In spite of myself, goosebumps formed along my arms at her words and I glanced at Brennan. He rolled his eyes and I felt a flash of annoyance. How could he dismiss her statement so easily? He’d seen firsthand lately that reality wasn’t what he once thought it was. Many, many things were possible. Ghosts were real. I’d seen them myself all of my life.
“You’re right,” he apologized to me, having read my thoughts. “I’m sorry. I’m still getting used to all of this.”
“I know,” I answered. “And it’s a lot to get used to. You’re doing a fantastic job. Really.”
He reached up and grabbed my hand. “Anything for you,” he reassured me, jokingly. But I knew that he was serious and his words warmed me more than the sun ever could.
Keelin abruptly stopped in front of us and knelt in front of a massive and imposing oak tree. Its roots bubbled to the surface of the ground, gnarled and twisted. I stepped over them and stood behind Keelin, waiting. She reached into a small hollow in the tree and withdrew a package, wrapped in cloth and tied with string. Rising from the gound, she turned and offered it to me with shaking hands.
I could swear that the wind died down when my fingers touched it and that realization raised the hair on the back of my neck.
“What is this?” I whispered. My fingertips were cold where they touched the cloth.
“I know not,” Keelin answered. But her face was pale and drawn. She might not know, but like me, she sensed the importance and the darkness that the packaged contained.
“I don’t like this, Em,” Brennan said quickly, stepping forward and laying his hand on my arm. “Just put it back. We don’t need it.”
“It won’t matter if you put it back or no,” Circes voice penetrated the small clearing. I turned to find her creeping toward us, her cloaks swirling around her with an unseen wind. “It will not matter. That package contains knowledge and the knowledge exists whether you read it or not. A wise person would want to know what they are up against.”
Within a second, she was at my side, her yellowed teeth flashing in the dark as she spoke. “Open it, Empusa,” she instructed with fetid breath. “This is something that you need to know.”
My fingers trembled and I ached to drop the package and run. It felt icy cold and ominous in my hands and I desperate wanted to release my hold on it, to drop it to the ground and stomp on it. But I resisted the urge and turned toward the old woman instead.
“You know what it is?” I half-asked and half-demanded.
She nodded.
“Your mother left it for Branwyn for safe-keeping, until it was time to give to you. She felt you should know.”
“Know what?”
“You should know why you shouldn’t sacrifice everything to save Apollo’s son. He is doomed anyway.”
My heart, already cold in my chest, froze into a block of ice as my fingers ripped apart the strings that bound the package. The cloth fell away and revealed a rolled parchment. With trepidation mounting in my stomach, I unrolled it and held my breath as I read.
As I read the last word, the parchments slid from my fingers and fell to the ground. I couldn’t speak, couldn’t breathe.
“Em?” Brennan asked, alarmed. I could only shake my head, my eyes wide.
He snatched up the papers and read through the words quickly. I watched his face and I knew the moment when he read the most relevant words. He went completely still and his beautiful golden eyes met mine.
“So, it doesn’t matter what we do. I’m going to die anyway.”
Chapter Twelve
I refused to move from that very spot until Circes started talking and explained the words that had just been seared into my heart. Her voice, solemn and ancient, did nothing to allay my fears.
“Your mother saw this long ago,” Circes explained to me, her voice low. Brennan gripped my hand tightly while the old woman spoke. “Your mother helped Hades and the Fates imprison the gods in an effort to protect you. They promised that if she did as they asked, you would be released your father’s curse. As you know, that is not how things worked out. Your mother has seen that Zeus will soon decide that he is annoyed, very annoyed, with the behavior of the mortals during the two millennia that he and the Olympians were imprisoned. The mortals forgot about the gods and that is not wise. He will lean toward eliminating them completely because he is tired of their ungrateful ways.”
“But my mother wrote that Brennan will offer his life in exchange for the mortal world. That if he offers his life to save them, Zeus will forgive the mortals for their indifference to the absence of the gods.”
