by Allie Able
“Bye, Mr. Nick.”
“Bye, sweetie. We’ll have another dinner date soon,” he says, smiling down at her.
I love the way he treats my daughter. A way to a woman’s heart is through her children and I can feel myself falling for him a little more every time he looks at Abbi like she’s his whole world. Damn it, I am so screwed.
I walk Susie and the girls to the door, saying one last goodbye as I watch them get into the car and drive off.
I walk back to the dining room and see that Nick has started to clean up.
“Were you finished?” he asks, holding up my plate.
I nod my head and sigh, looking around the dining room like a lost little bird.
“You hate it when she leaves,” Nick says softly.
“Yeah,” I whisper, following him into the kitchen.
I go to the refrigerator and grab two beers. I hold one up in Nick’s direction and quirk an eyebrow in question. He sets the plates in the sink and nods his head.
“Thank you.” he says, taking the beer and popping the top. “So does it ever get any easier?” he asks.
I shake my head in confusion. “What?”
He takes a sip and nods towards the front door. “Watching her walk out the door and trusting that someone else will be looking out for her. Does it ever get any easier? I know I haven’t known Abbi very long and I know I’m not her dad, but I wanted to wrap her in bubble wrap or beg her to stay here with us. I didn’t like her leaving with that woman.”
My mouth drops open and I stare at him. Did he really just say that? Heart, meet throat.
Chapter Twelve
Nick
I STARE AT KATIE AND wonder what she’s thinking. Did I cross the line by saying that? She looks shocked at my words, but I was just telling her how I felt. Surely that didn’t piss her off too badly.
“Katie?” I question.
She shakes her head a few times and clears her throat. “Um, no. It doesn’t get any easier, at least not yet.” She raises the beer bottle to her mouth and takes a long drink.
I lean against the counter and continue to stare at her. “What was that?”
She narrows her eyes in confusion. “What?”
“What was that? After I said that about Abbi leaving, what were you thinking?”
She sighs and shakes her head again. “It was nothing, Nick.”
Oh, hell no. She is not going to shut me out. If she’s mad I want to know. Hell, I NEED to know. If there are lines I’m not suppose to cross in this relationship, I need to know now. I have no clue how to navigate this relationship, I’m going to need a little guidance from her.
I set my drink down on the counter and walk towards her. I grab her hand, lacing my fingers through hers, and pull her into the living room.
“Where are we going?” she asks.
“We need to talk, sweetheart.”
I sit down on the couch and pull her into my lap. She lets out a surprised squeal, but doesn’t try to get up. I’ll take that as a good sign. I rub my finger down her cheek. I love how soft her skin is.
“Please talk to me?” I ask in a low voice.
She stares into my eyes for a few seconds and I have to fight the urge to kiss her. We need to talk, but she is so fucking beautiful. Being this close to her and not feeling her lips move under mine, is a special kind of torture.
“Okay here’s the thing,” she pauses and takes a deep breathe, “Abbi is my whole world, Nick, and she always will be. When I met you, I wasn’t looking for a relationship, I was actually avoiding anything close to one. I don’t want to be hurt again, but it’s more than that, I have to guard my daughters heart as well. She has the potential to be hurt too, if this doesn’t work out between us.”
“Katie, I’m not trying to hurt anyone. I just want a chance. I told you, we can take this as slow as you want, but I’m not going anywhere.”
“Actually, you are Nick. You’re leaving in a little over week.”
I sigh and look away. I’m trying so hard not to be frustrated. I know she has to look out for not only herself, but also for Abbi. I don’t know how to make her understand that I’m in this. I’m all in. I’ve wanted to be with her for so long and now that I have my chance to have a real relationship with her, I’m not going to let her slip through my fingers.
