by Zane Grey
Neale might have found salvation in this late-developed and splendid relation to labor and to men. But there was a hitch in his brain. He would see all that was beautiful and strenuous and progressive around him, and then, in a flash, that hiatus in his mind would operate to make him hopeless.
Then he would stand as in a trance, with far-away gaze in his eyes, until his fellow spiker would recall him to his neglected work. These intervals of abstraction grew upon him until he would leave off in the act of driving a spike.
And sometimes in these strange intervals he longed for his old friend, brother, shadow—Larry Red King. He held to Red’s memory, although with it always would return that low, strange roar of Benton’s gold and lust and blood and death. Neale did not understand the mystery of what he had been through. It had been a phase of wildness never to be seen again by his race. His ambition and effort, his fall, his dark siege with hell, his friendship and loss, his agony and toil, his victory, were all symbolical of the progress of a great movement. In his experience lay hidden all that development.
The coming of night was always a relief now, for with the end of the day’s work he need no longer fight his battle. It was a losing battle—that he knew. Shunning everybody, he paced to and fro out on the dark, windy desert, under the lonely, pitiless stars.
His longing to see Allie Lee grew upon him. While he had believed her dead, he had felt her spirit hovering near him, in every shadow, and her voice whispered on the wind. She was alive now, but gone away, far distant, over mountains and plains, out of his sight and reach, somewhere to take up a new life alien to his. What would she do? Could she bear it? Never would she forget him—be faithless to his memory! Yet she was young and her life had been hard. She might yield to that cold Allison Lee’s dictation. In happy surroundings her beauty and sweetness would bring a crowd of lovers to her.
“But that’s all . . . only natural,” muttered Neale, in perplexity. “I want her to forget . . . to be happy . . . to find a home . . . For her to grow old . . . alone! No! She must love some man . . . marry . . .” And with the spoken words Neale’s heart contracted. He knew that he lied to himself. If she ever cared for another man, that would be the end of Warren Neale. But then, he was ended, anyhow. Jealousy, strange, new, horrible, added to Neale’s other burdens, finished him. He had the manhood to try to fight selfishness, but he had failed to subdue it, and he had nothing left to fight his consuming love and hatred of life and terrible loneliness and that fierce thing—jealousy. He had saved Allie Lee! Why had he given her up? He had stained his hands with blood for her sake. And that awful moment came back to him when, maddened by the sting of a bullet, he had gloried in the cracking of Durade’s bones, in the ghastly terror and fear of death upon the Spaniard’s face, in the feel of the knife blade as he forced Durade to stab himself. Always Neale had been haunted by this final scene of his evil life in the construction camps. A somber and spectral shape, intangible, gloomy-faced, often attended him in the shadow. He justified his deed, for Durade would have killed Allison Lee. But that fact did not prevent the haunting shape, the stir in the dark air, the nameless step upon Neale’s trail.
And jealousy, stronger than all except fear, wore Neale out of his exaltation, out of his dream, out of his old disposition to work. He could persist in courage if not in joy. But jealous longing would destroy him—he felt that. It was so powerful, so wonderful that it brought back to him words and movements that until then he had been unable to recall.
And he lived over the past. Much still baffled him, yet gradually more and more of what had happened became clear specifically in his memory. He could not think from the present back over the past. He had to ponder the other way.
One day, leaning on his sledge, Neale’s torturing self, morbid, inquisitive, growing by what it fed on, whispered another question to his memory. What were some of the last words she spoke to me? And there, limned white on the dark background of his mind, the answer appeared: Neale, I forgive you!
He recalled her face, the tragic eyes, the outstretched arms.
“Forgive me! For what?” Neale muttered, dazed and troubled. He dropped his sledge and remained standing there, although the noon whistle called the gang to dinner. Looking out across the hot, smoky, arid desert, he saw also that scene where he had appealed to Allison Lee. Etched out vividly, and his ears throbbed to strong speech.
