by Amy Brent
I ran a hand self-consciously over my tangled hair that felt greasy. I still had yesterday’s make up on as well. A little warning would’ve been nice, Dad. I swallowed thickly as Gage accepted a cup of coffee with a gracious smile that made my knees wobble. Then again, Dad, you have no idea how much I’ve thought about sleeping with this man.
I slammed those thoughts away. They were taboo and wrong. Gage was my dad’s best friend, and he would never consider that sort of thing. He was still grieving the loss of his wife.
My father patted Ethan on the shoulder soothingly. “It’s all right, Ethan. This is Papa’s good friend. You can trust him.”
“Hi, Ethan,” Gage said, smiling. “I’ve heard a lot about you.”
Ethan didn’t respond. He buried his head into my father’s shoulder, hiding his face from everyone. My hands were trembling when I picked up my mug of coffee again.
“What’s going on?” I asked.
Gage looked over at me in surprise. “Your father hasn’t said a word to you?”
The deep rumble of Gage’s voice brought out a mixture of emotions in me. I clenched my jaw to keep control of my frayed nerves before looking at Gage.
“No,” I said tightly. “I’m a bit surprised to see you here.”
“Your father asked me to come here,” he said and instantly looked uncomfortable. “I thought he would’ve told you what he and I talked about yesterday at the country club.”
“What are you planning?” I asked, glaring at my father who kept one arm wrapped around Ethan. “What tricks are you up to?”
“They aren’t tricks,” he said, oblivious to the tension. “I’m leaving tomorrow for D.C. to prepare, as I told you. Your mother won’t be back for another month. Neither one of us feel comfortable leaving you alone here with Ethan during that gap of time with the mood you have been in.”
“And?”
“I asked Gage to assume the role of being your caretaker while I’m gone.”
My jaw dropped open in horror. There was no way in hell that my father could be serious about Gage watching out over me. I was twenty-five years old. I had learned to take care of myself years ago without the help of any of the staff in the Roselyn house.
I glanced over at Gage who studied his cup of coffee. His shoulders were visibly tense through the fabric of his dark blue sweater that he wore.
“What are you saying?” I asked, voice wavering with emotion. “I’m twenty-five years old, Dad. I can take care of Ethan and myself just fine without a ‘caretaker’ around me.”
“I’m saying that I asked Gage to take you in for a month while I’m gone. You and Ethan will be staying with him until your mother comes back.”
“What?”
Chapter 5
Gage
“What?”
I shifted uncomfortably in my chair while Amber’s question echoed loudly in the dining room. It’d been years since I had seen Amber last. Her high school graduation was the last time I had seen her briefly in passing. Back then, she had been a petite thing on the cusp of womanhood. A nerdy teenager still who enjoyed her books more than anything else in the world.
The Amber Roselynn sitting across from me was no longer a teenager. No, she was a woman, and a fucking irresistible one, too. Even dressed in a pair of old sweat pants that hung low on her slender hips and the tattered blue shirt she wore with no bra, judging from her nipples poking through the fabric, she was still a walking wet dream of temptation. Her blonde locks were pushed back from her face in aggravation. Those red lips were stretched into a thin frown that bordered on pure irritation and disbelief.
Maybe it was a bad idea to have Amber come stay with Lily and me for an entire month. Shame flooded through me hotly when I felt my cock partially harden in arousal. This was Beau’s daughter. I’d rip any older man’s dick off if he looked at Lily the way I looked at Amber now, but this wasn’t the shy teenager I was used to, sitting across from me. She was an adult, a young and vibrant woman with a child. Things had changed drastically.
“I’m serious,” Beau said. “I can’t trust you alone here, Amber. I’m worried about where your head is at.”
“My head is just fine,” Amber snapped, glancing over at me. “I don’t need Gage to look after me. I’ve been looking after myself for a while now, in case you forgot.”
“And look where it got you, Amber. I’m not asking him to control what you do. I’m just asking him to keep an eye on you until your mother is back.”
I felt a stab of pity to see that look of humiliation on Amber’s face. I remembered feeling the same way after Marcie’s death. No matter how much I insisted that I was fine, that I just needed the time to grieve, everyone always looked at me like I was incapable of taking care of myself and Lily.
“Maybe I should let you two talk privately,” I said, rising from the chair with my cup of coffee in hand. “I don’t want to intrude—”
“You’re not intruding,” Beau spoke up briskly. “Amber, mind your manners here. This is a long-time friend of ours. You and I both can trust him with anything in the world.”
Color filled Amber’s face at that.
“I wasn’t implying that I didn’t trust him,” she said. “I just don’t need someone babysitting me through this.”
“I have to agree with Amber on that,” I said. “If she isn’t comfortable with this idea, I’m certainly not going to force anything here. She’s an adult.”
Amber offered a strained smile of appreciation in my direction. Holding my coffee cup in hand, I watched as Amber gathered Ethan from her father’s side to encourage him into the living room.
