by K. Renee
We lost our virginities together. She was my first in every way and I want her to be my last. She is the first girl I had sex with, the first and only woman I’ll ever marry, and the first only woman I’ll ever have children with. She is undoubtedly the only woman I want for the rest of my life, even if it’s a struggle every day. I love her too much to let her leave again.
She lifts up my shirt and kisses her way down my chest before trying to slide my jeans down enough to get my dick out. I help her out by lifting my hips up and she gets them down right below my ass. Her mouth leaves my skin, I grunt out in displeasure until I watch her stand up and shimmy her jean shorts off.
She drops herself back down on me wearing a pair of Barely There panties that leave little to the imagination. I see the way they hug her hips and show off her amazing ass. My hands travel up her thighs and passed her ass to her lower back. She rubs her covered pussy against my erection and I have to suck in a breath. Fuck she feels amazing.
Her hands slide under my shirt and she pulls me up into a sitting position before she pulls my shirt up and over my head. My hands move to her bra and I unfasten it before I pull her tee shirt and bra off of her in one smooth motion. She tries to cover herself when my eyes scan over her perfect skin, but I don't let her. She has nothing to be embarrassed about. I love her body more now than I did before. I can see the silverish stretch marks that prove she carried our child. I love the way her hips flare enough for me be able to hold onto her. Grabbing her hands, I place them behind her back and continue to scan over her body.
“Don’t ever cover yourself. You are fucking breathtakingly beautiful. I could stare at you all day and never get tired of it.” I dip my head and take one of her nipples into my mouth. Her back arches and she pushes her tit further into my face. I lap at her nipple before I turn to the other one and give it the same attention. Her moans fill the quiet countryside, she starts to rock against me. Releasing her arms, I slide my hands up her back.
I grab a handful of her hair and pull her head back so I can run my mouth along her neck. My dick is hard and every time she moves against me I get harder. Fuck, she feels so fucking good. “Please.” she whimpers. Releasing her hair, I run my fingers down her spine and to her panties. Running my fingers over her pussy, I can feel how wet she already is. I slide her panties to the side and lift her hips up. She’s biting her bottom lip and fuck it’s a sexy sight. Lowering her back down, I slowly slide her down onto my hard dick.
Her whimpers fill my ears and her fingers dig into my shoulders. Once she’s taken me all the way, she slowly starts to move. Each movement is deliberate and fuck if it doesn’t turn me on more. Each roll of her hips brings us both closer to the edge. “Oh God Jax.” she groans out. I thrust my hips up and into her as she’s grinding down on me. Shit, I’m going to come soon. Her eyes close and her head falls back as she screams out my name. “Jax.” I pump my hips into her faster as she starts to ride out her orgasm.
Slamming her down on me a few more times causes me to come. I rock her against my dick as I ride out my orgasm. “Fuck Lynnie.” I whisper against her temple. Her forehead presses against mine, I can see the happiness written all over her face. Fuck, I don’t know what I would have done if she never came home.
I needed her more than I ever knew. She’s what keeps me sane. Without her, I’d still be as lost as I was when my pops died.
Today Lynnie’s friend Amie is supposed to arrive. Lynnie had a shift this morning at the diner, I spent most of the morning working on the ranch so that I could break away to take her to the airport. Once I get half of my chores done for today, I make my way back to the house. When I pull up, I see Lyndley and Max playing fetch. Walking towards them, Max comes running to me and drops the ball at my feet. Picking up the ball, I toss it and watch him run towards it before walking over to her, giving her a soft kiss.
“Mmm… Hey, baby.” She grins at me.
“Hi, darlin’. You ready to go pick up your friend?” I wrap her up in my arms and start walking us backwards towards the house.
Wrapping her arms around my neck, she gives me a “Yes.”
“Damn. How do I get you this happy to see me?” I ask jokingly. She does the same thing every time I show up to the house after working all day.
