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by Fyodor Dostoyevsky

Baron's complaints, and to enter into his concerns--since you

  have made yourself a participator in the affair--I have the

  honour to inform you that, tomorrow morning at the latest, I

  shall, in my own name, demand of the said Baron a formal

  explanation as to the reasons which have led him to disregard

  the fact that the matter lies between him and myself alone, and

  to put a slight upon me by referring it to another person, as

  though I were unworthy to answer for my own conduct."

  Then there happened what I had foreseen. The General on hearing

  of this further intended outrage, showed the white feather.

  "What? " he cried. "Do you intend to go on with this damned

  nonsense? Do you not realise the harm that it is doing me? I beg

  of you not to laugh at me, sir--not to laugh at me, for we have

  police authorities here who, out of respect for my rank, and for

  that of the Baron... In short, sir, I swear to you that I will

  have you arrested, and marched out of the place, to prevent any

  further brawling on your part. Do you understand what I say?"

  He was almost breathless with anger, as well as in a terrible

  fright.

  "General," I replied with that calmness which he never could

  abide, "one cannot arrest a man for brawling until he has

  brawled. I have not so much as begun my explanations to the

  Baron, and you are altogether ignorant as to the form and time

  which my intended procedure is likely to assume. I wish but to

  disabuse the Baron of what is, to me, a shameful

  supposition--namely, that I am under the guardianship of a person

  who is qualified to exercise control over my free will. It is

  vain for you to disturb and alarm yourself."

  "For God's sake, Alexis Ivanovitch, do put an end to this

  senseless scheme of yours!" he muttered, but with a sudden

  change from a truculent tone to one of entreaty as he caught me

  by the hand. "Do you know what is likely to come of it? Merely

  further unpleasantness. You will agree with me, I am sure, that

  at present I ought to move with especial care--yes, with very

  especial care. You cannot be fully aware of how I am situated.

  When we leave this place I shall be ready to receive you back

  into my household; but, for the time being I-- Well, I cannot tell

  you all my reasons." With that he wound up in a despairing

  voice: " O Alexis Ivanovitch, Alexis Ivanovitch!"

  I moved towards the door--begging him to be calm, and promising

  that everything should be done decently and in order; whereafter

  I departed.

  Russians, when abroad, are over-apt to play the poltroon, to

  watch all their words, and to wonder what people are thinking of

  their conduct, or whether such and such a thing is 'comme il

  faut.' In short, they are over-apt to cosset themselves, and to

  lay claim to great importance. Always they prefer the form of

  behaviour which has once and for all become accepted and

  established. This they will follow slavishly whether in hotels,

  on promenades, at meetings, or when on a journey. But the

  General had avowed to me that, over and above such

  considerations as these, there were circumstances which

  compelled him to "move with especial care at present", and that the

  fact had actually made him poor-spirited and a coward--it had made

  him altogether change his tone towards me. This fact I took into

  my calculations, and duly noted it, for, of course, he MIGHT

  apply to the authorities tomorrow, and it behoved me to go

  carefully.

  Yet it was not the General but Polina that I wanted to anger.

  She had treated me with such cruelty, and had got me into such a

  hole, that I felt a longing to force her to beseech me to stop.

  Of course, my tomfoolery might compromise her; yet certain other

  feelings and desires had begun to form themselves in my brain.

  If I was never to rank in her eyes as anything but a nonentity,

  it would not greatly matter if I figured as a draggle-tailed

  cockerel, and the Baron were to give me a good thrashing; but,

  the fact was that I desired to have the laugh of them all, and

  to come out myself unscathed. Let people see what they WOULD

  see. Let Polina, for once, have a good fright, and be forced to

  whistle me to heel again. But, however much she might whistle,

  she should see that I was at least no draggle-tailed cockerel!

  ...........................