“Go on, sweetheart,” she said, steering him towards the flat screen. “Let’s find something for you to watch while Mommy and Papa talk about a few things.”
The living room doors slid shut with more force than necessary. I looked over at Beau as he folded up his newspaper with an exhausted sigh, and I tried to contain my mixed feelings about the situation. How could I tell him that I felt uncomfortable? This was a man that I trusted my own life and income with. He was a fucking politician, too, of all things. Yet, I sensed nothing besides sincere concern for his daughter’s well-being when he looked up at me.
“I’m sorry,” he said. “I didn’t think she would react with hostility. It’s a different reaction compared to her sitting around here all day with a blank look on her face.”
“She’s going through a divorce,” I pointed out. “And it was abusive, Beau. Things like that don’t happen to heal overnight. I know you want to do what’s best for Amber and your grandbaby, but you should’ve at least warned her about this.”
“I don’t expect things to be taken care of overnight. I know that this is more tough than love, but think of your daughter coming home with bruises all over her arms.” Anger glittered in Beau’s eyes as he stood up from his own chair to gaze out at the snowy hillside his mansion and ranch was built on. “I have to push her forward. I’ve provided counseling, mentally and legally, but she has to snap out of it for her child’s sake. That’s part of being a parent, putting aside your own shit to get them through life.”
He had me there. Raychelle had been the one to point out that I wasn’t the only one struggling with grief after Marcie’s death. Everyone else was, too, but so was Lily. She needed a strong figure to guide her through everything.
“I can’t force her to stay with me,” I said. “If Amber doesn’t want to go, then we can’t force her to come with me. Just keep that in mind, Beau.”
The doors opened again to reveal Amber. Sliding them shut behind her, Amber crossed her arms over her perky breasts to gaze defiantly at Beau with a frown tugging at her lips. I found my gaze flicking down to where her arms rested on the swell of her breasts. That rush of lust went through me again, and I twisted myself around to look back out the window. What is wrong with me? Has it been that long since I felt pleasure?
Yes. It had been that long. I hadn’t even thought of sex since Marcie. I
couldn’t bear the guilt of it, but now all those feelings were coming back with Amber standing there. Unease crept through the back of my head. I was never the type of man to even think of crossing taboo lines. The type of lines that caused scandal and gossip. I prided myself on keeping my dick out of bad waters—even through college when sleeping with women back then had been a natural instinct to follow.
Then, Marcie had come along with her sweet nature that all school teachers seemed to have. It had been love at first sight, too. The type of love that would make any man surrender his grazing rights, and marriage had followed. Nothing had changed over the years, either, even after Lily was born. I never once felt that need to look at another woman with Marcie sleeping next to me at night.
Those unwanted feelings were coming up with Amber, and that made it feel even worse. I couldn’t even bear to look at Beau, who trusted me without a thought with his daughter’s well-being.
“I’m not going,” Amber said firmly. “I’m capable of looking out for myself and Ethan here while you return to D.C. I thought that was the original plan in the first place.”
Beau turned to face Amber, meeting her angry gaze with a calm one. “I know that you can, Amber. You have done a good job at raising Ethan, but you need to get out for a little bit.”
“I don’t need to do anything. I’m perfectly fine.”
“An adventure to Montana would do you some good,” Beau continued. “Some fresh mountain air and peace away from the bustle of the city here might help get your head on straight again.”
“I wasn’t aware that it wasn’t on straight in the first place,” she said.
I had to give it to Amber. A smirk tugged at my lips when I caught the exasperated expression on Beau’s face. She had inherited her father’s rather annoying tendency to argue without any sign of giving up easily. It was never wise to get in a battle of words with Beau, but his one and only daughter wasn’t afraid to back down from a battle, either.
“I’m going to get more coffee,” I said before the argument could escalate more. “I’ll be in the kitchen.”
I found the head of Beau’s security, Joe Fields, sitting in a breakfast nook with a cup of coffee and a newspaper as well. I took a seat wordlessly across from him after pouring myself another generous amount of coffee.
“Are they going at each other?” Joe asked, lowering his paper to look at me with a chuckle. “I can hear the start of the argument from in here. Is Ethan in there with them?”
“Watching television in the living room,” I replied, sitting back against the warm cushions. “Have they been arguing much since Amber has been here?”
“Not like what you would think. Amber didn’t come out of her room for a few weeks after arriving here covered up in bruises. She took her meals up there, and only came down to help Ethan with things throughout the day.” Joe smiled grimly at me from the top of his coffee mug. “I don’t blame the poor girl, though. The media has hounded her over this whole thing. Especially now that Scott went to the media to blame her family for their marriage dissolving. He doesn’t want to be pegged as the villain here.”
My fingers tightened my coffee mug. I had done some private research into Scott’s background, and while his record was squeaky clean, there were occasional reports of disturbances with the women he dated previously. Nothing ever went to court. No charges were filed. The recent charges, divorce proceedings, and child custody with Amber were the only headlines at the moment, while Beau’s PR team came up with a plan to combat the headlines. Beau raised his family with strong religious values that many right-leaning residents looked up to. Something like divorce was considered a scandal.
