by Mark Dawson
“It wasn’t just the work itself, though. There were problems with the bosses––there are more women than men in the factories, and they think it is alright for them to hit on us, and that we should be flattered by it, give them what they want. The bosses have cars and the women never do. Some girls go with the bosses so that they can get rides to work. It’s safer than the busses. I never did that.”
“They hit on you?”
“Of course.”
“But you were fourteen.”
“You think they care about that?” Delores smiled a bitter smile. “I was old enough.” She sipped at the glass of diet Coke that Caterina had bought for her. “They have those busses, the old American ones, the yellow and black ones they use to take their children to school. They were hot and smelly and they broke down all the time, but it was better than walking and safer, too, once the girls started to disappear. I had a place in Lomas de Poleo––you know it?”
“I do.” It was shanty of dwellings spread in high desert, a few miles west of Juárez. Caterina had been there plenty with the Voces sin Echo.
“It was just a bed, sharing with six other girls who worked in the same maquiladora as I did. The bus picked us up at six in the morning and took us up to the river, then, when we were finished at eight or nine, then they would take us back again.”
Caterina’s pen flashed across her pad. She looked at the recorder, checking that it was working properly. “What happened to you?”
“This was a Friday. The other girls were going out but I was tired and I had no money and so I told them I would go home. The bus usually dropped us off in Anapra. The place I was staying was a mile from there, down an unlit dirt track, and it was dark that night, lots of clouds and no moon, darker than it usually was. I was always nervous, and there were usually six of us, but I was on my own and it was worse. I got off the bus and watched it drive up the hill and then walked quickly. There was a car on the same side of the street as me. I remember the lights were on and the engine was still running. I crossed to the other side of the street to avoid it, but before I could get there a man came up from behind me, put his hand over my mouth and dragged me into the car. He was much stronger than I am. There was nothing I could do.”
“Where did they take you?”
“There is a bar in Altavista with a very cheap hotel behind it where the men take the women that they have paid for. They took me there. They put me in a room, tied my hands and my feet and left me on the bed. There was another girl there, too, on the other bed. She had been taken the night before, I think. She was tied down, like me. There was blood. Her eyes were open but they did not focus on anything. She just stared at the ceiling. I tried to speak to her but she did not respond. I tried again but it was no use––she would not speak, let alone tell me her name or where she was from or what had happened to her. So I screamed and screamed until my throat was dry but no-one came. I could hear the music from the bar, and then, when that was quiet, I could hear noises from the other rooms that made me want to be quiet. There were other girls, I think. I never saw any of them, but I heard them. I must have been there for two or three hours before he came in.”
“Just one?”
“Yes. I don’t know if it was the same one who took me. I can remember him and yet not remember him, if you know what I mean. He was nothing special, by which I mean there was nothing about him that you would find particularly memorable. Neither tall nor short, neither fat nor thin. Normal looking. Normal clothes. He reminded me of the father of a girl I went to school with when I was younger. He was a nice man, the father of my friend. I hoped that maybe this man would be nice, too, or at least not as bad as I had expected. But he was not like him at all. He was not nice.”
“You don’t have to tell me what happened.”
But she did. She drew a breath and explained, looking down at the table all the time. She was a little vague, relying on euphemism, but Caterina was able to complete the details that she left out. Delores’ bravery filled her with fury. She gripped her pen tighter and tighter until her knuckles were pale against the tanned skin on the back of her right hand. A fourteen year old girl. Fourteen. She vowed, for the hundredth time, the thousandth, that she would expose the men who were responsible for this. She did not care about her own safety. The only thing that mattered was that they were shamed and punished. Now that she had her blog, and the thousands of readers who came to read about the disintegration of Juárez, now she was not just another protester. She had influence and power. People paid attention when she wrote things. This would be the biggest story yet.
Femicide.
The City of Lost Girls.
She would make them listen and things would be done.
“How did you get away?”
“He untied my hands while he––you know––and then he did not tie them again when he went to use the bathroom. I suppose he was confident in himself, and he had made it plain that they would kill me if I tried to run. I knew that my prayers had been answered then and that I had been given a chance to escape, but, at first, I did not think that my body would allow me to take advantage of it. It was as if all of the strength in my legs had been taken away. I think it was because I was frightened of what they would do to me if they caught me. I know that is not rational, and I know that they would have killed me if I had stayed––I knew about the missing girls, of course, like everyone does––but despite that it was as much as I could do to take my clothes and get off the bed.”
“But you did.”
“Eventually, yes. I tried to get the other girl to get up too, but she told me to leave her alone. It was the first thing she had said to me all that time. She looked at me as if I had done something terribly wrong. She was still tied, too, and I am not sure I would have been able to free her, but it would not have mattered––she did not want to leave. I opened the door––he had not locked it––and I ran. I ran as fast as I could. I ran all the way to the Avenue Azucenas and I found a policeman. I did not know if I could trust him but I had no other choice. I was lucky. He was a good man. One of the few. He took me to the police station, away from there.”
“Do you know his name?”
“The policeman? Yes––it was Plato. I think his first name was Jesus.”
