by Cathy Holton
ALSO BY CATHY HOLTON
The Secret Lives of the Kudzu Debutantes
Revenge of the Kudzu Debutantes
Contents
Cover
Other Books By This Author
Title Page
Dedication
Acknowledgments
Part 1 - SPRING OF 1982
Part 2 - 2005
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Part 3 - FALL OF 1981
Chapter 3
Part 4 - 2005
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Part 5 - WINTER OF 1982
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Part 6 - 2005
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Part 7 - SPRING OF 1982
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Chapter 35
Chapter 36
Part 8 - 2005
Chapter 37
Chapter 38
Chapter 39
Chapter 40
Excerpt from Summer in the South
About the Author
Copyright
FOR MY PARENTS
In youth we learn; in age we understand.
—MARIE VON EBNER-ESCHENBACH
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
Many thanks to Kate Collins, Kelli Fillingim, and all the folks at Ballantine for their editorial assistance and support; to Karen and the girls of the Thursday Night Out Club for helping to plant the seeds of this novel; to Kristin Lindstrom for her unfailing encouragement and advice; and to Mark, my truest reader and companion.
BEDFORD UNIVERSITY
MOUNT CLEMMONS, NORTH CAROLINA
ola was engaged to Briggs Furman, so her roommates were stunned the evening she came home and told them she was in love with a boy named Lonnie. They sat around in various poses of disbelief and concern, watching Lola and Lonnie, who stood, arms entwined, in the middle of the living room. Lola had leaves in her hair. This was six weeks before they were all set to graduate from college and go their separate ways into the wide world, and no one had suspected Lola of a secret love affair. Least of all Briggs.
Mel was the first to recover. “Lola, what are you doing?” she said.
Lola laughed and reached up and kissed Lonnie on the ear. Small and pretty, she had the face of a Botticelli angel. “That’s Mel,” she said, pointing. “And that’s Sara and Anne Louise.”
Sara and Anne Louise raised their hands mechanically.
Lonnie said, “How you doing?” He was pleasant-looking enough, with blue-gray eyes and light blond hair pulled back in a ponytail; still, he did not look like the kind of boy a daughter of the former governor of Alabama might bring home.
“Briggs has called ten times looking for you,” Mel said flatly. From the first time they met freshman year, Mel had thought of Lola as the little sister she never had. There was something childlike about Lola, something fragile that made Mel want to protect her.
Lola seemed unconcerned that Briggs had called. She seemed unconcerned by anything but Lonnie, standing there and staring up at him with a look of absolute devotion on her face. She had never looked so happy, or so vulnerable. “I don’t care,” she said gaily. “I don’t care about Briggs.”
“Well, maybe you should tell him that.”
“He wouldn’t listen anyway.”
Mel stood up abruptly. “Lola, can I talk to you?”
“No,” Lola said. She dragged Lonnie off to the kitchen and a few minutes later they could hear them giggling and rummaging through the cabinets.
“Fuck,” Mel said. “Now what do we do?”
“Why do we have to do anything?” Anne Louise asked irritably. She was sitting on the sofa, bundled in a heavy blanket even though it was May. She had grown so thin her round, pretty face seemed almost skeletal, the skin pulled tightly across her jaw and cheekbones. Anne Louise had always been difficult, but over the last few weeks she had become nearly unbearable. “It’s her life. Let her marry whom she chooses.”
“Are you kidding?” Mel said. “The guy’s a high-school dropout! He’s a maintenance man. What do you think Maureen’s going to say about that?” Maureen was Lola’s widowed mother, the Dowager Empress of Alabama, and no one had any doubt what she would say. After all, she had hand-picked Briggs Furman based on his impeccable pedigree and social connections.
“Annie’s right,” Sara said, giving Mel a grave look. “Lola’s happy. Leave her alone.”
“She’s happy now, but will she be happy later when Maureen finds out? Because you know Maureen’s not about to let her only child run off with a barely employed maintenance man.”
“She won’t know about it until it’s too late to stop it.”
“But what about later? What about when she cuts Lola off without a dime? She’s used to privilege and money. Can you imagine Lola clipping coupons or living on a budget, scraping along to make ends meet on a teacher’s salary? And what about Briggs?”
No one said anything. Sara combed her long brown hair with her fingers. “What about him?” she asked finally.
“What’s he going to say? What’s he going to do?”
No one wanted to think about what Briggs might do. A former prep school quarterback, Briggs had wide shoulders and a violent temper.
“You heard Lola. She’s not planning on telling him anything until after graduation. Until after she and Lonnie elope.”
“And you think this elopement is a good idea?”
Sara shrugged. “It’s what she wants. She’s in love.”
Mel made a disparaging sound. “Love?” she said. “Love doesn’t put groceries on the table. It doesn’t put Pampers on the baby.” Mel had recently ended her own tragic love affair and now she was a cynic. The day after graduation, she was heading to New York to become a writer.
