“I would ask if she loves you, but if she demands you give up who you are to make her happy she must not.” In Manuel’s opinion his friend’s woman was selfish if she didn’t understand the nature and needs of a master.
“She hasn’t asked me to give this up, I just know it’s not who she truly is. I was her first of course, and there are things in the dungeon she enjoys, but I also know she wants a man who can allow her to do the things she chooses with her life.” Telling his friend made it sound so simple, so why was it so hard for him to give her what she wanted and needed, he asked himself.
“I forgot that you were her first,” Manuel said as he stood and walked over to a toy chest, from which he pulled out a pair of strap-on vibrators and lubricating gel. He soothed his pets with encouraging words before fitting them both with the vibrators. He enjoyed giving pleasure, and had a reputation to uphold, even if he wasn’t actively involved with the play just then.
Leaving his pets with their toys he returned to Rhett. “Well, my friend, I would say you need to make a decision on what you can and cannot live with. Personally, I wouldn’t give up this for any woman; I enjoy the lifestyle I have.”
Was this truly what he wanted? Rhett asked of himself as he watched the two women on the suspension bar writhe and moan as the vibrators they had been fitted with brought them to fulfillment. They were true slaves, he thought, with only one thought, to fulfill the needs of their master.
A few weeks before, that would have been enough for him, now though, he wanted more. There had to be a balance, he’d seen it with Janie and David and it worked for them, but was he capable of finding that type of balance within himself, he just wasn’t sure.
Manuel left his friend to his thoughts and crossed again to the chest, taking out a single tailed whip that time. With expert control he made his pets dance for him; the sight of their bodies moving at his direction was something that never got old. The life he had chosen suited him perfectly, he thought, not for the first time.
Rhett watched as his friend played with his toys and knew it was something he could never give up fully, but neither was Leah, and that was problem he didn’t know how to solve. To the uninitiated it was a lifestyle that couldn’t be understood; the ability to be in complete control and to know that pleasure and pain were yours to give as you wished, as a submissive gave herself to you utterly, it was a feeling like no other on earth.
He had some serious soul-searching to do he realized.
9
FRIENDS
After Leah ended the call Janie found herself staring at the phone in her hand. She couldn’t believe what her friend had told her had happened the previous evening; Leah was definitely coming out of her shell, she thought with a soft laugh.
“What’s so funny, baby?” David asked, rolling over to kiss her softly on the lips. He knew she had been speaking to Leah, but couldn’t imagine what her friend could have said to make her laugh, or look so bemusedly at her phone.
While he waited for an answer he ran his hand down her body, across her breasts and stomach to her soft warmth, which he penetrated with a finger, making her moan.
Oh God! Janie thought as David worked his magic with his fingers, he drove her crazy. It was a few moments before she remembered his question and felt able to answer it. “Leah slept with Alex,” she gasped the words as his fingers plunged in and out of her.
David’s finger stilled, lodged deep in her core. “Rhett’s friend from college?” That was going to go over about as well as a bacon sandwich at a Bar Mitzvah, the observation passed through his mind and then disappeared as he continued his gentle assault on Janie.
“Mmm! Yes, Sir, that one.” Her body arched into his touch.
Forgetting about Rhett, he decided to play with his lover as her soft moan filled the room. “You like that baby?” He grinned at her nod, his devilish mind coming up with a new pleasure to share with her. Removing his fingers he rolled her over so he could slap her ass playfully. “Go use the bathroom and bring me back the tube of lubricant.
Janie loved it when he ordered her around and she grinned as she slid out of bed. “Yes, Sir.” She didn’t waste any time and hurried to the bathroom, wondering what he had planned for her. He knew she always liked to relieve herself before they had morning sex, so she took the time to do that before returning to the bedroom with the lubricant he had requested.
“Get that beautiful ass on the bed and spread wide for me, baby.” He gave her another swat on the ass as she climbed on and positioned herself.
“I am at your service, Sir,” she told him with a laugh, exposing herself completely to him, as per his instructions.
“Minx.” He shook his head at her playfulness; he couldn’t imagine finding a better partner, either in or out of the bedroom. “We’re going to try something new, baby; if it gets too intense I want you to tell me immediately, okay?”
Janie had no fear, she trusted him completely, so she nodded, still smiling, and watched, confused, as he took the lubricant from her and covered his hand generously. She was so turned on right then she doubted they needed to use it, and was sure he knew that, which left her curious as to what he had in mind for her.
“Do you remember that fisting video we watched online?” He saw her eyes widen and knew she remembered it. Chuckling he lowered his fingers to her core, sliding two in easily, which he knew he could have done even without the lube.
“I’m not sure my body can stretch that much, Sir.” She wasn’t sexually inexperienced, by any means, but she did do a lot of Kegel exercises to ensure her body remained tight and a pleasure for her master.
“That sweet little honeypot of yours, like any woman’s, has the ability to stretch very well, baby.” He grinned as he said that. He had begun calling it her honeypot after the night she had had her best ever orgasm while he was going down on her. “We’ll take this nice and slow, if it gets to be too much, we’ll stop.”
