by Gayle Callen
Dedication
To Laura Lee Guhrke, my author buddy and dear friend: thanks for the brainstorming and the long phone calls where we can talk about everything and anything. Wish we didn’t live almost a continent apart.
Contents
Cover
Title Page
Dedication
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Epilogue
About the Author
By Gayle Callen
Copyright
About the Publisher
Chapter 1
Scotland, 1727
The rain woke her first, hard and pelting against her face. For a long moment, she kept her eyes closed in confusion and uncertainty—and pain. God, her head hurt, the distant ache exploding as she came more and more to consciousness. The rain plopped on her eyelids and cheeks, and slid down into the wet mass of hair beneath her. Something was wrong, something beyond the rain, the aching head, and the sodden, uneven ground upon which she lay. Thinking about it only hurt more, so she tried to move, flexing her hands and feet, shrugging her shoulders. A wave of nausea roiled through her, but she couldn’t let it overwhelm her. She shivered, teeth chattering, skull throbbing.
Why was she lying outside on the ground? Nothing came into her mind—nothing at all.
Surely it was because of the ache in her head, she told herself, fighting a growing feeling of anxiety. She needed warmth and release from the pain. Nothing would change if she just continued to lie there.
She crinkled her eyes, blinked several times, and opened them again. The sky was gray with patches of even darker clouds, letting loose a torrent upon the countryside. She forced herself to turn her head and saw a steep hillside above her, with the occasional bush clinging to the infertile ground. There were marks etched in the earth, like a giant had taken its fingers and gouged downward, leading right toward her.
With a groan, she rolled to the side, feeling every muscle protest like little screams erupting inside her.
And then she saw the blank stare of a dead man.
She screamed aloud, hoarse and choked, unable to look away. There was blood on his face, and his neck was at an unnatural angle.
She had to cover her mouth with both hands to stop the sobs from leaking out. Though she wanted to look away, she couldn’t let herself. He was dead, poor soul, but he was also a stranger. He was lying at the foot of a hillside, right beside her, and his face meant nothing.
She meant nothing.
She had to accept it now—there was nothing inside her head about who she was or why she was lying next to a dead man. Nothing existed before the moment she’d been awakened by the rain.
As she rolled away from the body, she told herself that she knew what things were—that hadn’t left her. There was the sky and rain and mud. She had hands that shook, a head that pounded, hips that ached as she arched away from a rock beneath her.
With a groan, she leveraged her hands beneath her and pushed until, trembling, she was in a sitting position. And then she saw another crumpled, unmoving body. She let out a moan of fear, looking around as if for the enemy who’d done this. But she was alone, with only the vastness of barren hills and wild water.
The person behind her was dead, but maybe not this one. On her hands and knees, she crawled the short distance, rocks cutting her palms, mud oozing between her fingers.
“Sir? Are you well?”
But when she touched his sodden coat, she knew; he was hard and cold and very dead. She forced herself to look into his face, eyes half-closed and staring at nothing. He was a stranger, too.
She sank back on her heels and hugged herself as despair washed over her, the feeling as wet and miserable as the rain itself. But she could not let herself surrender to fear. She wouldn’t die out here, alone. Looking around, she saw water flowing down the ravine, overrunning its banks. The uneven, rocky ground stretched downhill, away from her, rising into the slopes of barren brown hillsides, and between them, the darker green of valleys, dotted with the occasional copse of trees. There was nothing else in the world but the forlorn emptiness of countryside, no houses, no villages, no roads.
Turning her neck, she looked back up the ravine. She must have come from up there with these men, fallen down, maybe caused those gouges in the earth. But if they’d been riding horses, they were long gone, taking with them any belongings that might have explained who she was or where they were going.
She wasn’t sure when night might fall, but she needed to find help or at least shelter, before the cold killed her as the fall had killed these men.
Staggering to her feet, she began to walk downhill, away from the dangerously high river. Each step jarred her bruises, but at least nothing seemed broken—except her head, which pounded so hard she could only keep her eyes half open. Her soaked gown and cloak weighed her down, making each step an uneven lurch.
Duncan Carlyle, outlawed chief of the Clan Carlyle, rode his chestnut gelding, Arran, slowly through the rain along the narrow dirt path that wound between the hillsides of the southern Highlands. A fast-flowing burn overflowed its banks from the deluge, sending a rush of water on its way to the sea. It was a cold September day, nothing unusual for the Highlands. His wool plaid kept some of the heat in, and his horse’s flanks steamed against his bare thighs. He still had an hour’s journey back to his encampment, but he didn’t let his mind drift. He was ever alert for enemies. There’d been a close call when he’d almost been captured six weeks ago. It had taken two days of hard riding to elude his pursuers. Since then, he and all his men had stayed close to their encampment and avoided outsiders.
