Their decision to join him to the action still surprised her. He’d been an employee, doing what he was paid to do. As far as she could see, they’d been motivated by a mixture of spite, because his departure had lowered their share price and therefore the value of their own options, and the need for PR damage control. If they lost the action, having someone as well-known as Nick Gurles to share the blame might mean that their shareholders wouldn’t start demanding resignations.
Trish swigged some more coffee, hoping the caffeine would keep her awake as she went back to filling out index cards for the first of the lever-arch files. For once there were no interruptions and she was able to work steadily all afternoon. It was soothing stuff, needing absolute concentration but no mental energy. Her lack of sleep and the pill’s hangover didn’t impede her, as they might have done if she’d needed any creativity, and the constant physical movement and need to keep track of documents and facts meant that she couldn’t think about her own problems. Or not too much.
Robert Anstey passed Trish’s open door again soon after four o’clock on his way to the clerks’ room. He was tempted to apply another goad, but she was concentrating so hard she didn’t even know he was there. He hoped she’d make a cock-up of the case. If she did, Antony would come to him next time. Even so, he felt a faint stirring of sympathy when she suddenly shivered, in spite of the heat.
She was frowning over her papers and her left hand was clamped down on the gelled spikes of her dark hair. Robert had always loathed the cut, considering it wholly inappropriate in these ancient chambers, but he had to admit it looked better under a wig than the straggly curls of some of the other women. And at least she was thin. Some of them positively wobbled under their gowns, the greedy cows.
Maybe he’d leave her be this afternoon. After all, she was no real competition. He looked away and saw Dave beckoning, with a fat-looking brief in his hand.
At one moment, needing to clear her brain of the overloading detail, Trish clicked on to her email and saw that there were several messages in her in-box. Most were of no consequence, but one was from George. She opened it, smiling as she read:
You can’t imagine how much I miss you! But I’m pretty sure now that we were right about bringing Ma here. Getting away can’t make her miss Dad any less, but it gives her other things to think about. Luckily she likes the place as much as I always have.
And today talking seemed easier, too. I’m beginning to think she could be very funny, and she’s got all sorts of interesting ideas. I wish they hadn’t bunged me off to boarding school. I’d have liked to know her better.
He’d been eight, Trish remembered. The same age as the boy last night. How could anyone send a child of that age into boarding-school exile?
She’d hardly ever thought of George as vulnerable. He was always so sure of himself, so calmly effective, that it was a shock to imagine him as a homesick child. No wonder he’d lost all touch with the person his mother was. You’d have to shut yourself off to deal with that kind of loneliness.
Shaken at the thought of what else his strength might have been hiding, and angry about what his parents had done to him, she went back to his email.
We’re turning into the most unsophisticated of tourists. I’ve only ever been here to see clients before, so I’ve never done the sights. But Ma and I are doing everything, even eating seafood on Fisherman’s Wharf and gazing at the sea lions.
Bet you didn’t know there’s this great herd of wild sea lions, who live at the wharf. They smell fairly gross, but they’re fun to watch as you eat your chowder in a sourdough-loaf bowl. Half of them look like moth-eaten old fur coats when they’ve dried in the sun, then they flop off the floats and turn into elegant sinuous swimmers.
We’ve eaten in a revolving rooftop restaurant – unfortunately the fog rolled in just as they were bringing our food so we revolved inside a damp grey blanket, but you can’t have everything – we’ve ridden the cable cars and bought silk bits and bobs in Chinatown. Done everything, in fact. I’ve even bought you some black pearls.
I must stop. We’re due for another walk up these demonic hills. My legs feel like stiff, sensationless rods already. It’s lucky we’re eating all the time or I’d be a wraith by now. See you in ten days, my love.
G
Refreshed by the thought of Gourmet George as a wraith, and by the reminder that there was more to life than clients, or damaged children, Trish went back to work, only to be pulled up soon afterwards by the discovery that she was missing a document. It ought to have been impossible. But it was true. Cross-referring each statement as she entered it on her index cards, she’d found a gap in the chain of evidence.
