I bite my inner lip. “No.”
“Did he make you take his hand?”
“No. But I didn’t really understand at first. It was like a dream. And then when I realized he was touching me, I pulled away.”
“Precisely. So there is your way to destroy him.” She takes the sword from me and sets it back on the wall.
“I’m lost.”
She smiles, which is really annoying. “When you said no, you took some of his power away.”
“He let me go. I’m like his toy.”
She lowers herself onto the cushion and glares at me. “Are you here to learn or to teach? Stop pacing the room like some caged animal.”
I move to the window. Komo is right. I do feel like some caged animal, just waiting to be snatched up. And I hate it. “How am I supposed to fight an immortal—a demigod—with Tae Kwon Do? It’s not like I have special powers or anything.”
“It was through your own strength that you escaped. Perhaps you have a chance to defeat him in his world after all. You were able to shape-shift; you have the talent. Like Princess Yuhwa.”
I think of how quick I’d been when I ran across that field and how I had turned into the deer. “I did seem to have some kind of power, but I don’t think that will be enough.”
“Disbelief is the root of the impossible.”
That sounds like something Mom would say.
Can I do what Komo is asking me to do: confront Haemosu and put a stop to all this? Komo makes it sound simple. But Haemosu isn’t a typical target where I aim for the bull’s-eye.
My heart tells me he’s far smarter and more complicated.
As I ride up the elevator to my apartment, leaning against the cold silver wall, I wonder at Komo’s explanation about the bracelet. I hold up my arm so the eyes gleam in the florescent light, and her words echo through my head: He takes a little part of your soul every time you meet until all five eyes burn red and you are his forever.
I drop my hand.
Forever. So final. So definite.
I spin the bracelet until I’m looking at only the four dragons whose eyes are still gold, unchanged. Somehow it makes me feel better. As if I still have a fighting chance.
Then the elevator doors slide open and I practically choke.
Haechi is standing there, his horns nearly touching the hallway ceiling. He’s as still as stone. I clutch my suitcase tighter, waiting for the elevator doors to close. They don’t. It’s as if they’re frozen, too. Sure, he’s supposed to be my protector, but there’s no denying he’s beyond scary. And he couldn’t stop Haemosu from gilding me.
“I see you have met Haemosu,” Haechi says, eying my bracelet. “If only I had the honor of assisting you in your time of need. I have no power in his land unless I am invited.”
A new idea hits me. “He’s imprisoned my ancestors, hasn’t he? Can you help me get them out?”
“Impulsive and brave.” Haechi shakes his head. “No. That task is for you and only you. But I do have a message from Palk, the great one of light and goodness.”
I clutch my suitcase tighter.
“Never doubt. Never shy from who you are meant to be.”
“How is that supposed to help me save them?”
The air shimmers around us like it does on a hot summer’s day, and Haechi’s body starts to fade. “To save them,” he says, “you must open the tomb.”
Then he disappears, leaving behind the faint scent of ginseng. The hallway looks empty without his massive bulk overcrowding it. Somehow I manage to unlock my knees and head down the hall to our apartment, trailing my suitcase behind me. My steps are slow as I grow closer to the door. Dad won’t be home from his trip from Jeju until six. And that’s if he gets back in time. Now that Haechi is gone, I wish he’d stayed.
Never shy from who you are meant to be. What had he meant?
I punch in the code and enter. The click of the door shutting behind me sounds loud against the stillness of the apartment. Beams of sunlight trickle through the windows, dust captured in its path like falling snow, and I can make out the low hum of the kimchi refrigerator as I slide off my boots and coat.
The sunlight reminds me of when I’d first stepped into Haemosu’s world and it was perfect and unblemished, and suddenly I long for that feeling. I move into the sun’s path, close my eyes, and drink in its warmth. Memories of running through the forest as a deer, the wind against my face, and the power I had consume me.
A cloud passes over the rays, and the warmth vanishes. My eyes pop open, and I jump back. Is Haemosu trying to lure me back into his world? I press my body against the wall and wait, as still as stone, for him to appear.