As the path took a turn, Arran’s ears went back, and Duncan felt the tension in the reins. A woman walked toward him, her hood draped back from her shoulders, her bare head dark with rain—and something else? Standing in the stirrups, he looked about, but saw nothing but the harsh Highland hills scattered with drooping purple heather. She was far too close to his encampment for comfort, and he wondered where the rest of her party was.
He urged his horse into a trot until he approached her. Her uneven gait came to a halt as her lowered gaze took in first the legs of his horse, then rose slowly. He inhaled at the sight of the ugly bruise on her forehead, and the wound beside it that streamed with blood. Her eyes were rimmed with blue shadows of distress, her face blanched white. She stared up at him unseeing, allowing him only a glimpse of her golden eyes before they rolled back in her head as she collapsed.
Swearing, Duncan swung down from his horse and hovered over her still form, years of wariness guiding his actions. “Mistress? Can ye hear me?”
As he touched her shoulders, he felt the fine material of her cloak. After straightening her limbs, he lifted her upper body into his left arm, cradling her head so that he blocked the rain. He probed near her wound gingerly with his right hand, and she frowned and weakly tried to turn away.
His wariness deepened. There was something about her, a familiarity that echoed inside his head but refused to take shape.
“Where am I?” she whispered, her accent English. “What happened?”
An En
glish lady in the Highlands? He chose to answer the second question rather than the first. “Ye’ve a nasty wound to your head, mistress. Did ye fall?”
She blinked as if she might lose consciousness. “Where am I? What happened?”
Now it was his turn to blink, but he remembered that wounds of the head could cause confusion. He knew he had to stop the blood loss.
“Mistress, can ye stand?”
She opened those eyes again, large and golden, in a delicate face. Her dark hair streamed back from her forehead, her hairline coming to a peak.
He recognized her, a flash of memory from Stirling several years ago, when he’d glared his hatred at the Earl of Aberfoyle, a haughty old man on horseback, forcing aside a poor lass heavy with child to make way for him. The earl’s family was seldom in Scotland, so their arrival in the Highlands had caused a stir. Duncan had seen this woman riding just behind, wearing the fine gown and jaunty hat that marked her a noble lady. At least she’d looked distressed at her father’s actions.
Catriona Duff was the daughter of Aberfoyle, the chief of the Clan Duff and Duncan’s bitter enemy. Aberfoyle was one of the main reasons that Duncan was an outlaw who had to protect and feed his people while on the run.
He lifted his head and looked about, as if the earl and his entire retinue were somewhere nearby, waiting to attack him. “Where are your men?” he demanded.
“What happened?” she asked weakly.
“Ye’ve hit your head. Where are your men?”
“My—men?”
Her hand fluttered toward her forehead, but he didn’t allow her to touch the wound.
A spasm of pain narrowed her eyes. “I found them . . . dead,” she whispered. “What happened to me?”
“I don’t know.” He would just have to hope she was telling the truth. Six weeks after almost being captured, he was still wary of anything unusual in his part of the Highlands. Dead men would prove her story true, but he couldn’t deal with them now.
“I—I can’t remember—I can’t remember anything!” Though her cry was feeble, it was full of helplessness and fear.
“Ye don’t remember the accident?”
“Not . . . the accident, not even . . . my name.”
He frowned down at her, wondering at what intrigue she was playing—or what her father had set in motion. He wouldn’t put it past the bastard.
She clutched his plaid. “What happened to me?” she cried in despair.
“I do not ken. I must clean that wound. Can ye stand? I can pull ye up on my horse.”
He rose, lifting her up with him until she could clutch the saddle for support. After mounting, he reached down for her. He would have preferred she ride astride behind him, but she seemed so weak that he ended up cradling her across his thighs. She leaned into him, her head lolling onto his chest, her blood staining his black, red, and yellow plaid.
It didn’t take long to reach the rocky overhang he’d used for shelter several other times. Once out of the rain, he searched his saddle pack but found nothing that would do for a clean bandage. He ended up cutting several strips from the end of his shirt with his dirk. The wound seemed clean enough after all the rain, so he wrapped the improvised bandages around her head and hoped they stopped the bleeding.
She looked at him helplessly the whole time, and he felt like she was memorizing his features. He studied her, too. Her high cheekbones emphasized the hollows beneath, and her full lips hinted at an expressive mouth. Her pale face was as remote and beautiful as a statue, making her appeal to him on a primitive level that he would never acknowledge.
Why was she in the remote Highlands? According to gossip he’d heard long ago, she rarely visited her father’s castles. Was she the advance of a larger party headed right for Duncan’s unsuspecting people? She was so close to his hidden encampment. If he let her go, she could bring men to hunt the area, risking his people—risking the good he was trying to do. He couldn’t release her until he knew all the facts.
As he stared down at her, her eyes closed, her waxen complexion and flickering frown betraying the presence of pain. But now he saw more—the brooch that decorated her shoulder, marking her: the insignia of the Duff clan. He pulled it off her and hid it away in his saddlebag. It would be safer if no one knew who she was. There were too many desperate clansmen who might react with violence.
“Time to go,” he said gruffly, helping her to a sitting position.
