by Michelle Ray
Horatio said, “I know. I don’t think Hamlet should be anywhere near that game. I tried talking him out of it by tel ing him he’s too tired and that it’s a bad idea for him to be in the same place as Claudius. But he says he wants to play like he has every year for the past five years.”
“Hamlet can’t believe that, at this point, his inclusion is business as usual. With everything—You’d think Claudius and Gertrude would want him away from public scrutiny.”
“I know. Even Hamlet knows it’s weird. He admitted that he’s real y uneasy about the whole thing. So I told him to trust his instincts and that I could tel them he’s not feeling up to it. But Hamlet looked at the e-mail invitation like he saw his destiny. It was eerie, Ophelia. He said to me, ‘No. I’m prepared for whatever. Que será será, you know?’ He sort of laughed, but I didn’t. And he looked at me al sad and said, ‘Let’s just do this thing.’ He just went to get dressed, and then we’re gonna go to the field.”
“So you think it’s a trap?” I asked.
“Yeah. Claudius had been trying everything to get rid of Hamlet. Hamlet has to know that Claudius might use this opportunity to make another move.”
“Don’t go,” I begged.
“Hamlet’s determined, and I’m not letting him go alone.”
I kicked at the cinder-block wal and worried more than I wanted to about Hamlet.
I heard a voice in the background, and Horatio whispered to me, “Gotta go. I’l cal later.” I stood in the al ey with the disconnected phone pressed against my ear. I was frustrated to be far away but relieved, too. And I felt so sorry that Horatio had to deal with everything alone. As long as Horatio came out unscathed, that was what mattered most. But what if something did happen to Hamlet? I wasn’t sure how I was going to react. But what could happen at a lacrosse game? A broken nose. A cracked rib. Nothing devastating. With Horatio and a crowd there, Claudius couldn’t have Hamlet kidnapped or shot or anything, so he had to be pretty safe. I hoped. And didn’t.
I went back into the convenience store and wandered the aisles in a daze. I was so preoccupied by thoughts of the game that when I reached the checkout, I realized that I’d grabbed spray cheese, a can of beets, and a pack of beef jerky. The mixture was so unappetizing that I left it al on the counter and walked out with a muttered, “Sorry.”
Back in my room, I checked my phone to see if Horatio had texted. Nothing. I paced the room a few times and checked my phone again. Nothing. I checked to be sure I hadn’t accidental y silenced the ringer. I hadn’t. I checked my phone again. And again nothing. An hour passed. Stil nothing. And every time I felt a kick of worry in my stomach, I was completely disgusted with myself because I was supposed to hate Hamlet enough that I wanted Claudius to do something to him. But I didn’t, and that made me feel even worse. Because I was betraying my father by caring about his kil er.
Just when I started to consider going back out again for food, the phone rang. “God, that took long enough!” I yel ed.
Not even dealing with my rudeness, Horatio said, “Claudius is planning to poison Hamlet.” I sat on the bed in shocked silence.
“Marcel us met us in the parking lot. Said that if Claudius offers him anything to drink, he has to refuse.” My mouth worked over a mil ion questions, and I settled on, “How does Marcel us know?”
“Some of the guys in security like Hamlet better than Claudius. Things are fal ing apart at al levels here.”
“Wait,” I said, “how would Claudius get away with doing it in public?”
Horatio lowered his voice and explained, “They were going to announce that it was a drug overdose, which would explain Hamlet’s weird behavior leading up to this game.”
“God, that’s smart,” I whispered, and hugged a pil ow to my chest. “So is Gertrude in on it, too?”
“I don’t know.” He hesitated. “Uh, one more thing.”
My heart sank. I wasn’t sure I could take one more bit of news.
“Your brother’s playing in the game. He and Hamlet are going to be captains of the opposing teams.” I couldn’t make words get past the tightness in my throat.
Horatio said, “They’re tel ing everyone that Laertes has been slotted to play for weeks.”
“That’s impossible,” I squeaked.