There was a note Nick Gurles had sent to his head of department about the compliance officer’s report that referred to something dated 13 March. Trish couldn’t find any sign of it. In fact, there was nothing at all from 13 March. She checked in her old diary to make sure it hadn’t been a Bank Holiday and found that it had been a perfectly ordinary weekday.
Every other piece of paper referred to anywhere had been provided by the solicitors, Sprindlers & Partners. Trish had numbered and filed them all. She needed this one, too.
Thanking God that she had embarked on this time-consuming process while Antony was still away, she reached for her phone and dialled Sprindlers’ number. When she got through she asked for Peter Loyle, the partner in charge of the case.
‘He’s on holiday,’ the receptionist said. ‘Can someone else help at all?’
‘Is there anyone in his office at the moment who’s working on the Nicholas Gurles case?’
‘I don’t know, but Lucy Ranking might be able to help you. I’ll put you through.’
Lucy Ranking was not very knowledgeable, but she obviously wanted to be helpful and she kept apologising for the missing note.
‘I’ll start looking for it at once. I’m sure I can find it, if it’s here. I think I know where to start. And I’ll bike it over as soon as I’ve got it. If I can’t find it I’ll give you a ring at once. Is that OK?’
‘Great,’ Trish said, ‘but don’t worry about the bike. I’ve had enough for today. Bung it in the post, would you? Thank you. Bye.’
Her phone rang as soon as she’d put down the receiver. It was Dave, telling her that a policeman had just left with as much information about her recent cases as he could be given without a breach of client-confidentiality.
‘Thanks, Dave. Didn’t he want to see me?’
‘Of course he did, but you’d said you didn’t want to be involved, so I refused to call you. He didn’t press it, just asked for the list of cases and names of your clients. If you ask me, they’re just going through the motions.’
‘Then they must have a good idea who the boy is. Did they tell you anything about him?’
‘Not a thing, and I didn’t ask. You do not want to be involved. You’ve got too much to do on the Gurles case. Forget the boy. He’s not your problem and there are plenty that are. Concentrate on them.’
Trish left chambers. Outside, the air was still and warm, and the soft light pink. She nearly always dawdled over Blackfriars Bridge, often stopping to look up at St Paul’s, solid and beautiful between the flamboyant high-rises. But this evening the City held little allure for her, so she turned her back on it all, for once preferring the massed slabs of the National Theatre and the muddle beyond. As she let her gaze sweep round, past the London Eye, across the river towards the rooves of Whitehall, she thought of Dowting’s Hospital, hidden by the theatre.
‘You don’t want to get involved,’ Trish reminded herself in Dave’s voice and then again in her own.
At the Southwark end of the bridge she hesitated, thinking of the boy, and of George aged eight and abandoned to boarding school. For a second she looked back towards the Temple, then knew she had to find out more. She turned right to walk to Dowting’s.
Chapter 3
The boy had been moved up to a ward on the tenth floor. The nurse Tri
sh found there recognised her name at once.
‘I’m so glad you’ve come. He can’t tell us who he is, and he’s frightened to death. God knows what kind of a mother he must have.’
Trish gripped her bag and told herself that she’d been mad to come. ‘How is he? Physically, I mean.’
‘He’s got a broken leg, broken ribs, multiple bruising and concussion. He had an arterial bleed from a cut in his thigh, but that’s been dealt with. He’s recovered consciousness, but he’s not talking much – which may be the concussion, or it may not.’
‘Has he really not said anything about who he is?’ Trish asked. ‘Anything at all?’
‘No. He says he can’t remember, doesn’t know why he was on his own in a Southwark street or why he had your name sewn into his clothes.’
‘And he’s in pain?’
‘Yes. We’re giving him analgesics, but they’re never enough. He’s a brave child, though. He doesn’t make a fuss.’
