of her labia, happy to find her wet and prepared for him. He stroked a finger down her opening and slowly slid in one long digit at the same time that he flicked his tongue against her swollen clit.

  Lexi cried out at the feel of his tongue on her aroused flesh and she dug her hands into the sheets. Sloan slowly stroked his finger out and back in again, readying her body for what was to come. All the while, he continued to gently lick and flick and rotate his tongue on her hardened nub.

  Never in her life had she felt anything so wonderful yet terrifying. A man was finally making love to her, making sure she was satisfied, yet there was no way that it could last. Everything always went to shit for her. Once she had this amazing experience there was no going back, never able to get back the ignorance of the possibility of love and pleasure, because she’d know it was real.

  Sloan crooked his finger hitting a spot inside of her that she never knew existed and sucked her clit into his mouth at the same time. Lexi forgot all conscious thought as she came apart. Her hips bucked against his persistent mouth and her body quaked with overpowering sobs as she cried out her release, experiencing her very first orgasm ever.

  Sloan gentled his kisses and flicks bringing her back down from the brink of insanity. He slowly kissed up her tummy to her large luscious breasts. Ready to wrap his lips around one gorgeous plump nipple, Sloan noticed that Lexi was covering her face with her hands, her body still shaking.

  Sitting up slightly Sloan reached up to clasp her wrists and pull them away from her face. Underneath Lexi’s face was red and tear streaked as she looked at him with heartbreaking green eyes.

  “Oh my God, Lexi! What did I do? Did I hurt you? What’s wrong?!” Sloan exclaimed as he kissed her tear stained face.

  “I…I…nev…never knew…i…it…could b…be like that.” Lexi hiccupped through her sobs.

  “Aw, baby. And there’s so much more. I can show you. But I don’t know if I feel right continuing with you in this state.” Sloan looked at her with worry.

  “No…no. I w…want to. Sh…show…me.” Lexi said trying to calm her tears.

  Sloan leaned down to kiss her plush lips before sliding off the bed to undo his jeans. Lexi watched biting her lip in concentration as he stripped out of his pants. Not even the large tent in the front of his sweats earlier could’ve prepared her for the sight of him completely naked. He was glorious and terrifying at the same time. The men of her past that had brutalized her hadn’t been as big and they still had caused major damage to her tender insides. So she wondered what destruction Sloan would leave in his wake.

  “Alexis, I can see the look of worry on your face. I promise you, I won’t hurt you. There’s a big difference between forcing yourself on a woman when she’s not ready and taking your time to get her prepared for your body. Trust me, you’re ready.” Sloan assured her as he stroked a finger down her soaked opening.

  Lexi just nodded her head, unable to speak around the fear that nearly choked her. Sloan crawled back up between her thighs and Lexi squeezed her eyes shut, bracing herself for the inevitable pain
to come.

  “Don’t you dare. Open your eyes and look at me. I’m not him and this is not like the last time.” Sloan command perceptively. “This is you and me.”

  Lexi opened her eyes and studied Sloan’s face. He held her eyes as he caressed the large tip of his manhood against her slick opening. With extreme care, he slowly slid inside of her tight passage. Sloan grit his teeth at the feel of her small entrance expanding to accommodate his considerable size. Lexi focused on his intense loving gaze, only feeling the slightest discomfort as her body adjusted to him.

  Sliding in to the hilt, Sloan stilled, waiting for her body to relax.

  “Are you okay?” Sloan asked.

  “Uh huh.” Lexi responded.

  Sloan pulled out to the tip, held his position there for several beats, arms shaking with restraint as he held himself over her. And with a roll of his hips he stroked back into her, hitting the top of her womb. Lexi’s eyes widen in shock and a gasp escaped her throat, surprised by the amazing feeling that just radiated through her core.

  “Did you like that?” Sloan asked breathless.

  “Yes. More.” Lexi said equally winded.

  “Yes, ma’am.” Sloan grinned, joy filling his heart knowing that he was pleasuring her.