She kisses me once more and whispers, “I’m always happy to see you.” I get dirty thoughts of all the things I would rather be doing to her right now, but I don’t let my dick do the talking or we will never get to the airport on time.
“Will you show me later?” I watch her eyes meet mine and she gets a shy smile on her face.
“Definitely.”
A few days ago Lyndley asked if her friend could stay at the house and since I have the room and it would mean a lot to Lynnie, I told her that it would be fine. She still doesn’t get that I would do anything for her. Plus, the one hotel we have in this town isn’t really all that nice. Prom night, a bunch of us rented rooms and let’s say that we never went back after that.
After getting Lynnie into the truck, I start it and we make the drive to the airport. “So how long have you and Amie been friends?” I finally ask to break the silence. She’s been looking out the window the whole time, I can’t put my finger on what’s running through her head.
“Three years. We worked together. She is probably the only person who knows the most about me, even if she doesn’t know a lot about my past.” When I look over at her again, I see the sadness and uncertainty. Why wouldn’t she tell her best friend about what happened? I thought that all women gossiped to their girlfriends about stuff like this.
“So she doesn’t know we used to be high school sweethearts, or that you had a baby?” I feel my teeth grit and I try to keep my cool. I don’t know why it pisses me off that she never mentioned me. Maybe I’m over reacting, but I would never forgo that kind of information with a best friend. Tate knows everything about mine and Lyndley’s relationship. Even all the bad shit.
She shakes her head in answer and stays quiet for a few seconds. When she finally says something, I have to bite my cheek not to say anything else. “Jax, I’m sorry. I just didn’t want anyone to judge me. I wanted to make a fresh start.” My hands tighten on the steering wheel and I keep my mouth closed. I can't trust myself to not say anything dick like to her in anger.
We make the rest of the drive in silence and I’m having a hard time with it all. I would never be embarrassed about what happened between us, I sure as hell wouldn’t keep it a secret from any of my friends. Shit, everyone I know seems to know what happened between Lyndley and me. It was all anyone could talk about for months after she left. Now the only thing anyone wants to talk about is the child that I never knew about.
When I pull into a parking spot, I think about something to say to her. Shutting off the engine, I turn to look at her for a second before I say anything. “I just hope the reason you never told anyone was because it hurt to talk about and not because you were embarrassed by me.”
I watch her look like a fish out of water for a second before she says anything. “You can’t be serious! I’ve loved you forever. I would never be ashamed of you. You were the reason I didn’t give up when I lost everything. I knew that even if we weren’t together, you’d love Gracilyn as much as I did. I knew we would be able to work things out if we really wanted to. I love you more than anything and I would do anything for you. Please don’t make this about you. It was purely me.” Her tone is something I’ve never heard from her before and I hate myself more even making this something bigger than it should have been.
Leaning towards her, I grab the back of her neck and pull her in for a kiss. “I’m sorry, babe. I just hate that I am part of your past most people don’t know about. I love you.” I pull away from her and she looks like she wants to say something else, but she doesn’t.
“I love you, too. And you are the best part of my past… and present.” She leans towards me and kisses my cheek lightly. Getting out of the truck, I walk over to he
r side and open the door for her. I help her out and shut the door, locking it before I grab her hand and lead her towards the entrance of the airport.
Once we get to the gate, we sit and wait for a while. Moving the hair out of her face, I lean in and kiss her lips. We don’t say anything and it’s mainly because of the small fight we had on the way here, but I want her to know that even when we do fight or disagree, I still love her more than anything in this world.
When people start coming through the gates, I see her watching. When she finally sees her friend, she stands and I get up with her. A blonde spots Lyndley and starts screaming, running towards us. She lets go of my hand and goes running towards the blonde, I just stand back and watch. I’m glad she has someone like this in her life. I’m sure she needed to have someone by her side when shit got too hard to deal with even if she never told her all the shit that we have between us.
