by Ava May
“Do you?”
He looked at her with something in his eyes. They shined with both happiness and caution. “That’s yet to be determined. There are some factors that will affect my decision.”
She nodded. “It’s not a decision to make lightly.”
“Yeah I know, but sometimes there is other things more important. I’ve been debating a lot and now even more so.”
Charlie smiled, but it was a small smile. “You can’t base your decision on me, Ash.”
“You don’t get to tell me what I can and can’t do. I am basing it on you, and I’m sorry if that makes things difficult for you, but let’s be honest here. I was in love with you before I was deployed the first time, and now that I’ve seen you again, I know I still am. It’s been three years since I’ve talked to you I know, but that wasn’t by my choice.”
She didn’t miss the hurt in his tone. “I’m sorry I never wrote Ash, I knew if I did I would tell you about being sick, and I couldn’t risk you getting hurt or ruining your career because of me.”
She could see he really didn’t get it. “If I would have told you that I was sick what would have happened? You would have been distracted.”
He nodded. “You’re right I would have been, but at least I would have known. I would have had the option to be there for you. I’m glad Ma helped you, but it should have been me.”
Charlie shook her head. “No your mom did great. I wouldn’t have wanted you to see me that way. It worked out the way it was supposed to, and now you’re back for a few weeks, and I’m healthy again.” She leaned her head back and turned facing him. She didn’t understand why he was so upset. He would have gotten himself killed if she would have written him in a letter that she had cancer. That would have been stupid on her part and instead of seeing him now—well she didn’t want to think about what would have happened.
He brushed her cheek with his thumb and leaned in. She held her breath until his lips touched hers. At first he moved them slowly as if experimenting. She closed her eyes and let go even knowing she shouldn’t have. She should have put a stop to it before it got started, but the feel of his tongue tracing her lips—and she was a goner.
Chapter 6
Ash
I groaned when she opened her mouth allowing me to kiss her deeper. She moved her lips slowly against mine as if she didn’t quite know what she was doing. It made me wonder and I pulled back.
She opened her eyes slowly smiling softly at him.
“Have you been with anyone since you’ve gotten better?”
She shook her head and licked her lips. “Not since before I got sick, before you left.”
My eyes went wide. “Wow.”
“Yep.”
I nodded and kissed her again. I knew I’d have to go easy on her, and since it had been so long for me, I knew the first time wasn’t going to be that long. That just meant I had to make it perfect. I had to have her there before I slid inside of her heaven. Pulling away I tugged her to me. She was hesitant. “Come ‘ere.”
She nibbled her lip.
“Don’t say no, Charlie.”
Instead of saying no she straddled my lap, and I groaned as soon as I felt the heat against me. She rubbed against me and gasped when she felt how hard I was from just one kiss. That’s all it took with her. She was beautiful and perfect for me. Her curves were beautiful, and her tits were fucking fantastic as they pushed against my chest. I looked down to see the tops peaking over her bra. Instinctively I ran my hand up her side and cupped the underside of one loving the weight of it in my hand. She was built like a woman should be.
Her thighs squeezed mine, and when I gripped her ass pulled her tighter against me her head fell back. I took advantage and licked up the side of her neck before kissing her jaw.
“I don’t know if I can do this Ash,” she said and then moaned when I found her lips again. I would fight every argument she gave me. There was no denying she wanted me.
“Yes, you can.”
Then my fingers slid up her bare skin, and she shivered when I unclasped her bra. It was time to change rooms, but I was worried to stop in case she changed her mind. “Let’s go to your room.”
She sighed when I nipped her neck. “Not a good idea.”
I chuckled. “Nope, it’s the perfect idea.” I ground against her where I knew she would be wet and she moaned. “Please Charlie, don’t say no. I know you want me.”
She looked at me then with surprise. Her hand cupped my jaw and she smiled kissing me. “I don’t know if I can say no to you, Ash.”
“Then don’t.”
