“Then you will never ‘do’ your wife.” Her fists were clenched by her sides, her lips pursed tight. It was the first hint of emotion she’d revealed since those moments on the verandah.
He was too furious to decipher the message blazing in her suddenly dark gaze. “What, my hands too dirty for you, princess? Did you realize that my money isn’t enough to make you forget my roots?” His voice was harsh. What the hell was he doing? He was a man hunted by many women, but for some reason he wanted this one who held him in contempt. Only this one.
She frowned at his hands, as if not understanding the metaphor. “I don’t know anything of that. I only know that you have shown your disregard for me by saying you should’ve married this Nic. I don’t wish to remain here with a man who finds it so easy to hurt me.”
The bluntness of her words rocked him out of his anger, while the shadowy fear she quickly hid made his next words tender. “Aw, hell. I’m sorry.” He raised his hand again and with a gentle grasp on her left hand, tugged her down a step, wondering at the cause of that flash of sheer panic. What scars was Beauty hiding?
“I didn’t mean for you to hear that.” God, he was an idiot. No wonder her back had gone rigid the instant he’d returned to the kitchen. “It was just my temper talking, baby. Nic’s like my kid sister.”
“You give me an apology?” Astonishment rang in every syllable.
Her hand in his was a warm token of trust he hadn’t expected. “I acted badly. You have my humblest apologies, princess.”
“I…That is all right.” She was looking at him as if she couldn’t understand him, her eyes tawny with surprised warmth, no hint of ice in sight. This was the woman who’d smiled at him shyly across a crowded room, lovely and vibrant and everything he’d ever wanted.
“What’s wrong, cher?” The endearment slipped out—her perplexed expression was so very innocent.
Not fighting him when he used his free hand to move a strand of hair off her face, she said, “My father never apologized. He said it was not the husband’s role to take blame.” Her eyes met his, at once confused and daring.
Marc raised a brow. “What if he was wrong?” He shoved his free hand deep into his pocket to keep from reaching out and stroking the curve of her cheek, from luxuriating in the feel of that golden skin stained with softest pink. There was too much wariness in her gaze to chance the intimacy.
“He said he was never wrong.”
“One heck of a way to win an argument.” Pulling his hand out of his pocket, he rubbed the back of his neck instead of her cheek. “Takes the fun out of fighting, doesn’t it?”
“Why would an argument be fun?” She frowned.
He couldn’t help the smile that curved his lips. Leaning close, he deliberately crowded her with his body, the devil in him winning over. “Because then you get to make up, princess.” His breath sent the tiny tendrils at her temples dancing. His lips were a whisper from hers, his senses awash in the sensual woman scent of her. Giving in to temptation, he raised his free hand to cup her face, wondering at being able to touch someone so soft and delicate.
Eyes wide, she jerked her hand from his and turned to run up the stairs so fast he had no time to react. His smiled faded with each step she took. What had he expected? That his scarred face would entice her into his arms? Though he refused to admit it, her rejection hurt in a soul-deep way that left him no room to hide. As another one of his dreams crumbled to ashes, he followed his beauty far more slowly up the stairs.
Always a loner, tonight he found his bed cold.
Hira lay awake late into the night. It was her husband’s fault. He’d done something to her. Every time she thought she might fall asleep, ghost-gray eyes prodded her awake, asking her for something she had no knowledge of.
She knew he desired her. Most men desired her. It wasn’t something she was proud of. It hurt to know that they wanted her only for her body and face. Not one of them would be able to tell her anything of her true self. Had she married just such a man?
He saw her as a “princess,” a woman who had no redeeming qualities or many brains. But he wished to lie with her. It wasn’t flattering to her to be compared to those American bimbos she saw with their rich, old husbands. Sniffling, though she wanted to be haughty and unaffected, she gave up trying to sleep and rose.
