After changing to Park clothes he went into the drawingroom. She was sitting idly in the corner of the sofa, her favourite seat; and there were circles under her eyes, as though she had not slept.
He asked: ‘How is it you’re in? Are you expecting somebody?’
‘Yes – that is, not particularly.’
‘Who?’
‘Mr Bosinney said he might come.’
‘Bosinney. He ought to be at work.’
To this she made no answer.
Well,’ said Soames, ‘I want you to come out to the Stores with me, and after that we’ll go to the Park.’
‘I don’t want to go out; I have a headache.’
Soames replied: ‘If ever I want you to do anything, you’ve always got a headache. It’ll do you good to come and sit under the trees.’
She did not answer.
Soames was silent for some minutes; at last he said: ‘I don’t know what your idea of a wife’s duty is. I never have known!’
He had not expected her to reply, but she did.
‘I have tried to do what you want; it’s not my fault that I haven’t been able to put my heart into it.’
‘Whose fault is it, then?’ He watched her askance.
‘Before we were married you promised to let me go if our marriage was not a success. Is it a success?’
Soames frowned.
‘Success,’ he stammered – ‘it would be a success if you behaved yourself properly!’
‘I have tried,’ said Irene. ‘Will you let me go?’
Soames turned away. Secretly alarmed, he took refuge in bluster.
‘Let you go? You don’t know what you’re talking about. Let you go? How can I let you go? We’re married, aren’t we? Then, what are you talking about? For God’s sake don’t let’s have any of this sort of nonsense! Get your hat on, and come and sit in the Park.’
‘Then, you won’t let me go?’
He felt her eyes resting on him with a strange, touching look.
‘Let you go!’ he said; ‘and what on earth would you do with yourself if I did? You’ve got no money!’
‘I could manage somehow.’
He took a swift turn up and down the room; then came and stood before her.
‘Understand,’ he said, ‘once and for all, I won’t have you say this sort of thing. Go and get your hat on!’
She did not move.
‘I suppose,’ said Soames, ‘you don’t want to miss Bosinney if he comes!’
Irene got up slowly and left the room. She came down with her hat on.
They went out.
In the Park, the motley hour of mid-afternoon, when foreigners and other pathetic folk drive, thinking themselves to be in fashion, had passed; the right, the proper, hour had come, was nearly gone, before Soames and Irene seated themselves under the Achilles statue.
It was some time since he had enjoyed her company in the Park. That was one of the past delights of the first two seasons of his married life, when to feel himself the possessor of this gracious creature before all London had been his greatest, though secret, pride. How many afternoons had he not sat beside her, extremely neat, with light grey gloves and faint, supercilious smile, nodding to acquaintances, and now and again removing his hat!
His light grey gloves were still on his hands, and on his lips his smile sardonic, but where the feeling in his heart?
The seats were emptying fast, but still he kept her there, silent and pale, as though to work out a secret punishment. Once or twice he made some comment, and she bent her head, or answered ‘Yes’ with a tired smile.
Along the rails a man was walking so fast the people stared after him when he passed.
‘Look at that ass!’ said Soames; ‘he must be mad to walk like that in this heat!’
He turned; Irene had made a rapid movement.
‘Hallo;’ he said; ‘it’s our friend The Buccaneer!’
And he sat still, with his sneering smile, conscious that Irene was sitting still, and smiling too.
‘Will she bow to him?’ he thought
But she made no sign.
Bosinney reached the end of the rails, and came walking back amongst the chairs, quartering his ground like a pointer. When he saw them he stopped dead, and raised his hat.
The smile never left Soames’s face; he also took off his hat.
Bosinney came up, looking exhausted, like a man after hard physical exercise; the sweat stood in drops on his brow, and Soames’s smile seemed to say: ‘You’ve had a trying time, my friend!’… ‘What are you doing in the Park?’ he asked. ‘We thought you despised such frivolity!’
Bosinney did not seem to hear; he made his answer to Irene: ‘I’ve been round to your place; I hoped I should find you in.’
Somebody tapped Soames on the back, and spoke to him; and in the exchange of those platitudes over his shoulder, he missed her answer, and took a resolution.
‘We’re just going in,’ he said to Bosinney; ‘you’d better come back to dinner with us.’ Into that invitation he put a strange bravado, a stranger pathos: ‘You can’t deceive me,’ his look and voice seemed saying, ‘but see – I trust you – I’m not afraid of you!’
They started back to Montpelier Square together, Irene between them. In the crowded streets Soames went on in front He did not listen to their conversation; the strange resolution of trustfulness he had taken seemed to animate even his secret conduct. Like a gambler, he said to himself: ‘It’s a card I dare not throw away – I must play it for what it’s worth. I have not too many chances.’
He dressed slowly, heard her leave her room and go downstairs, and, for full five minutes after, dawdled about in his dressing-room. Then he went down, purposely shutting the door loudly to show that he was coming. He found them standing by the hearth, perhaps talking, perhaps not; he could not say.
He played his part out in the farce, the long evening through – his manner to his guest more friendly than it had ever been before; and when at last Bosinney went, he said: ‘You must come again soon; Irene likes to have you to talk about the house!’ Again his voice had the strange bravado and the stranger pathos; but his hand was as cold as ice.
