Heidi's Guide to Four Letter Words

by Tara Sivec

  Heidi’s Guide to Four Letter Words

  Copyright © 2019 Tara Sivec and Andi Arndt

  EPUB Edition

  All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, including photocopying, recording or by any information storage and retrieval system without written permission from the authors, except for the inclusion of brief quotations in a review. The characters and events portrayed in this book are fictitious. Any similarity to real persons, living or dead is coincidental and not intended by the authors.

  License Notice

  This book is licensed for your personal enjoyment only. This book may not be resold or given away to other people. If you wish to share this book with another person, please purchase an additional copy for each person you share it with. Thank you for respecting the hard work of these authors.

  Disclaimer

  This is a work of adult fiction. The authors do not endorse or condone any of the behavior enclosed within. The subject matter may not be appropriate for minors. All trademarks and copyrighted items mentioned are the property of their respective owners.

  Edits by KD Robichaux

  facebook.com/AuthorKDRobichaux

  Interior Design by Paul Salvette, BB eBooks

  bbebooksthailand.com

  Table of Contents

  Cover

  Title Page

  Copyright Page

  Prologue

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  Chapter 27

  Chapter 28

  Chapter 29

  Chapter 30

  Epilogue

  Acknowledgments

  Prologue

  “Hello, everyone! Welcome to Heidi’s Discount Erotica Podcast, episode number ten. I’m really sorry I haven’t uploaded anything new lately, but I promise I’ve been reading all your comments. I’ve just been… going through a little something, and I needed some time. I’m going to do something different today, so I hope—” I jump in my seat as my mom bursts through my front door.

  “Hi, honey! I brought you dinner. Let me just move some of this stuff out of the way,” she says, sliding all my notes on my coffee table from in front of me.

  “Mom! I’m in the middle of recording a podcast. Didn’t you see the Do not knock, ring doorbell, or disturb. Recording in process sign on the front door?”

  “Uff da! Of course I saw the sign. Obviously it wasn’t meant for your mother. Especially when she brings you a tater tot hotdish. So, I was at the supermarket today and ran into Shirley. You remember Shirley—from church? She told me there was a sale on ground meat. Can you believe they marked it down to ninety-three cents a pound? So I got a few pounds of ground meat to put in the freezer in the garage, and then I remembered your dad told me we were out of those mini frozen pizzas he likes to eat during his Sunday afternoon poker games with the boys. I was in the frozen pizza aisle, and I saw they had frozen corn on sale. Now, you know I only like to get fresh corn from the Hastings Farm over on Wilson Road, but it’s nice to have some put away in the freezer for the winter, and you just can’t pass up such a good deal, so I grabbed ten bags. I went up and down the freezer section, looking for more good deals, and then I ran into Carrie. You remember Carrie—the one you used to work with at the school? She was so nice, asking how you were and what you were up to. I started telling her about the little show you’ve been doing and how proud we are of you, even if you talk about things on the show that I can never repeat in public. So, that’s why I’m here!”

  “That doesn’t at all explain why you’re here,” I reply, still wondering how my mother can tell a story that long without seeming to take a single breath.

  She huffs. “It’s like you don’t even listen to me, Heidi. Frozen tater tots were on sale. I know you get so busy when you work on this little recording thingy that you forget to eat, and I just thought it would be nice to bring something for all your fans to enjoy. Everyone likes my tater tot hotdish.”

  I give her a placating smile. “Mom, that’s really very sweet of you, but that’s not how this works. First of all, I have a lot of listeners. One hotdish would not be able to feed them.”

  She waves her hand to dismiss my concerns. “It’s fine. I have seven more tater tot hotdishes in the car. I’ll just go out and get them. You should always have enough food to feed your guests. I can’t believe you don’t even have any Jell-O salad prepared or at least a cheese ball set out. I know you’ve been on a mission to find yourself, but that doesn’t mean you should forget about your upbringing and all of the manners I taught you.”

  I stare at her blankly for a moment, and then proceed to try to explain. “Mom, I love you, but there won’t be any guests in the house. This is all done on the computer and then put out on the internet for people to listen to whenever they want. My listeners don’t come to my house to watch me record my podcast, so they don’t need a hotdish, Jell-O salad, or cheese. These people don’t live across the street or down the block. They live all over the place.”

  “I know of one particular listener who lives very close to you who might enjoy my tater tot hotdish.” She purses her lips and raises one perfectly manicured eyebrow.

  “We’re not talking about him right now. I still haven’t figured out how to fix that little problem, so that’s going on the back burner right now,” I murmur.

  She rolls back the tinfoil on the tater tots, and I reach over and snag one with my fingers before she swats me. “Fine. Then what are you talking about on this podcast thingy you’re recording tonight?”

  “Well, since I have a bunch of new listeners, and some that have been with me for a while, I thought it would be nice to recap everything that’s happened so they can get the full story, and not just my random podcast ramblings where I leave a bunch of stuff out. I’m going to start at the beginning and tell them everything. I think they deserve to know it all.”