Circes nodded. “Hecate saw this long ago. Zeus himself doesn’t even realize that he will consider this as an option. Brennan must make the suggestion… he must offer himself in lieu of the mortal world. Zeus will find the gesture graceful and worthy.”
“But why Brennan?” I persisted. “Why is Brennan the one that must die? Did my mother actually foresee this happening or is this wishful thinking on her part? I worry that this is a trick- that she is simply trying to eliminate him as a problem. If I don’t fight to stay with Brennan, then my issues here with Apollo are over. The game would be over.”
“You cannot see it?” Circes asked me, her cloudy eyes fixed upon with laser precision. “Zeus will find the gesture fitting because it is so appropriate. Your mother conspired with the Fates to imprison him in order to save you. She chose your well-being over that of his. Zeus will find it a just punishment that your very well-being will be decimated with the death of your soul mate. If Brennan dies, it is likely that you will never recover. And Zeus will feel that in that way, justice will be served.”
My heart seemed to slow to such a pace that I could feel each individual beat thrumming one by one in my ribcage. I couldn’t breathe. I couldn’t speak. I couldn’t think. I stood numbly staring at the ancient witch in front of me.
“What is the purpose of this game, then?” Brennan asked in frustration. “Why have we been asked to participate in this evil, twisted game if we can’t win anyway?”
Circes rocked on her heels, appraising him. “It is because, young boy, Zeus has not come to this decision yet. Hecate foresaw it long prior to the thought even passing through Zeus’ mind. It will happen. It just hasn’t happened yet. Hecate wants you to have this knowledge now, so that you can stop this game. You have the ability to appear in front of Zeus and make this offer. You will prevent the destruction of the entire mortal world. And you will save Empusa’s life. The choice is yours.”
“And what a choice it is,” Brennan murmured. He still held my hand, tightly enclosed within his.
“Why did my mother not tell us this herself? Why did she leave it on a scroll with Branwyn?” I demanded. “That makes no sense.”
“It makes perfect sense, princess,” Circes argued. “Your mother knew that it was not something you would wish to hear. She knew, however, that after you saw the brutality of this game, you would see for yourself the lengths that Zeus will go if he so chooses. He will end the mortal world. He will not hesitate. He has no human compassion, princess. You have seen that for yourself.”
“I know that is true,” I told her, resignation bowing my shoulders like a heavy, heavy weight. “I’ve never denied it or doubted it. Zeus has lived a very long time, always looking over his shoulder to make sure he is not overthrown. That has to do something to a person, even a god such as Zeus. But I am not allowing Brennan to do this. I will not sacrifice Brennan for the mortal world. I’m sorry. That’s just something that I cannot do.”
Circes, Keelin and Brennan all stared at me. Circes in consternation, Brennan thoughtfully and Keelin in absolute horror. As a mortal, I’m sure my words struck both terror and anger in Keelin. But none of it mattered. The only thing I could think of was the vast sense of loss that was already welling up in me at the mere thought of losing Brennan. It was suffocating and I suddenly felt like I couldn’t breathe.
Spinning, I ran as fast I could, blurring into imm
ortal speed. I didn’t know where I was going… all I knew was that it needed to be far, far from here.
The scenery around me, the trees, the sky, the waving grasses, all blended together into one big swirl of color. The cold wind washed over me as I ran and it was only then, as I left everything else behind me, that I could take a deep breath. I could smell the heather in the air, I could taste my fear in my mouth, I could feel the despair in my chest. Everything culminated in one big overwhelming feeling.
And then I was tackled from behind.
Before I could even see Brennan, before I could focus my eyes on his face, I could smell him. He brought the smell of sunshine with him wherever he went and I would know the scent anywhere.
“You can’t run from this,” he told me as he held me gently to the ground. “I know you want to. I know you want to hide and hope that if you do, it will go away. But it’s not going to happen. This is something that I need to face.”