“Yeah, I know. But either way, he’l be playing, and the press is making it out to be a big deal that he wanted to come back to help his alma mater, blah, blah. This is so messed up, but I can’t get Hamlet to back out. I tried to prey on Hamlet’s pride by saying that Laertes’s team would beat him. But Hamlet said, ‘I don’t think so. Since Laertes has been in France, my game has real y improved.’ Ophelia, I’ve tried everything I can think of to—”
“You can’t keep Hamlet from doing something he wants to do,” I reassured him, wishing Horatio could be spared from being in the middle of this. “You know him better than that.”
“Game’s about to start,” Horatio said.
“I wish I could watch,” I said quietly, sadness washing over me. “I want to see my brother.” Horatio paused. “I think you can. We’ve got the same model phone, so we should be able to do video chat. But don’t forget: We’l see and hear each other, but so wil anyone who looks my way. Be quiet and keep the lights off and your hat on.”
“Where wil you be?” I asked.
“On the sidelines with the spectators.”
A few minutes later, I’d downloaded the right application and we were set up. When he cal ed back, I could see that Horatio was standing dangerously close to the platform on which Gertrude sat. Claudius was at the podium addressing the audience, explaining that today’s match would greatly benefit students who wanted to attend the fine institution but lacked the funds to do so, and he thanked everyone present for their generosity. I wanted to punch him in his lying face. He had enough money to send every kid there to school for free but was going to use this as an opportunity to go after his brother’s son. He made me sick.
Speaking of sick, Gertrude sat next to him not seeming quite herself. Gertrude was looking elegant, though slightly dressed down, as she always did when attending one of Hamlet’s games, but she was noticeably weary and a little twitchy. The quality of the video on the camera phone was so incredible that it even picked up her eyes darting around the field and at the crowd, and how, when Claudius reached for her hand, she flinched.
Horatio panned, so I could see he was standing among parents and students. They were al oblivious to the fact that the event was being hosted by pure evil.
Horatio then turned the camera to the field. Hamlet was with the squad in white, who was warming up with some practice dril s. On the other side of the field was a sea of burgundy and black—the other squad, of which my brother was captain. Laertes came into view, and I was so moved by the sight of him that, for a few seconds, tears fil ed my eyes and the screen blurred. My brother, my last living relative, the person I wanted to talk to more than anyone right then, was far away and had no idea that I was alive and that I could see him leading a bunch of my classmates in stretches.
It was then that I caught sight of Sebastian. I sucked in my breath. Had Hamlet seen him? Had he pieced together that Sebastian was the guy who’d been kissing my neck when he’d surprised me at school? I hoped not.
To great cheers, Hamlet and Laertes came into the center of the field for a face-off. One thing was suddenly clear to me: the game was about them.
With their helmets on, it was impossible to see Hamlet’s or Laertes’s expressions, but I noticed that as they walked they both held their bodies differently than they once had. Laertes’s arms and shoulders were tense, and Hamlet slouched and kept his head down, a posture of resignation that I hadn’t seen since his father’s funeral.
Claudius signaled, and the referee took his cue to place the bal . But before he could start the game, Hamlet took out his mouthpiece and pul ed off his helmet. Laertes tightened his grip on his stick.
Hamlet began to speak to Laertes, an
d the ref’s microphone picked up what he said, broadcasting it to everyone on and off the field. “I’m so sorry for everything I’ve done to your family.” Laertes looked down, but Hamlet continued with urgency. “The past months have been insane. I’ve been… not myself.” Laertes said nothing but turned the lacrosse stick over in his hands. I wondered if he was going to whack Hamlet with it.
I couldn’t believe Hamlet was saying al of this in public, and I wondered why he was doing it. It was possible that they hadn’t had a chance to talk, and that Hamlet real y wanted to apologize to Laertes. Otherwise he was playing to the crowd. I chewed on my lip, suspicious.
Even though the ref asked if they were ready to play, Hamlet went on. “You have to know that I would never have done any of these things if I could have helped it. I never meant to hurt you. It’s… it’s like I shot over my house and accidental y hit my brother.”
“Shut up, Hamlet,” I heard Horatio whisper.
Laertes grumbled, “Yeah… okay.”
“How can you accept an apology?” I asked the screen, forgetting that Horatio could hear me.
“Shh,” warned Horatio.
“Then let’s go,” said Hamlet, his spirits buoyed as if he had not recognized the begrudging way Laertes had accepted the apology.