After snuggling into a sunny yellow robe adorned with a single red rose on the back, she sneaked downstairs with the intention of making hot chocolate. In the foreign books she’d read, it had been called “comfort food,” and comforting was just what she needed.
She felt alone, adrift. It was as if her mind and body were disconnected. The smart part of her knew that if she allowed herself to feel tenderness for Marc, the hunter in him would seek total surrender. Her first impression of him had been of danger. Every time he came near her, every time he threatened to tear down the walls that had protected her from hurt all her life, that impression was cemented. Yet the sensuous heart of her nature found his masculinity hypnotically compelling. What was she supposed to do with these strange feelings?
And why hadn’t her husband come to her tonight? She’d been terrified that he would, unaware how to cope with the sudden heat flooding her body, but she’d accepted the inevitability. She was his wife. He’d left her alone last night because she’d shown him anger, but tonight he’d wanted her and he had to have guessed that she wouldn’t deny him again. Not when she’d reacted to his touch as if she’d been struck by lightning. Yet he hadn’t come.
He confused her, her big husband who moved like a desert hunter with his lean body and watchful gaze, and who smiled at her as if they shared some secret.
Marc heard Hira leave her room. He wondered what she was doing wandering around the house at this time of night. His heavily aroused body was keeping him awake, but she had no such excuse. From the way she’d run, the woman had no more desire for him than she had for a rabid gator. Grunting, he got out of bed, pulled on a pair of gray sweatpants and started downstairs. To hell with caring for her sensibilities. If she couldn’t handle the scars that marked his body, they might as well find that out right now.
He’d never had trouble drawing women, but they’d been tough women, women who prowled for men and knew exactly what they wanted when they got him. And it wasn’t tenderness. Gentle, pretty women like his wife tended to find his patched-up body and face distasteful. If he knew that, why was he putting himself through this? he asked himself bleakly.
Shaking his head, he walked downstairs. When he entered the kitchen, Hira was pulling down the tin of hot chocolate from a high cupboard. Her hair fell thick and straight over her shoulders like a black-and-gold mirror, shimmering against the vibrant yellow of her thin robe. Lord, but she was beautiful. If only if he could figure out whether that beauty was also of the heart, he might yet survive this marriage.
“Hungry?” he asked, walking into the room.
Startled eyes in that strange shade of lightest brown met his. She blinked as if to ensure he was real. “I couldn’t sleep.” It was a grudging admission.
He deliberately crossed his arms across his chest, wanting her to look at him, really look at him. Despite her sophistication, even she wouldn’t be able to hide an instinctive reaction. “Neither could I.”
Her eyes refused to budge from his face. “Do you want some?” She put down the tin and opened the fridge door. “There is no milk!” Clearly frustrated, she glared at him over one shoulder.
He grimaced. “We’ll get some more groceries tomorrow.”
She closed the door and put the tin away, scowling at him. “But I don’t have what I wish now.”
“A little delayed gratification never hurt anyone.” Now, if only his body would understand that, they’d both be far more comfortable.
Pursing her lush lips, she started to walk past him, nose in the air, hips swinging in a way that was utterly natural and sublimely female. The same devil that had got him in trouble before made him reach out and grab
her upper arm, warm through the cool material of her robe.
Those almond-shaped eyes, mysterious and layered with secrets, clashed with his. “Let me go.”
“Why?” he asked, encouraged by the slight blush in her cheeks, the fire in her eyes.
“Because I don’t wish to do this and you said you wouldn’t use force.”
Was that fear in those magnificent eyes? No, he thought, gentling his voice nonetheless. “But what about persuasion?” His breath whispered over her lips, his tone husky. He made no effort to hide his honest desire for her. The sexual awareness between them couldn’t be one-sided, not when every breath he took burned with passion.
She reared back. “You wouldn’t be able to persuade me to do something distasteful to me.” Her words were like swords, stabbing into him, adding to the scars on the inside, scars so bad that it was better they lived in darkness. “If you try despite knowing that, it will make you no more than an animal in heat.”
