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by C. M. Stunich


  “Sydney,” he says as I drag a vodka shot away from him with my fingernail. “You're the only woman that's ever given me a three day erection.” In a certain way, that statement could be read as romantic. I smile again. “And Naomi … she … I don't even know what to do about that. She's the only woman I've ever been able to see myself with, you know?” I watch as he searches around for the shot and has trouble finding it. Definitely time to cut off the drinks. I tell myself I don't care about Naomi, and maybe I don't. Not really. It's been so long since I've had anything or anyone to care about that I'm not even sure I can do it anymore. But I do know one thing: I want her out of his head. I like being in it, like the way he looks at me, how he jumps when I brush against his skin.

  “You need a Naomi cleansing,” I tell him, tilting my head to the side and examining the thin sheen of sweat on his jawline. Yummy. I would lick that shit off in an instant. “I look a little bit like her, don't I?” I ask, and I'm glad that he's drunk because the question still makes him uncomfortable. I knew it.

  “A little, maybe,” he says and then pauses. “You're both blonde, I guess.” I tap my fingernails on the counter and think for a moment. I know I'm a class A freaking weirdo sometimes, but Crazy Sydney comes out when Dax is around. I just can't help myself.

  “Do you want to play a game?” I ask him, reaching out and running my hand up his leg. His entire body stiffens. “I'll be your Naomi, if you want.” What the hell are you doing, Sydney? I ask myself as I lean forward and inch my way closer to the prize. His cock is already up and happy to see me, straining against the fabric of his jeans. I've never been this eager in my life to see what's underneath a piece of denim.

  “What?” Dax looks both terrified and thrilled at the same time.

  “Fuck me, pretend you're fucking her. Get her out of your system.”

  “That's weird, Sydney,” he says, but I see he doesn't resist when I move my hand from his leg to his wrist and pull him to his feet. I grab the shot, down it and slam the glass on the countertop. If I hit it a little harder than normal, who would even notice?

  There are back rooms in the club for, you know, those special ladies who are willing to provide 'private dances' for their clients. I'm not one of them. I might be a stripper, but I am definitely not a fucking whore. The information comes in handy though when I slip the bouncer a couple bills and get him to unlock one of the doors for me.

  It might not be fair to Dax, what I'm doing. But I can't wait anymore. And I can't fuck him if I think he might be dreaming about Naomi. I might as well know ahead of time, right? Sydney, you jealous bitch. But I like Dax, and I think his tattoos are killer, and his drumming is beyond fucking amazing. So I'm going to have sex with him in the back room of a strip club. I pause as I close the door behind us and glance up at the ceiling, towards the pair of black speakers mounted on the wall. An Amatory Riot song is playing. How … weird. I'm surprised nobody in the club recognized him. I bet they'd have been able to pick Hayden out of a crowd, or Naomi. Personally, I think Dax is more interesting than either of them, but I could be bias. He is fucking cut as hell, and his eyes, when they do meet mine are captivating.

  “I don't know what I'm doing in here. Maybe I should lie down?”

  “You don't want to fuck me?” I ask him, leaning against the mirror on the back of the door and reaching my fingers under the black fabric of my shirt.

  “I'm not supposed to,” he says, his voice a little stronger. “Love can't be turned off. It can't just be turned on either. It's a slow build, right?” I shrug, my heart palpating in my chest. Above us, the sound of Dax's drums ring out, echoing around the small room with its red velvet walls. There's a single chaise lounge, a chair, and a black metal pole, cutting straight through the center of the room. I'd dance for him, but Naomi doesn't dance, and Naomi is what he's going to get. And then, when I can look in his eyes and see that she's gone, maybe I'll find out what's in there for me? Anyway, they're going to L.A.; I'm going to L.A. This isn't the worst place in the world to meet someone new. Dax is trouble, Sydney. You're going to get yourself into a hell of a mess with this one. I ignore my inner voice. She's cool and all, but I already tried it her way, and I can't stop myself. I want Dax so bad it fucking hurts.

  “Take off your pants, Dax,” I tell him, watching my fingers shake as I slip my top off and toss it to the floor. I know it's probably not the cleanest place in the world, but this is part of the fun, the gritty taboo nature of knowing we're standing somewhere a thousand fucks have taken place, maybe more. I'm not here to make love to Dax; I'm here to fuck him.