‘May I see him?’ Oh, Trish, don’t be a fool, she told herself.
‘For a few minutes. But if he becomes distressed, you’ll have to go.’
‘Of course.’
‘And see if you can get him to tell you anything.’
‘I’ll do my best.’
Trish didn’t think the boy was asleep when she reached his bedside, but he was lying with his eyes closed. His injuries looked less terrifying now that he wasn’t immobilised and tubed, but they were still bad enough. One of his legs was strung up in a cradle, both his eyes were black, and one side of his face was criss-crossed with dark-red cuts and grazes. A faint crease appeared between his brows.
Seeing that she was simply adding to his difficulties, she walked closer, saying, ‘Hello. My name’s Trish Maguire. Is it all right to sit down?’
The lids flickered and lifted. His eyes looked very dark and very frightened. Trish smiled.
‘Hello,’ she said again. ‘I think you wanted to see me last night, didn’t you?’
He shut his eyes again. Trish was relieved. This indifference might let her off the hook. Then she saw that the black lashes were wet. Fat tears oozed out and spread over his bruised face. His breathing deepened, but he made no other sound. One almost flayed hand emerged from the bedclothes, palm upwards.
Trish took it. Her own eyes grew damp as she felt him relax at her touch. Still holding his hand as gently as she could, she manoeuvred the nearest chair so that she could sit down. When his tears had stopped, and he’d sniffed to clear his nose, he looked at her.
‘Can I get you anything?’ she asked quietly. He shook his head while his hand clung to hers. ‘Can you tell me who you are?’
‘David,’ he whispered.
Trish bent closer. ‘What’s your surname?’
He shook his head again, which must have hurt because the crease deepened between his eyebrows. He lay very still, resting against the pillow and looking straight ahead.
‘OK. Don’t worry about it now, David.’
His eyes slid round towards her again.
‘Your surname doesn’t matter, but if I’m to help you I need to know why you wanted to see me. You did, didn’t you?’
‘She told me.’ He was whispering again. ‘She said: “Go to Trish. She’ll look after you till I can come to c’llect you”.’
‘Who, David? Who told you?’
She felt a tug against her hand and let him go. He pulled up the sheet, covering himself up to his small, pointed chin.
‘It’s wicked, letting a poor little mite like that get lost in London in weather like last night’s.’ Trish looked up to see that the speaker was one of the other nurses. ‘You’re Trish Maguire, aren’t you?’
‘Yes. But I’ve no idea why he wanted me. I’m as lost as he is.’
‘Give it time,’ said the nurse. ‘The police will find out, even if he doesn’t remember. They’re talking to all the missing-persons charities now. It won’t take them long.’
David’s frown was back and his mouth tightened, but he kept his eyes shut. The nurse nodded meaningfully at Trish and mouthed something she couldn’t interpret. She smiled and waited until the nurse had walked away.
‘It’s all right, David,’ Trish said quietly then. ‘She’s gone. You can open your eyes.’
Watching the cleft between his flying dark brows, Trish rubbed the space between her own with the middle fingers of her left hand. It was there that the headaches always began. ‘That’s because you frown so,’ George often told her. ‘It’s not surprising it hurts. You’re clenching all the muscles, pulling them down. Let go.’
Missing him even more than usual, she took her fingers away from her face and let them rest lightly on David’s forehead.
‘I’ll do whatever I can to help. I hate answering questions, too. Have you had any food in here that you like, David, or would you like me to get you some chocolate or something?’
Trying to remember what she’d wanted as a child when she was ill or hurt, she came up with Lucozade. Her mother had always produced a bottle at the first hint of a temperature. The sticky sweetness and the strange taste of it, as well as the glamorous orange bubbles, had become part of remembered comfort.
‘Do you like Lucozade?’ David looked so surprised that she knew he’d never heard of it. ‘Or Coke?’
‘I’m not allowed Coke. I have juice. Apple juice.’
‘That’s a good idea. Shall I get you some?’