“There are always two sides to a story,” I remarked darkly. “It’s too bad that the media and others can’t see through that. I don’t blame Amber for wanting to hide out away from it all, either.”
“Me neither. I chase away reporters at the gate. This is really considered scandal?” Joe’s face stretched into a disgusted grimace. “I can’t believe it, to be honest. The media has turned it around on Amber because she had the guts to leave a husband who was abusing her.”
“No shit,” I said. “That’s the general opinion I got from what I read last night.”
“It’s a good thing what you’re doing, though,” Joe said. “Amber needs to get out and away from the city. Get her head cleared out, you know? It’s a lot of pressure to figure your life out when you have the eye of the public peering at you through a camera.”
Beau came through the kitchen doors with his plate of food in hand. He scraped the banana peels in the trash before setting the plate in the sink to be washed.
“Amber is upstairs getting packed,” he said, his face devoid of emotion. “She’ll be ready within the next hour, Gage, to go up to Montana with you.”
“Right,” I said, and my throat clenched. It was too late now to say that I didn’t feel comfortable with this arrangement anymore. Not because of Amber’s past, but because of how I felt. I wanted to help her any way that I could. “Are you sure that this is going to be the right thing, Beau? I don’t want Amber to feel uncomfortable coming with me all the way in Montana.”
“She’ll be fine,” Beau replied as he took a seat next to Joe in the breakfast nook. “She needs to get out of Colorado Springs, with the cameras everywhere. I’m letting my team handle this while I’m gone. They know how to handle troubling headlines.”
“Some fresh air away from public scrutiny will do her some good,” Joe added in agreement. He took a sip of his coffee before looking over at me. “I’ll go down the driveway when the three of you go to chase away reporters. Were they down there when you drove up?”
“In their vans,” I said, shrugging my shoulders. “They don’t want to brave the cold unless they have to.”
“What about security at your house?” Joe asked, looking to Beau who seemed unconcerned with that. “I know that you’re a cyber defense specialist, but I can have a few guys out there, protecting your house if you need it.”
I exchanged an amused look with Beau. “You clearly don’t know me, Joe. I have a room filled with my own ammunition and guns.” I winked at the older man roguishly who grinned at that. “It’s Montana. I support my right to carry, and if any reporters go past my gates, they’ll get a bullet in their ass. I know the laws well enough to know where I can shoot.”
“Very well then,” Joe said, downing the rest of his coffee. “I will get bundled up to brave this cold. See you down there.”
I waited for Joe to exit the kitchen before looking back at Beau. “Why didn’t you warn Amber beforehand about any of this?”
“I knew that she’d talk her way around it,” Beau said simply. “In case you haven’t noticed, she does have my ability to spar with words when she wants to. Although it’s nice to see a spark of life in her again.”
“If you’re sure this is the right thing—”
“I think it is,” he said. Just promise me one thing, Gage.”
“What’s that?”
“Promise me that you’ll watch after my baby girl,” he said. “Make sure that she’s okay at the end of all of this.”
Despite my unease about how I felt with Amber coming with me, I put on an assuring front for Beau’s sake. I could see the emotions in Beau’s normally guarded expressions. He was devastated and angry over everything that had happened to Amber. No parent wanted to see their child suffer from emotional and mental heartache.
“I promise,” I said. “I’ll keep an eye on her.”
Chapter 6
Amber
What hell was my father thinking?
I stood behind the couch where Ethan was stretched out. His eyes were fixated on the large flat screen above the fireplace as his favorite episode of Paw Patrol played on. His hair was still messy from sleep, and he needed to brush his teeth before getting dressed for the day. Yet, those small little tasks seemed to drain the life right out of me these days.
Adjusting my swea
tpants, I hurried up the stairs to the guest room suite to shower, first and foremost. The last thing I wanted to do was sit in a car with Gage Devlin with sweaty armpits and bad morning breath. I hadn’t even bothered putting on a bra before coming down for breakfast, but my dad had kept Gage’s arrival a secret for a reason. My father wanted to use the element of surprise and catch me off guard.
Spending time alone with Gage in the wilderness did sound like a breath of fresh air compared to the stifling despair of my divorce, but I still didn’t like the idea of being looked after. It had nothing to do with protection. There was plenty of security around the house to keep Ethan and me safe against any sort of retaliation from Scott.
This was about tough love. My father was famous for his tough love that everyone on the right-leaning side of politics loved.
And I hated it because it was true. I couldn’t sit around any longer in nothing but sweats and a bathrobe, while Ethan ran wild unless the staff kept him in check because I couldn’t do it. I couldn’t afford to be emotionally crippled any longer, but coming into the guest room was a bitter reminder of the worst decisions I had ever made in my life.
Boxes were stacked up against the wall. Most of the boxes were full of clothes and books. All that was left of my previous life was a few boxes full of my personal things and a lifetime worth of regret.