by N. Schwalbe
Tom thought about it and stared into the air.
»You won’t get this familiarity you’ve acquainted with Zoe after fourteen years, at least, not that fast,« she added.
Now, it was Tom who patted her cheek. »Mom, I haven’t met another woman. Zoe is amazing. I don’t want to have another woman. I love her and I love my family.«
His mother looked at him in distrust. »That doesn’t mean your heart can’t pound for another one.«
Tom sighed.
There was no way to tell his mother that he fell in love with a man!
He admitted he would have loved to tell her how incredibly strong this feeling was wobbling inside him, impeding his senses, it lay on his tongue, but he gritted his teeth and renounced an ally.
Florentine sighed. »Oh, my little Tom! I just see that something is bothering you! In case, you’ll need someone to talk to, I’ll be there. Anytime, do you get me?«
Tom nodded, stifling the upcoming tears. »Thank you, Mom!« He felt Zoe’s gaze at them and so he pulled himself together and suppressed any sentimentality.
»Do you come?« Zoe smiled, but her smile did not reach her eyes.
Tom nodded. »Yes, darling, you can’t shake us off.«
Florentine looked at her son for a last time, then, she dropped the subject for the rest of the day.
Tom knew that she knew that he was carrying something around, but she could not help him with that problem. Nevertheless, it was comforting to know that there was someone to whom he could pour his heart out even though he was sure that he would talk about this explosive subject to no living soul – except Luca.
***
»Luca! What are you doing here in broad daylight?« Thrown off, he let Luca enter the house. Due to Benno’s birthday, they had not seen each other for two days – to him it was a lifetime ago.
»Are you alone?«
»Yes. Zoe is at university and the kids are in school and in the kindergarten. Do you want something to drink?« Tom left Luca’s jacket at the coat rack.
»No.« Luca maneuvered Tom into a dark corner which was not visible from the street and kissed him passionately. »I’ve had such an ardent desire for you. I’m sorry to descend on you here.«
»That’s alright, I could eat you up and you’re at least as tasty,« Tom joked. He took Luca’s hand and pulled him upstairs. He locked the sleeping room’s door and pressed him against the cupboard to bite him playfully into the lower lip. »So, so, you’ve had an ardent desire for me?«
»God, yes!« Luca’s hands just walked off and opened Tom’s pants. Without further ado he fetched out Tom’s dick and pulled back its foreskin.
Tom closed his eyes and moaned. »Wow, you’re a fast worker today!«
»I want you, Tom. Here and now!« Luca pressed his lips onto Tom’s and pushed him to the bed.
While Tom got undressed Luca’s hands ran over his body. Without advance warning, Luca shoved him onto the bed and crawled over him. »I want you!«
»Yes,« Tom moaned softly, not knowing what Luca really meant with it.
Luca got a little tube of lubricant out of his pocket and spread the content in his hands. While he kissed Tom ardently, he pulled his legs apart and pushed them upwards.
»What are you up to?« Tom followed Luca with widely opened eyes. He was slightly panic-stricken. This was actually the position of his wife!
Luca ran his fingers into Tom’s anus and massaged the rosette.
Tom threw his head back and moaned with pleasure. »Oh…my…God! Could you stop that, please? I’m sober and absolutely…not disinhibited…and…oh God, that’s good…«
Luca leaned forward and took Tom’s cock into his mouth. Shortly before Tom was reaching his orgasm, he put his own wang into Tom’s ass and moved it carefully as far as possible.
Tom screamed with pleasure. He looked at Luca appalled who moved slowly and rhythmically back and forth.
Tom breathed quickly. He was shortly before hosing down and just could not believe that Luca was really screwing him as if he had a vagina. Luca leaned forward and kissed Tom while he continued ramming his dick into his ass. Then, he propped himself on one arm and gave Tom a hand job.
»Oh, my God, Luca!« Tom exploded only seconds before Luca did.
Then, he remained on the bed with his eyes closed. He did not dare to open them. He just did not know what was worse, this unbelievably randy feeling Luca has caused in his butt or the fact that he has stung into it.