I turn back towards her and cup her cheek in my hands. “Katie, please listen to me.” I stare into her eyes and wait for her to nod, before I continue. “I am in this. Wherever this goes, I’m in. I have to go back overseas and do my job, but I promise you that I’m coming back and when I do we will pick up right where we left off. We may not be with each other physically, but I swear to God you will be right here the whole time.” I pull her hand in mine and laying it over my heart. I hope she knows that I’m not feeding her a bunch of lines. “Is the problem really about me going back overseas or is it something else. Please be honest with me. I am laying my whole heart out there for you.”
I watch as she closes her eyes briefly and her hand tightens around mine. She opens her eyes again and stares straight into mine and I swear I can see all of her fear and uncertainty shining brightly in those beautiful green depths. “I’m scared Nick. I want to be with you too and I have for awhile now, but If bring someone into my life I have to make sure they are permanent. If I open my heart to you, I can’t loose you. Greg may have hurt me, but you have the potential to destroy me and I can’t let that happen.”
I see tears forming in her eyes and It feels like a stab to my heart. I wish she knew that this was scary for me too. I’m not just afraid of love, I’m terrified. She has the possibility to destroy me as well. She has my heart in the palm of her hand and I’m scared to death that she may not want it.
I lean forward and lay my lips against hers. “Please, Katie, just let me in. This is hard for me too, but I have never felt this for another person and I know you feel it too. You own my heart, whether you want it or not, just please try to be gentle with it,” I whisper.
“Nick,” she breathes.
She closes her eyes and presses her lips more firmly against mine. I cup her face in my hand and I can feel the wetness from her tears. I pull back to look at her.
“Please don’t cry, kitten.”
She shakes her head and wraps her arms around my shoulders. My lips meet hers again and she immediately opens her mouth, inviting me in. Her tongue meets mine stroke for stroke. I move my hand to her hair and tilt her head to the side, deepening the kiss. Katie lets out a moan and pulls back to nibble on my bottom lip. My cock jerks in response, making my jeans extremely uncomfortable. Without breaking my mouth away from hers, I put one arm under her knees and the other behind her back. I pick her up and carry her to her room, as she tightens her arms around my shoulders.
I gently lay her down on the bed and look down at her. God, she so beautiful. Her red hair is spread out across her pillow. Her cheeks are flushed and her lips are wet and swollen from our kiss. I have never wanted anyone as badly as I want Katie. I want all of her, everyday.
I stand up and pull my shirt over my head, watching her eyes flare with heat as she takes in my naked torso. I love that my body turns her on. I work hard to stay in shape and when she looks at me like that, it makes it all worth it.
“I want you, Katie,” I whisper into the darkness, as I crawl back onto the bed. “I need to feel your body against mine and my cock sliding into your tight pussy.”
“Yes,” she responds. Her voice is hoarse with lust and her eyes never stray from mine as she sits up to take her shirt off.
“So fucking perfect,” I mumble. I take in the site of her lacy black bra, and toned stomach. She’s so damn sexy, without even trying.
She lays back down on the pillows and I crawl up her body, taking her mouth in another deep kiss. I plant one hand beside her head, while the other hand travels up her stomach, to her full breasts, before slipping around to her back. She arches up off of the bed, giving me more room. I quickly unhoo
k her bra and slowly slide the straps down her arms. Goosebumps break out across her skin and I look back at her face. Her lips are parted and her breaths are coming faster. I toss her bra to the side and lower my head, taking her pretty pink nipple in my mouth. Her hands come to the back of my head and she holds me tightly to her, as she moans.
“So sensitive,” I murmur, against her skin.
I move to the other breast and give it the same treatment. I pinch and pull at one hard nipple, while I take the other between my teeth, gently biting down. She bucks her hips against me, making contact with my jean covered cock. I’m so hard it’s painful. I let her nipple go, with a pop. I lean up and give her lips one more gentle kiss, as I unbutton her jeans. I sit back on my knees, pulling her pants down her smooth legs, until she is left only wearing a small black thong. I quickly stand from the bed, grabbing a condom out of my wallet, before taking my pants and underwear off.
I give my cock a few strokes and her eyes follow my movements.
