The Ethical Assassin

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by David Liss


  “Got that on a timer?” Melford asked.

  “Just gotta watch the color of his face. We’re about fifteen minutes away now from him passing out or sitting in the corner and crying. We also take bets on which it’s going to be.”

  “I’ll have to wait until I know Tommy better.”

  “Fair enough, but the smart money tonight is on tears. So, you boys want burgers?”

  Despite everything that happened, I realized I was hungry, a hollowed-out sort of hunger that left me feeling on the brink of organ failure. “I’ll have one,” I said. “Medium rare.”

  “You want fries or onion rings?” he asked.

  “Onion rings.”

  “Just an order of onion rings,” Melford asked, picking at the label on his beer bottle.

  “You got it. One burger with rings and one order of just rings.”

  “No burger at all,” Melford corrected him. “I’m not having anything, and he’ll just have an order of onion rings. Better make it a double. He looks hungry.”

  The bartender leaned forward. “How is it that you know what your friend wants more than he does?”

  “How is it you know your cook’s going to be crying and not sleeping?”

  The bartender tilted his head in a gesture of concession. “You got a point.”

  Melford smiled. “Onion rings.” He put a five on the bar. “Keep the change.”

  The bartender gave him a half nod.

  “I have to eat onion rings?” I asked. “Is that part of the secret code of ideology, too?”

  “Sort of. You want to hang out with me, you have to give up eating meat.”

  “I don’t want to hang out with you. I want you out of my life, and I want this day out of my life. Isn’t it enough of a punishment to hang out with you? I have to give up burgers, too?”

  “I can understand how you feel,” Melford said. “I don’t take it personally. It’s been a big day for you.”

  “Thanks for being so freaking understanding.” I looked away and took a breath to calm myself. I had to remember that just because Melford said Karen and Bastard had it coming didn’t mean they had. It might be best not to piss him off. So I changed the subject. “No meat? What, are you some kind of a vegetarian?”

  “Yes, Lemuel, in observing that I don’t eat meat, you have correctly deduced I’m a vegetarian. And you know what? If you knew how animals were tortured, you’d give up eating meat on your own. But you don’t know, and you probably don’t care, so I’m forcing you to give up meat. We’ll backtrack later and you’ll learn why. For now, you can follow me and walk the ethical path.”

  “I’m going to take ethics lessons from you?”

  “Funny how that works.”

  “I’ve never met a vegetarian before,” I said. “No wonder you’re so thin.”

  “Are you my mother? Is my mother wearing a latex mask or something? Holy crap, Lemuel. Just don’t eat anything that involves killing or exploiting any animals, and you’ll be okay. And I don’t want to hear about how I’m a fine one to talk. If we only ate evil animals who’d made bad ethical choices, then that would be good enough for me. I’d sooner eat those two in the trailer park than a hamburger.”

  “You’re not doing a good job of convincing me that you’re not crazy.”

  “Let’s talk about something more pleasant. Tell me about that charming lady of yours. What was her name? Chanda?”

  “Chitra,” I said, in part feeling like an idiot for talking about this while such a horrible crisis was in the hopper and in part wanting to thank Melford for giving me the chance to talk about her.

  “She gonna be your girlfriend?” he asked, not a hint of mockery in his voice.

  I shrugged, vaguely embarrassed. “I’ve got some more pressing things to worry about at the moment. Besides, I hardly know her. I only met her last week.”

  “You only met me today, and look how close we are.”

  I chose to ignore that. “I don’t see how anything could happen. I’ve got to work all year to save money for college, and she goes to Mount Holyoke in a couple of months.”

  “There’s always the long-distance relationship,” he pointed out.

  “I guess. It sounds like it would be hard to keep up, with all the distractions and everything. But I suppose it’s less frightening when she’s going to a girls’ school.”

  “Women’s college.”

  “What?”

  He sipped at his beer. “It’s not a girls’ school. It’s a women’s college.”