Instead of speaking she climbed off of my lap and then she pulled me to my feet and led me out of the living room and down a dark hallway. I took that opportunity to spin her, shoving her against the wall. I crushed her body with mine and made sure she wouldn’t be changing her mind anytime soon. I ran my fingers through her hair gripping it in my hands and drove my tongue into her mouth. Kissing her more demanding and I groaned when she whimpered into my mouth. Her fingers gripped the bottom of my T-shirt holding me close. When her fingernails grazed my abs I tensed and she moved her hands up my chest and ran her finger around my nipples.
I knew she was surprised they were pierced when she slowed her movement. I’d remembered her telling me long ago how sexy she found it. So what did I do? I got the damn things pierced, and I found I liked them.
She pulled back and smiled. “When did you do that?”
I chuckled. “Pretty much after you told me you liked them.”
Shaking her head she surprised me and plastered her mouth on mine and kissed me, and I knew she had been holding back. The woman knew how to kiss. She ran her tongue along my lip enticing, me and then slid it into my mouth devouring me. When I felt her hands on the button of my shorts I yanked my mouth away and shook my head. “Your room baby.”
She nodded and pulled me the second door. Inside she stood when her cheeks flushed and her chest heaved. I loved how her lips were swollen from me. Something about that was sexy as hell knowing I’d caused it. I didn’t mess around. I pulled my shirt over my head and then pulled my shorts down with my boxers. I wasn’t’ shy about my body. I knew I was built and women found me sexy, but the look in Charlie’s eyes was akin to surprised reverence. Her eyes nearly popped out of her skull and she licked her lips like she wanted to eat me alive.
Hell I’d let her do anything she wanted.
“My god,” she whispered.
I started getting a bit nervous when she didn’t move to undress. “Your turn baby.”
She shook her head as if coming out of a fog. “I don’t know.”
Now I could sense her nerves. I took a step and tugged her closer. “You’re beautiful, Charlie.” Then pulled her tight shirt off and slid the straps from her bra down her arms. She shivered when my fingers gently grazed her skin. “So perfect,” I said when I saw her large breasts with pink nipples that were hard. I lifted the weight of them in both hands and leaned down to kiss the tip of each one.
She kept quiet and let me undress her. Her body trembled and shook the whole time. When I ran finger down her soft rounded stomach she tensed.
“Oh stop it I love you the way you are. I love your curves.”
I ignored her surprised. I’d already told her I was in love with her. I slid the elastic down her shapely thighs. She wriggled her hips seemingly to help and the pants fell to the ground. She stepped out of them kicking them to the side. She hadn’t been wearing panties, and I clenched my jaw before I ran my finger over her wetness. She was as aroused as I was.
She gasped and parted her thighs when I ran my finger along her slit. “It’s been a long time, Ash.”
“I’ll be gentle baby. Lay down on your bed for me. Spread your legs.”
She nodded and turned around and climbed on her bed before lying down and doing as I told her. I licked my lips loving how she looked. She was perfect. I wasn’t lying to her. I know she felt I was just saying things
because I wanted her, but I would show her. My cock roared with excitement. She would be mine and I would never let her go.
I got on the bed sliding between her legs. Without warning her I held her hips and ran my tongue along her. She yelled in surprise and her hips rose on instinct. I did it over and over again, running circles around her clit until she was panting and shaking so close to release, yet not. I wanted to feel her climax around my cock. I wanted her to grip me tightly.
I hovered over her and smiled. When I leaned to kiss her she turned up her nose and I shook my head and kissed her anyways. She moaned when she realized she could taste herself in my mouth. She kissed me back eagerly as I slid into the tightest pussy I’d ever had.
I felt her tense and stopped moving. Pulling back now it was my turn to pant. There was no way in hell I was going to make it long. “Shit.”
She grimaced. “Sorry.”
I shook my head. “Never, ever apologize. It’s just been awhile for me.”
She seemed surprised and lay still as I eased my way inside of her. When I was fully seated I let out shaky breath and told myself to buck the hell up. I was in the fucking military. I should be able to hold out my climax for the woman I loved. It was hard to focus when her muscles contracted around me. Her tiny hands slid up my back gripping me. It was when she took it upon herself to wrap her thick thighs around my waist that did me it. It pulled me even deeper inside of her and I couldn’t stop myself.