“I hope you’re not suggesting what I think you’re suggesting,” Sara said evenly.
“I’m not suggesting anything,” Mel snapped. Not that a marriage to Briggs Furman would be a love match either, at least not on Lola’s part. Still, Briggs was from Lola’s social class and he would know how to take care of her. Which is what Lola needed, Mel was convinced. Someone to take care of her.
“Because it’s Lola’s life and we have to let her live it.”
“Yes, Sara, I know that.”
“Twenty years from now,” Annie said, looking thin and melancholy, “I don’t want to be sitting around regretting the past. I don’t want to be sitting around thinking about what I should have done.”
Mel gave her a heavy look. “Twenty years from now, none of us will remember any of this.”
There was a sudden sound of traffic in the street. Mel got up quickly and went to the window. In the kitchen, something crashed against the floor, followed quickly by Lola’s sharp yelp of laughter.
Mel stood at the window, her shoulders rigid against the fading light. “Oh, my God,” she said. “It’s Briggs.”
Chapter 1
he phone rang but it was Mel, and Sara had no intention of talking to Mel. She relaxed and sank deeper into the steaming water of the bath. Candles flickered on the side of the tub. Pach
elbel’s “Canon” played softly in the background. Mel had called twice before and Sara hadn’t answered either time. They had grown up together in tiny Howard’s Mill, Tennessee, and had once been as close as sisters, but that was long ago. They still exchanged Christmas cards and the occasional e-mail, but they hadn’t actually spoken for nearly twelve years, not since Sara’s daughter Nicky was born.
Besides, Sara knew why Mel was calling.
Lola had reached her two days ago and in her drawling Alabama accent had invited her for a beach trip. “At my new beach cottage! For a week! No husbands or kids! Just the four of us together again for the first time since college. Annie says she’ll go. Mel says she’ll go if you do.” Lola had sounded even more spaced out than usual. She kept referring to her beach house as a “cottage” when everyone knew it was a beachfront palace on exclusive Whale Head Island in North Carolina. Lola’s husband, Briggs, had made a fortune by investing in a little start-up called the Home Shopping Channel.
“I’ll think about it,” Sara had said, knowing full well that she had no intention of going. She hadn’t even bothered mentioning it to Tom, although she was sure he’d tell her to go ahead, he’d take care of the kids.
The phone rang again. Sara sighed and checked the caller ID. It was an unknown cell number and she frowned, knowing that sometimes Nicky forgot her cell phone and used a friend’s to call home. She hesitated and then sat up to answer it.
“Okay, fly, why are you ducking my calls?” Mel asked. Fly. It was one of the nicknames they’d made up for each other as kids. A fly was someone who ate shit and bothered people.
“I’m not, fly.”
“Liar.”
Sara sank down into the tub, flicking the stream of water with her toes. It didn’t matter how many years had passed, it didn’t matter how much heartache and disappointment had passed between them, she would always feel like she was ten years old when she talked to Mel. “I haven’t talked to you in nearly twelve years and the first thing you do is call me a liar.”
“Why is that?” Mel said, lapsing into a Southern accent. “That we haven’t talked in twelve years, I mean.”
“Because you never call me.”
“You never call me.”
“Well, I guess we’re even then.” Sara turned the faucet down to a trickle and sank deeper into the steaming water.
“Hey, I was at the last reunion Lola planned,” Mel said. “The trip to London. The one you never showed up for.”
This was meant to make her feel guilty so Sara ignored it. She could hear loud music in the background, some kind of blues standard. “It’s a little early for happy hour, isn’t it?”
“It’s never too early for happy hour. You used to know that. Before you became a Republican. Before you became a Volvo-driving soccer mom.”
“I would have called you back. Eventually. And don’t call me a soccer mom.”
“I suppose you’ll use them as an excuse to not go on the beach trip. The hubby and kids, I mean.” Mel’s voice had an edge to it despite her attempt at good humor.
“No, it’s not them,” Sara said quickly. “It’s just, I’m really busy at work. I’ve got a big case coming up.” Which was another lie, of course. The partnership had broken up last year and most of her former partners had ended up at various law firms around Atlanta. Sara, though, had decided to drop back to part-time and had taken a job as a child advocate for the Fulton County court system.
“That’s funny,” Mel said. “Lola said you’d left the firm and dropped back to part-time.”
Damn Lola. You never could be sure what she actually picked up when you talked to her. Was it all in one ear and out the other, or did something actually stick? Apparently, Sara’s news about becoming a part-time lawyer had stuck.
“How’s the new book coming along?” Sara asked.
“Don’t change the subject.” Mel had written a series of novels about a tough-talking Staten Island private investigator named Flynn Mendez. “Did you read the last one, I’ll Sleep When You’re Dead?”
“Actually, I don’t read your novels anymore. I got tired of seeing myself as the villain.”
“Now you’re being paranoid.”
“Okay, sure.”
