by Chiah Wilder
She jerked her head up, wiping her damp cheeks. Recognition passed over her face, and he saw her features soften.
In two long strides, he knelt beside her, holding her hand. “You gonna tell me what’s wrong? Where’s Luc?” When Roche mentioned her boyfriend’s name, she started crying again and sank into him, her cheeks wet against his shirt. “Did he do something to you?” A current of anger rode up his spine.
“No. Yes.” She swallowed and her chin dipped down. “I went looking for him and caught him with Raine, the new girl in school. I can’t believe he did that to me.” She threw her arms around Roche’s neck and cried.
He knew he should feel awful for her, but all he could think about was how wonderful she smelled and how good she felt in his arms. Her soft hair and the way her breasts crushed against him made all his senses jump to life and buzz. He’d never liked Luc and thought Clotille had only gone out with him to please her brother and mother since Luc was always in the papers after making touchdowns for the high school football team.
For a long time, he held her in his arms as she cried out all her anger and disappointment. She looked up at him and cleared her throat, startling him enough that he jumped a bit. He looked down at her and she smiled. “Do you think I’m pretty?” she asked in a hushed tone. Fuck yeah. I think you’re beautiful, chérie. “You know you are.”
“Then why have you stayed away from me? You’ve been going out with every girl in the school but me.”
“Those other girls can’t begin to compare to you,” he said in a soft voice.
“Then why?”
He let out a long breath and crossed his arms. “I stayed away because that’s what I thought you wanted. You began pulling away from me after we kissed that afternoon in the cemetery. Then when you came to high school, you treated me like I was dirt under your feet. I wasn’t going to chase you. You decided our friendship was over. I went with it. Things don’t ever last, chérie.”
He watched as her face slackened and she looked at him with wet, dull eyes. “I thought you didn’t want to be with me anymore. I thought you wanted a girl who was more fun. That time we kissed scared me because I was young and I felt weird in a funny, good way. I was confused and didn’t know what was going on with me. When I got to high school, I kept waiting for you to come up to me and you never did. It hurt me a lot.” Her voice hitched and her shoulders slumped. He watched her in silence, the hardness around his heart beginning to soften. “I’ve missed you, Roche,” she whispered. “You’re the only one I could be myself around.”
“What about Luc? You seemed pretty close to him for the past three years.”
She shook her head. “He was never you. I kept hoping he was, kept comparing you, but he was just a jock who loved all the attention, especially from the girls. Armand and my mom loved him.” She pulled a blade of grass and put it between her teeth. “I never did.”
“The way you were crying, you could’ve fooled me,” he said, a steely edge to his voice.
“What he did tonight bruised my ego, hurt my pride. I know he’s cheated on me before but I never caught him. And Raine is so smug and snotty. She’s been after him ever since she came to our school.” She lifted her chin. “She can have him as far as I’m concerned.”
“The other girls meant nothing to me either. I was just having fun. It’s always been you ever since I found you crying near your house. I’ve missed you too, chérie.”
She leaned toward him and placed her hand on his arm. “You’re the only one I’ve ever told about my mother and how she mistreats me. And you’re the only one who knows about Stephan and how my parents hide him from everyone. I never found anyone else I’ve wanted to confide in, not even my girlfriends. It’s always been you. You know that, non?” She ran her fingers up his torso, lightly scratching the material with her nails. He groaned and tugged her to him, covering her mouth with his. He relished the softness of her lips and her skin under his hands as he dug his fingers into her shoulders. She wrapped her arms tightly around his neck and they pressed together while they kissed under the moonlight.
“I want you,” she said against his mouth.
His insides exploded as he pushed her gently down to the ground. Hovering over her, he said, “Are you sure, chérie? Because once I start I won’t be able to stop. I’ve wanted you for so long.”
“I’ve never wanted something as much as this. Je t’aime. I fell in love with you when you handed me the mint chocolate in the park. Remember?”