The ground was wet beneath me, small stones poking into my back. I stopped squirming and lay still, staring up at the man that I loved. At one point, seemingly forever ago, I had thought he was a boy. His mortal age was 18, his body was 18. But his soul… his soul was a thousand. Ageless. Timeless. Beautiful.
I reached up and stroked his cheek and my eyes instantly teared up, blurring my vision. I brushed the tears away impatiently. Brennan grasped my hand gently.
“It okay to cry,” he told me. “It doesn’t make you weak.”
“Doesn’t it?” I asked with a sigh.
“No,” he answered firmly. “It does not. Em, we’re going to have to talk about this. You know what I have to do.”
“No,” I answered tiredly. “You do not have to do anything. I won’t allow it, Brennan. I mean it. You will not be sacrificed to pacify Zeus for something my mother did. I just need to think on this. I’ll figure something else out. I just need to think.”
I knew I was babbling, I wasn’t making any sense. But Brennan could feel what I was thinking, he could feel the emotions that pulsed through my heart. His face was pained and I realized that for the first time, I couldn’t read his mind. He had accomplished a new skill.
“You’re blocking your thoughts from me,” I pointed out in astonishment. “Of all the times to learn a new trick, you choose that particular trick at this particular moment? Right when I need to know what you’re thinking?”
He smiled, a beautiful grin that took the air right out of my lungs.
“Yes. Aren’t you pleased? You wanted me to master more of my abilities.”
I glared at him.
“No,” I grumbled. “No, I’m not pleased.” He grinned again and jumped to his feet. Reaching down, he offered me his hand. I took it, placing my cool fingers inside his warm, strong grip.
“Brennan, what are we going to do?” I whispered. “For the first time in my life, things aren’t clear to me. I don’t know what to do.”
“And for the first time in mine, things are perfectly clear,” he told me, his amber gaze focused on me.
“No,” I answered firmly.
“Yes,” he replied, just as firm. “It’s not a question, Empusa. If Zeus wants me and it will save you and the entire mortal world, then Zeus can have me. I just need to decide how to go about it.”
“Brennan…”
He held up a hand. “Empusa, please. It will be hard enough just walking away from you. I don’t know if I can do it if you are begging me to stay. Please. I love you. You know that. Don’t make it harder for me.”
I gulped. A hard knot had formed in my throat and I was having a terrible time trying to swallow it, to breathe around it. “Brennan,” I whispered. Just saying his name pained me.
“We have to decide how to stop the game,” Brennan said calmly. I knew he was trying to ignore my distress so that it didn’t do him in.
“The game is going on even as we speak,” I reminded him. “There is a chance that it will finish out- that all of those mortals in Zeus’ gauntlet will die. Just know that right now. You don’t understand. This is entertainment for the gods. They will be ill-inclined to stop it.”
“I understand,” Brennan answered evenly. “Perhaps more than you think. If we provide them even more entertainment, perhaps they will be inclined to cooperate.”
I raised an eyebrow. “Meaning?”
“Meaning, if we drop into the very arena that they are sitting around, if we explain our intentions—my intentions- right there on the playing field, perhaps they will comply. Perhaps they would rather see me die alone than continue with the gauntlet. It’s just shifting their focus, that’s all.”
“Yes. Shifting their focus to watching you die,” I said sadly. I couldn’t even think about it without my heart constricting painfully in my chest. In my head, a vision of Brennan dying in the middle of an arena on Olympus while the Olympians all watched with their strange silver eyes flitted through and I squeezed my own eyes closed. I couldn’t believe we were even talking about this, much less considering it a real option.
“Brennan, there has to be another way. There has to be.”
“I don’t think there is,” he said quietly. “And I can’t take the risk of waiting too long before I act. I need to take a little walk and clear my head. I’ve got to think of how to do this.”
“Do you want me to come?” But even as I asked, I knew the answer. He wanted to be alone. And sure enough, he shook his head.