But nothing happens. I’m flipping out over nothing. Perfect.
I rub my hands on my jeans. This isn’t good. I’m dying to return to a place that I know will only bring me harm. What is wrong with me?
I’ve only been gone for one night and yet it feels like a lifetime. I stare at my bracelet. My whole world has changed now that I’ve been gilded.
I head to my desk, where I have all my notes on my translation of Mom’s Samguk Yusa. Now that I have entered Haemosu’s world, I’m hoping the myth will hold more meaning for me.
Grandfather told me about the time when Habaek, Princess Yuhwa’s father, tried to stop his daughter from being captured by Haemosu. But is there more to the story? Have I overlooked something?
I skim through my chicken scratch handwriting until I get to the part where Habaek challenged Haemosu to a fight.
Haemosu descended to Habaek’s palace, where they tested each other’s skill. Being deities, they tested each other in the power of _________
What is this word, I wonder, tapping my pencil on the paper. Could this be what Komo was talking about? Metamorphosis? Like when I turned into the deer. I keep reading.
Habaek first changed himself into a carp, but Haemosu changed himself into an otter and caught Habaek. Then Habaek changed into a deer, whereupon Haemosu changed into a wolf and chased him.
I stop and realize this is the same creature I chose, too. Or maybe Haemosu influenced me to choose. Interesting. The rest of the page is unfinished. I settle myself in my chair and begin to work, using my computer and sometimes texting Michelle for help. An hour later I’ve finished my rough translation.
Finally, Habaek changed into a quail, but Haemosu changed into a falcon and caught him again. Habaek gave up and acknowledged Haemosu’s supremacy. An official marriage ceremony was held, and Habaek sent his daughter, Princess Yuhwa, to the heavenly realm with Haemosu. Before Haemosu’s chariot could leave the water, the princess escaped using her hairpin and returned to her father.
How am I suddenly supposed to turn into an animal? I rub my forehead. When I saw Haemosu as a deer, did I change into one because I was thinking about it or because Haemosu put that thought into my head?
I toss aside my notes. These aren’t helping me. I turn back to Mom’s box and dig some more, hoping to find something else that can help me.
Nothing.
I flip open my laptop next and do a quick search for the word metamorphosis. Pages of articles pop up on my search engine.
I start with the dictionary. It reads: “a change of physical form, structure, or substance especially by supernatural means.”
Sounds about right. It’s kind of like when a werewolf shape-shifts, but without limits. I grab my notebook and write down the definition. Then I scribble pictures of an otter catching a carp, a wolf chasing a deer, and a falcon snatching up a quail.
Seeing those images gives me pause. Why did Habaek turn into a quail and not a stronger creature? It had to be because he wasn’t strong enough. As I looked through each of the animals, I saw that Haemosu always transformed into a similar animal, but a more powerful one.
Was that because of Haemosu’s physical or mental strength?
I scroll down and click on an article that catches my attention. According to this author, the key to metamorphosis is “
taking control of your own mind and harnessing your strength.”
I write down “Control of the mind” in my notebook. So it must be mental strength. I chew my pencil, trying to piece this puzzle together.
Then the author writes about “using your cunning of the mind.” What animal could outwit Haemosu?
The article ends with:
Can a bear catch a rabbit? Or a dragon outwit the tiger? Raw power alone will not win the battle.
“Know your adversary,” I say aloud, remembering my Tae Kwon Do lessons. “Makes sense.”
That was the problem. I didn’t know Haemosu well enough. I stare at my bracelet and grimace. Not well enough yet. I scroll to the bottom to see whether I can find an e-mail address there. That’s when I freeze.
DR. JAMES GRAYSON,
professor of religious studies at Yonsei University.
The man I saw talking to Grandfather at the museum ceremony. Marc’s father.
“The trip was a complete success!” Mrs. Freeman declares, and the class breaks into applause.