Luca was suddenly seized by his bad conscience. »Tom! Please forgive me! I should have waited with that!« He pressed his face into Tom’s shoulder. »I desperately longed to take hold of you. I feel sorry.
You haven’t got that far. I…just couldn’t hold back.«
»Lord in heaven, now I’m queer!« Tom noticed shaken up. He let Luca kiss him, but still kept his eyes closed. »You’ve fucked into my ass! Now I’m queer!« He looked at Luca almost a little reproachfully.
Luca tried to suppress laughter and lay down on Tom’s chest.
»Are you laughing at me?« Tom asked annoyed.
»No. You are…just…so cute!« Luca kissed his chest. »I don’t have a clue what ass fucking has to do with being gay; at least, there are straights who fuck each other into the ass, too.«
»I…,« Tom tried to say, »I…», suddenly he laughed, »I’m crazy, aren’t I?«
Luca straightened up. »No, you’re not; you’re a pretty normal person.«
Tom smiled hard. Now, he did not feel normal anymore. He felt stigmatized. Like a second-class man.
***
»Tom, you’ve got a visitor!« Maik pointed through the wall of glass.
Tom turned around.
He was anxious to make a face as listless as possible as he got on his feet and walked through the glass door.
»Luca Steffen! It’s a great honor for me.« He held out one hand, knowing well that all colleagues were watching them.
»Tom Weidemeyer! There are still some contractual minor details to be settled concerning our fencing…besides, you’ve promised to show me your department,« Luca added softly. He smiled at him and twinkled at Karl so coquettishly that the officer turned around bashfully.
Tom opened the door to let Luca enter. »This way, please.« He introduced Luca to his colleagues, who lingered near to them, then, he brought Luca to the common room and offered a coke which he took gratefully.
»Luca!« Frederik walked on stage and headed for his idol with a widely opened heart. »That’s marvelous you’re visiting us here.« He very nearly embraced and kissed Luca, Tom thought shocked, but Luca dived in time.
»Frederik!« Luca held out his hand friendly but reserved. He had known long since that Frederik had a crush on him, but even if he had not fallen in love with Tom, Frederik would not have been his type. The chemistry between them just was not right.
»Did I disturb you?«
Tom would have loved to answer yes, but manners and caution kept him from letting his mouth take its course.
»No,« Luca said, »But I have to clarify a few things with Tom. You could have a coke with us and, then, I’ll have to run away with Tom.«
Frederik’s grinning disappeared. He remained silent and took one coke falling on a chair. »Run away with him?« He looked at Tom with an I-am-smelling-a-rat-look and clicked his tongue.
»Yes,« Luca said, »unfortunately, my manager has missed to make a draft of one last condition of our contract. Now, I have to convince Tom to agree with it.«
»Oh…,« Frederik’s eyebrows rose even higher in mistrust, »difficulties?«
»No,« Luca put him off, »everything’s just fine.«
»May I help?« Frederik smiled friendly.
Tom rolled his eyes.
If this annoying frog will not make the bend soon, he would make frog’s legs out of him!
But running ones!
Trying to take a break, Tom sucked at his straw and kept out of the small talk Frederik was forcing on Luca.
Suddenly, Maik stormed into the room. »Are you deaf, Freddie? Action!«
Frederik pointed at Tom. »Tom’s going!«
Astonished, Maik stopped and looked at Tom who immediately tipped at his forehead.
»Tom has got a visitor! Go on, Freddie, move your ass!« Maik burst out laughing, but Frederik made a face. »Very funny!« He stretched himself and straightened his uniform. »I can also entertain Luca,« he protested slightly too effeminate.
»No, you know the rules. Colleagues, who’ve got visitors, are spared with operations as far as we have enough people on board.« Maik ignored Frederik’s protests and pushed him out of the room. He waved at Tom and rolled his eyes before he disappeared.
Tom banged his coke on the table. »God, importunity is the enemy of modesty!«
Luca grinned. »He’s keen on me!«
Tom looked around as if the walls had eyes and ears. Then, he slipped forward. »I can understand him thoroughly.« He had spoken so softly that Luca could only guess his answer. »Have you already shown your fitness rooms to me?«
»No.« Tom stood up and maneuvered Luca to the cellar.