Hamlet put his mouth guard back in. The ref cal ed, “Down.” Hamlet and Laertes crouched, their hands on the ground. The ref blew the whistle, and Laertes moved quickly, pinning Hamlet’s crosse to the grass, then pul ed back and flicked the bal to the side. And with that they were off and running.
The bal was shot back and forth between the players. Hamlet, who was a midfielder, was free to run anywhere he wished on the field, while my brother, an attacker, was constrained to the offensive end. That said, every time Hamlet crossed to Laertes’s side, which was often, Laertes was right on top of him.
I saw Laertes pul back his stick and slash Hamlet, hitting him ful -force across the stomach. The picture jiggled as Horatio reacted to the hit. It seemed everyone saw the foul except for the ref. Even as Hamlet doubled over, the game was al owed to continue. Hamlet’s team was cal ing “foul” when Sebastian successful y made a goal. The ref ignored protests that it shouldn’t count.
“Jesus,” Horatio mumbled, and turned, catching Gertrude and Claudius exchanging inscrutable glances.
Horatio panned back to the field. Hamlet and Sebastian were set for their face-off. As they crouched Hamlet looked at his opponent and must have realized who it was because he started to rise. At that moment, the whistle blew and Sebastian did a “laser,” quickly clamping and raking the bal to the side, which might have been too fast to block even if Hamlet hadn’t been too angry or shocked to try.
When Hamlet final y got moving again and was running toward the action, Laertes spread his hands wide on his stick and slammed Hamlet in the back.
Hamlet whirled around and shoved Laertes, and the ref cal ed a foul against Hamlet.
Hamlet shouted, “Are you blind? He cross-checked me. His hands were—”
“Il egal check!” another teammate cal ed out. “The bal wasn’t anywhere near—”
“Off the field, Hamlet,” the ref insisted.
“What the hel ?” Horatio and I said at the same time.
Hamlet’s teammates looked at one another with outraged confusion.
When Hamlet was behind the sideline, Claudius held up a plastic cup and said, “The king drinks to your success, Hamlet.”
“Here we go,” Horatio said quietly.
“Hamlet won’t—” But I stopped, afraid that someone might hear my voice on Horatio’s end.
Claudius rose grandly and announced to the crowd, though addressing Hamlet, “I offer up a pearl, a pearl more valuable than that which has rested in the crown of four kings. Should you get the next goal, it is yours.”
The crowd ooh ed at one another, and Claudius offered a smirk. When Hamlet didn’t respond or move, Claudius dropped the pearl in the cup with a flourish, put the cup back on the table, and appeared to take interest in the game once again.
After a minute, Hamlet was released by the ref and ran back onto the field. He quickly cleared the bal , sending it to a teammate in the attack area. The player was stick-checked, and the bal rol ed out of his pocket. Sebastian scooped it and fed it to another teammate, but as Sebastian ran, he crashed into Hamlet, and they both went flying, nearly knocking into people standing on the sidelines, including Horatio. The image shook as Horatio jumped back.
Sebastian’s helmet popped off, and Hamlet pul ed himself up to his knees. When Hamlet saw who was on the ground, he stopped and hovered a moment. Then he reached down and yanked Sebastian to his feet. Without his helmet on, Sebastian looked more vulnerable, but he was seething himself.
“How long were you waiting for your chance with her, huh?” Hamlet growled, his fingers curled around Sebastian’s jersey.
“How long did you treat her like crap?” Sebastian countered, knocking Hamlet’s hands away.
I covered my mouth with my free hand. Pinpricks of anxiety ran up the back of my neck.
“Are you kidding? I was good to Ophelia,” said Hamlet.
“You cheated on her.”
“That’s a lie. I never cheated. Not once,” Hamlet said, pushing Sebastian back with the tips of his heavily gloved fingers.
Sebastian jutted out his chin. “She would have been better off with me, and we both know it. At the very least, she’d stil be alive.” Hamlet jerked off his glove and punched Sebastian in the face.
“Christ,” said Horatio, “see what you’ve done?” Anyone around would think Horatio was talking to Hamlet, but I knew the comment was for me. I squeezed the pil ow harder against my aching stomach.