When they are talking, I start to make my way closer to them. Her friend looks up at me as I get closer and her mouth drops open. “Holy hot cowboy!” I grin at her words and I watch Lyndley as her friend checks me out.
Lyndley all but drags her friend the rest of the way to me and introduces us. When she gets close enough, she smacks me playfully on the stomach because of the grin on my face. “Amie, this is Jaxson. Jaxson, this is Amie.”
“Damn, if this is what all the men look like, I’m going to move here.” She comes closer to me and puts her arm through mine. Her eyes practically strip me down naked and I can see the smirk on Lyndley’s face. “Are you single, sweet thing?”
I raise an eyebrow and nod over in Lyndley’s direction. “Wait. This is the guy you’ve been seeing?” Her eyes widen and she looks between both Lyndley and I. Lyndley has a smile on her face and I can’t get over how beautiful she is. “Hot damn, Lynds. He is so fucking hot! I can see why you never get out of bed unless you have to!”
I watch as Lyndley puts her face in her hands and shakes her head at her friend. “Oh, my gawd! You never said how damn hunky he is!”
She runs her hands up and down my arms a few times before she releases me and makes her way back over to Lynnie. “Where can I meet one like him?” she whispers.
Hearing Lynnie giggle, I watch her movements. “You grow up in a small town. He’s my high school sweetheart.”
“No way! You guys dated in high school? How come I didn’t know about this?”
“I’ll tell you later,” she gives her an uncomfortable look and it makes me uneasy. She still isn’t going to tell her friend. I watch them link arms and they make their way towards the baggage claim. When Lynnie finally looks behind her, her eyes take me in. My hands are in my pockets and I’m sure I have a frown on my face when she sees that it upsets me, she releases her friend and comes over to me.
“I love you, Jaxson,” She whispers against my cheek.
Wrapping my arms around her, I kiss her once. “Love you, too, babe.”
“You two are so damn cute!” Amie squeals from behind Lynnie. Shaking my head, I let her grab my hand and drag me with them the rest of the way.
As we walk towards the baggage claim, I swear those two have switched topics like fifty times. They talk about a mile a minute, I have no idea what they are even talking about anymore. I just listen to them and laugh to myself. I have a feeling that Tate is going to love Amie.
By the time we get Amie’s bags, she’s asked me a few dozen questions about the Lynnie I know. By the time she asks the last one, I’m glad. As much as I like to talk about my girl, I can tell she is a little uneasy with what I might tell her friend.
“Was Lynds popular with the boys?” she asks with a grin.
I watch Lynnie shake her head when I go to answer, “All the guys wished they were me. Unlike all the other girls, her body was curvy. She is the total package.” I wink at my girl and the pretty pink blush covers her neck and cheeks.
By the time we pull into the drive, I can see the exhaustion written all over Amie’s face and when I look over at Lynnie, she looks tired too.
“This place is fantastic! Who designed it?” Amie questions, looking around.
I can’t help but smile at her question. I’m sure she never knew that Lyndley could draw. “Lyndley did.”
“What? Are you serious?” She looks over at Lyndley with a shocked expression.
“Yeah. I used to draw my dream house on napkins and scrap paper all the time, but I never knew he kept any of them. When I saw this place the first time, I was in awe of it. It is everything I ever wanted.”
She looks back over to me and I can’t believe the words that just came out of her mouth. I had no idea she loved this place. She hasn’t said anything about it since the first time she came here. Walking over to her, I whisper, “I’m glad you love it. I was hoping you’d live here with me one day.”
Her face lights up and she nods her head before she grabs my face and pulls me in for a kiss.
“Get a room!” Amie yells as she walks past us and up to the door. “Let me guess. You don’t lock your doors around here.” She walks straight inside and starts to laugh. “I’ll take that as a yes.”
Lyndley giggles and presses her cheek against my chest. I laugh silently as her friend walks inside my house. “Let’s get her settled and you into bed,” I growl, kissing her neck and throwing her over my shoulder, walking us into the house.