He nodded. “I’ve loved you for a long time too. Why did we waste these past three years?”
“I don’t know, but we have the rest of our lives to make up for it.” She drew him down and kissed him passionately, and he responded with every ounce of energy he had. He’d dreamt about this for years, and right then everything came together for him. All the grief, bitterness, and anger he’d been carrying around melted away with each kiss and stroke she gave him. Life was finally good to him, and he savored the enormity of it.
* * *
Later that night he drove her home, tucking her under his arm as he maneuvered the car with one hand. Every few seconds, he’d brake and kiss her, the fifteen-minute drive to her house actually taking forty-five minutes.
He wanted to walk her to the door but they both agreed the risk of her mother or brother seeing them was too great. They’d deal with the logistics of her family the following day, but for that night, all that mattered was that she’d told him she loved him and he’d given her his heart.
On his way home, the realization that she’d saved herself for him hit him like a ton of bricks. He’d been shocked to learn she was a virgin. For these past several years, he’d been driving himself crazy thinking that she and Luc were doing it, but they weren’t; Roche was her first, and the thought of that pleased him a lot. He couldn’t wait to spend the following day with her. He’d told her he’d pick her up at eleven in the morning. Everything was all right. He loved her madly, and they’d found their way back into each other’s hearts and arms.
He switched off the ignition and jumped over the small hedge that bordered the front lawn of his home. When he stepped on the front porch, he stiffened—the door was wide open. Cautiously, he entered the house. It was dark, not a single light on—not even the nightlight his mother always turned on in the living room. Knowing that Henri was at the shack in the bayou and his sisters were at their cousins’ house in Abbeville for a slumber party, he wondered where his mother was. He was pretty sure his dad was out with one of his favorite street walkers.
“Maman?” he called out as he walked through the dining room to the kitchen. Low moans and whimpers came from it. When he entered the room, he stood still for a few seconds so his eyes could adjust to the darkness. The only light was the glow from the digital clock on the microwave. Scanning the room, he made out two forms on the floor. He switched on the overhead light and blinked several times. The horror of the scene in front of him remained the same: a huge pool of blood around his mother’s torso and neck. As it flowed, it filled in the cracks between the linoleum tiles on the floor. Gaping knife wounds covered her arms, stomach, and neck. Her limbs were grotesquely flung outward. Her face was swollen and bruised, and her exposed teeth made her look as if she were growling. Several squadrons of flies and gnats buzzed around her head. There was so much blood, the strong copper scent hung thickly over the room.
“Maman!” he cried, rushing over to her and kneeling down, his jeans soaking up her blood in a matter of seconds. When his warm hands touched her cool body, he brought her hand to his lips and kissed it, murmuring, “No, Maman. No.” His breath hitched and his chest felt as though it would crush his heart. All the feelings he could possibly feel were fighting together in his stomach, and he knew that the image of his mother’s body would forever be burned into his memory.
From the corner of the room he heard a grunt. He whipped around and saw his father lying on the ground, an empty bottle of moonshine on the floor an
d a butcher knife smeared in blood next to it. Roche’s ears pounded and his muscles tensed. A fire like molten lava bubbled inside him, rising steadily upward until it exploded, burning all his nerves, cells, and muscles.
“What the fuck have you done?” He rushed over to his father, who lifted his head and stared at him, his eyes hazy and unfocused. The smell of alcohol mixed in with the metallic odor of blood, and Roche had to swallow several times to keep from vomiting. “You killed her! It wasn’t enough to beat her. You had to kill her, you worthless piece of merde.”
As his father tried to lift himself off the floor, Roche grabbed him by the shirt and forced him up. He delivered the first blow against his dad’s cheek, the cracking of bones like music to his ears.
Then he lost control.
