“You fool! Are you forgetting whom you are dealing with? Must I remind you of this?” I was compliant with her ways. “No need to remind me.” I said to her. She insisted that we leave, and we move forward. “Come, there is more I must teach you if you will stand by my side as king and rule this world.”
Oh, I had every intention of being the fucking King, but I had no intentions of being her King. We headed out of there and went back to her dark lair.
“There is so much I must teach you, and you must learn. I mean, you were a beast prior to me, and now I am going to make you into a monstrous and unstoppable force to be reckoned with, believe me. First and foremost, you must understand that you cannot be seen as a vampire, you cannot be exposed as a vampire. Understand, you must not let your guard down at all to the living. You must constantly transform so you are not what is expected. People fear what they do not understand, they hate what they fear. And when they hate what they fear, they will kill what they hate.
You are stronger than any mortal, however, you do not know if there is another supernatural in your mist. But you will learn how to sniff them out, how to feel their energy level, and how to scan your surroundings well. You must learn to adapt to your surroundings, and that will always give you an advantage over your victims. Learn your victim’s weakness quickly, and you will always have the upper hand, whenever you feed.”
This was some major information I was keeping mental documentation of, as she was speaking. There is much she is saying that I feel will be useful down the line. Then she went on to tell me…. “There are hidden powers of an immortal, and I will tell you and show you them now…..”
Chapter 3- The Hidden Powers Of An Immortal
“Okay, so there are things an immortal can do that human beings cannot, and we have gone over that. There are some hidden super powers that I possess that regular vampires do not.” She said. And then I was intrigued.
I said... “So, like what type of powers are you speaking of? What type of these hidden powers that you possess that others do not?” I was fucking persistent. Remember, I wanted to soak up as much information and ability as I could, to be the most Dominant and powerful supernatural, even more powerful than she. I had plans to find out her weakness, kill her, then find out where Precious really was. She still hasn’t told me what she has done to Precious.
She gazed at me squarely, she paused then she went and continued to tell me more. “Well, there’s a lot I do, and I will teach you little by little. I want you to be so great, and rule by my side as King, so we can take over this pathetic planet, and these mortals.”
I laughed in my head, this bitch was crazy, I will let her believe that, but, I had no desire to rule by her side. However, I will be patient, I will play the game, until time permits me. And then I will take her out. She then continued.
“First, what you did in the woods, that allowed you to catch up to me, is called telekinesis and telepathy. Teleporting your body or an object to a desired location. I can move objects with my mind, or myself to a place, if I can think of it hard enough, it will happen. Anything you put your mind to, you can accomplish. Allow me to demonstrate.”
She lifted her hand upward, and the table lifted from the ground. That shit was amazing. Then she shut her eyes, and then lifted herself off the ground, like she was flying. “My goodness,” I said, astonished. “How can I learn this?” She fucking levitated. Then I told her, “I must learn this, I want to know this immediately!”
She laughed, and then she said to me, “you have all of this in you already, which is why I chose you. The only thing is, you need to be able to master them. If you don’t know what type of power you have, you can never practice them. And if you can’t practice, you’ll never master shit. Just like a muscle, it’s all about the repetition. Think of the object like a woman, you crave to control her, you need to control her. Now, move the object with your mind, and every fiber in your body will move and levitate that object….”
I squinted my eyes and was focusing on the table, I made it rattle, but I didn’t lift it up. “Not bad.” She said to me, raising an eyebrow as she was impressed. “You will get it, practice will make you perfect. And perfection will come with repetition. When you do levitate the table, learn how to control, balance and maintain its elevation. It will require discipline and I believe you can do it. Another thing is reading people, their mannerisms, their little tendencies, and their characteristics. Every supernatural is unique. They all have their own hidden and special gifts. You probably have plenty, but you just haven’t seemed to reach beneath the surface yet and dug them up. I bet you have plenty.”
I was persistent to know, therefore I asked her, “what are my hidden talents? What are my hidden gifts as a supernatural?” She placed her palm out, and it was facing me. It was an obvious command for silence.
“You will learn when the time is right. Look at you when we were in the woods, you wanted to win so bad, you dug deep, and you fucking discovered one. All by yourself, without my assistance. This is how I know I chose the right man. You will be more powerful than a God, if you play your cards right, Discipline. It will happen in your time of need, it will happen. Be patient, it will occur when you least expect it. You possess unknown powers. Great powers, use them to your advantage. Your energy is so strong, it is so potent, it is so magnetic. I can feel it.”
I gave out a sarcastic laugh. “Ha-ha, how am I going to use these great powers to my advantage, if I have no idea how to obtain them from within me?” She then began to educate me. “You can do anything you want with patience and discipline, Mr. Discipline!” She assured me. I knew she was right on the fucking money, I just wanted it right now, at this moment. Working on someone else’s time, I was not fond of that. And patience? Yes, I needed to work on having more of that. And I’m always used to being able to obtain things when I wanted them, therefore it was a tad bit frustrating. She then said to me, “The true measure of a man is what he does with power. You can also obtain energy and some powers from the human living beings that you feed upon.” I asked one last question. “What about another supernatural? Can I absorb her or his abilities if I am physically engaging with them? Can you feast on another vampire?”