“And the man in the hotel?”
“I do not know his real name. But he liked to talk, all the time he would talk to me and the other girl, and this one time, just before I escaped, he told me about the things that he did for the cartels. He said his father was an important man in El Frontera and that he was a killer for them, a sicario, but not just any sicario––he said that he was the best, the most dangerous man in all of Juárez. He said that he had killed a thousand men and that, because he was so dangerous, the men who worked with him had given him a name. ‘Santa Muerte.’”
Caterina wrote that down in her notebook, underlining it six times.
Santa Muerte.
Holy Death.
Saint Death.
* * *
14.
“SO, OLD MAN––you going to stay in Juárez?”
Plato looked at Alameda and then at Sanchez. They had been goofing around all evening––mostly at Plato’s expense, about how it felt to be so old––and this felt like the first proper, serious question. “I don’t know,” he said after a moment. “The girls are settled here, they got their friends, they’re in a decent school. The little one’s just been born, do I want to put him through the hassle of moving? There’s another one on the way. The wife was born here, her old man’s in a home half a mile from the house.”
“Come on, man,” Sanchez said. “Seriously?”
And Plato admitted to himself then that he had already decided. Ciudad Juárez was no place to bring up a family. Forty years ago, when he was coming up, even twenty years ago when he was starting to do well in the police, maybe he could’ve made a case that things would have been alright. But now? No, he couldn’t say that. He’d seen too much. He
had investigated eleven killings himself this month: the man in the Ford Galaxy who was gunned down at a stop sign; three beaten and tortured municipal cops found in the park; a man who was executed, shot in the head; six narcos shot to pieces in the barrio by the army. In the early days, at the start, he had kept a list in a book, hidden it in the shed at the bottom of the garden. They called it Murder City for a reason. It took him two months to learn and give up.
“Maybe,” he said.
“Maybe?” Alameda tweaked the end of his long moustache. “You ask me, Jesus, you’d be out of your mind if you stay here. Think what it’ll be like when your girls are all grown. Or Jesus Jr, you want him hanging out on the corners when he gets a little hair on his chin? I’m telling you, man, as soon as I got my pension I’m getting the family together and we are out of here, as far away as we can.”
“Me too,” Sanchez said. “I’ve got family in New Mexico.”
“Yeah, I guess we will move,” Plato admitted. “I fancy the coast. Down south, maybe.”
“Get to use that boat you’re wasting all your time on.”
“That did cross my mind.”
Sanchez got up. “I’m gonna drain the lizard.”
Alameda got up, too, indicating the three empty glasses. “Another?”
He watched Alameda and Sanchez as they made their way across the restaurant, Alameda heading to the bar and Sanchez for the rest room. They had chosen La Case del Mole tonight. It was a decent enough joint; the food was a little better than average, the beer was reasonably priced and plenty strong enough and the owner––a fat little gringo from El Paso––owed the police a favour and so there would always be a hefty markdown on the bill at the end of the night.
He relaxed in his chair, stretching out his legs so that the ache in his muscles might ease a little. He was getting old, no point hiding it. It had been a long day, too, and, if those two had their way, it would be a long night. He thought of his wife and the chaos of bedtime, trying to get the two girls to behave while she struggled to get the baby to settle, and then feeding them, and then tidying the house, and, for a moment, he felt guilty. He should get home; there were chores to be done, there were always chores, and it wasn’t fair to live it up here with the boys and leave her to do everything herself. But then he caught himself; there wouldn’t be many more chances to do this, to knock off after a shift and have a beer to wind down, maybe stop at a taco stand and shoot the breeze. He would keep in touch with his old colleagues, that was for sure, but it would be different when he was a civilian. He should enjoy himself. Emelia didn’t mind. And she’d given him a pass.
It was almost nine and, as he waited for the busboy to clear the plates away so they could get down to the serious drinking, he idly played with his empty glass and looked out into the parking lot outside. Darkness was falling, the sodium oranges and reds slowly darkening, and the big overhead lights were on. A nice new SUV rolled in, an Audi Q5, the same model that he had had his eye on for a while, the one he knew he probably couldn’t afford. He took in the details: silver-coloured, El Paso plates, premium trim, nearly a hundred grand if you bought it new. The truck stopped, not in a bay but right out in front of the restaurant, and Plato sat up a little in his chair. The engine was still running––he could see the smoke trailing out of the exhaust––and the doors on both sides slid open, four men getting out, too dark and too far away for him to see their faces well enough to remember them. There was something about the way they moved that he had seen before: not running but not walking either, quick, purposeful. He didn’t even notice that he had stopped trailing his finger around the rim of the beer glass, that his hand had cautiously gone to his hip, that his thumb and forefinger were fretting with the clip on the holstered Glock.