* * *
Red and blue lights created an eerie pattern on the front lawn as two paramedics rolled out a screaming and sobbing Roche, strapped down on a stretcher. Along the side and front of his house, he spotted the neighbors he grew up with, averting their gazes as the stretcher went past them. He saw his father’s badly beaten body loaded into another ambulance, and his heart shattered when two men put his mother’s body, encased in a body bag, in a black hearse. The door to his ambulance slammed shut and he was rushed to University Hospitals & Clinics. Still wired from the horror of it all, the emergency medical technician administered a sedative. In less than fifteen minutes, drowsiness set in and he closed his eyes, welcoming oblivion.
* * *
Five years later
As the metal doors slammed behind him, Roche shuffled down the paved road without a backward glance. He had nothing to look at; five years of hell in one of Louisiana’s most notorious prisons was more than enough. He’d received the maximum sentence for beating the shit out of his father that fateful night. He thought it was a gift because his goal had been to kill the bastard the way he’d killed his mother, only the police intervened. The neighbors had called them when they heard his father’s cries and Roche’s angry words, cursing him in Cajun. For the past five years, he’d tortured himself for not being home when his father had killed his mother. He’d been with Clotille while his mother had choked on her own blood. And it blew his mind as to why none of the neighbors had heard his mother’s cries as she was hacked to death.
He squinted and spotted a car at the side of the road, a slender woman with dark curly hair waving at him as he neared. She ran up to him and hugged him tightly. “I’m so happy you’re safe and coming home.”
He nodded, pulling back a bit. His sister, Isa, looked beautiful and all grown up. She was the only one in his family who’d come to visit him. She’d also written to him regularly, and he loved her for it. His eyes lit up when he spotted her rounded belly. “When’s the baby coming?” he asked as he slid into the passenger seat.
“Not for another four months. You look good, considering what you’ve been through. You definitely got some muscle action going.”
“I didn’t have anything to do but work out. Had to make sure I could hold my own in there, you know?”
She nodded, a tear escaping. “It’s all over now. You can start living again. This is all behind you.”
He looked out the window as the countryside blurred by. It’d take a couple hours until he’d be back in Lafayette. His stomach twisted in a knot. So many memories, and he wasn’t ready for any of them. He leaned his head back and closed his eyes.
“Charlie said that he can get you a job at the factory. He’s the foreman, and they’re looking for help.”
“Not sure what I’m going to do.”
“You should jump right in and get busy. Charlie said the work is good and the pay is decent. They always have overtime, so that’s something, you know?”
“Does Clotille still live in Lafayette?” He immediately chastised himself for asking. He’d made a pact with himself that he wouldn’t ask anything about her, yet he wasn’t out even thirty minutes before he broke it.
“I think so,” his sister said softly. “A few years back, I saw the announcement in the paper that she married Luc Gaulier. You remember him from high school, the star player?”
He nodded, his jaw jutting out.
“When you were in… prison”—Isa said it like it was a dirty word—“did you ever hear from her?”
“She wrote me a bunch of letters. The last one told me she was back with Luc.”
“Did you ever answer her?”
“No.”
“Why?”
He shrugged. “What for? She bailed on me. Most of her letters reeked with pity and an undercurrent of horror at what I’d done.” He shook his head. “What did I have to say to her, anyway? I couldn’t very well chat about ‘my friends’ on the inside. After she told me about Luc, I didn’t see any point in her writing again. I had enough to deal with. I didn’t need that shit, especially from her.”
“Well, it doesn’t matter anymore. That’s all in the past. I can introduce you to a couple of my single friends. One of them remembers you from high school, and she always wanted to go out with you. You’ll have a nice girl and family in no time.”
“I doubt that.” He was broken, but no one saw that except him. The pieces had shattered, leaving only bitterness and a dark rage. “Anyway, I’m not planning to stay.”
“What do you mean?” Isa glanced at him her round eyes wide.