After Lyndley gets Amie situated in the room she will be staying in, I make sure that Max has gone out. Once he comes back in, he follows us to the bedroom and plops himself down on his bed in my room. I shut the door and watch as Lyndley goes into the bathroom to start getting ready for bed. Getting into the bed, I wait for her to come back and when I see what she’s wearing, I shake my head and frown. Since when did she wear that to bed? “What the hell are you wearing?”
She looks down at her clothes and then back up at me. “Um, pajama pants and a t-shirt?” she gets into the bed and pulls the blankets around her waist, laying back against her pillow.
Moving so I can lean over her body, I go straight to taking her clothes off. “Sorry. I have a no clothes rule for my bed. That doesn’t change because your friend is here.” I pull her pajama bottoms off of her legs and see that she has no panties on. I toss the pants on the floor and start to kiss my way up her thighs. “Mmm… No panties, though. I like that.” My hands run up her body and I grab the edge of her shirt, pulling it up, and over her head in one movement.
“Much better.” I whisper as I take in her naked body. I love seeing the small little stretch marks that she always tries to hide from me and I can’t wait to be able to see her pregnant with my child. I missed a lot of things, but I won’t let that happen again.
Her body moves underneath mine and when I line myself up, I slam into her. Her sucks in a breath and I start to rock against her. Nipping, sucking, and kissing her body, I ravish her body slowly. Her fingers dig into my back. I feel her body tighten and she moans out. I thrust into her a few more long, hard strokes before I feel her come around me. “Jaxson.” She starts to yell put in ecstasy before I clamp my hand over her mouth.
“Shit.” I groan out as I come inside of her. Every time with her gets better than the last and I can’t believe how lucky I am to have her back in my life. I know that we still have a lot to work out between us, but I still feel the same spark as I did when we first met.
“Damn.” Her voice is barely a whisper as she runs her fingers up and down my sides. I kiss her gently and pull out of her slowly causing us both to moan.
“I love you, Lyndley. Nothing will ever change that.” Her eyes watch me closer before she nods at me. I know she feels the same way I do.
“I love you too.” I feel her breath fan over my skin and I lean down to kiss her once more before rolling over to my back, pulling her body into mine. Every night for the last week we’ve fallen asleep in this same exact position and I couldn’t be happier.
Waking up, I pull my arm out from under Lynnie and pull on my jeans. Making my w
ay towards the kitchen to start the coffee, I also make sure my guys don’t need anything today. When I make sure they are good for the morning, I start breakfast. I pull everything I need out of the fridge to make French toast and some bacon. Max comes and lays at my feet for the first ten minutes of my breakfast making, but gets bored of me and wants me to let him out. He lays back by my feet after a few minutes of waiting by the back door.
When I get everything almost done, I hear “Holy fuck” and “He looks even better without a shirt on.” Giggles behind me ensue and when I turn towards them, I have a smirk on my face. They probably didn’t notice that their whispering wasn’t very quiet.
“Mornin’, ladies.” I drawl. I watch the smile on Lynnie’s face grow bigger and Amie fans herself. The front door opens and closes, causing Max to take off in that direction. I see a frown appear on Lynnie’s face and I have a feeling that something happened between them. When we were in high school they used to be really good friends, but now it’s like one of them wants to claw the other’s eyes out at every turn.
I turn back to see Tate coming in the kitchen with Max leading the way. “Hey, Jax, do you have the keys to the truck?”
He turns towards the girls and makes a loud fucking sound, almost like he’s star struck. I point to the keys on the counter and say, “Yeah, man. Right there.” Tate is staring at Amie like she’s going to be his next conquest or something. Laughing at his expression, I tell him, “Tate, close your mouth.”
Tate walks over to the girls and I watch as Lynnie tenses up. Not taking his eyes off Amie, he absently says, “Hi, Lyndley.” He reaches his hand out and Amie sticks her hand in his, giggling when he kisses the back of it. “I’m Tate.”