  “So, you will be talking about a certain handsome gentleman who lives very close to you. Hold on, let me just pull up a chair and get comfy. I brought forks and plates so we don’t even need to go into the kitchen to eat the tater tot hotdish.” She opens the plastic grocery bag hanging from her arm.

  I’m already shaking my head. “Mom, you can’t be here while I record my podcast.”

  Her brow furrows. “And why not? I brought you a—”

  “If you say tater tot hotdish one more time….”

  She grabs the back of my rolling computer chair from in front of my desk and wheels it over to sit next to the coffee table, divvying out some of the cheesy deep fried potatoes onto two plates before setting one in front of me with a fork. “Just pretend like I’m not even here. Can you show me how to use the record a video thingy on my cell phone? I want to memorialize this and show it to the ladies at church. My famous daughter, talking to all her fans. If someone calls in, can I answer the call and patch them through to you?”

  It takes everything in me not to give myself a full-on facepalm. “It’s not a live radio show, Mom. People d
on’t call in. If you’re going to sit there, you have to be quiet. I’m already going to have enough work to do editing out this whole conversation. And just so you know, since I’m going back to the beginning, I’m going to have to talk about dirty things, since you now know that’s how this podcast basically started and why it’s called Heidi’s Discount Erotica.”

  She lifts her brow again. “How dirty are we talking?

  “Episode six dirty,” I reply.

  She looks scandalized. “Oh, my. Was that the one where he put his—”

  “Yes.”

  “And then he did that thing with his—”

  “Yes.”

  “I might need a few more tater tot hotdishes to get through this. Just give me a signal when you get to the dirty parts. Wave your hands in the air or something just so I can brace myself.”

  I can’t help but giggle. I love my mom, as crazy as she is. “I can’t believe I’m doing this. Okay, let’s try this again. Hello, everyone! Welcome to Heidi’s Discount Erotica Podcast, episode number ten. I’m going to do something a little different today, so I hope you enjoy it. I feel like I’ve left a lot of things out of my podcasts, and since you guys have all been so amazing throughout this entire process, I want to go back to the beginning and tell you everything. I want you to know why I, Heidi Larson, a former kindergarten teacher, decided to start recording podcasts reading the dirtiest parts I could find from erotic romance novels, how I found the perfect guy who appreciated everything about me, and how I screwed it all up.”

  “Do you have to say the word ‘erotic’ so much?” Mom asks through a mouthful.

  I sigh, giving my mother a glare before beginning once again. “Heidi’s Discount Erotica Podcast, episode ten, take three.”

  Chapter 1

  Three months earlier…

  Closing my eyes, I take a deep, calming breath and enjoy the peaceful sounds of a beautiful, hot summer night in Waconia, Minnesota. Sitting in a chair on the front porch of my home after the long, stressful day I had, there’s nothing more soothing than listening to the chirping of crickets, the low buzz of Cicadas, and a woman loudly announcing all the dirty things she’d like to do to my neighbor.

  Wait, what?

  “I’m not wearing any panties under this skirt, Brent. We should celebrate our first date by getting completely naked.”

  My eyes fly open and my heart starts beating erratically in my chest when her high-pitched, nasally voice interrupts my serenity.

  I really love the street where I live, lined with adorable, bungalow-style houses on each side, but having everyone’s houses so close together means it’s easy to hear what your neighbors are saying when they’re outside. Normally, I don’t mind hearing Mrs. Peterson lovingly talk to her rosebushes because she believes it makes them grow and flourish, or Mr. Olson grumbling about his twelve-year-old lawnmower that never wants to start. Listening to them talk to themselves always makes me smile. But this? Oh my goodness. This isn’t doing anything to help me stay relaxed.

  “Why don’t we go inside and you can introduce me to that impressive bulge in your pants I’ve been eying all night.”

  Oh jeez, who talks like this? Outside, on the sidewalk, where God and everyone can hear them no less?

  I need to quietly get up from my chair, sneak back inside my house, and not eavesdrop on this conversation any further. As soon as I stand and the view of my neighbor’s walkway that leads up to his house is no longer hindered by the large purple hydrangea bush right next to my porch, my feet suddenly become frozen in place when I see him.

  Brent Miller. The sweetest, handsomest man I’ve ever met, with his short, dirty blond hair and piercing blue eyes. He bought the house next to mine a few months ago after relocating from California, and he’s the main reason I’ve been spending so much time on my front porch lately, just so I can catch a glimpse of him.

  Sometimes, when he’s outside at the same time as me, he’ll shout hello from his front yard and ask me how I am. A bunch of times, he’s walked over and sat in the extra chair next to mine on my front porch and asked me about my day, or had me tell him about the other people who live on our street, since he hasn’t had a chance to meet them all yet. Once in a while, if he’s in a hurry, he just lifts his hand with a wave and a smile before disappearing inside his house. I live for those moments where his attention is on me. For those few seconds or minutes where my heart beats faster and I try to come up with something clever or funny to say just to see the dimples in his cheeks when he smiles.