“Do you like to watch, kitten?” I ask, but I already know the answer. Katie is a watcher.
She gives me a sheepish smile before nodding her head. A drop of pre-cum forms on my tip and she licks her lips in response. “Jesus, Katie. You’re such a bad girl,” I groan, “Take your panties off and spread your legs. Show me how wet you are.”
I plant my knee on the bed and move to kneel between her legs. I watch her, as she slowly removes her panties and opens her legs wide, giving me the perfect view of her wet cunt.
“Touch yourself,” I command in a raspy voice. With her eyes on mine, she slides her hand down her stomach and straight to her clit. Her middle finger brushes against the hard nub and she moans. I have to squeeze the base of my cock hard to stop myself from coming at the sight.
“Does that feel good?”
She nods her head quickly and closes her eyes, her finger moving in slow circles around her clit.
“Don’t make yourself come, that’s my job,” I warn.
Her eyes pop open and she looks down at my cock. It’s throbbing to be inside her, but not yet.
“Move your hand lower, Katie.”
She hesitates for only a second before moving her hand and sinking two fingers inside. She pumps them slowly in and out and I can see her juices coating her fingers. I move closer to her and grab her hand, pulling her fingers into my mouth and sucking.
“You taste delicious,” I whisper.
“Please, Nick,” she whispers.
I pin her hand beside her head and continue to move up her body until my weight is settled on top of her.
“What do you need Katie?” I ask. I brush my lips gently against hers and move my hips, so that the underside of my cock brushes against her wetness.
“You. I just need you.”
Her free hand comes to the back of my head and she pulls my mouth more firmly against hers. My tongue moves against hers in a slow, mesmerizing dance. I need to be inside of her so badly, but I need to know she’s going to give us a chance first. I need to hear her say the words. I pull back just enough, so that I can see her eyes.
“Are you going to let me in, Katie? Are you going to give me a chance?”
I see so many emotions moving behind her eyes, fear, uncertainty, and finally acceptance.
She nods her head and squeezes my hand. “Don’t break my heart, Nick,” she pleads quietly.
The smile that takes over my face is so big that my cheeks hurt. “I will guard it as if it were my own,” I whisper in response.
I bend my head and gently lay my lips against hers, taking a second to just breathe her in. Her hips start moving against my cock and I moan at the feeling of her wetness coating me. I move my hand between us and line myself up with her opening. I gently push inside, inch by inch, until I’m seated all of the way in, my pelvis touching hers.
“Nick,” she moans. She wraps her legs around my back, causing me to sink even deeper. Her inner walls are clutching me so tight, I’m ready to blow right now.
“Shit. Shit. Shit. Hold still for a second, sweetheart.” I drop my forehead to her shoulder, breathing deeply, before kissing up her neck, licking and biting at the soft skin.
Once I have a little control back, I start to move my hips in a slow but steady pace. I keep my eyes on Katie’s, watching as she throws her head back and starts meeting me stroke for stroke. I drop my eyes to where we are connected and see her wetness coating my cock. It only takes me a second to realize I forgot to put a condom on. Shit. I glance back up at Katie and I can tell she is so close. Her breasts shake with every harsh breath she takes and my mouth waters. I lean over and take her hard nipple in my mouth, while my hand finds her clit and presses down on the hard little nub. She arches off of the bed, driving her pelvis harder against mine and her walls squeeze me even tighter.
“Come, Katie. I need you to come,” I mumble against her soft flesh.
“Oh, shit,” she moans, as her body starts to shake and her pussy pulls me even deeper. Her nails dig into my back holding me close to her as she rides the wave of her orgasm.
“Katie,” I say trying to get attention, because I’m about to come hard and I have no clue if she’s okay with me coming inside of her. Finally, she looks up at me with blurry eyes.
“I forgot to put the condom on. Where do you want my come?” I ask.
A look of panic takes over her face, but it’s gone just as quickly. “Inside me, Nick. Come inside me.”