  “Who, if I may ask, cares?” I was in no mood for stupid nitpicking.

  “I care. And you do, too. Words count, Lemuel, they have power and resonance. There will never be true equality without gender-sensitive language.”

  It was at that moment that something hard smacked me in the back of the head. It came on suddenly, and it startled me more than it hurt. I turned around, and two men with pool cues stood there. Laughing.

  They both wore faded jeans and T-shirts- one was tattered and black, the other was pale yellow and said BOB’S OYSTERS across the front. Underneath there was a picture of an oyster with the words Shuck me coming out of its- I don’t know, mouth, oyster hole, or whatever they call it.

  Against the tightening of my throat and the pounding of my heart, I felt a raging anguish building inside. The anguish of Why me? There were two of us sitting there. I, as far as I knew, looked like just an ordinary kid. I had a tie, sure, but so what? Melford, on the other hand, with his freaky, post-electrocution bleached hair, would surely be a better target. Instead, they went for me. They always went for me.

  The silence lasted less than a couple of seconds. They stared. I looked away.

  “You guys are kind of far from the pool table, aren’t you?” Melford said.

  He’s going to kill them, I thought, numb now with powerlessness. There’s going to be more killing, right here. I’m going to have to watch more people die, a whole room full of them.

  Bob’s Oysters grinned, showing a mouth full of nicely browning teeth. “Maybe so,” he said. “What you want to do about it?”

  “Me?” Melford shrugged. “I don’t really want to do anything about it. What do you want to do about it?”

  “What?” he asked.

  “What?” Melford asked.

  “What did you say?”

  “What did you say?”

  “I don’t know what in fuck you’re up to.”

  “To be honest, I’m not up to anything.”

  “I don’t like no faggots coming in here,” said the one in the black T-shirt.

  “I think our foreign policy in El Salvador is misguided,” Melford said.

  The black T-shirt guy knit his brow. “What the shit are you talking about?”

  “I don’t know. I thought we were just saying, you know, stuff we think. Your comment seemed pretty random, so I figured I’d come up with one of my own.” He lifted his beer and drank down half the bottle, finishing it off with a mighty gulp. He wiggled it at them, documenting its emptiness. “You want another beer?”

  “What’s it to you?”

  “Nothing. I was just going to order up some beer, and since we’re having a conversation, it seemed polite to order one for you. You want it?”

  The guy paused as his desire for beer clashed with his pointless anger. Maybe if Melford had seemed nervous or twitchy or afraid, it might have gone differently, but I was already beginning to understand the power of Melford’s calm.

  “Okay, sure,” said the black T-shirt guy. He blinked rapidly and bit his lip, as though he had misunderstood something and now didn’t want to admit it.

  The two pool players exchanged glances. Bob’s Oysters shrugged.

  Melford signaled the bartender and ordered the beers. The pool players took theirs, the black T-shirt nodded his thanks at Melford, and he and his friend wandered back over to the table. They were dazed, not looking at each other.

  “What the hell,” I whispered into a basket of stea
ming onion rings, which had arrived during the confrontation. “I thought we were going to get our asses kicked.”

  “I didn’t. See, that guy figured one of two responses- I’d fight him or I’d turn coward. All I did was take a different angle, and suddenly the threat of violence is gone. Nothing to it.”

  He made it sound so simple. “Yeah. What happens if he decided to knock you off your stool and go upside your head with the pool cue?”

  Melford patted his pocket. “Then I’d have killed him.”

  I let that hang in the air for a moment, unsure if the answer pleased or terrified me.

  “Why didn’t you just kill them anyway?”

  “I’m willing to defend myself, and I’m willing to fight for what’s right, but I’m not indiscriminate. All I wanted was to get out of the situation without you getting hurt, and I took care of it in the way I thought would cause the least harm.”