  Sloan quickly withdrew and then plunged back into Lexi with a little more force. This time Lexi cried out and threw her head back in ecstasy. Her reaction sent Sloan over the edge, what little restraint he had left snapped. He grabbed the wide expanse of her hips and pummeled into her tight wet heat.

  It had been years since he had been intimate with a woman, even before he was discharged from the military. And after several agonizing days of being around the woman that he desired more than any other in his life, he lost all control. His hips were like powerful pistons, stroking into her with abandon. His dog tags swinging erratically with every thrust. Sweat gleamed on his skin, dampening the hair on his nape and temples. A few drops slid down his straight nose and fell seductively on Lexi’s breasts and stomach, sliding down her burnished skin dewy with her own perspiration.

  Lexi’s cries came more frequent and grew louder with each pump of his hard flesh. Her core tightened in anticipation of the impending explosion. She reached for the sheets, clutching them in a vice grip, bracing herself. Her climax ripped through her violently and her back bowed off the bed as her muscles pulsated around him.

  Sloan was barely able to hold back his release till he was sure she had hers. So at her first strong clench around his manhood he exploded with a roar. Astonishingly, his hips sped up and the slap of his flesh against hers filled the room.

  Even after the last drop of his release was wrung from him, his raging erection stayed as hard as if he hadn’t just had the most powerful climax of his life. Lexi laid limp on the bed, spent, silent tears sliding down her temples. Sloan wrapped his arms around her back and sitting back on his hunches, he pulled her up to straddle his lap.

  He continued to stroke into her, his pace slower and gentler, able to take it easy now that the initial overpowering urges had finally dissipated. He softly kissed Lexi on the lips and then moved to her chin, tear streaked cheeks, nose and wet eyelashes.

  “Are those tears of happiness?” Sloan asked, rubbing his nose against hers.

  “Yes.” Lexi gasped at the gentle thrust of his hips into her.

  Lexi stroked the damp hair away from Sloan’s face and combed her fingers through the inky black silk to the back of his head. Gripping his hair tightly she pulled his head back and initiated her first kiss between them. She nibbled at his lips as she rocked her pelvis into him as he thrust up. Her lips moved to the long scar that ran down his face. She kissed from where it started above his eye, down to where it ended at his chiseled jawline.

  Sloan closed his eyes, his heart spilling over with love at the tender kisses. His hands slipped into the soft cloud of hair framing her face, pulling slightly making her head fall back, exposing her smooth neck. Sloan licked a path down her neck to her luscious breasts that he had yet to bestow affection on. Sloan flicked his tongue against a stiff peak as he thrust up into her.

  Lexi drew in a sharp breath at the teasing touch and the smooth feel of his hard length. Her back bowed in his arms, presenting her breasts at a better angle for his mouth. Sloan’s hands slid to her sides, pressing her breasts together, launching a full assault on her tender nipples with his lips, teeth and tongue. He lapped at the dark buds till they were glistening. He gently nibbled on them, grazing his teeth across the tender skin as Lexi reflexively rolled her hips into him.

  Greedy for the pleasure she knew another climax would bring, Lexi clutched at Sloan’s strong shoulders for leverage and using her legs she raised up, sliding up his satiny steel to the large tip. Holding on tight, she slammed back down onto his lap, burying him to the hilt. Sloan released her nipple with a surprised groan.

  “Fuck, Lexi!” Sloan shouted.

  Realizing that Lexi was ready for more and being more than willing to give her what she wanted. Sloan grabbed her hips preparing every muscle in his body for the attack he was about inflict on her wet heat. Using his arms he raised her up his length and then used his arms, legs and core muscles to pound into her awaiting pussy.

  Lexi screamed as he hit her cervix. Without pause Sloan continued relentlessly, stroking into her with punishing blows. She bounced in his lap, only able to hold on to his shoulders, helpless as he laid siege on her sensitive core. All sex to Lexi had been considered rough as well as painful, but this bout of “rough” sex was beyond anything that she thought possible.