  “Tearing me up, shredding me inside; my walls are coming down in flames.” I listen to the lyrics of the song, but only as a way to accent the chatter of Dax's drums. He watches me carefully, turning away after a moment to put his forehead in his hand.

  “The security guards aren't going to like us being in here,” he whispers, but he doesn't sound convinced that we should stop. When he looks back at me, I can see he's close to losing control. I think I picked a good time. All alcohol really does anyway is lower the inhibitions, and those are fine and dandy and all that, but occasionally, they get in the way of a good thing.

  “Okay,” I tell him, sliding my hands up my belly, over my breasts, my fingers alighting softly on the tattoos that run across my chest. “Tell me to stop.” Dax licks his lips, but he doesn't say a damn thing.

  “If you break me, baby, be prepared to pick up the pieces.” The song comes to an end and freaking piggybacks right up against an Indecency track. It's an old one, with Travis on the bass. I squeeze my hands into fists, listening to the hum of his instrument. I sat at so fucking many of their concerts, and I never saw America, not once. If she was there, Travis did a damn good job of hiding her. Sneaky, sneaky little bitch. But she doesn't matter right now. Right now, the only thing I care about is the size of the bulge in Dax's pants.

  I reach behind my back and unhook the clasp on my skirt, letting the insignificant piece of fabric fall to the floor. Did I mention I wear nylons without panties? Why bother to double up, right? Dax groans and sits back, letting his head fall against the wall.

  “Come on, Dax,” I whisper, hating that Turner's voice is oozing into the room. I do my best to ignore it and run my hands back down, teasing the waistband on the tights. If he wants these off, he's going to have to do it himself. “Come show Naomi exactly how you feel.” I lean forward, letting my hair fall and then swipe some of it back with my hand. I bend low and rise back up, so slowly that my muscles quiver and ache. It's a stage trick, sure, but it works. Dax rises to his feet, a little unsteady. I ask myself if I really want to fuck him while he's drunk, and the answer is no. So 'Naomi' is going to do it. And then tomorrow, when Dax wakes up, we can start fresh. I get that I'm copping out a little, using the booze and the unrequited love to shield myself from having to feel anything real here, but that's okay. It's alright.

  “Sydney, this is not a good idea,” he tells me, biting down hard on his lip. I think I see a fleck of blood staining his mouth ruby red. God, that's hot. “I don't even have a condom.” I smile. Aw, how cute. I reach into my bra and pull one out, holding it between two fingers and waving it back and forth like a flag.

  “Always come prepared, Dax,” I tell him as he moves a step forward. I lift my gaze up to meet his eyes. “Because you never know when life is going to fuck you.” I grin. “Now,” I lift my arms out to the sides, raising them up and sliding them along his shoulders. “Take me. I'm yours.”

  I expect Dax to come in slow, kiss me, touch my breasts, feel me up. I want him to, want to feel that icy touch sliding across every inch of exposed skin. I'm always doing things in a rush, exploding into situations without a second thought of how I got there or what I'm doing. When Dax touches me, I feel some of that frenzy sizzle away, leaving room for an intense ache that eats away at my soul. It's the kind of ache people die for. It's a Helen of Troy sort of a thing. A lust, a desire, so powerful it's worth betting eve
rything on. Everything.

  Instead, as I'm closing my eyes and leaning into him, he grabs my arms and spins me around, smashing my face against the mirror on the door. My cheek scrapes the glass as I struggle to get a view of him in the reflection. With my neck at this angle, the only thing I can see is his face. And it's dark, much darker than I expected. My lips part and I grunt when I feel him grinding his erection against me.

  “Show her who's boss, Dax,” I whisper and he grits his teeth so hard, the muscles in his neck throb. One of his hands holds my wrists together against my back while the other roams over my ass, dipping down to cup me tightly with his hand. I wonder if he'll find the piercing? And then I grin because I'm just that fucking weird, and Dax pauses, sliding his hand back with a groan. He releases my hands and I press them into the glass, holding myself in place, letting him get a good look at me, open and desperate for it. I watch his face as he takes the condom from my fingers, listening for the sound of a zipper buried in all of the metal music screaming into the room. I keep talking. I don't know why. I'm not usually much of a talker, but I want to hear Dax's voice. It's low and melodic and laced with spots of darkness that make me feel like I could close my eyes and just let things go. “I want you to go for it. Take me. Make me yours.” I'm supposed to be playing a part right now; I'm supposed to be Naomi. But truth is stranger than fiction sometimes, isn't it? Not even I can tell how much of what I'm saying is true.