‘Yes.’ There was a pause, then two more fat tears rolled down his cheeks. ‘Please.’
Oh, God, Trish thought as her heart lurched. What am I doing? To myself and him?
‘All right, David. I won’t be long.’
The Friends of Dowting’s had a shop on the ground floor and there, in amongst the cards, fruit and flowers she found some individual boxes of fruit juice, with straws attached. She bought six apple-juice packs and took them upstairs. David was lying where she’d left him, eyes closed.
‘It’s me again,’ she said.
He had a quick look to check, then his bruised lips curved slightly. It wasn’t much of a smile, but it told Trish more clearly than any words that he hadn’t expected her to come back, that he probably didn’t expect anything good of any adult.
Whoever the ‘she’ was who’d sent him across London in the dark, Trish hated her. No one should let a child become so frightened that he reacted like this without provocation. Who could she have been? And what had she been thinking of, to send him after a total stranger in the middle of the night? Fear was the only possible excuse, but fear of what?
Trish picked the straw from its glue on the side of the carton, pushed it into the top and bent it so that David could drink without changing his position. She watched his face as the cool, sweet juice reached his tastebuds and saw that she’d done something good. He didn’t want much, spitting out the end of the straw after only a few moments’ sucking. Trish made to relieve him of the carton, but he clung to it, holding it against his chest.
‘All right, David,’ she said again. ‘I just wanted to help. I do want to help, you know, in any way I can. But it would be easier if I knew a little more. Who is it who sent you to me? Is it your mother?’
‘I’m not allowed to say.’ His hands clutched the juice carton.
‘OK. Try not to worry too much. Do you know why she wanted you to come to me?’
‘“If I tell you to go, go straight to Trish Maguire”, she said.’
‘I know. But why me?’
He looked surprised, as though she should have known. ‘I don’t know. But she told me your address and how to get there. We used to come and look at where you live. On Sundays. When I was little, she showed me; then I led the way. In case I forgot, she wrote it down and sewed it in my clothes and said if I got lost I must take a taxi and show the address and you’d pay for it. If I got lost. But I didn’t. I got hurt.’
‘I know. There was a car accident. But you will be all right and it’ll stop hurting soon. When did she start tea
ching you the way to my flat?’
‘Since always.’ That didn’t help much. ‘Then yesterday, it happened. She said it: “Go to Trish like I showed you. I’ll come when it’s safe. Go now.” She wasn’t shouting then. She was whispering, but she looked like she did when she was shouting. Cross.’ His lips trembled, but he sniffed and wiped his free hand across both his eyes, before gripping his juice box more firmly.
Trish knew he’d been trained not to complain or cry, just as clearly as she knew how frightened he was. Was it because he’d picked up this woman’s own fear, or had she brutalised him into it? Who was she? And who did she think she was to dump this responsibility on Trish?
‘You won’t tell, will you?’ His voice rose. ‘She said I wasn’t to tell anyone except you.’
‘I must tell the police, David.’
His eyes looked like black holes in his white face. ‘No, you mustn’t. It’s not safe. You mustn’t. You mustn’t. You mustn’t.’ The whisper was more intense than any scream could have been.
‘OK,’ Trish said at once. ‘It’s OK, David. I won’t tell and I’ll make sure you’re safe.’
As his panic receded a little, she thought, What the hell do I do now? ‘The nurses are kind to you, aren’t they?’ she asked aloud, wanting all the reassurance she couldn’t give him.
David nodded, then felt with his lips until he’d got the straw back in his mouth. Noisily sucking up apple juice meant that he couldn’t be made to answer any more questions.
‘Good. Then you’ll be all right here with them until your leg’s better. I’m going to have to go now, but I’ll come back tomorrow.’
His lips wobbled around the straw, but he didn’t protest, just sucked more furiously. Trish had a sudden, almost hallucinatory idea that she’d somehow been time-travelled into the future and was looking down at the child her foetus would have become if she hadn’t ill-wished it. She turned away.
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