I rocked against her slowly at first and built up until I swore I’d send up through the wall. She didn’t seem to mind that I drove into her like a starving man. She whined and moaned and held up meeting each of my powerful thrusts. I knew when she shattered because I felt ever part of her tense and then after driving into her again she screamed my name.
I shook and hearing my name spill from her beautiful lips was all it took to take me over the edge.
“I fucking love you, Charlie.”
She moaned and held on tightly. She didn’t say it back but when I looked at her I saw the tears in her eyes. I knew she loved me too, and I also knew something was holding her back from saying those all-important words back to me.
Chapter 7
Charlie
Charlie braced her hands on the sink and groaned. What the hell? She said she couldn’t be with him, and what did she do? She slept with him. God, it was fantastic, but she broke down too easily. Then he told her how much he loved her. It was too much. She had been alone for too long and his declarations were fast. She had love for him, and she knew it would be easy to fall in love with him. Hell, she was probably already there, but she wasn’t ready to admit it. She worried about what he would say if she were to tell him her biggest fear.
The knock pulled her out of her thoughts.
“Charlie, baby. I know you’re in there second-guessing yourself, what we just did, but I swear I’m not messing around with you.” He sounded so sincere and she cringed. How did he know what she was doing? They hadn’t been around each other in three years, yet he seemed to know what she was thinking and feeling.
She wiped her eyes and swished some mouthwash in her mouth before spitting it into the sink. She took a deep breath and opened the door. Seeing him standing there, looking lost and maybe even a little confused, she broke. No one was as sweet at this giant man. She had no doubt he was hard as hell and tough as they came, but right now he was just a man feeling very insecure about the fact he said he loved her, more than once, and she had yet to say it back.
Charlie leaned into him and kissed him. “Ash—”
He shook his head. “No don’t say it. I want you to say it when you’re ready. It’s not something I will force. I know how you feel.”
“I need to talk to you about something. Before—” she gestured between them. “—this goes any further.”
He nodded and tugged her to the bed. She sat down and sighed. He sat at the edge of the bed watching her.
“After the cancer something happened.”
He sat watching her holding her hand.
“I can’t have children—ever. They had to take both of my ovaries to save me.”
He blinked, and she waited for him to say anything but he didn’t see to get it.
“You said you wanted to have a big family. I can’t give that to you now.”
He smirked. “That’s it?”
She frowned not happy. “It’s a really big deal. You have no idea what it’s like to know I’ll never be a mother.”
Ash sighed. “Oh baby, yes you will. You know how many children are abandoned every single day. You can be a mother to as many as you want.”
“It won’t be the same though. The child won’t be mine.”
“Yes it will. It doesn’t matter if you’re the one to give birth to that child or not. You’re going to be the one to love it like no other, like you are the birth mother. Baby, think about it, you’ll get to save children from horrible suffering. I think that’s wonderful.”
“But I would be able to have a child from you.”
“So? I just want a big family. I have no problem with adoption.”
She teared up. She never thought a man would say that. It was silly, really. People adopted all the time but she had ignored that as a possible solution. She didn’t want to think about all the mothers who gave up their children or lost them. It pissed her off because she couldn’t be a mother herself. She laughed for the first time in a while.
“You’re good now?” he asked.
“I guess I always ignored that possibility for some reason. I felt less of a woman.”
He shook his head. “That’s crazy, Charlie. You’re the strongest woman I know. You survived cancer. You will be a mother as soon as you wan3t, and now you have me because just so you now I’m not going back. I’m staying here with you. I don’t want to miss out anymore.”
She gasped and wiped her tears. For the first time in a long time, she felt love bloom in her chest. Ash was exactly what she was looking for. She’d figure out the rest later. For now, she wanted to enjoy her happiness. With a smile she tackled him and kissed him. “I love you too,” she said.
Before he could respond she kissed him the way she had never kissed anyone before. The words were so easy to say, when she knew she meant it. She’d never really loved a man before. It was both exciting and terrifying.
THE END
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