  “Oh, believe me,” he growls. Growls. I love it. Dax is like the monster under the bed, the one you want to come out and ravage you. “I'm going to go for it. I've wanted to since the first second I laid eyes on you.” His fingers squeeze my flesh, sliding underneath the waistband and hooking around the nylon fabric, sliding it slowly, so fucking slowly, over my ass. Dax pushes the tights down between my thighs, his breathing speeding up, his gray eyes locked onto my body. He can't look away. I keep my gaze trained on his face, soaking in the emotions, eating them up as I nibble my lip and pray he gets this over with soon. I should've jumped his bones from day one.

  I hold my breath as he adjusts himself behind me, keeping just enough space between us that I can feel his body heat. It's painfully tantalizing.

  “You're the most beautiful woman I've ever seen. I just want you to be mine. I don't even care what foods you like to eat or where you grew up. It's this primal thing with me, and I'm not a primal person. I make fun of guys like Turner behind their backs while they make fun of me to my face.” I move to adjust myself, but Dax puts a hand on my back and keeps me still. I practically purr. I don't get to have sex like this that often. There has to be some modicum of trust, and I don't trust easily. I try for vanilla shit most of the time, and my tastebuds are stale as fuck. I could use a little strawberry topping. “With you, I can't see straight. My body's made the decision. I want to fuck you so hard, you can't even remember being with any other guys. After today, that's it. It's just me and you.” Dax swallows and my eyes sting. I close them against the tiniest bite of pain. I wanted him to play out his Naomi fantasies on me, and I'm a big girl, but his words are so intense. Nobody could ever compete with that. I wish him luck if he plans on going against Turner though. “And it doesn't hurt that you're kind, that you smile a lot, that you just do things.”

  I pause. What the fuck did he just say?

  “Huh?”

  Dax thrusts into me so hard, my face slams into the glass, and I have to bite my lip to keep from crying out. His body swells inside of my tightness, teasing my cunt with sensations I've never felt before, bites of cold, hard steel that definitely didn't come with the birthday package. He's pierced. Holy shit. It's always the quiet ones, isn't it? We're like two fucking peas in a pod.

  “Oh my God,” Dax moans, his voice a ragged sob. “Oh thank God. Thank fucking God.”

  “Feels so good,” I whisper as he moves inside of me, pounding hard enough with his hips that the door shakes and my face starts to hurt. But I don't care. As long as I can keep staring at his expression in the reflection, I can die happy. I thought Dax would be a slow and easy sort of a fuck, but this is anything but. I can hardly find my breath as he manages to fit himself inside of me, his piercings massaging me in all the right places to make a girl meow. Okay, so I've never done that before, but I'd be down for it. Dax makes me want to be down for it. “Make her feel you, baby.”

  Dax pauses, resting inside of me, his hands squeezing so tight that I can actually cry out in pain. I start to pant, but I don't ask him to stop. I don't want him to stop.

  “I appreciate the offer,” he whispers, his voice so rough it sounds like it's going to break us both in half. “But it's not Naomi I want to be with right now; it's you.” I let out a groan, a sigh of relief, a broken pang of pleasure that travels up my spine, makes my hands curl against the mirror. I don't know how I feel about that. I don't. And Dax doesn't sound drunk when he says that. So much for trying to protect myself, I think as he picks up his rhythm, proving Lola so right it's wrong. Drummers really do know their shit.

  I splay my hands out, lean into him and tell my mind to fuck off. The body wants to feel what it wants to feel, without the mind always getting in the way. So I let Dax take me, pummeling me with his cock, bruising me with his hands, destroying me, crushing me inside. Eyes wide open, he groans my name into the hot air, muscles tightening behind me, comes so hard he drags me with him, whimpering and moaning into a well-deserved climax.

  Tara Bae.