»Good Lord, it’s like a ghost town here!« Luca said.
»Cool, isn’t it?« Tom joked, looked around and pushed Luca into the shower room. As far as he has locked the door, he lay in Luca’s arms. »I thought he would never stop talking!«
»Ditto.«
Luca’s hand ran brashly over Tom’s gear. »My God, why is this uniform so damn sexy?«
Tom waggled his brows meaningfully. »That’s its power!«
»Power?«
»Power!« Tom pressed Luca against the wall and seized his legs with soft pressure. »Besides, the guy sticking in it is much sexier!« Tom kissed him. »Out with it, is it normal that one can only think about one thing?«
»Yes.« Luca’s hand reached the holster.
Immediately, Tom swirled Luca around in an arm-lock so that he landed at the wall, moaning. »This is taboo, sweetie!« His loaded weapon was no joke!
»God, I haven’t known you’re so skilled and strong,« Luca complained.
»You’ve forgotten quick.« Tom loosened his clutch and grabbed at Luca’s butt. He ran his hand slowly to the front to stroke over Luca’s hard-on and bit into his neck. »I’m so wild about you…that I could blow up my uniform.«
Luca turned around, smiling, and pressed his knee against Tom’s genitals. »It’s the same with me. Actually, I should learn some text, but I just can’t concentrate at all.« He dived, opened Tom’s belt after what seemed like ages and fetched out the coveted object of desire. Looking upwards, he put Tom’s dick into his mouth and pulled back the foreskin while moving his head. He grabbed hold of his cock and paused. »Do you want to fuck into my mouth or my ass?«
Tom opened his mouth. »I…don’t know.«
Luca straightened up. »Let’s keep the latter for my love cave. We allow us a smart blowjob now!«
Tom kissed him and nodded, thankful, that Luca forced him to nothing.
Luca dived again and gave Tom a blowjob while massaging his perineum with a few skilled steps.
As Tom finally ejaculated, he moaned loudly with pleasure. Shocked, he gasped.
Were there steps outside on the floor?
»Have you also heard something?«
Luca shook his head. He raised and started to kiss Tom, still being horny.
Tom, swept away from the again upcoming fire in his loins, worked at Luca’s hard-on with his hands. Shortly before Luca came to his sexual release, Tom dived and let Luca gush into his face.
Luca moaned as loud as Tom shortly before.
Tom straightened up, grinning and embracing Luca. They just stood there for a while, got dressed again and unlocked the door.
Boom!
Tom ran into Frederik, who must have stuck at the door like chewing gum, and almost died of a heart-attack. »My God, Frederik! What are you doing here?«
Frederik looked at him almost hostile. »I could ask you the same!«
»I’ve shown the shower to Luca,« Tom answered without blushing.
Frederik raised his brows. »Oh, really? That’s why you had to lock the door and moan with pleasure!«
»How embarrassing are you, spying after us like a little kid?« Tom snapped at him.
He did not know whether he was angry because his colleague had waylaid them or whether his little secret was threatened to be revealed.
»Dogs, who are barking, have something to hide,« Frederik replied.
Luca laughed softly and laid his arm around Ferderik’s shoulders. »This aphorism is slightly different, but if you really want to know what we did inside the room, I had to confess now, right?«
Astonished, but very delighted about the bodily contact, Frederik let embrace him, waiting for an answer with reddened cheeks.
Luca held Frederik tight like a buddy and continued, »Well, I’ve had the strange feeling that, well, that you are gay and because I didn’t want to give you the brush-off, I’ve asked Tom to pretend having an affair with me. Actually, I thought you’ll run away as soon as you hear us moaning, but my plan didn’t work at all.«
Frederik opened his mouth and looked back and forth between Tom and Luca, saying nothing.