  I have just received a surprising piece of news. I have just met

  our chambermaid on the stairs, and been informed by her that

  Maria Philipovna departed today, by the night train, to stay

  with a cousin at Carlsbad. What can that mean? The maid declares

  that Madame packed her trunks early in the day. Yet how is it

  that no one else seems to have been aware of the circumstance?

  Or is it that I have been the only person to be unaware of it?

  Also, the maid has just told me that, three days ago, Maria

  Philipovna had some high words with the General. I understand,

  then! Probably the words were concerning Mlle. Blanche.

  Certainly something decisive is approaching.

  VII

  In the morning I sent for the maitre d'hotel, and explained to

  him that, in future, my bill was to be rendered to me

  personally. As a matter of fact, my expenses had never been so

  large as to alarm me, nor to lead me to quit the hotel; while,

  moreover, I still had 16o gulden left to me, and--in them--yes, in

  them, perhaps, riches awaited me. It was a curious fact, that,

  though I had not yet won anything at play, I nevertheless acted,

  thought, and felt as though I were sure, before long, to become

  wealthy-- since I could not imagine myself otherwise.

  Next, I bethought me, despite the earliness of the hour, of going

  to see Mr. Astley, who was staying at the Hotel de l'Angleterre

  (a hostelry at no great distance from our own). But suddenly De

  Griers entered my room. This had never before happened, for of

  late that gentleman and I had stood on the most strained and

  distant of terms--he attempting no concealment of his contempt

  for me (he even made an express, point of showing it), and I

  having no reason to desire his company. In short, I detested

  him. Consequently, his entry at the present moment the more

  astounded me. At once I divined that something out of the way

  was on the carpet.

  He entered with marked affability, and began by complimenting me

  on my room. Then, perceiving that I had my hat in my hands, he

  inquired whither I was going so early; and, no sooner did he hear

  that I was bound for Mr. Astley's than he stopped, looked grave,

  and seemed plunged in thought.

  He was a true Frenchman insofar as that, though he could be

  lively and engaging when it suited him, he became insufferably

  dull and wearisome as soon as ever the need for being lively and

  engaging had passed. Seldom is a Frenchman NATURALLY civil: he

  is civil only as though to order and of set purpose. Also, if he

  thinks it incumbent upon him to be fanciful, original, and out

  of the way, his fancy always assumes a f
oolish, unnatural vein,

  for the reason that it is compounded of trite, hackneyed forms.

  In short, the natural Frenchman is a conglomeration of

  commonplace, petty, everyday positiveness, so that he is the

  most tedious person in the world.--Indeed, I believe that none

  but greenhorns and excessively Russian people feel an attraction

  towards the French; for, to any man of sensibility, such a

  compendium of outworn forms--a compendium which is built up of

  drawing-room manners, expansiveness, and gaiety--becomes at once

  over-noticeable and unbearable.

  "I have come to see you on business," De Griers began in a very

  off-hand, yet polite, tone; "nor will I seek to conceal from you

  the fact that I have come in the capacity of an emissary, of

  an intermediary, from the General. Having small knowledge of the

  Russian tongue, I lost most of what was said last night; but, the

  General has now explained matters, and I must confess that--"

  "See here, Monsieur de Griers," I interrupted. "I understand

  that you have undertaken to act in this affair as an

  intermediary. Of course I am only 'un utchitel,' a tutor, and

  have never claimed to be an intimate of this household, nor to

  stand on at all familiar terms with it. Consequently, I do not

  know the whole of its circumstances. Yet pray explain to me this:

  have you yourself become one of its members, seeing that you are

  beginning to take such a part in everything, and are now present

  as an intermediary?"

  The Frenchman seemed not over-pleased at my question. It was one

  which was too outspoken for his taste--and he had no mind to be

  frank with me.