  I met her in junior high school. We used to sneak cigarettes together under the bleachers. She used to make fun of me because I wore safety pins through the piercings in my ears; I used to tease her because she wore rainbow petticoats under her black skirts. I tell all of this and more to Sydney while we smoke a pair of cigs out in front of the strip club. I was right: our bodyguards aren't happy at all. The second we walked out of that room, they were waiting for us with America on the other end of a phone call. I refused to speak with her. Why should I? It's her fault we're in this mess in the first place. If I want to have some fun, it should be my choice.

  And Sydney is definitely fun.

  I close my eyes for a moment, letting the smoke kiss my face and try to decide if I've sobered up enough to go see Tara. I don't really want to go see her, but I need to. I open my eyes again and look over at Sydney. Holy mother of friggin' Mary. That was a fuck. That was sex, real sex, primal sex. Obviously, I've had good sex in the past. I've tried a whole variety of weird shit, but this, this was perfect. I wrinkle my nose and take a drag. I feel like I've just marked my territory. How disgusting is that?

  “I should probably be neutered,” I tell Sydney, putting out my smoke in an ashtray and looking down at her. She's sitting on the dirty cement, short skirt pushed up dangerously close to her ass, one knee up, the other resting flat against the ground. She holds her cigarette out to the side, clutched between two fingers. It reminds me with an aching fierceness of the condom she held in her hand no more than an hour ago. I shiver and watch as she adjusts the sunglasses on her face. They're actually mine, but when she fished them from my pocket and put them on, I didn't bother to take them back. Why would I? Sydney looks fucking electric in them. That, and I keep telling myself that she's mine. That's not true, of course, but I want it to be. One fuck does not a relationship make. Still …

  She pouts at me, pushing out her gorgeous lips along with a tendril of slow moving smoke.

  “That's a silly thing to say. I haven't meet your balls personally yet, but we're acquainted. Thus far, I see no reason to get rid of the little fuckers.” Sydney grins at me and my whole body goes stiff. My whole body. I sit down hard in the chair behind me and pretend neither of us notices. Having sex with her might have eased the tension a little, but it didn't break it. I'm still day dreaming about those nylons. If I didn't have the thing with my dad, this desperation to break my secret with Tara, I'd be taking Sydney by the hand and heading back to the hotel. What is everyone going to think when they see us? I purse my lips. Seem
s like they already knew we were into each other anyway. Fucking Turner piece of shit.

  I don't talk to Sydney about what this is, if this is the quickie fling we were talking about before. Or something else. My heart starts to pound when I imagine her leaving, heading off to L.A. for her photo shoot. I bite my tongue to keep myself from saying something ridiculous.

  “You still haven't told me what's up with Tara,” Sydney prompts. “So you dated her in high school? What happened?” Her voice softens. “I won't judge, Dax. I don't judge.”

  “You know how everyone always calls me emo?” I ask, raising my eyebrows. I don't really want to go into this sitting in front of a strip club, but when else am I going to get the chance? The security guards aren't going to let us slip away. I guess I could demand they leave us alone, but then what? Am I going to get shot in the head by a sniper rifle? Kidnapped and dragged to a trailer? I have to make peace with the fact that they're coming with us. Fine.

  I scoot over to Sydney, letting a group of drunken assholes exit the building first before crossing the bit of sidewalk that separates us, and sit down next to her. She switches her cigarette to her other hand and wraps her fingers around mine. I can't believe we just fucked. Seriously. It's too good to be friggin' true. That, and I feel like I've known her forever. I imagine she makes a lot of people feel that way. Sydney is open, outgoing, gregarious. All the things that I'm not. My father's voice threatens to break through my thoughts, but I shove it back. I don't even have the mental capability to process that information right now. Even though you know it makes sense. His blatant hatred for you. Did Mom cheat on him? Is that my heritage, my birthright? Born wrong and screwed. That's what my tattoo should say.

  “Those drums you saved,” I begin with a crooked smile, keeping my gaze focused on my boots and not out at the parking lot, the sea of cars, the laughter of loser dudes with nothing fucking better to do with their time than stare at chicks they'll never have. I squeeze Sydney's hand a little too hard and force myself to relax. “Those are from Tara. She's the one that really encouraged what my dad had only previously referred to as my 'useless hobby'. If it wasn't for her, I wouldn't be doing what I'm doing today. I'd have never been good enough for Amatory Riot.” I never would've met you. I keep that shit to myself. That really does sound douche-y as hell. At least at this point in our relationship. What are we on here, day four? Fucking A.

 

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