I don’t have to be told twice and hearing her sweet voice telling me to come inside her, is all I need to hear to push me over the edge. With a harsh groan, I come so hard my vision blurs and my ears ring. Jesus, will it always be like this with her? I sure hope so.
I lower my body on top of hers, trying to keep most of my weight from crushing her. I bury my face in her neck, breathing in her flowery smell as I try to control my shaking body. Her hands move up and down my back in a soothing motion. I wonder if it’s possible for me to stay here for the rest of my life, buried deep in Katie’s magical pussy. I chuckle to myself and Katie’s hands grip my sides and she tries to turn her face towards mine.
“Are you laughing?” she asks bemused.
With what little strength I have left, I roll us over, pulling her on top of me without loosing our connection. She lays her arms across my chest and looks up at me. Her eyes are soft and she is wearing a very satisfied smile. I love that I am the one to put that look on her face.
“I was just thinking that your pussy in magical.”
She snorts and shakes her head, but otherwise doesn’t acknowledge my statement. She lays her head back down and traces circles on my chest. I run my fingers through her hair, enjoying how the silkiness fells against my rough hands. It’s not long before her hand stops moving and her breathing evens out, indicating she’s asleep. I pull her closer to me and kiss the top of her head.
“I’m in love with you, Katie Fitzgerald,” I whisper into the darkness.
Chapter Thirteen
Katie
I WAKE UP THE NEXT morning feeling Nick pressing soft kisses on my back. I open my eyes and see that’s still night outside and I groan.
“What time is it?” I ask.
He moves his hand up my stomach and cups my breasts in his large hand. I arch into him and he lets put a deep chuckle.
“It’s time to get up,” he responds, his voice still heavy with sleep.
“No,” I groan and bury my face in the pillow.
He chuckles again and rolls me over, so that I’m facing him. He brushes the hair off of my face and I blink open my eyes to see that he is looking down at me with a soft smile.
“Good morning,” he whispers. He bends his neck and places a gentle kiss on my lips.
“Good morning,” I reply with a contented sigh.
“I want to watch the sunrise with you.” He continues to whisper.
“Okay.”
He smiles widely and kisses my forehead, before climbing off of the bed. I watch him move
around my room. He pulls on his blue jeans and turns to look back at me as he grabs his t-shirt off of the floor.
“Come on, sleepy head. I’ll start the coffee, while you get dressed. Wear something warm and we will walk down to the beach.” He leans over the bed and kisses me on the cheek before turning and walking out of the door.
God, he’s so perfect. I think back on last night and the spot between my legs starts to ache. I love how he can be commanding in the bedroom, but also sweet and gentle. There are so many layers to Nick and I’m finding that I love each and every one of them. I love how playful he is, but at the same time he doesn’t shy away from serious discussions. He’s brave and honest with his feelings and I wish I could be more like that. I’m just wondering when the other shoe will drop. Nothing in life is ever this easy.
I toss the cover back and swing my legs off of the bed. I’m going to enjoy this. I’m going to enjoy Nick. We only have another week together before he leaves and I’m going to spend all of the time I can with him. I have to trust that this will all work out. I’m going to trust him when he says that he’ll handle me with care, I just hope I don’t regret it.
After I’m dressed in jeans and a sweatshirt and tied my hair up, I meet Nick in the kitchen. He has a blanket sitting on the counter and he’s pouring our coffee into to-go cups. He smiles at me when he sees me walking towards him and hands over my coffee.
“You ready to go, kitten?” he asks picking up his own cup of coffee and shoving the blanket under his arm.
I take of sip of my coffee, fixed just how I like it, and nod my head. He laces his fingers through mine and leads us through the front door.
When I first moved to Cape Isle, I really wanted a house on the beach, but the newer ones were way out of my price range. There were several that I could have afforded, but they needed major renovations and I don’t have the time or money to spend on something like that. My house is only a five-minute-walk, but after seeing Summer and Grant’s house, I realized how much I was missing by not being able to step out the back door and hear the waves.