  I stared at him, feeling not only relief and gratitude, but a strange sort of admiration. It was then that I first realized that, in the same way I liked it when Bobby praised me for books well sold, I liked Melford’s attention, too. I liked that Melford seemed to like me, wanted to spend time with me. Melford was somebody- a crazy, violent, and inexplicable somebody, but a somebody all the same and, as I’d just seen, an occasionally heroic somebody.

  “What are we going to do about the checkbook?” I asked.

  “We’re going to wait.”

  “For what?”

  “Well, you know where that mobile home is located? What the jurisdiction is?”

  I shook my head.

  “The city of Meadowbrook Grove, a remarkably unpleasant little slice of land carved out of the county, that consists of a very large trailer park and a small farm with a hog lot. The cop you saw outside the trailer is the chief of police. Also the mayor- a monumental creep named Jim Doe. And he doesn’t much like the county cops. Chances are he’s going to hold off on calling the real cops until the morning. Otherwise he’ll have to be up all night. So we’re going to wait. We’re going to wait until it gets good and late, and then we’re going into the trailer, sliding under some yellow crime scene tape, and getting the checkbook.” He looked over at my basket. “Can I have an onion ring?”

  ***

  I didn’t know when, if ever, bars around here closed, but this one showed no sign of slowing down at a quarter of three, when Melford tapped me on the arm and said it was time to go. I followed dutifully.

  In the car, Melford was playing another tape now, a sad and jangling something that I liked, mostly despite myself. Maybe it was the four beers. “What is this?”

  “The Smiths,” Melford said. “The album’s called Meat Is Murder.”

  I laughed.

  “Something’s funny?”

  “It just seems a little strong,” I said. “I mean, if you want to be a vegetarian, that’s fine. But meat isn’t murder. It’s meat.”

  Melford shook his head. “Why? Why is it okay to expose creatures who have feelings and wants and desires to any pain we choose so we can have unnecessary food? We can get all the nutrients we need from vegetables and fruits and beans and nuts. This society has made the tacit decision that animals aren’t really living things, just products in a factory, due no more consideration than automobile parts. So the Smiths are right, Lemuel. Meat is murder.”

  I probably wouldn’t have said it without the beer, but I’d had the beer. “Okay, fine. Meat is murder. But you know what else is murder? Wait, let me think. Oh, yeah. I remember now: murder. Murder is murder. That’s right. Killing a couple of people who are minding their own business. Breaking into their home and shooting them in the head. That’s murder, too, I think. The Smiths have an album about that?”

  Melford shook his head as if I were a kid who couldn’t grasp some simple idea. “I told you. They were assassinated.”

  “But I’m not ready to know why.”

  “That’s right.”

  “And I’m a bad person for eating meat.”

  “No, you’re a normal person for eating meat, because the unchecked torment and painful slaughter of animals has become the norm in our culture. You can’t be judged for eating meat. Up to this point, anyhow. On the other hand, if you listen to what I tell you, if you think about it even a little, and then you go back to eating meat- then, yes, you’re a bad person.”

  “Torment my eye,” I said. “It’s not like they drag the cows off to dark cells and wake them up for mock executions. The animals stand around, they moo, they eat grass, and when the time comes, they get killed. Their lives are a little shorter than they would be otherwise, but they don’t have to worry about starvation or predators and disease. Maybe it’s a decent trade-off.”

  “Sure, that sounds great. Farmer Brown comes out once in a while to pat their rumps or maybe pick a little on his banjo while he chews on a stalk of hay. Wake up, friend. That idyllic farm doesn’t exist anymore, if it ever did. Small farms are being absorbed by giant corporations. They’re building what are called factory farms, in which the maximum possible number of animals are warehoused in dark buildings, pumped full of drugs to make it possible for them to survive in these unnatural conditions. They’re given growth hormones so they’ll get big and meaty, even though they don’t want to eat. They’re given antibiotics so they won’t get sick, even though they’re spending their whole lives on top of each other. And then you, my friend, nibble on your big, juicy porterhouse, and you know what? You’re eating antibiotics and bovine growth hormone. Eat enough beef, and who knows what’s going to happen to you. If a woman eats beef and pork and chicken when she’s pregnant, what is she passing along to her baby? Besides being unspeakably cruel, this is a public health disaster waiting to happen.”