  With the bright glow of the street lamp by the sidewalk in front of Brent’s house, I can see the corner of his mouth tip up into a half smile as he looks at the woman standing in front of him, and a rush of jealously shoots through me.

  “I’ve been thinking about putting your cock in my mouth all through dinner.”

  This woman’s brazen words and the way she presses her body flush up against Brent right in the middle of his yard forces a gasping squeak out of me. My hand flies up to my mouth to try to muffle the noise, but it’s too late. Brent’s eyes swing in my direction, and I do what any sane, twenty-five-year-old woman would do when she’s spying on the man she has a massive crush on. I duck down behind the hydrangeas as fast as possible before he can see me. Unfortunately, I move too quickly and lose my footing on the edge of my concrete front porch, which I now regret never installing a railing around the edge of. My body topples down the two feet between the porch and the ground, getting scraped by hydrangea branches as I go. I land on my shoulder, letting out a quiet, pain-filled “oof!” as I flop into a heap under the shrubbery.

  “I had a nice time tonight, Laura, but I need to be up early for work tomorrow morning.”

  Laura! I knew that voice sounded familiar.

  Laura Newberg, with perfect, thick blonde hair, and perfect long legs, who always made fun of me in elementary school because I wore glasses, who laughed at the colorful tights I wore under my dresses regardless of the temperature, and who always called me “cute.” But not in a nice way. In a “Well, aren’t you just cute” way, where it sounds condescending, like I’m a puppy. Perfect, beautiful Laura Newberg, who always introduced herself as, “Laura, with an a-u”, like there was any other way to spell Laura.

  While I hold my body perfectly still in the fetal position on the ground, Brent’s deep, raspy voice travels across our two yards and makes me forget all about the pain and embarrassment of falling off my porch and the misery I felt when he smiled at his date. Especially since he seems to be giving Laura with an a-u the brushoff as politely as he can.

  “Are you sure? I could make the late night worth your while. Not to brag or anything, but I’ve gotten a lot of compliments on my blowjob skills.”

  Laura practically purrs these words, and my mouth drops open in shock that she would have the nerve to say something so forward to a man on their first date. I wouldn’t even say that to a man on our twentieth date. Or our eight-hundredth. Or our fiftieth wedding anniversary.

  I realize I don’t know Brent all that well, but I cannot believe he would actually take someone like Laura on a date. Here I thought finding out earlier today that I’ve been laid off as a kindergarten teacher because of budget cuts was the worst thing that could happen to me. Instead, the sadness and dread sitting like a rock in my stomach right now is because I’m wondering if this is the type of woman Brent is attracted to. I’ve never been able to even ask a man to kiss me before. Just the idea of vocalizing something like that makes me break out in a cold sweat. I can’t imagine thinking the things Laura has said in the middle of Brent’s yard, let alone saying them out loud.

  Hugging my knees to my chest, I listen to Brent repeat that he had a nice time with her at dinner, but that he really needs to get to bed early, and asking for a raincheck. A raincheck! Which means he definitely liked the things Laura said she wanted to do to him and wouldn’t mind taking her up on her offer another time when he doesn’t have to be up so early in the morning. Clos
ing my eyes, I can picture those adorable dimples in his cheeks as he smiles down at her, and it makes me a little nauseous. A few seconds later, I hear the heels of her shoes clicking against the sidewalk, followed by the slam of a door, and the start of a car engine. I finally relax a little when the sound of her car driving away fills the night, and I unwrap my arms from around my legs, rolling over to push myself up from the ground.

  “You okay in there, Heidi?”

  My body jolts when I hear Brent’s voice right on the other side of the hydrangeas, and once again, I freeze, still partially crouched down behind the bush.

  Oh no! Oh jeez!

  “You betcha!” I shout through the leaves and branches in a loud chipper voice, thankful he can’t see my face redden in complete mortification. “Thought I saw a few dead flowers on the hydrangea bush and I wanted to get rid of them, because you should always prune your bushes!”

  Son of a nutcracker, Heidi! Stop talking!

  “Need any help in there?” Brent asks, the laughter in his voice coming through loud and clear.

  “Nope, nope. I’m good, but thank you for asking. Just gonna finish up and then head on inside. Boy, is it hot out here tonight or what? I know you’re from California and probably used to the heat, but just wait. Minnesotans like to say we have four seasons: Winter, More Winter, Still More Winter, and That One Day of Summer,” I giggle uncomfortably.

  I roll my eyes at myself, knowing I sound like a complete idiot, but there’s nothing I can do to stop it. It’s not like I can just ignore him or be short with him when he’s asking me questions. I was raised to never be rude to anyone, even if you’re hiding in a bush after spying on your crush, and that crush knows you were spying on him, and you’re too embarrassed to remove yourself from the bush, because he just went on a date with perfect, dirty-talking Malibu Barbie, and your long, wavy black hair that you pulled up into a high ponytail looked kind of nice when you got home from work earlier, but it’s now all askew and looks like a rat’s nest with leaves stuck in it.