Tom shrugged. »Sorry, pal!«
»Sorry, pal?«
Luca let him go of. »We’re really sorry! We didn’t want to hurt you. After all, you’re Tom‘s mostly well-liked colleague. And since we didn’t know how to help us we have chosen the most stupid way.«
»Okay,« Frederik said hesitatingly, »I’ll forgive you!« He went to Tom and hugged him. »God, Tom, I didn’t know that! You’re my most favorite colleague, too, really. You’ve never shunned me only because I’m queer. And now, I’m behaving childish, sucking up to you and Luca. Just like a jealous queen. I’m really sorry, guy!«
Tom patted his shoulder and made a face behind his back. »I forgive you,« he said theatrically.
»Super, then, we’re still friends?«
Tom groaned inwardly, but nodded well-behaved to avoid any trouble. »Sure, Frederik! We’re friends!«
***
Breathless, Tom reached the second floor. His stomach drove roller coaster at the sheer thought of being alone with Luca – private and behind closed doors. On the other hand, his heart was heavy because they would see each other today for the last time for the next six weeks.
Tom rang the doorbell.
He heard steps and, finally, the door was opened.
»Hi.« Luca smiled his staggering smile with which he had already twisted the whole nation round his finger and let Tom enter.
»Hello.« Tom started to sweat. He hung up his jacket on the coat rack and put off his shoes.
»I’ve prepared something so we can have delicious caipirinhas if you like,« Luca said and led his guest to the living room.
There was a plate with tomatoes, mozzarella and basil at the bar, next to it a baguette and a cheese plate.
»It looks very delicious,« Tom praised.
»I hoped it would please you. You’ve eaten loads of it at your barbecue,« Luca joked.
»Loads of it?« Tom tapped against his athletic body. »Certainly not. It’s ruining the figure. But a little sin in the evening will do no harm.« He sat down on a barstool and filled his plate.
»If you like to sin, I have more in store for today,« Luca said meaningfully.
Tom grinned. »It sounds very promising, though I might not be in the right mood today.«
»Me neither. It’s terrible that I have to go to Egypt tomorrow.« Luca sighed and sat down next to Tom, starting to eat.
»Are the disturbances already over?« Tom took his cocktail and raised his glass.
»Yes,« Luca groaned an octave deeper, »But I doubt that the fight for liberation from Husni Mubarak’s autocratic regime was successful.«
»I don’t think that democratic peace will come with his arrest.« Tom fished for a tomato, laid a piece of cheese on it, tore a
basil leaf and put his creation into the mouth. »Do you have to fly anyway?«
»The civil commotions are over.« Luca shrugged. »And contract is contract.«
The telephone rang.
Luca apologized and answered it.
Shortly after, he came back, beaming. »You won’t believe what Franz has just told me.«
»Out with it!«
»The disturbances in Egypt started all over again. Cairo, where we’ve planned to shoot, is occupied by demonstrators. They are protesting against the chief of the governing military council, Mohammed Hussein Tantawi, who is a faithful henchman of Mubarak. They are demanding a new, independent leadership.«
»But the demonstrations have been peaceful up to now,« Tom interjected and ripped off some baguette to decorate it with cheese.
»Because the military has kept neutral up to now but they’ve not only announced violence against the demonstrators, but have already made their threat. They tried to expel people from the Tahrir place – it’s said with blank cartridges.« Luca sat down, took some baguette and cheese and put it into his mouth with great relish. »That’s so cool!«
»Does that mean you’re staying here?« Hope flickered in Tom, but Luca shook his head. He kissed Tom’s cheek and patted his leg playfully. »No, but the destination has been changed.«
»I listen!«
»Australia.«
»No!« Tom stared at Luca in disbelief. »Both countries vary too much in their geology, so why Australia?«
»Franz said there are some places which one could take as a surrogate location. The Australian authorities have given their permit for our shooting this afternoon. Franz has waited with the news until the fiat was there.«
»I guess, Libya, Tunisia and Morocco are also too hot for you, aren’t they?«
»Yes.«
»It’s a pity that you’re even further away,« Tom said, taken aback. »But Australia must be brilliant.«
»Don’t hang your head! I’ll be back again in six to eight weeks. And for this time, I’ve worked out something special.« Luca jumped off the barstool and ran behind the bar.