Taking a deep breath Janie nodded, she had tried plenty of new things with him, generally finding them very pleasurable and she trusted him completely. She was sure it would be the same then.
As his third finger slid inside her she moaned, amazed by the sensation. He smiled at her obvious pleasure and working her with his fingers until she came, hard. “I’ve read that this works much better if you find a little pleasure first.” He continued to pump his fingers in and out of her core until he felt her body become used to the invasion and it began responding again.
Slowly, he inserted a fourth finger, pausing as she caught her breath to give her time to adjust. “Okay?” he asked in concern, the last thing he wanted was to hurt her. At her nod he worked his fingers in and out. “Baby, you have no idea how good you feel against my hand.” He marveled at the trust she gave him.
The sensation was incredible, she admitted to herself, and relaxed as much as possible so he could continue. As he moved his fingers slowly back and forth, filling her more fully than she could remember being filled, she gasped and closed her eyes, a broad smile of pleasure on her face. It was so damn erotic, she thought.
He could tell by the look on her face she was enjoying what he was doing, and was glad, he wanted her to. Tucking his thumb against his palm he gave a gentle push but immediately stopped at her sharp intake of breath. “Do you want me to stop, baby?” It was all for her pleasure he reminded himself mentally.
“No,” she spoke softly, forcing herself to relax again, “it feels really incredible, Sir, it’s just a bit overwhelming,” she told him with a smile.
Her words gave him the encouragement he needed to continue and he carefully made a fist and pushed deeper inside her clenching sheath. He felt the pull of her body as it drew him in once his fist was past the entrance. “You are so fucking amazing, baby.” He stilled himself completely, allowing her the time to take in the sensation.
Though she was fuller than she had ever been she found it wasn’t enough, she wanted to feel him move inside her; the thought amazed he
r. Despite the video they had watched together, she would never have believed it possible to fit his entire hand inside her, let alone find it one of the best experiences she could remember. “More please, Sir.”
Chuckling softly at her demand, he began to work his fist slowly out and then in again, watching her face carefully as he did so. It was amazing that she allowed him to pleasure her in such a way, and he took cues from her reaction to increase the sensations for her. The feeling of her body flooding his hand with her desire was just as fulfilling to him as the orgasm he gave her, he thought with a smile.
He carefully slid his fist from her core as the clenching folds released, letting him know she had ridden out the release completely.
“That was amazing, Sir.” She grinned and shifted position on the bed so she could move down his body to his cock. She wished she could please him as greatly as he had her, and the only way she knew how to do that was by worshipping his body.
Using her hands and mouth she lovingly showed him how much she appreciated the pleasure he had given her. It wasn’t long before he reached fulfillment and she swallowed each drop before moving back up to lie alongside him.
For long minutes they lay together, marveling at the sexual compatibility they shared. When they had recovered, and their legs no longer felt like jelly, they enjoyed a shower together before taking their time to dress.
Over breakfast they discussed non-essential things, just enjoying each other’s company. He fed her from his hand, and she returned the favor, both of them laughing like teenagers in the first flush of love.
“I want to spend the rest of my life just like this,” David told Janie, no doubt in his mind as to his feelings for his lover.
“Well as long as we leave the house occasionally, I see no problem with that.” She never called him Sir outside of the bedroom; it was something they had agreed on when they first made their decision to be partners.
“I guess I do have to work,” David said regretfully, “living here without the power and lights might not be too exciting, although…” He trailed off and pulled her into his arms for a long slow kiss.
Their romantic moment was interrupted by the sound of the doorbell. “Crap, I told Leah to come on over so we could talk but I didn’t expect her so soon.” Sliding off her stool Janie made her way to the front door so she could let her friend in.
“Hey, Leah.” David smiled broadly when he stopped in the doorway of the living room, where the two women were. “I’m going to run out a grab a movie, anything sound good to you ladies?” He didn’t really need a movie, he had a large selection of DVDs and Blu-Ray movies in his entertainment library, but he was sure the women wanted to talk without his presence.
“Hello, David,” Leah greeted him. “I’m not sure how long I’ll be here, so don’t worry about me.” She smiled and blushed, thinking that she had to get back to talk with Alex after leaving her friend. She’d felt a little awkward when she left, even though Alex had seemed normal and unconcerned, despite what they’d done.
“You choose, babe.” Janie mouthed a thank you as he stepped closer and kissed her on the cheek.
“Just remember you said that,” he warned her with a chuckle before leaving them alone to talk.
“Okay, spill it, how did you end up in bed with your boss?” Janie demanded the moment the front door shut behind David. In her opinion it was the best thing that could have happened to her friend; from what she had seen of him, Alex appeared to be a great guy, and was just as attractive as Rhett, so her friend wasn’t taking a step down in the looks department, not that that was necessarily anything to worry about, she reminded herself.
Leah told her friend everything that had happened the previous evening, starting with her date with Rhett, and the disaster it had been. After that she moved on to her return to the hotel suite and her encounter with Alex. She finished by recounting how they had enjoyed each other before they moved from the bed, and how she now felt as though she was the biggest slut on earth.