Sebastian stumbled back just as Laertes tackled Hamlet, sending Hamlet rol ing over and over on the grass.
The whistle blew. Hamlet was sent back off the field, to the great protests of his teammates. No cal was made against Laertes.
What was going on? The ref had to be on Claudius’s side. I laughed at my own naïveté. Of course he was.
Horatio shoved the phone into his pocket but didn’t turn it off, so I could hear the crowd shouting and another, louder sound. A thump-thump ing. I guessed Horatio was running toward Hamlet.
“Let’s get out of here,” Horatio was whispering fiercely. No response. “What Marcel us said is true. Who knows what else—”
“Forget it,” Hamlet growled. “No way I’m quitting.”
“But they’re letting you get beaten up out there.”
“I can take it. I deserve—” Hamlet stopped and cleared his throat. “I’m seeing this through. Go back with everyone else.”
“Damn it,” Horatio said, and the thumping commenced as he moved away from Hamlet.
The picture came up again. Hamlet was released and cut toward the goal. His teammate cradled the bal , then passed back to Hamlet. Hamlet shot and scored.
Time was cal ed, ending the quarter, and someone nearby pronounced it a thril ing game.
Claudius cal ed out, “Hamlet, you’ve won this pearl. Come have a drink.”
Hamlet had walked to the sidelines next to Horatio. I couldn’t see him, since Horatio kept the camera pointed at the king, but I heard Hamlet say,
“Maybe later.”
Claudius smiled at Gertrude and said to her loudly, “Our son wil win.”
I winced involuntarily at the word son, and if Horatio had been filming Hamlet, I imagine it would have shown him cringing as wel .
Gertrude blinked rapidly as she stared at her husband, then at Hamlet. She wrung her kerchief in her hands and cal ed out to Hamlet, “Come, my dear, let me give you a kiss for good luck.” I heard Hamlet snap his tongue in response, and Gertrude winced. Then she took hold of the cup Claudius had been offering to Hamlet. “Sweetheart, I drink to your fortune.”
Claudius grabbed her arm and snapped, “Gertrude, don’t.” After a momentary pause, his eyes flicking to the crowd, he added, “You k
now how you get when you drink.”
Gertrude’s anger flared even as she took in the students and parents staring at her. “I wil ,” she said, straightening up, and pul ed her arm back. “Pardon me.”
Claudius’s eyes widened and his mouth opened as if to speak. He said nothing, nor did Hamlet, but both kept their eyes fixed on her.
Gertrude drank deeply, put down the cup, and cal ed out again, “Hamlet, let me wipe your face.”
“I’m fine,” he cal ed out, and she turned, putting her hand to her stomach.
Why would she— I thought as Horatio said quietly, “Oh no.”
Laertes walked up to Claudius and said, “My lord, I’l hit him now.”
Was he asking permission to check or punch Hamlet? It looked to me like he was going after Hamlet as he pleased. I realized I was holding my breath.
Claudius was cagey, his gaze fixed on Hamlet. “I don’t think so.” Laertes looked at him and at Hamlet again, his eyes narrowing with fury.
The whistle blew to start the second quarter, and the teams took the field, though neither Hamlet nor Laertes moved.
Hamlet glared at Claudius and then Laertes. He urged, “Come on. Let’s finish this.”
Laertes tapped his own shoulder with the crosse a few times and nodded. Hamlet looked at his mother, shrugged weakly at Horatio, and said, “I guess… It’l be fine,” before running onto the field.
The game began again, and I marveled, as I often did, at its speed. Their footwork was incredibly quick. Players pivoted around one another, their sticks moving as fast as swords, sometimes overhead, sometimes to the side, always amazing. The bal whipped from one pocket to the other so quickly that sometimes I couldn’t even fol ow who had the bal . Nor could Horatio.
A guy I recognized from my math class was scooping up the bal when off to the side of the screen I saw Hamlet crumple to the ground. I heard Horatio gasp. Laertes was sprinting away. Hamlet did not get up but held his side, knees to his chest. From the sound of it, the game was continuing on the other side of the field, but the teammates and opponents closest to Hamlet crept closer. Horatio ran onto the field, and the picture went nuts. Grass. Sky. Grass.