“Maybe you have a guilty conscience.”
Sara pretended she hadn’t heard that last part. Tom’s class ended at 3:30 today so he’d be picking Nicky and Adam up at school and taking them out to dinner. It was her day to do whatever she wanted. She could lie in the bathtub until her skin wrinkled or drink herself into a martini-fueled stupor. Or both.
“Let me guess,” Mel said. “You’re in the bathtub. Mozart is playing on the CD player. There are candles flickering everywhere.”
Sara turned off the water. “Actually, Pachelbel is playing,” she said. “Mozart comes later.”
“Just like in college. Always using up the hot water so nobody else has a chance to shower.”
“I don’t remember you being all that fond of showers in college.”
“Very funny. So come on. Will you go on the beach trip or will you wuss out like always? You know Lola has a boat. Maybe we can do some deep-sea fishing.” Her voice held a clear challenge. No one had ever accused Mel of being subtle.
Sara put her head back and stared at the ceiling. “I’ll think about it.” “You’ll think about it? What’s the matter—are you afraid I’ll push you overboard?”
“The thought has occurred to me.”
Mel laughed. “Water under the bridge,” she said.
She was still laughing when she hung up. Outside the window the gray Manhattan skyline rose against a pewter sky. Gray. Everywhere she looked. No wonder depression was rampant in this city. No wonder everyone was in therapy. She went to the kitchen and made herself a shaker of Cosmopolitans, thinking how good it had been to hear Sara’s voice. She had a large circle of friends in New York but there was something special about that childhood best friend, that person who’d known you before you could tie your shoes, who’d suffered with you through the awkward agony of adolescence. They were still friends despite the different paths their lives had taken. Despite everything that had happened between them.
The truth of the matter was, Mel was looking forward to the beach trip. It would be nice to head South again, to be in a place where the sun shone most of the time and life moved as slowly as people talked. She hadn’t been South since her last book tour, and that had been hurried and hectic except for the week she’d spent with Lola in her rambling mansion in Birmingham. The sun and the surf and the slow-moving lifestyle would be good for her depression. It would be just the thing to lift her out of the funk that always befell her when she was between books and between boyfriends.
It would be good to see her roommates again too, the four of them together for the first time in twenty-three years. Four girls who couldn’t have been any more different. Annie, private and reserved, the roommate who’d been most likely to get up in the middle of the night and polish the toaster. And Lola, sweet Lola, who had the bland, pretty face of a doll and a mind to match. Depending on her mood, she could be either charmingly funny or so vague you couldn’t understand a word she said.
And Sara would be there this time. Mel had thrown down the gauntlet and Sara had picked it up, just like when they were kids. Mel grinned, thinking about that.
Stevie Ray Vaughan finished playing on the CD player. She glanced at the clock and then poured herself a Cosmopolitan. She had a date tonight with Jed Ford, an editor at The New Yorker. She had met him a few weeks ago at a Black & White book party at L&M and for a while it had seemed like he might be the man she’d been looking for to fill the void in her love life. But then last night the inevitable had happened, just as it always did when her love life looked like it might be headed for tranquil seas.
She had dreamed of J.T. Radford.
The dream contained one of those orgasms that seemed to go on forever. She spent the whole day thinking about it. It was pathetic that her a
dult life had been spent vainly trying to recapture the intense sexual relationship she’d once shared with her college boyfriend. The J.T. dreams came less frequently now than they used to, but they still left her with a vague sense of longing and regret and the depressing certainty that whoever the man in her life was right now, he could never be J.T. She wondered if he ever dreamed of her.
But this was fruitless thinking, she knew, and dangerous so close to the beach trip. She would make a conscious effort not to think of him again. What was it she had said to Sara?
Water under the bridge.
Annie was down on her hands and knees cleaning the refrigerator grille with a toothbrush. She had told her housecleaner, Waydean, to do it but Waydean was sick and had sent her daughter, Clovis, instead. Waydean had worked for Annie for nearly fifteen years and she knew the way Annie liked things done, but Clovis was always in a hurry and didn’t pay attention to details. And it was the details that mattered most to Annie.
She was down on her knees and elbows with her ass stuck up in the air. She finished the top row of grillwork and then moved on to the second row, trying not to imagine what she must look like in her Ann Taylor suit, Padovan pumps, and rubber gloves, groveling on the floor like a supplicant at the throne of Genghis Khan. She hadn’t planned on cleaning the refrigerator grille. She’d come in from a meeting of her garden club and had noticed a line of hairy dust balls, which Clovis had obviously missed, peeking from beneath the edge of the refrigerator. It had been more than Annie could bear. She put her purse down and went to work. She tried not to imagine what her garden club would say if they could see her now. They had given her the black rubber gloves with the faux diamond ring and the frilly polka-dot fringe that she was wearing as a joke, but she imagined that they wouldn’t laugh if they could see her now. They would just think it was sad.