I take in our National Honor Society group gathered around the large table and wait for someone to start snickering or make a comment, but everyone is soaking in Mrs. Freeman’s sunshine. There’s no doubt that I’m enrolled in the most active, most enthusiastic, smartest group of kids around; and they’re all out to create a better world.
For the first time since arriving in Korea, I want to be a part of that group, raising money for the poor and making a difference. But I have to defeat Haemosu, and I’m still wondering if I’m strong enough and smart enough to do it. Michelle thinks we all are here for a purpose. But what if my purpose is too big? What if I can’t do it?
Once the cheering dies, Mrs. Freeman announces that it’s time to plan our next event. She moves to the board and writes “Ideas” at the top. Michelle, of course, is the first to raise her hand.
“How about a food drive?” Michelle opens her laptop and starts typing. “We could take food to the homeless that sleep in the subway entrances.”
Mrs. Freeman writes it on the board. More ideas are generated, but I’ve stopped listening. I opt for twirling the bracelet around my wrist and creating my own brainstorming list.
WAYS TO KICK HAEMOSU’S BUTT
Lock him in his own tomb.
Shoot an arrow, aim for the heart.
Turn into a dragon and blow fire on him until he’s nothing but ashes.
Chop off all his limbs.
“Jae Hwa,” Mrs. Freeman says from across the room, “I see you’ve made a list, too. Care to add anything?”
I skim over her list and compare it to my own. Okay, chopping off limbs really wouldn’t work. Maybe I need to pick up some of Michelle’s ideas. Mine are pretty brutal. “How about a carnival for orphan kids?”
“Fantastic idea!” Mrs. Freeman beams. “How about you, Marc?”
Marc sits straighter, adjusting his glasses. “Yes, Mrs. Freeman?” he says in a tone that makes him sound like the teacher here.
“What are you drawing?” Mrs. Freeman asks, and comes around the table to pick up the pad he’s sketching on.
As she lifts the paper, I catch a peek of the rough, penciled drawing. It has five dragons connected in a circle. My bracelet! Marc glances my way and covers his paper. I lower my eyes, pretending I’m looking at my notebook. Is Marc still thinking about the bracelet? He wanted to see it again at breakfast on our last day at the ski resort. I wouldn’t let him.
Now I’m desperate to talk to him, because I also want to know why his dad is an expert on metamorphosis. Okay, so maybe I can’t get the memory of his lips brushing my forehead out of my mind and I want more. But that is definitely bad.
Komo had said none of Princess Yuhwa’s suitors lived. Haemosu’s jealousy wouldn’t allow it. Would Haemosu think of Marc as a threat? And then there’s Dad. Last night over dinner he mentioned that someone had told him I was hanging out with a white boy and reminded me again to stay focused on my studies.
As if I don’t have enough to worry about.
“I was doodling,” Marc tells Mrs. Freeman. “It helps me focus. John Hopkins University School of Medicine did a study two years ago reporting that drawing stimulates the mind.”
“Oh.” Mrs. Freeman stares at the paper. “So has this drawing inspired anything yet?”
“I think Jae’s got the best idea up there,” Marc quips as if he’s been mulling over this for some time. “She’s got my vote.”
That was smooth. I wonder if he tutors in diplomacy. If only I could skirt around issues with my dad like that. Michelle jumps up from her seat as if Mrs. Freeman has given her permission and starts a whole stream of ideas on all the possibilities of a carnival. She winks at me. I smile and sit back, feeling as if I’ve finally been accepted into this group.
Until a note is tossed and lands on my notebook. Warily, I open it.
Back off or I’ll tell your daddy. Marc’s mine. He’s always been mine.
xoxo
My eyes wander to Min. She peeks up from her tablet and blows me a kiss. She has no idea that I could break her in half.
I rip her note, wondering how on earth I haven’t gotten kicked out of the school yet. Meanwhile, Mrs. Freeman absently hands the drawing back to Marc. The glow in me dies. What am I thinking? I can’t be a part of all this and deal with Haemosu.
Marc has the design drawn perfectly. So perfectly that the hairs on my arms prick up as if they’ve been pulled by a magnet. He rubs his forehead with his thumb and forefinger, and glances up at me. Our eyes meet. My heart stops. He knows something. I can feel it.