Hurt more than he would’ve believed by that verbal shot, Marc dropped her arm and turned his back to her. At least now he knew that this hasty marriage had no hope of ever surviving. Then why couldn’t he reconcile himself to walking away? “Good night, princess.”
Hira stood there staring at Marc’s rigid back, aware that she’d hurt him. She had never intentionally hurt another human being in her life. Conscience told her to apologize; the part of her that he’d been taunting was smug, but the biggest feeling was confusion. For there was nothing distasteful to her about her husband. Despite trying to keep him at a distance, she’d allowed him close. Romaz had never made her feel this chaos of mingled joy and terror. And she’d thought she’d loved him.
Overwhelmed and unable to understand what was happening to her, she whirled on her heel and escaped to her room. Inside, she paced across the small space over and over, shocked at the heat that had flooded her body at her husband’s proximity. Her mother hadn’t told her of these things. All she’d said was that if her husband was a gentle man, he would be careful of her fears.
Hira herself had learned long ago how things were in the marriage bed. However, she had no practical experience. Even with Romaz, she’d behaved with the utmost decorum. It had been easy to resist his attempts at seduction.
Too easy.
Her mind and heart urged her to accept the truth she’d been avoiding since the moment she’d met Marc—she hadn’t been in love with Romaz, had instead been attracted to the dream of freedom he’d held out. If she’d loved him, it wouldn’t have been so very easy to keep him at arm’s length. If she’d loved him, she would’ve burned for him as she did for Marc, this husband she barely knew.
Faced with a man a hundred times more masculine than her only other would-be lover, a man who she believed would be demanding and impatient with her inexperience, she was lost. Brought up in a cloistered environment, she’d never been allowed to mingle with males such as her husband. Though her family had tried to make a match for her with the sheik, they’d never allowed her to be alone with him.
But tonight she was all alone with a man who wished to exercise his rights as a husband but didn’t believe in forcing his bride. That meant that if she wanted to make this marriage more than words on paper, more than two strangers sharing a house, she would have to get over her cowardice and approach him, for she knew he wouldn’t come near her again. He had too much pride, pride that she’d slashed at tonight with her panicked response.
He’d been so close, so overwhelmingly male, so potent that her entire body had seemed to go up in flames. She’d been almost dizzy with the sudden, shocking desire to place her hands on that magnificent chest and stroke until his control snapped, though she had no idea what she would’ve done with an uncontrollable male on her hands. Even more scandalous was the way she’d ached to rub herself against that steel-hard body.
She’d just wanted like she’d never wanted.
And her own desire had so frightened her that she’d struck out at the cause of her unease, wounding him when he’d done nothing to deserve it, when he’d apologized for hurting her with his earlier burst of temper. He’d been so sincere that she knew he’d told her the truth.
It had been easy to forgive him, for she didn’t mind living with a man who had a flash-fire temper. In fact, she preferred it to her father’s coldly judging silence. But tonight Marc hadn’t shown her temper but such emotionless rigidity that she knew she’d caused serious damage.
With her actions she’d shattered the already fragile support base of their marriage. Now she was the one who’d have to rebuild it. Scared, not knowing how a woman went about seducing a male as strong as her new husband, she curled up in bed, thinking she’d never get to sleep.
She dreamed of silken sheets and a hunter of a male with eyes of liquid mercury. A demanding, hungry and powerful lover who refused to let her keep any part of herself back from him. A man who gave as much as he took and left her drenched in sweat, her body aching for a possession she had no knowledge of.
Four
Midmorning the next day, Hira stood at the kitchen window watching her husband chop wood in the backyard. He’d ignored her since she’d come downstairs. It was likely that he was only outside because she wasn’t. Not that it would do him much good to ignore her if she didn’t wish to be ignored. Her father had often cursed her for being as stubborn as an old camel. She’d taken it as a compliment.