“Holy shit, Leah, he’s obviously into you.” Janie was thrilled that Alex had let her take the lead, it was exactly what her friend needed, in her opinion, and she liked Alex all the more for it.
“I have to admit I’m a little confused, I thought the dominant did the leading.” He hadn’t made any decisions at all during their night together, instead he had made her make every single choice; it had been a very different experience for her. Remembering the events of the previous night made her blush, and she fought against the impulse, even as she tried to push from her mind the soreness that her night with Alex had left her with.
“Honey, the one thing you’ll discover about this lifestyle is that not one single person in it lives the same way as anyone else,” Janie told her as she led the way into the kitchen to make them both coffee; she marveled at what she had just heard. The happy young woman before her was what she wanted her friend to be, rather than having her sad and pining over an asshole who couldn’t control himself enough to see what she needed.
“I’ve met dom's who think a woman should be chained on a leash all the time, and those that just enjoy knowing that if they demand something sexually from their submissive it will be done. Nothing is set in stone.” She poured them both a cup, when the coffee was ready, and then they returned to the living room to drink.
“Well he’s not my Dom, we just had sex.” Saying it aloud made her feel even dirtier than she already did and she grimaced.
“None of that shit, Leah, you’re twenty-four years old and you've only slept with two men; hell, by the time I was twenty I’d slept with...well, let’s just say there’s nothing for you to feel guilty about.” She didn’t want to get into how many men she’d slept with, the number didn’t sit that well with her. She knew Leah though, and knew her friend would analyze the hell out of the situation if she was given the time to do so, and would come out of it feeling as though she had something wrong, even though she hadn’t.
“I know there’s nothing wrong with what we did, not really, seriously I do, but…well, I just don’t know where things stand with Rhett, and it feels sort of like I cheated on him.” She hated the way that made her feel. She had enjoyed being with Alex, but she loved Rhett, and that left her wondering what kind of person she was.
“You said yourself you knew he was going to call things off on your date before he went all caveman again.” That was how Leah referred to his mood swings, and Janie thought it fit him perfectly from her descriptions. “He won’t ever be happy unless he controls you completely, Leah, and that just isn’t right. Think about it, outside of a little guilt because you feel like you cheated on Rhett, how do you feel about last night?”
“It was incredible.” She smiled, remembering how unbelievable it had felt to be the one in charge for a change and to please herself. The guilt remained, but she couldn’t help recalling how easy it had been with Alex, and how comfortable he had made her. Though it had been just as amazing with him as it had been with Rhett, there had been none of the rollercoaster of uncertainty she’d become used to. She struggled to explain all of that to her friend though; she just couldn’t seem to find the right words.
“Couldn’t that be saying that maybe you need someone a little more like Alex, someone who lets you take things at your pace?” Janie was fully on board with her friend walking away from Rhett, especially since she wanted to smash his head in for how he had treated Leah, and she wasn’t normally a violent person.
“Maybe, I don’t know, Janie.” She wanted to be honest with her friend, but she wasn’t really sure what she felt. “With Rhett, it’s like everything is so much more heightened and my emotions are on a rollercoaster. I never know whether I’m going to be in tears or laughing my ass off. With Alex, it’s just freeing, knowing I don’t have to really please him, but he’s a dom so it's not always going to be that way, or is it?”
“I don’t know Alex well enough to know what he expects from a submissive, but it sounds to me like he�
�s not asking that of you right now. Maybe he just wants a lover.” It wasn’t inconceivable, she thought, she had enjoyed what was considered normal sex before she got together with David. With David though, sex was always something more, she thought, feeling her lips stretch into a smile.
“I see how happy David makes you.” Leah smiled at her friend’s happiness, she really was pleased for her, and wondered if it was too much to ask for her to have the same, to just be happy in a relationship.
“That’s what I want for you, Leah.” Janie knew after her blowup over Rhett that she had crossed a lot of boundaries with her friend, and was determined never to do that again. “Whatever you decide, I’m here for you; I just want you to be happy, whatever that takes.” She preferred that her friend’s happiness didn’t involve Rhett, but that was Leah’s decision to make.
“I’m so glad you feel that way, Janie, I hate it when we argue, and honestly, I just don't know what I’m going to do yet.” She’d never been so confused before in her life, and she knew it.
“I don’t like that either. We damned sure aren’t going to argue like that ever again.” Laughing to take some of the heat out of her words, she made a mental vow to never be such a demanding bitch again with her best friend. It was Leah’s life, and she had the right to live it any way she chose.
“I guess I’ve got some decisions to make.” The thought of making that kind of decision made her sigh.
“Why decide anything at the moment? You didn’t marry the guy. You’re still young, there’s no need for you to make an important decision like this in a hurry. Feel things out, take some time to sort out your thoughts and then do what will make you happiest.” That was the best, and really the only, advice she could give.
“I have a week before Rhett comes back from Mexico, maybe that will be long enough for me to work it out.” She was talking more to herself than Janie just then, the thought of having to make such a huge decision was a massive burden on her mind.
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