Plato heard a woman’s voice protesting, saying “no, no,” and then the crisp thud of a punch and something falling to the floor. The men were into the restaurant now, all four of them, fanning out around the room, each of them with something metallic in their hands. Plato had seen enough firearms in his time to pick them all out: two of them had machine pistols, Uzis or Mac-10s, another had a semi-automatic Desert Eagle, and the last one, keeping watch at the door, had an AK-47. Plato had unfastened the clip now, his hand settling around the butt of the Glock, the handgun cold and final in the palm of his hot hand. He looked around, knowing that there were fractions of seconds before the shooting started, looking for Alameda or Sanchez or anyone else who might be able to back him up but Sanchez was still in the john and Alameda had his back to him, facing the bar. The other diners, those that had seen the newcomers and recognised what was about to go down, they were looking away, terrified, frozen to their chairs and praying that it wasn’t them.
Twenty feet away to Plato’s left, a fifth man rose from his seat. He recognised him: his name was Machichi. He was a mouthy braggart, early twenties, with oily brown shoulder-length hair and a high-cheekboned Apache face. Two yellow, snaggled buck teeth protruded from beneath a scraggly moustache and an equally scrubby goatee. Machichi had a small Saturday night special in his hand, and he pointed to the table a couple away to his left. Plato knew what was playing out: Machichi was the tail-man, his job was to ID the targets so the others could do the shooting. They were sicarios: cartel killers, murderers for El Patrón. But their targets didn’t look like narcos. It was just a table of three: two young women and a man. One of the women––pretty, with long dark hair––saw Machichi and his revolver, shouted “no”, and dragged the other woman away from the table, away from the sicarios.
Plato felt a pang of regret as he pulled the Glock and pushed his chair away. One week to go, less than a week until he could hang it up, and now this? Didn’t God just have the wickedest sense of humour? He thought of Emelia and the girls and little Jesus Jr as he stood and aimed the gun.
“Drop your weapons!”
The sicario with the AK fired into the restaurant, hardly even aiming, and Plato felt his guts start to go as slugs whistled past his head. A woman at the next table wasn’t so lucky: her face blew up as the hollow point mashed into her forehead, blood spraying behind her as her neck cracked backwards and she slid from her chair. Plato hid behind the table, the cold finger of the Glock’s barrel pressed up against his cheek; he hadn’t even managed to get a shot off and now he knew he never would. He couldn’t move. Emelia’s words this morning were in his head, he couldn’t get them out, and they had taken the strength from his legs. He knew he was probably being flanked, the man with the rifle opening an angle to put him out of his misery. Plato knew it would be his wife’s words that would be repeating in his head when the bullets found their marks.
Be careful, Jesus.
You got a different life from next Monday.
It was crazy: he thought of the lawn, and how it would never get cut.
Gunfire.
The tic-tic-tic of the machine pistols.
A jagged, ripping volley from the Kalashnikov.
Screams.
The man who was with the two women had been hit. He staggered against his toppled chair, leaning over, his hand pressed to his gut, then wobbled across the room until he was at Plato’s table. Blood on his shirt, pumping between his fingers. He reached for the table, his face white and full of fear, and then his hand slipped away from the edge and he was on his knees, and then on his face, his body twitching. Plato could have reached out to touch him.
He was facing at an angle away from the kitchen but he glimpsed something move in the corner of his eye, cranked his head around in that direction and saw a cook, covered in sweat and shirtless save for a dirty apron, vaulting quickly over the sill of the wide window that opened onto the restaurant. The man moved with nimble agility, landing in a deep crouch and bringing up his right hand in a sudden, fluid motion. Plato saw a pair of angel wings tattooed across his back as his right arm blurred up and then down, something glinting in his hand and, then, leaving his hand. That glint spun through the air as if the man had unleashed a
perfect fastball, like Pedro Martinez at the top of the ninth, two men down, the bases loaded. The kitchen knife––for that was what it was––landed in Machichi’s throat.
He dropped his revolver, tottered backwards, clawing at the blade that had bisected his gullet.
It was the spur Plato needed: he spun up and around, firing the Glock. The sicario with the Kalashnikov took a round in the shoulder and wheeled away, wild return fire going high and wife, stitching a jagged trail into the fishing net that was hanging from the ceiling. Sanchez appeared and fired from the doorway to the restroom; Alameda was nowhere to be seen. All the diners were on the floor now; the cook fast-crawled on his belly between them, a bee-line to the man with the Kalashnikov and, with a butterfly knife that had appeared in his hand, he reached down and slit the man’s throat from ear to ear. He picked up the AK.
He popped out of cover, the muzzle flashing.
One of the sicarios was hit, his head jerking back.
The cook was beneath the line of the tables, firing a quick burst that left most of the top of the man smeared across the carpet and the wall behind him. The gun made a throaty chugging sound. Like someone with a hacking cough.
The remaining pair scrambled back to the door. Plato watched through the restaurant’s large picture window as they hurried to the Q5. The cook stepped around to the window. The car was just fifteen feet away outside. The cook raised the Kalashnikov, calm and easy, braced the stock expertly against his shoulder and fired a concentrated volley straight through the window. The pane shattered in an avalanche of shards, the bullets puncturing the driver side window, none going astray, all of them within a neat ten-inch circle.
The car swerved out of control and hit another. The door swung opened. The airbags had deployed. The driver fell out, his head a bloody mess. The passenger was hit, too.