He saw the panic in her anguished eyes and barely had time to help her turn her head aside before she retched. Much as he despised her father, he pitied her condition. She was almost boneless as he lifted her to her feet. He covered her bandaged head with the hood of her cloak, hoping for some protection. His gelding, which had been grazing patiently in the rain, accepted both their weight and turned for home without Duncan’s guidance. He pulled his excess plaid around her for warmth and protection from the rain, but couldn’t stop glancing at her pale face.
She represented everything he despised, daughter of the man who cared so little about the Scottish people that he allowed children to be stolen and sold as indentured servants, practically slavery, in the American colonies and the Caribbean plantations. When Duncan had tried to call attention to what was happening, the sheriff and other magistrates in Glasgow along with their sponsor, her father, the Earl of Aberfoyle, had boldly threatened to imprison him. They’d rationalized that they were taking care of the problem of the poor and orphaned. After the childhood he’d endured, Duncan couldn’t tolerate seeing children abused. Perhaps there could have been more subtle ways for him to go about it, but subtlety also meant going slow, letting even more children be abandoned.
He’d sworn he would be a better chief than his father had been, but instead, he’d made everything worse. He’d brought his complaint to the Court of Session, and the magistrates hadn’t even allowed witnesses to be brought forth. Duncan had been imprisoned in a thief’s hole, and was about to be sold himself, leaving his clan defenseless, if he hadn’t escaped. In these last five years, he’d become a wanted man, an outlaw with a price on his head. The Earl of Aberfoyle and the magistrates continued to profit from the misery of others.
Since that day, the Carlyles skirted starvation, while the Duffs enjoyed the fruits of an earldom that spanned greater Britain. Catriona’s garments were expensive and London-purchased, while his sisters wore coarse cloth they’d woven themselves. Duff children had warm beds and full bellies at night, while Carlyle children huddled with their parents in the dark, fearing being dragged from their beds.
Duncan had begun his own campaign against his enemies, and he’d learned patience. When a pack train of horses carrying casks of Duff whisky through the Highlands had come to Duncan’s notice, it had been easy to steal it, sending the Duff guards fleeing through the hills on foot. He’d begun smuggling the whisky into the Lowlands, or onto a boat in the River Clyde on the way to the Atlantic. That money had bought new seedlings after a famine had nearly starved his people. He never stole too much whisky, and never from the same route. He let the guards grow lax before he struck again. It wasn’t solving his main problems—how to get the warrant on his head rescinded and end the kidnappings—but it was the start of his retribution.
And now into his path had come Catriona Duff. If he kept her for a while—and how could he not, with her injuries?—he would make the Duffs suffer as the Carlyles had all these years. This could be the culmination of his vengeance. Let the old earl wonder where his daughter was. Duncan wouldn’t harm her, and if she wasn’t a spy, she’d get a firsthand look at what her father had allowed to happen to an entire clan.
Chapter 2
She came awake to the slow rocking of a horse’s gait. For just a moment, she felt safe and almost warm. Hard arms supported her, held her close, and the ache in her head had dulled a bit, after resting against the warm masculine chest. Beneath her ear, she heard the steady beating of a strong heart.
Slowly, she opened her eyes and stared up a
t the man who’d rescued her. Everything about him was dark—hair drawn back in a queue beneath his cap, the stubble shadowing his strong jaw, even his eyes, so dark she could barely see his pupils. She wasn’t sure why she felt safe—he was a stranger after all. He could have left her behind, could have robbed and beaten her, but instead, he was helping her. And as for being a stranger—well, she was a stranger to herself.
She had hoped sleep would bring back her memory, but it hadn’t. It hurt to search through what seemed like cobwebbed corners of her mind. It was easier to think about this man she was utterly dependent on. He spoke gruffly, as few words as necessary, it seemed. But to her surprise, his touch had been gentle as he’d bandaged her head. Though his clothes were plain and sturdy, he talked as someone who’d been educated. He seemed . . . noble to her, a man down on his luck. Her own clothing was far finer than his; apparently she came from a wealthier family.
Keeping his gaze straight ahead, he said, “Ye’re studying me hard.”
She was so close to his neck that she could see the movement of his Adam’s apple above his neck cloth. Her cheeks felt suddenly hot as she grew all too aware of the intimate way he held her.
He glanced down at her, those dark eyes piercing. “Do ye remember something?”
She shook her head. “No, nothing. Where am I?”
“Scotland.”
“I . . . am I Scottish? I speak differently than you do.”
“Ye sound English to me.”
“Oh, I see. The English and the Scots do not always get along.”
He arched a brow.
“I remembered that!” she cried, then winced again. “This is the strangest feeling, to know unimportant things—”
“The animosity between England and Scotland is unimportant?” he asked, his voice growing colder.
“No, I wasn’t talking about that,” she said swiftly. “I meant I know the proper names of things, but absolutely nothing about myself, not even my proper name. Do you think it will all return?”