“Not this time,” he answered, picking up my hand and kissing it with his perfect lips. “I need to focus.”
I nodded silently as he kissed my forehead and then watched quietly as he turned around and walked quietly into the night. I felt like he took my heart with him. I bowed my head and cried.
Chapter Thirteen
I felt his presence a scant moment before his voice, as smooth and soft as silk, drifted toward me from the shadows and enveloped me like a blanket.
“Empusa, no man should ever make you cry.”
Hades.
His very presence was tangible and my head snapped up to look for him. Hades possessed a magnetic pull, an innate ability to draw anyone, men and women alike, to him. The longer I was in his presence, the more the attraction built in my belly and even though I knew it wasn’t real, it was difficult to resist.
As my eyes flitted along the perimeter of shadows, I found him. He was standing just on the edge, half in the moonlight, half in the shadows. As always, his beauty was staggering.
Hades was a dark presence, both physically and emotionally. He carried an air of danger with him, a feeling that lingered in the air around him. His glossy dark hair curled slightly at his shoulders. His eyes, as black as onyx, glistened in the night. He wore a crisp white shirt with flowing French cuffs, open at the wrist and casually unbuttoned at the collar. His black cape fluttered in the wind and his black leather pants fit him perfectly.
I gulped.
His delicious scent wafted to me on the breeze and without meaning to, I closed my eyes to inhale it. Before I re-opened them, Hades was standing behind me, his hands on my shoulders as he murmured into my ear.
“Why has he left you alone, Empusa? At a time such as this, when you are feeling so very alone and vulnerable, he shouldn’t have left you.”
I wanted to step away from him. I truly did. The fact that he could reach into my mind and my heart and see what I was feeling was alarming and dangerous. But it was difficult to move. His voice was tying me to him like a ribbon of steel and it grew stronger by the second. Gathering my most inner reserves of strength, I gritted my teeth and yanked away. Whirling, I faced him from three feet away. For good measure, I took one more step backward. He smiled. He was well aware of the effect that he had on me.
“Why are you here, Hades?” I asked tiredly. I really wasn’t in the mood for this. He looked surprised and I had to give him credit for appearing genuine.
“I’m here because I’m concerned for you, of course,” he answered. “If you continue on your current
path, things will grow very dangerous for you, very quickly.”
“And you care because…?” I knew I was being sarcastic and unfriendly. But I was dealing with the god of the underworld. He always had an ulterior motive and I wasn’t in the mood to try and figure out what it was this time.
“Honestly? I care because it’s in my best interest to ensure that you win.”
And that honestly surprised me.
“What do you mean?” I asked suspiciously. “Are you still under the assumption that if I win, Brennan and I will cause an apocalypse and all the mortal souls will come knocking on your door? That might have been the case, but no longer. I’m sure you are aware of the new developments. You’ve probably been lurking around here and saw for yourself.”
Again, he looked genuinely surprised. “What new developments?”
“You honestly don’t know? I find that hard to believe.”
“Believe it,” Hades answered patiently, his gleaming teeth white in the night. “Please fill me in.”
I took a few minutes and explained my mother’s visions to Hades and included the part where Brennan thought he should offer himself to Zeus in exchange for my life and that of the entire mortal world. When I was finished, Hades looked flabbergasted.
“Apollo’s son would sacrifice himself in such a way?” he asked in surprise. “He doesn’t take after his father, that is for certain. Apollo doesn’t have the depth for an act such as that.”
“I think you are formed more by who raised you than by your genes,” I said absently. “Clearly, it is so in Brennan’s case. His mortal parents are good people.”
“I know,” Hades replied. “His mother dwells in the Underworld now. She passed on years ago. I know her personally. She has pure energy.”
“You know his mother?” I exclaimed. “You should tell Brennan. He would be happy to hear any news of her.”
“I care not, Empusa,” Hades said quietly. “You mistake me for having a soft-heart. You know that is not true. Brennan will see her for himself in the near future, I am certain, one way or another.”
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