She didn’t answer me, she actually did gymnastics around the question. “Why are you asking me this? Why do you want to know?” She replied stoically. That right there gave me the answers I needed, and I made sure I kept a mental documentation of that as well, for myself. Perhaps, this could be useful down the line. I then stroked her ego a little bit….
“Well, you’re the teacher, I am just the student, and I ask these questions because obviously, I want to learn, and you want me to thrive. Am I right?”
She then said to me, “yes, Discipline, you are correct. You see, we of the 21th century are confident that vampires could not really exist. But then, most of us are never forced to think otherwise. For a number of people, the concept of vampires becomes a critical and often lifelong concern. To live with, love, or befriend a real vampire is to encounter a set of problems which may demand expanding the boundaries of one’s accepted reality. To come to terms with being a real vampire, oneself is to face a lifetime’s karmic challenge. You’re probably thinking, before all this, ‘give me a break, real vampires?!” I nodded my head in agreement to her. She then continued….
“Sure, there are some pretty weird people out there, but all they need is a good therapist. Yes, there are people who take on all the trappings of a gothic novel: dressing in black, claiming or pretending to be “vampires” in the
supernatural sense, wearing capes, sleeping in boxes, even getting their teeth capped. There are more frightening people who seek to torture or kill animals or human beings in order to gain power, emotional release or sexual thrill, and who sometimes call themselves, or are called, ‘vampires.’ But most of these individuals are troubled people who have been attracted by the cultural myths about the vampire: supernatural powers, because they feel powerles
s. Overwhelming sexuality, because most of them have sexual issues and no true relationships. Immortality, because they fear aging and death.
Individuals like these are the most recent ‘explanation’ for humanity’s persistent belief in vampires. But beyond and behind all the folklore, the psychological theories, the role playing, even the traditional spiritual assumptions, lies the real truth about vampires. There are many aspects to the vampire phenomenon, and they would require several books to fully explore. One aspect of vampirism which frequently troubles magical, spiritual and other small groups, the most common form of vampire, is found among living people who share with us the benefits and disadvantages of physical existence on this plane, yet are not quite human.”
She paused deliberately at this, then continued.
“These people appear on the surface to be somewhat eccentric members of society, yet their outward idiosyncrasies only hint at how different they are from those around them. Each of us incarnates for a lifetime with a certain way of relating to the physical world through the vehicle of our physical body. A vampire is a
person born with an extraordinary capacity to absorb, channel, transform, and manipulate “pranic energy” or life force. And also has a critical energy imbalance which reels wildly from deficit to overload and back again. This capacity for handling energy is a gift, but the constant imbalance of one’s own system is the cause of the negative behavior patterns and characteristics which may be notable about a vampiric person.”
Chapter 4- Sexual Desires Enhanced
Alexandra patiently commenced in the breakdown of my education. “Real vampires do not necessarily drink blood, in fact, most of them do not. Blood-drinking and vampirism have been confused to the extent that for the average person, a vampire is defined as something that drinks blood, such as a ‘vampire bat.’ But when we look beyond casual assumptions to the details of common beliefs, we find something quite different. Throughout both folklore and literature, there is an understanding that vampires require energy or life force.
Many old folktales accept that vampires suck blood, yet never describe this actually happening. The victims slowly decline and waste away, and the survivors assume that some evil fiend is draining them of blood. They know that the Bible says, ‘the blood is the life’, and anyone who was losing their life force must be losing blood. Yet, in many instances the vampire’s ‘attack’ does not even involve physical contact. In others, it is clearly sexual energy which is exchanged.
Yes, I said you need blood, but it’s really the energy you absorb. That’s what fuels you and keeps you looking younger and stronger. Fresh blood is the highest known source of pranic energy, life force. Human beings have practiced blood-drinking for many reasons throughout history but drinking blood alone does not indicate that a person is a vampire. Only real vampires can directly absorb the pranic energy in fresh blood, and for this reason, some real vampires are attracted to blood and find different means of obtaining it. However, it is a rare vampire who cannot absorb energy in much more subtle ways. This is the mechanism that causes real vampires to inflict harm on others, and themselves, if they fail to recognize what is happening and do conscious work on transforming their inner natures.”
Her gaze focused on mine, and watched me intently as she spoke.
“Vampires are no more likely to be either malicious or spiritually aware than the general population, but without awareness, they can spend their lives making themselves and others unhappy and will continue to incarnate in this pattern until they take some serious action to change it. There are a number of external symptoms of vampirism, but it is important to realize that some of them are found in ordinary human behavior.