Loyal to his resolution, he turned away from their parting, turned away from his wife as she stood under the hanging lamp to say good-night – away from the sight of her golden head shining so under the light, of her smiling mournful lips; away from the sight of Bosinney’s eyes looking at her, so like a dog’s looking at its master.
And he went to bed with the certainty that Bosinney was in love with his wife.
The summer night was hot, so hot and still that through every opened window came in but hotter air. For long hours he lay listening to her breathing.
She could sleep, but he must lie awake. And, lying awake, he hardened himself to play the part of the serene and trusting husband.
In the small hours he slipped out of bed, and passing into his dressing-room, leaned by the open window.
He could hardly breathe.
A night four years ago came back to him – the night but one before his marriage; as hot and stifling as this.
He remembered how he had lain in a long cane chair in the window of his sitting-room off Victoria Street. Down below in a side street a man had banged at a door, a woman had cried out; he remembered, as though it were now, the sound of the scuffle, the slam of the door, the dead silence that followed. And then the early water-cart, cleansing the reek of the streets, had approached through the strange-seeming, useless lamplight; he seemed to hear again its rumble, nearer and nearer, till it passed and slowly died away.
He leaned far out of the dressing-room window, over the little court below, and saw the first light spread. The outlines of dark walls and roofs were blurred for a moment, then came out sharper than before.
He remembered how that other night he had watched the lamps paling all the length of Victoria Street; how he had hurried on his clothes and gone down into the street, down past house
s and squares, to the street where she was staying, and there had stood and looked at the front of the little house, as still and grey as the face of a dead man.
And suddenly it shot through his mind, like a sick man’s fancy: What’s he doing? – that fellow who haunts me, who was here this evening, who’s in love with my wife – prowling out there, perhaps, looking for her as I know he was looking for her this afternoon; watching my house now, for all I can tell!
He stole across the landing to the front of the house, stealthily drew aside a blind, and raised a window.
The grey light clung about the trees of the Square, as though Night, like a great downy moth, had brushed them with her wings. The lamps were still alight, all pale, but not a soul stirred – no living thing in sight!
Yet suddenly, very faint, far off in the deathly stillness, he heard a cry writhing, like the voice of some wandering soul barred out of heaven, and crying for its happiness. There it was again – again! Soames shut the window shuddering.
Then he thought: ‘Ah, it’s only the peacocks, across the water.’
Chapter Twelve
JUNE PAYS SOME CALLS
OLD Jolyon stood in the narrow hall at Broadstairs, inhaling that odour of oilcloth and herrings which permeates all respectable seaside lodging-houses. On a chair – a shiny leather chair, displaying its horsehair through a hole in the top left-hand corner – stood a black despatch case. This he was filling with papers, with The Times, and a bottle of eau-de-Cologne. He had meetings that day of the Globular Gold Concessions and the New Colliery Company, Limited, to which he was going up, for he never missed a Board; to ‘miss a Board’ would be one more piece of evidence that he was growing old, and this his jealous Forsyte spirit could not bear.
His eyes, as he filled that black despatch case, looked as if at any moment they might blaze up with anger. So gleams the eye of a schoolboy, baited by a ring of his companions; but he controls himself, deterred by the fearful odds against him. And old Jolyon controlled himself, keeping down, with his masterful restraint now slowly wearing out, the irritation fostered in him by the conditions of his life.
He had received from his son an unpractical letter, in which by rambling generalities the boy seemed trying to get out of answering a plain question. ‘I’ve seen Bosinney,’ he said; ‘he is not a criminal. The more I see of people the more I am convinced that they are never good or bad – merely comic, or pathetic. You probably don’t agree with me!’
Old Jolyon did not; he considered it cynical to so express oneself; he had not yet reached that point of old age when even Forsytes, bereft of those illusions and principles which they have cherished carefully for practical purposes but never believed in, bereft of all corporeal enjoyment, stricken to the very heart by having nothing left to hope for – break through the barriers of reserve and say things they would never have believed themselves capable of saying.
Perhaps he did not believe in ‘Goodness’ and ‘Badness’ any more than his son; but as he would have said: He didn’t know – couldn’t tell; there might be something in it; and why, by an unnecessary expression of disbelief, deprive yourself of possible advantage?
Accustomed to spend his holidays among the mountains, though (like a true Forsyte) he had never attempted anything too adventurous or too foolhardy, he had been passionately fond of them. And when the wonderful view (mentioned in Baedeker – ‘fatiguing but repaying’) was disclosed to him after the effort of the climb, he had doubtless felt the existence of some great, dignified principle crowning the chaotic strivings, the petty precipices, and ironic little dark chasms of life. This was as near to religion, perhaps, as his practical spirit had ever gone.
But it was many years since he had been to the mountains. He had taken June there two seasons running, after his wife died, and had realized bitterly that his walking days were over.
To that old mountain-given confidence in a supreme order of things he had long been a stranger.