The room full of men—Lee’s cold acceptance of fact—his thanks, his offer, his questions, his refusal—General Lodge’s earnest solicitation—the rapid exchange of passionate words between them—the query put to Neale and his answer—the sudden appearance of Allie, shocking his heart with rapture—her sweet, wild words—and so the end! How vivid now—how like flashes of lightning in his mind!
“Lee thought I’d killed Stanton,” muttered Neale in intense perplexity. “But she . . . she told them Red did it . . . What a strange idea Lee had . . . and General Lodge, too. He defended me . . . Ah!”
Suddenly Neale drew from his pocket the little leather notebook that had been Stanton’s, and which contained her letter to him. With trembling hands he opened it. Again this letter was to mean a revelation.
General Lodge had said his engineer had read aloud only the first of that message to Neale, and from this Allison Lee and all the listeners had formed their impressions.
Neale read these first lines.
“No wonder they imagined I killed her!” he exclaimed. “She accuses me. But she never meant what they imagined she meant. Why, that evidence could hang me . . . ! Allie told them she saw Red do it. And it’s common knowledge now . . . I’ve heard it here . . . What, then, had Allie to forgive . . . to forgive with eyes that will haunt me to my grave? My going to the bad? My killing Durade? No!”
Then the truth burst upon him with merciless and stunning force.
My God! Allie believed what they all believed . . . what I must have blindly made seem true . . . ! That I was Beauty Stanton’s lover!
Chapter Thirty-Four
The home to which Allie Lee was brought stood in the outskirts of Omaha upon a wooded bank above the river.
Allie watched the broad, yellow Missouri swirling by. She liked best to be alone outdoors in the shade of the trees. In the weeks since her arrival there she had not recovered from the shock of meeting Neale only to be parted from him.
But the comfort, the luxury of her home, the relief from constant dread, such as she had known for years, the quiet at night—these had been so welcome, so saving, that her burden of sorrow seemed endurable. Yet in time she came to see that the finding of a father and a home had only added to her bitterness.
Allison Lee’s sister, an elderly woman of strong character, resented the homecoming of this strange, lost daughter. Allie had found no sympathy in her. For a while neighbors and friends of the Lees flocked to the house and were kind, gracious, attentive to Allie. Then somehow her story, or part of it, became gossip. Her father, sensitive, cold, embittered by the past, suffered intolerable shame at the disgrace of a wife’s desertion and a daughter’s notoriety. Allie’s presence hurt him; he avoided her as much as possible; the little kindnesses that he had shown, and his feelings of pride in her beauty and charm, soon vanished. There was no love between them. Allie had tried hard to care for him, but her heart seemed to be buried in that vast grave of the West. She was obedient, dutiful, passive, but she could not care for him. And there came a day when she realized that he did not believe she had come unscathed through the wilds of the gold fields and the vileness of the construction camps. She bore this patiently, although it stung her. But the loss of respect for her father did not come until she heard men in his study, loud-voiced and furious, wrangle over contracts and accuse him of double-dealing.
Later he told her that he had become involved in financial straits, and that, unless he could raise a large sum by a certain date, he would be ruined.
And it was this day that Allie sat on a bench in the little arbor and watched the turbulent
river. She was sorry for her father, but she could not help him. Moreover, alien griefs did not greatly touch her. Her own grief was deep and all-enfolding. She was heartsick, and always yearning—yearning for that she dared not name.
The day was hot, sultry; no birds sang, but the locusts were noisy; the air was full of humming bees.
Allie watched the river. She was idle because her aunt would not let her work. She could only remember and suffer. The great river soothed her. Where did it come from and where did it go? And what was to become of her? Almost it would have been better . . .
A servant interrupted her. “Missy, heah’s a gennelman to see yo’,” announced the Negro girl.
Allie looked. She thought she saw a tall, buckskin-clad man carrying a heavy pack. Was she dreaming or had she lost her mind? She got up, shaking in every limb. This tall man moved; he seemed real; his bronzed face beamed. He approached; he set the pack down on the bench. Then his keen, clear eyes pierced Allie.
“Wal, lass,” he said gently.