It would be Marc’s own fault if she followed him out. After all, he shouldn’t have dressed only in those blue jeans if he hadn’t wished her to watch him. What woman could resist running her eyes over that muscled form, as lean and dangerous as a wolf in its prime? And she’d found that watching him led to wanting to touch him, just as she’d wanted to stroke him last night when he’d appeared before her only half-dressed.
Her burning hunger for him continued to startle her, for she didn’t think of herself as a passionate woman. Her experience with Romaz had strengthened that belief. She’d never been so intrigued by the sight of a male body that she simply wanted to watch the flow and shift of muscle and tendon. Just watch and savor the idea of all that masculine power belonging to her.
What would it be like to be given the right to explore that unapologetically male body as she wished?
Even more unexpected than that secret craving, was the way her body grew hotter and needier with each moment she spent indulging her desires. Her knowledge of the way things were between a man and his wife in the marriage bed didn’t account for this melting warmth in her navel…or was it lower? she thought, scandalized. And yet it felt so good she didn’t want to fight it.
She wanted to explore it.
Perhaps she’d been sheltered, but she’d never been a coward. Well, at least not until she’d married this man who confused her and made her speak without thinking. Right now her muscular American husband was very angry with her.
Every time he slammed down the ax, chopping the wood to bits, she could feel the power of his anger. But, she thought wonderingly, no matter how angry he was, he never took it out on her the way her father did with her mother, berating and humiliating her. The times that Marc had lost his temper, any hurt she’d felt had been fleeting and she’d given him enough sharp words in return that they were even on that score.
And he was man enough to accept blame and apologize when needed. Unlike Kerim Dazirah, Marc seemed to have no need to crush her under his boot so that he could feel stronger. Last night he’d turned his back to her. Back in Zulheil, he’d given her a cold look and left her to a lonely wedding night.
She’d decided that he didn’t care. Now she saw that he did. His passionate heart was there to see in every driving blow of the ax. Something quietly powerful bloomed deep inside her heart. If he felt this much anger toward her…maybe he could feel just as much affection, tenderness, even love?
Was it possible that she could find a way to make this marriage of hers more than glimmer and shimmer? Make it real? Make it so he saw Hira, saw t
he woman behind the face and body? To do any of that, first she’d have to reach him. And, she accepted, the easiest way to reach him would be through touch. He reminded her of the desert men of her homeland—while he’d let her close to his body, he’d guard his heart and soul until she’d proven herself.
But if she were brave enough to bury her pain and humiliation at Romaz’s hands and fight to make true the sacred vows she’d spoken, she might one day gain the kind of marriage she’d always dreamed of. It was better than this emotional limbo which would inevitably lead to divorce. Her heart kicked in pain. For some reason she didn’t want to be separated from this dangerously masculine creature she’d married in haste.
Squaring her shoulders, she took a deep breath and straightened from her leaning position against the kitchen sink. The misty skirts of her clothing floated around her ankles. In her home she’d decided to dress the way she’d done in Zulheil, with some modifications that might help her reach her growling male of a husband.
Her snugly fitted top ended just below her breasts, cupping and shaping a part of her that she usually tried to downplay. The rose-colored silk also exposed the length of her arms, the sleeves being mere puffs on her shoulders. Finally, the waistband of her skirt hugged her hips, leaving the curved plane of her midriff scandalously bare. Her father would never have tolerated such an outfit in his home, would have termed it immodest. For once, she would’ve agreed with him. Such dress shouldn’t be worn by maidens, or out in public.
But between a husband and his wife…
When she’d given in to the urgings of the seamstresses who’d worked day and night to ready her clothes for the wedding, she’d never thought she’d be wearing such an overtly sexual outfit so soon. Perhaps she was taking this step too quickly, but with all that lay between them, waiting any longer could irrevocably damage their marriage.
A marriage she couldn’t bear to give up on.
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