  "I am connected with the General," he said drily, "partly

  through business affairs, and partly through special

  circumstances. My principal has sent me merely to ask you to

  forego your intentions of last evening. What you contemplate is,

  I have no doubt, very clever; yet he has charged me to represent

  to you that you have not the slightest chance of succeeding in

  your end, since not only will the Baron refuse to receive you,

  but also he (the Baron) has at his disposal every possible means

  for obviating further unpleasantness from you. Surely you can

  see that yourself? What, then, would be the good of going on

  with it all? On the other hand, the General promises that at the

  first favourable opportunity he will receive you back into his

  household, and, in the meantime, will credit you with your

  salary--with 'vos appointements.' Surely that will suit you, will

  it not?"

  Very quietly I replied that he (the Frenchman) was labouring

  under a delusion; that perhaps, after all, I should not be

  expelled from the Baron's presence, but, on the contrary, be

  listened to; finally, that I should be glad if Monsieur de

  Griers would confess that he was now visiting me merely in order

  to see how far I intended to go in the affair.

  "Good heavens!" cried de Griers. "Seeing that the General

  takes such an interest in the matter, is there anything very

  unnatural in his desiring also to know your plans? "

  Again I began my explanations, but the Frenchman only fidgeted

  and rolled his head about as he listened with an expression of

  manifest and unconcealed irony on his face. In short, he adopted

  a supercilious attitude. For my own part, I endeavoured to

  pretend that I took the affair very seriously. I declared that,

  since the Baron had gone and complained of me to the General, as

  though I were a mere servant of the General's, he had, in the

  first place, lost me my post, and, in the second place, treated

  me like a person to whom, as to one not qualified to answer for

  himself, it was not even worth while to speak. Naturally, I

  said, I felt insulted at this. Yet, comprehending as I did,

  differences of years, of social status, and so forth (here I

  could scarcely help smiling), I was not anxious to bring about

  further scenes by going personally to demand or to request

  satisfaction of the Baron. All that I felt was that I had a

  right to go in person and beg the Baron's and the Baroness's

  pardon--the more so since, of late, I had been feeling unwell and

  unstrung, and had been in a fanciful condition. And so forth,

  and so forth. Yet (I continued) the Baron's offensive behaviour

  to me of yesterday (that is to say, the fact of his referring

  the matter to the General) as well as his insistence that the

  General should deprive me of my post, had placed me in such a

  position that I could not well express my regret to him (the

  Baron) and to his good lady, for the reason that in all

  probability both he and the Baroness, with the world at large,

  would imagine that I was doing so merely because I hoped, by my

  action, to recover my post. Hence, I found myself forced to

  request the Baron to express to me HIS OWN regrets, as well as

  to express them in the most unqualified manner--to say, in fact,

  that he had never had any wish to insult me. After the Baron had

  done THAT, I should, for my part, at once feel free to express

  to him, whole-heartedly and without reserve, my own regrets."

  In short," I declared in conclusion, " my one desire is that the

  Baron may make it possible for me to adopt the latter course."

  "Oh fie! What refinements and subtleties!" exclaimed De

  Griers. "Besides, what have you to express regret for? Confess,

  Monsieur, Monsieur--pardon me, but I have forgotten your

  name--confess, I say, that all this is merely a plan to annoy the

  General? Or perhaps, you have some other and special end in

  view? Eh?"

  "In return you must pardon ME, mon cher Marquis, and tell me

  what you have to do with it."

  "The General--"

  "But what of the General? Last night he said that, for some

  reason or another, it behoved him to 'move with especial care at

  present;' wherefore, he was feeling nervous. But I did not

  understand the reference."

  "Yes, there DO exist special reasons for his doing so,"

  assented De Griers in a conciliatory tone, yet with rising

  anger. "You are acquainted with Mlle. de Cominges, are you not?"

  "Mlle. Blanche, you mean?"

  "Yes, Mlle. Blanche de Cominges. Doubtless you know also that

  the General is in love with this young lady, and may even be

  about to marry her before he leaves here? Imagine, therefore,

  what any scene or scandal would entail upon him!"

  "I cannot see that the marriage scheme need, be affected by

  scenes or scandals."

  "Mais le Baron est si irascible--un caractere prussien, vous

  savez! Enfin il fera une querelle d'Allemand."