The familiar voice was no dream, no treachery of her mind. Slingerland! She could not speak. She could hardly see. She swayed into his arms. Then when she felt the great, strong clasp and the softness of buckskin on her face and the odor of pine and sage and desert dust, she believed in his reality.
Her heart seemed to collapse. All within her was riot. “Neale,” she whispered in anguish.
“All right an’ workin’ hard. He sent me,” replied Slingerland, swift to get his message out.
Allie quivered and closed her eyes and leaned against him. A beautiful something pervaded her soul. Slowly the tumult within her breast subsided. She recovered.
“Uncle Al,” she called him tenderly.
“Wal, I should smile! An’ glad to see you . . . why, Lord, I’d never tell you . . . You’re white an’ shaky, lass . . . Set down hyar . . . on the bench . . . beside me. Thar . . . Allie, I’ve a powerful lot to tell you.”
“Wait! To see you . . . and to hear . . . of him . . . almost killed me with joy,” she panted. Her little hands, once so strong and brown, but now thin and white, fastened tightly in the fringe of his buckskin hunting coat.
“Lass, sight of you sort of makes me young ag’in . . . but . . . Allie, those are not the happy eyes I remember.”
“I . . . am very unhappy,” she whispered.
“Wal, if thet ain’t too bad. Shore it’s natural you’d be down-hearted, losin’ Neale thet way.”
“It’s not all . . . that,” she murmured, and then she told him.
“Wal, wal!” ejaculated the trapper, stroking his beard in thoughtful sorrow. “But I reckon thet’s natural, too. You’re strange hyar, an’ thet story will hang over you . . . Lass, with all due respect to your father, I reckon you’d better come back to me an’ Neale.”
“Did he tell you . . . to say that?” she whispered tremulously.
“Lord, no!” ejaculated Slingerland.
“Does he . . . care . . . for me still?”
“Lass, he’s dyin’ fer you . . . an’ I never spoke a truer word.”
Allie shuddered close to him, blinded, stormed by an exquisite bittersweet fury of love. She seemed, rising, uplifted, filled with rich, strong joy. “I forgave him,” she murmured dreamily low to herself.
“Wal, mebbe you’ll be right glad you did . . . presently,” said Slingerland, with animation. “’Specially when thar wasn’t nothin’ much to forgive.”
Allie became mute. She could not lift her eyes.
“Lass, listen,” began Slingerland. “After you left Roarin’ City, Neale went to work. Began by heavin’ ties an’ rails, an’ now he’s slingin’ a sledge . . . This was amazin’ to me. I seen him only oncet since, an’ thet was the other day. But I heerd about him. I rode over to Roarin’ City several times. An’ I made it my bizness to find out about Neale . . . He never came into the town at all. They said he worked like a slave thet first day, bleedin’ hard. But he couldn’t be stopped. An’ the work didn’t kill him, though thar was some as swore it would. They said he changed . . . an’, when he toughened up, thar was never but one man as could equal him, an’ thet was an Irish feller named Casey. I heerd it was somethin’ worthwhile to see him sling a sledge . . . Wal, I never seen him do it, but mebbe I will yet.
“A few days back I met him gettin’ off a train at Roarin’ City. Lord! I hardly knowed him! He stood like an Injun, with the big muscles bulgin’, an’ his face was clean an’ dark, his eye like fire . . . He nearly shook the daylights out of me. ‘Slingerland, I want you!’ he kept yellin’ at me. An’ I said . . . ‘So it ’pears, but what fer?’ Then he told me he was goin’ after the gold thet Horn had buried along the old Laramie Trail. Wal, I took my outfit, an’ we rode back into the hills. You remember them. Wal, we found the gold, easy enough, an’ we packed it back to Roarin’ City. Thar Neale sent me off on a train to fetch the gold to you. An’ hyar I am an’ thar’s the gold.”
Allie stared at the pack, bewildered by Slingerland’s story. Suddenly she sat up and she felt the blood rush to her cheeks. “Gold! Horn’s gold? But it’s not mine! Did Neale send it to me?”
“Every ounce,” replied the trapper soberly. “I reckon it’s yours. Thar was no one else left . . . an’ you recollect what Horn said. Lass, it’s yours . . . an’ I’m goin’ to make you keep it.”