“I’m planning to head to Colorado. I got tight with a dude in prison who belongs to a club there. I’m thinking of checking it out to see if it’s for me. His name’s Bones. He was visiting some friends in New Orleans when he got into a bar fight and did some damage. Got six years for it. The way he talked about the club intrigued me.”
“A club? What kind is it?”
“It’s a group of guys who formed a brotherhood. They love the ride. I’ll have to get a Harley, which may be hard since I don’t have any money.”
“You have money in trust from the sale of the land in St. Martin.”
He sat up straight, his temples pulsing as the heat rose in him. “Maman’s land was sold?”
“Yeah. I didn’t want it to be, but I was outvoted. Henri and Lille wanted to sell it.” She glanced at him, then darted her eyes back to the road. “Of course, Pa didn’t have any say since he killed Maman,” she said in a soft voice.
Their father was convicted of second-degree murder and was sitting in maximum security in the same prison Roche had done his time. Fucking ironic. The legal system didn’t allow murderers to profit from their crimes, so the land went to the four of them. “How did they sell the land without my goddamned signature?”
“Henri said he sent it to you and you signed off. Your signature was on the paperwork.” He pounded the dashboard. “He fucking forged my name!” He glowered and stared straight ahead.
“You’ve sure picked up some bad language.”
“One of the perks of being in the joint,” he deadpanned.
“I’m sorry that this came as a surprise. Anyway, Maman’s gone, so what’s the point in keeping it? I could never go there again.”
He didn’t answer, the darkness consuming him. He had to get out of Louisiana before he lost it and ended up back in prison. Henri needs my fist in his face in the worst way. The fuckin’ bastard!
“So, you have money if you need it.” She smiled weakly. “What’s the name of this club that’s taking you away from me so soon?”
“The Insurgents. And my name’s not Roche anymore. It’s Rock.” He leaned back again and closed his eyes, working hard to push down his rage as the car sped along the freeway.
Chapter One
Pinewood Springs, Colorado
Seven years later
As Rock and Wheelie entered the Insurgents MC clubhouse, the hoots, whistles, and shouts were deafening. After four months of political bullshit, the two bikers had finally been released from jail. The Denver District Attorney’s Office decided not to charge any Insurgents or Demon Riders in the fight that broke out at the Denver M
otorcycle Expo that summer. Since there weren’t any witnesses brave enough to testify, and none of the bikers were talking, both clubs walked away free and clear.
Each club knew they’d take justice into their own hands. One of the Demon Riders had been killed and two Insurgents had just spent four months in jail for a fight the Demon Riders instigated. Neither act would be forgotten by its respective club.
“Fuck, man. It’s good to have you back,” Throttle said as he gave Rock a bear hug. “I’ve missed your crazy ass around here.”
Rock’s dark eyes twinkled. “I heard you moved out and got bitten by the pussy-whipped bug. What the hell is this club coming to?” He lightly punched Throttle in the arm, then grabbed the shot that was waiting for him on the bar. Slinging it back, the fiery burn warmed his throat. Damn, I missed this. Before he could motion the prospect for another, his glass was filled.
He looked around, his cock stiffening when he saw the bevy of beauties in barely there outfits wiggling and shaking to the tunes of Guns N’ Roses on the overhead speakers. Licking his lips, he picked out the women he’d be pounding into after a good game of pool.
“You gonna fuck all of ‘em tonight?” Bones chuckled deeply.
Rock swung around and the two old friends tapped their fists together. “Damn straight. Shit, all I could think about was riding my Harley, pussy, and booze. Glad this shit’s over. What’ve you been up to?”
“Just hangin’. We got some new chicks tonight. That’s always fun. You up for some group fun or you want the bitches all to yourself?”
A wide grin broke out over Rock’s face. “I love sharing. Damn, let’s get three women and have a fuckin’ good time.”
“You know Throttle’s out of commission now. He went and hooked up with Kimber.”
“I heard that. Damn, I never would’ve figured he’d stop wanting easy pussy. You gonna go the same way?”