  With no build up or warning Lexi’s climax violently tore through her. Her nails raked across Sloan’s shoulders, her muscles clenched and wrapped around his thick cock and yet he still maintained his speed and powerful blows. A rough scream lacerated her throat.

  Lexi couldn’t fathom where his stamina came from. She thought she was going insane as one orgasm stopped and another started in its wake. Losing her hold on reality, Lexi was delirious to nothing but sensations.

  “Sloan…PLEASE!” Lexi sobbed.

  Lexi’s plea brought Sloan out of his mindless battering of her tiny body. He wrapped her tightly in his arms and buried his face in her neck, grimacing in ecstasy as he exploded into her. He gently stroked into her as her inner walls quivered in exhaustion, as the last of his come was wrenched from his body, his erection finally softened.

  They fell onto the mattress, their limbs tangled together drenched with perspiration. Sloan still had Lexi encircled in his arms, their heads close together sharing the same pillow. Sloan gazed into her luminescent green eyes. It was on the tip of his tongue to finally tell her how he felt about her, but her eyes again filled with tears and she quickly buried her face in his neck in embarrassment.

  “Lexi, please! Why do you keep crying? You’re killing me here! I didn’t mean to take it so far. I meant to be gentle I swear…it…it’s just been so long for me.” Sloan said in concern.

  “I’m sorry.” Lexi mumbled into his neck, before he put a hand under her chin forcing her to look at him. “It’s not you. It’s just that I’ve always heard how great sex is, other women talking about mind-blowing sex. And I never understood what all the hype was about. Sex has always been painful, uncomfortable and even humiliating for me. I’ve never experienced anything like what you just showed me. Even the rough parts were incredible. I…I’ve never had an orgasm before today.” Lexi explained, looking away bashfully at the last admission.

  “On one hand I’m completely pissed off that no one ever took the time to pleasure you, and that they got some sort of sick power off of your pain. But on the other hand, I can’t help but be selfishly happy that I was able to be the one to give you pleasure for the first time.” Sloan confessed as he caressed a finger down her soft cheek.

  “And thank you so much for that. It was beautiful, I never realized…” Lexi said as one final tear made a path across the bridge of her nose and fell to the pillow below.
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  “Well I have to admit that I didn’t realize either. That was the best sexual experience of my life!” Sloan exclaimed as he fell back and looked up at the ceiling.

  Out the corner of his eye Sloan saw a wild afro and surprised green eyes pop up. A grin spread across his lips as Lexi looked down at him in shock.

  “Me? I was the best sexual experience of your life?!” Lexi said in disbelief.

  “Yes, ma’am.” Sloan said looking over at her as she propped her head on her hand and looked down at him.

  “I thought I was terrible in bed, and that was why it was never enjoyable for me.” Lexi thought out loud.

  “Bullshit! They were terrible in bed, not you. A man can almost always get off, even in the worst of circumstances. But a woman more often than not, goes unsatisfied. So it’s the man’s responsibility to find what makes her come. But for your part, you were loving, responsive and actively participated. Oh and it helps that your body is amazing.” Sloan explained, starting to get worked up again just thinking about it.

  “Now you’ve done gone and lost your mind! ‘Responsive and actively participated…amazing body’?” Lexi looked at him like he was crazy.

  “Yes. You have no idea how many women will lay there like a dead fish. They won’t move or make a sound. It’s hard to know if you’re doing it right if you don’t get some sort of signal. I think many think that they’re too pretty to put in any work, and that we as men should do all the work and we should be thanking our lucky stars that we even are able to have sex with them. At least that’s my opinion on the subject.” Sloan said before stroking his index finger down her smooth neck to her full breast and circling it around a taut nipple.

  “And yes, you have an amazing body. You’ve tormented me since I first laid eyes on you. You couldn’t have told me then that I’d be here right now with you like this. All these curves in such a compact little body, you should come with a warning sign…‘Dangerous Curves Ahead’.” Sloan said as he leaned over and started kissing down her neck, ready for round two.