Real vampires are identifiable partly because they have a majority of the symptoms, not just one or two. But more significantly, real vampires are distinguished by a certain quality to the energy. While anyone reading a description of the symptoms and behavior patterns might find a few that apply to people he or she knows, or even to himself or herself, real vampires have a way of standing out vividly to everyone who interacts with them. It is like, their energy is so strong, it Dominates everyone else’s. They step into a room, and all of a sudden you take notice. You begin to fix your hair a little bit, a woman can check her make up. A male may straighten up his tie. There are few people who do not know at least one vampire. Physically, vampires are usually ‘night people,’ on a biochemical level. They have inverted circadian rhythms, with body cycles such as temperature peaks, menstrual onset, and the production of sleep hormones in the brain occurring at the opposite time of day from most people. They have difficulty adjusting to daytime schedules and frequently work nights. They tend to be photosensitive, avoiding sunlight, sun burning easily, and having excellent night vision.”
She smirked a little at this, and continued.
“But as for myself, Alexandria, I am a vampire whom can walk during the day. I am a day walker and a night walker. Most vampires, their vitality ranges widely, and they can be vigorous and active one day, depressed and languorous the next. They frequently have digestive trouble. Even those with cast-iron stomachs have many issues with food that are rooted in their constant hunger for energy. Contrary to the image of the vampire as thin, many real vampires are troubled by obesity because of a hunger that makes them food addicts, and a system that is sluggish in processing physical food. They are also sometimes troubled by other substance addictions for the same reasons, but since their systems are tuned to pranic energy more than to processing physical substance, they may not be as sensitive to drugs and alcohol as an ordinary person would be.”
She shrugged this off in a nonchalant manner.
“Emotionally and physically, vampires are unpredictable, moody, temperamental and overwhelming. The major distinguishing characteristic of real vampires as opposed to ordinary people who share those qualities, is the vampire’s intensity. Vampires are extremely intense people. They are frequently given nicknames such as ‘the black hole.’ When others talk about them, usually to complain about them, vampires are often described by such terms as ‘needy,’ ‘attention-seeking,’ ‘grandstanding,’ ‘manipulative,’ ‘exhausting,’ ‘draining,’ ‘monopolizes the conversation,’ ‘jealous,’ ‘huge ego,’ and so on.
A vampire’s emotions are deep, fervent, and powerful, and they usually display great psychic ability and has uncontrolled magical and psychic experiences. Vampires are also empaths, and while they remain unconscious of their natures, they are frequently ‘psychic sponges’ who simply absorb vibrations from everywhere, with the expected emotional instability resulting. A ‘hungry’ vampire — one whose energy level is imbalanced to the deficit side — becomes an involuntary psychic vortex, drawing all pranic energy in the area towards them. When the energy does not flow in fast enough — and it is typical of vampires that the energy never flows fast enough for them — they will begin manifesting behavior patterns to increase the amount of conscious attention they get from others.
For this reason, some vampires develop a pattern of being aggressively confrontational, or of constantly antagonizing people with whom they have relationships. Nearly all vampires, whatever ploys they use, have a talent for attracting, or distracting, the attention of everyone present. Once a vampire overloads on energy, it reverses their behavior patterns. They may become morose, silent, withdrawn and introverted. Some vampires become maniacally cheerful when they are satiated, but even their good moods seem to annoy others, and it is more typical for vampires to be infamous as wet blankets. ‘Hungry’ and ‘overload’ phases can occur within a few minutes or last for days at a time.”
Alexandria momentarily ceased from her dictation like overview, and tilted her head towards me. It was apparent she wanted to know if she still had my attention. My gaze remained fixed on her. Satisfied with this, she continued.
“Vampires are commonly loners, in part because they feel so different from those around them, but also because they have a need to contr
ol the degree of contact they have with sources of energy. Real vampires are not the demonic fiends of Christianized folklore, but as long as they refuse to accept their inner nature, their bad reputation is not undeserved. Unconscious vampires have a tendency to reach adulthood with less than the average level of social skill and general finesse, and tend to be selfish and self-centered. The demands of their own energy systems are so distracting to them that it is difficult for them to pay attention to the needs of others. Their relationships tend to be disasters.
Different vampires develop different patterns according to what works best for them in their life situation, but several patterns are common. The ‘femme fatale’ or ‘lady-killer’ vampire forms a continuous series of sexual connections with one partner at a time, dropping each unfortunate lover as they become too exhausted, or
defensive, to support the vampire’s energy needs. Other vampires form a long-term relationship with a single person: either another vampire whose energy cycle complements their own, or a person who derives satisfaction from being a psychic servant or martyr. You know, a person who is killed for their religion or their own beliefs.
A common pattern, especially in young adults, is to continuously join social, religious, political and magical groups and either blow them apart or end up being thrown out. Vampires may go through roommates, housing situations, magical groups, jobs and lovers like so much Kleenex. Many people find that they feel ‘creepy’ or ‘weird’ around a vampire. This is usually due to the effects of one’s own life force being drawn towards the vampire’s vortex. Most people feel uncomfortable and distracted when their energy is pulled away from themselves. In addition to this, a common result of such an energy drain is for the aura to pull in tightly towards the body, and this causes a prickling sensation on the skin — the ‘creepy-crawlies.’
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