He knew himself to be old, yet he felt young; and this troubled him. It troubled and puzzled him, too, to think that he, who had always been so careful, should be father and grandfather to such as seemed born to disaster. He had nothing to say against Jo – who could say anything against the boy, an amiable chap? – but his position was deplorable, and this business of June’s nearly as bad. It seemed like a fatality, and a fatality was one of those things no man of his character could either understand or put up with.
In writing to his son he did not really hope that anything would come of it. Since the ball at Roger’s he had seen too clearly how the land lay – he could put two and two together quicker than most men – and, with the example of his own son before his eyes, knew better than any Forsyte of them all that the pale flame singes men’s wings whether they will or no.
In the days before June’s engagement, when she and Mrs Soames were always together, he had seen enough of Irene to feel the spell she cast over men. She was not a flirt, not even a coquette – words dear to the heart of his generation, which loved to define things by a good, broad, inadequate word – but she was dangerous. He could not say why. Tell him of a quality innate in some women – a seductive power beyond their own control! He would but answer: ‘Humbug!’ She was dangerous, and there was an end of it. He wanted to close his eyes to that affair. If it was, it was; he did not want to hear any more about it – he only wanted to save June’s position and her peace of mind. He still hoped she might once more become a comfort to himself.
And so he had written. He got little enough out of the answer. As to what young Jolyon had made of the interview, there was practically only the queer sentence: ‘I gather that he’s in the stream.’ The stream! What stream? What was this newfangled way of talking?
He sighed, and folded the last of the papers under the flap of the bag; he knew well enough what was meant.
June came out of the dining-room, and helped him on with his summer coat. From her costume, and the expression of her little resolute face, he saw at once what was coming.
‘I’m going with you,’ she said.
‘Nonsense, my dear; I go straight into the City. I can’t have you racketing about!’
‘I must see old Mrs Smeech.’
‘Oh, your precious “lame ducks”!’ grumbled out old Jolyon. He did not believe her excuse, but ceased his opposition. There was no doing anything with that pertinacity of hers.
At Victoria he put her into the carriage which had been ordered for himself – a characteristic action, for he had no petty selfishness.
‘Now, don’t you go tiring yourself, my darling,’ he said, and took a cab on into the City.
June went first to a back street in Paddington, where Mrs Smeech, her ‘lame duck’, lived – an aged person, connected with the charring interest; but after half an hour spent in hearing her habitually lamentable recital, and dragooning her into temporary comfort, she went on to Stanhope Gate. The great house was dosed and dark.
She had decided to learn something at all costs. It was better to face the worst, and have it over. And this was her plan: To go first to Phil’s aunt, Mrs Baynes, and, failing information there, to Irene herself. She had no clear notion of what she would gain by these visits.
At three o’clock she was in Lowndes Square. With a woman’s instinct when trouble is to be faced, she had put on her best frock, and went to the battle with a glance as courageous as old Jolyon’s itself. Her tremors had passed into eagerness.
Mrs Baynes, Bosinney’s aunt (Louisa was her name), was in her kitchen when June was announced, organizing the cook, for she was an excellent housewife, and, as Baynes always said, there was ‘a lot in a good dinner’. He did his best work after dinner. It was Baynes who built that remarkably fine row of tall crimson houses in Kensington which compete with so many others for the title of ‘the ugliest in London’.
On hearing June’s name, she went hurriedly to her bedroom, and, taking two large bracelets from a red morocco case in a locked drawer, put them
on her white wrists – for she possessed in a remarkable degree that ‘sense of property’, which, as we know, is the touchstone of Forsyteism, and the foundation of good morality.
Her figure, of medium height and broad build, with a tendency to embonpoint, was reflected by the mirror of her white-wood wardrobe, in a gown made under, her own organization, of one of those half-tints, reminiscent of the distempered walls of corridors in large hotels. She raised her hands to her hair, which she wore à la Princesse de Galles, and touched it here and there, settling it more firmly on her head, and her eyes were full of an unconscious realism, as though she were looking in the face one of life’s sordid facts, and making the best of it. In her youth her cheeks had been of cream and roses, but they were mottled now by middle age, and again that hard, ugly directness came into her eyes as she dabbed a powder-puff across her forehead. Putting the puff down, she stood quite still before the glass, arranging a smile over her high, important nose, her chin (never large, and now growing smaller with the increase of her neck), her thin-lipped, down-drooping mouth. Quickly, not to lose the effect, she grasped her skirts strongly in both hands, and went downstairs.
She had been hoping for this visit for some time past. Whispers had reached her that things were not all right between her nephew and his fiancée. Neither of them had been near her for weeks. She had asked Phil to dinner many times; his invariable answer had been ‘Too busy’.
Her instinct was alarmed, and the instinct in such matters of this excellent woman was keen. She ought to have been a Forsyte; in young Jolyon’s sense of the word, she certainly had that privilege, and merits description as such.
She had married off her three daughters in a way that people said was beyond their deserts, for they had the professional plainness only to be found, as a rule, among the female kind of the more legal callings. Her name was upon the committees of numberless charities connected with the Church – dances, theatricals, or bazaars – and she never lent her name unless sure beforehand that everything had been thoroughly organized.
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