“How much is there?” queried Allie, with thrills of curiosity. How well she remembered Horn! He had told her he had no relatives. Indeed, the gold was hers.
“Wal, Neale an’ me couldn’t calkilate how much, hevin’ nothin’ to weigh the gold. But it’s a fortune.”
Allie turned from the pack to the earnest face of the trapper. There had been many critical moments in her life, but never one with the suspense, the fullness, the inevitableness of this.
“Did Neale send anything else?” she flashed.
“Wal, yes, an’ I was comin’ to thet,” replied Slingerland as he unlaced the front of his hunting frock. Presently he drew forth a little leather notebook, which he handed to Allie. She took it while looking up at him. Never had she seen his face radiate such strange emotion. She divined it to be the supreme happiness inherent in the power to give happiness.
Allie trembled. She opened the little book. Surely it would contain a message that would be as sweet as life to dying eyes. She read a name, written in ink, in a clear script: Beauty Stanton. Her pulses ceased to beat, her blood to flow, her heart to throb. All seemed to freeze within her except her mind. And that leaped fearfully over the first lines of a letter—then feverishly on to the close—only to fly back and read again. Then she dropped the book. She hid her face on Slingerland’s breast. She clutched him with frantic hands. She clung there, her body all held rigid, as if some extraordinary strength or inspiration or joy had suddenly inhibited weakness.
“Wal, lass, hyar you’re takin’ it powerful hard . . . an’ I made sure . . .”
“Hush,” whispered Allie, raising her face. She kissed him. Then she sprang up like a bent sapling released. She met Slingerland’s keen gaze—saw him start—then rise as if the better to meet a shock.
“I am going back with you,” she said coolly.
“Wal, I knowed you’d go.”
“Divide that gold. I’ll leave half for my father.”
Slingerland’s great hands began to pull at the pack. “Thar’s a train soon. I calkilated to stay over a day. But the sooner the better . . . Lass, will you run off or tell him?”
“I’ll tell him. He can’t stop me, even if he would . . . The gold will save him from ruin . . . He will let me go.” She stooped to pick up the little leather notebook and placed it in her bosom. Her heart seemed to surge against it. The great river rolled on—rolled on—magnified in her sight. A thick, rich, beautiful light shone under the trees. What was this dance of her blood while she seemed so calm, so cool, so sure?
“Does he have any idea . . . that I might return to him?” she asked.
“None, lass, none! Thet I�
��ll swear,” declared Slingerland. “When I left him at Roarin’ City the other day, he was . . . wal, like he used to be. The boy come out in him again, not jest the same, but brave. Sendin’ thet gold an’ thet little book made him happy . . . I reckon Neale found his soul then. An’ he never expects to see you again in this hyar world.”
Chapter Thirty-Five
Building a railroad grew to be an exact and wonderful science with the men of the Union Pacific, from engineers down to the laborers who ballasted and smoothed the roadbed. Wherever the work trains stopped, there began a hum like a beehive. In short time little flat cars were brought into requisition. Gangs loaded rails to a flat car, and the horses or mules were driven at a gallop to the front. There two men grasped the end of a rail and began to slide it off. In couples, other laborers of that particular gang laid hold, and, when they had it off the car, they ran away with it to drop it in place. While they were doing this, other gangs followed with more rails. Four rails laid to the minute! When one of the cars was empty, it was tipped off the track to make room for the next one. And as that next one passed, the first was tipped back again to be hauled swiftly for another load of rails.
Four rails down to the minute! It was Herculean toil. The men who fitted the rails were cursed the most frequently because they took time, a few seconds, when there was no time.
Then the spikers! These brawny, half-naked, sweaty giants—what a grand spanging music of labor rang from under their hammers! Three strokes to a spike for most spikers! Only two strokes for such as Casey or Neale! Ten spikes to a rail—four hundred rails to a mile! How many million times had brawny arms swung and sledges clanged!
Forward every day the work trains crept westward, closer and closer to that great hour when they would meet the work trains coming east.