  "I do not care," I replied, "seeing that I no longer belong to

  his household" (of set purpose I was trying to talk as

  senselessly as possible). "But is it quite settled that Mlle.

  is to marry the General? What are they waiting for? Why should

  they conceal such a matter--at all events from ourselves, the

  General's own party?"

  "I cannot tell you. The marriage is not yet a settled affair,r />
  for they are awaiting news from Russia. The General has business

  transactions to arrange."

  "Ah! Connected, doubtless, with madame his mother?"

  De Griers shot at me a glance of hatred.

  "To cut things short," he interrupted, "I have complete

  confidence in your native politeness, as well as in your tact

  and good sense. I feel sure that you will do what I suggest,

  even if it is only for the sake of this family which has

  received you as a kinsman into its bosom and has always loved

  and respected you."

  "Be so good as to observe," I remarked, "that the same family

  has just EXPELLED me from its bosom. All that you are saying you

  are saying but for show; but, when people have just said to you,

  'Of course we do not wish to turn you out, yet, for the sake of

  appearance's, you must PERMIT yourself to be turned out,'

  nothing can matter very much."

  "Very well, then," he said, in a sterner and more arrogant

  tone. "Seeing that my solicitations have had no effect upon

  you, it is my duty to mention that other measures will be taken.

  There exist here police, you must remember, and this very day

  they shall send you packing. Que diable! To think of a blanc bec

  like yourself challenging a person like the Baron to a duel! Do

  you suppose that you will be ALLOWED to do such things? Just try

  doing them, and see if any one will be afraid of you! The reason

  why I have asked you to desist is that I can see that your

  conduct is causing the General annoyance. Do you believe that

  the Baron could not tell his lacquey simply to put you out of

  doors?"

  "Nevertheless I should not GO out of doors," I retorted with

  absolute calm. "You are labouring under a delusion, Monsieur de

  Griers. The thing will be done in far better trim than you

  imagine. I was just about to start for Mr. Astley's, to ask him

  to be my intermediary--in other words, my second. He has a strong

  liking for me, and I do not think that he will refuse. He will

  go and see the Baron on MY behalf, and the Baron will certainly

  not decline to receive him. Although I am only a tutor--a kind of

  subaltern, Mr. Astley is known to all men as the nephew of a

  real English lord, the Lord Piebroch, as well as a lord in his

  own right. Yes, you may be pretty sure that the Baron will be

  civil to Mr. Astley, and listen to him. Or, should he decline to

  do so, Mr. Astley will take the refusal as a personal affront to

  himself (for you know how persistent the English are?) and

  thereupon introduce to the Baron a friend of his own (and he has

  many friends in a good position). That being so, picture to

  yourself the issue of the affair--an affair which will not quite

  end as you think it will."

  This caused the Frenchman to bethink him of playing the coward.

  "Really things may be as this fellow says," he evidently

  thought. "Really he MIGHT be able to engineer another scene."

  "Once more I beg of you to let the matter drop," he continued

  in a tone that was now entirely conciliatory. "One would think

  that it actually PLEASED you to have scenes! Indeed, it is a

  brawl rather than genuine satisfaction that you are seeking. I

  have said that the affair may prove to be diverting, and even

  clever, and that possibly you may attain something by it; yet

  none the less I tell you" (he said this only because he saw me

  rise and reach for my hat) "that I have come hither also to

  hand you these few words from a certain person. Read them,

  please, for I must take her back an answer."

  So saying, he took from his pocket a small, compact,

  wafer-sealed note, and handed it to me. In Polina's handwriting

  I read:

  "I hear that you are thinking of going on with this affair. You

  have lost your temper now, and are beginning to play the fool!

  Certain circumstances, however, I may explain to you later. Pray

  cease from your folly, and put a check upon yourself. For folly

  it all is. I have need of you, and, moreover, you have promised

  to obey me. Remember the Shlangenberg. I ask you to be

 

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