  “Yeah, if the public is so threatened, then how come the public doesn’t care?”

  “The public.” He let out a dismissive sigh. “Remember ideology. The public is told meat is safe and good and healthful, and so the public complies.”

  “So, what do you live on- eggs and cheese?” I asked.

  He laughed. “No way. I’m a vegan, man. I don’t eat any animal products. None.”

  “Oh, come on. You can’t stand to exploit the labor of a chicken?”

  “If you could prove to me the chickens didn’t suffer, I’d eat their eggs,” he told me. “But you have no idea. Those chickens are packed into cages so tight, they can’t even turn around. Their beaks and feet get infected, and they’re in agony. Maybe even more than cows and pigs, chickens suffer unspeakable torments, probably because they’re birds and we care even less what happens to them. We are talking about animals that never experience a single moment of life without pain, fear, or discomfort. And those are the females. The males born to egg-laying populations are just tossed into sacks until they’re ground up alive and fed to the females. You want me to tell you about how dairy cows live?”

  “Not especially. I want you to tell me how you live. What is there to eat?”

  “At home, my kitchen is very well stocked, and I eat fine. But the truth is, if you’re going to be vegan, and you will be, you can’t eat out a whole lot unless you’re willing to be creative. But you can look at yourself in the mirror and know you’ve been doing the right thing. Plus, you get the added bonus of feeling more righteous than others. And it makes a great conversation at parties.” He gave me a knowing nod. “Women love vegetarians, Lemuel. They’ll think you’re deep. You get to college, start fussing about what you can and can’t eat, believe me, the women will start conversations about it and they’ll swoon over your sensitive soul.”

  We took another pass by the trailer and saw it was now abandoned. No sign of cops or crime scene, so Melford turned down the stereo and parked at a strip mall lot with a closed convenience store, a dry cleaner, and something that called itself a jewelry store but looked, through the lattice of metal grating, more like a pawnshop. Taped to a phone booth next to the car was another missing pet flyer, this one for a brown
Scottish terrier called Nestle.

  It was only three blocks, cut mostly through the backs of other mobile homes, to Bastard and Karen’s house. The temperature had dropped to the mid-eighties, but the air was still thick with humidity, and the trailer park smelled like a backed-up toilet. None of this seemed to bother Melford, who knew where to find breaks in fences, where to cross over to avoid barking dogs- all of which told me that he had spent a fair amount of time casing this route. So maybe killing Bastard and Karen hadn’t been just some random act of violence.

  We reached the back of the trailer- which, in fact, had no yellow crime scene tape- and Melford pulled out something that looked like a cheap ray gun from a Dr. Who episode- some kind of a handle with multiple wires of a variety of thicknesses protruding. “Pick gun,” he explained. “Very handy thing to keep around.” Eyes narrowed in concentration, he went at the back door of the trailer for just a moment before we heard a click. Melford pushed the door open while he slid the pick gun back into his pocket.

  Now he took out a pen flashlight, which he flipped around the kitchen for a moment. “Huh,” he said. “That’s funny. Check it out.”

  I hadn’t wanted to look at them again; in fact, I’d taken comfort in the blackness of the room, which allowed me to shield myself from the sight of the no doubt stiff bodies, but I glanced over anyhow, knowing that it was what Melford expected of me. I stared, thinking that Melford’s deployment of the word funny didn’t quite cut it.

  Bastard and Karen still lay there, eyes open, stiff as bloody and bloodless mannequins.

  By their side was a third body.

  Chapter 10

  MAYBE IT WASN’T FAIR, but I blamed my stepfather for everything bad that happened that weekend. And sure, it was at least partly Andy’s fault, but the odd thing was, it all played out the way it did because of the only two good ideas Andy had ever had, the two ideas that changed my life for the better.

 

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