When the bell rings, I grab my backpack and skirt around the table. I’ve nearly reached Marc, but Min of the Long Legs pulls him aside.
“So are we on for tonight?” she asks, draping her arm over his shoulder. “There’s a new movie playing at the theater in Sinchon that I know you’ll adore.”
She glances back at me, a smirk playing across her red lips. I press my books against my chest and glare at her. I don’t have time for Long Legs’s elementary school games or her jealousy. I bolt for the door.
“So,” Michelle says, breezing up next to me, “will you be on my team?”
I have no idea what she’s talking about.
“Sure. Absolutely.” If I’m still alive then, that is.
From the corner of my eye, I catch sight of Marc hurrying after us. I pull on Michelle’s elbow and steer her into the hall.
“What’s wrong?” Michelle asks, wide-eyed.
“He’s going out on a date with Min.” My chest aches. “Why did I think he could be interested in me when there’s a girl like Min gushing over him? Crap. He’s coming.”
I pull Michelle into escape mode, but he rushes to block our path.
“Can I talk to you a second, Jae?”
“Marc.” I’m a little unnerved at the intensity in his eyes. “Maybe later. I need to get to my locker before class. Plus, don’t you need to plan your date with Min?”
I really think I deserve a medal or something for keeping my cool.
He holds his finger in front of my face. “One minute.”
“One second,” I say.
He clears his throat and looks at Michelle. She raises her eyebrows, not budging.
“It’s okay,” I tell her, “I won’t beat him up.” When she’s gone, I step closer to Marc and whisper, “Someone saw us together on the ski trip. They had the nerve to tell my dad, and he’s forbidden me to hang out with you anymore. I think it was your girlfriend.”
Marc’s chin lifts, and his eyes widen as if I’ve slapped him. The books in my arms weigh a thousand pounds, they’re so heavy. I focus on my Converse sneakers because he actually looks devastated.
“What I wanted to tell you is to be careful,” he whispers into my ear. My heart lurches over the feel of his breath against my neck.
“That bracelet you’re wearing,” Marc continues. “You should take it off. There’s something not right about it
. Tell me I won’t burn myself if I touch your bracelet. It wasn’t an electric shock back at the ski resort, was it?”
No joke. “What makes you think that?”
“I’ve been researching it.” He glances around. “I think it’s a symbol of enslavement.”
If he only knew. He’s about to say something else when Long Legs sidles up to him. Will she not go away?
“Marc,” Min says sweetly, “I’m heading to class now. Care to join?”
“I’m talking to Jae,” Marc says. “Alone.”
“Let’s talk later,” I say, and then give Min my best scathing look, “when we’re really alone.”
She bristles and stalks away. Before I can say anything else, the warning bell rings. Great. I still haven’t gotten my calculus book yet. Ms. Wood is so strict about tardies. I’ll have to run to get to class on time. I say, “Listen, I’ve got to go.”
“Right,” he says. “Catch you around.”
He sprints off down the hall, weaving through the crowds as if he’s chasing something. I watch him for a moment and shake my head.
When I reach my locker, slightly out of breath, a piece of paper is taped onto it with an arrow sticking out from its center. What a weird practical joke. It’s a picture of a full moon. Doesn’t Min have better things to do with her time? I rip it off. And then I remember.
Full moon. The dokkaebi wanted me to pierce the belly of the full moon. He must still want to bargain with me. No one else could have known about this.
I glance around the hallway, half expecting to see his giant, ugly self pop out into the hallway. Nothing happens. Either he’s shielded me from seeing him or he left long ago.
The locker resists as I yank on it. I give it a hard pound with my other hand. It jerks open, and I fall backward to the hard floor. The noise in the hallway vanishes as if someone has clicked MUTE, except for a light tinkling sound. Inside the locker, my books fade away. The hook and the gray iron walls melt as golden light streams through and out of the locker. The warmth of it drenches me, tugging at my body.
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