by John Saul
“That’s what I love about you,” Arch Cranston said, leaning over to kiss Eve’s cheek and ignoring her attempt to turn her head away. “You’re always on time—not like other women!”
Eve silently credited her mental gambling account with a five dollar win. “Flattery will get you everywhere, Arch,” she replied, covering her annoyance at his cliché with one of her own. Arch, dependably, had no clue he was being mocked, but Carey Atkinson winked at her as they all sat down.
“So what’s it going to be?” Atkinson asked as he signaled the waiter. “Are we going to pretend to be civilized and make small talk, or shall we get right to it?”
“I’ve never pretended to be civilized,” Eve replied. “That’s how I keep my seat. But I hear all kinds of things, and right now I’m hearing some very strange things about the young man who died in the Corrections transport van yesterday morning.”
The two men glanced at each other, and while Cranston shifted uneasily in his seat, Atkinson leaned forward and asked, “Just what is it you’re hearing, Eve?”
She could see by their expressions that they knew exactly what she was talking about, but she’d been in politics long enough to know when a charade needed to be played out. “I happened to run into Jeff Converse’s father this afternoon,” she said. “It seems he doesn’t believe his son is dead.”
Atkinson visibly relaxed. “Keith Converse seems to have been getting around today. How did he get to your office?”
“He didn’t. I met him in the subway.” As briefly as she could, Eve told them what had happened. When she was finished, neither Arch Cranston or Carey Atkinson said anything, and as the silence lengthened, Eve went on: “I also heard that the man he talked to—whose name was Al Kelly—is dead. Stabbed in an alley, apparently so he could be relieved of the five dollars Mr. Converse gave him for telling him about the wreck.”
“So Al Kelly was the drunk?” Arch Cranston said.
“Al Kelly had a drinking problem, yes,” Eve replied. “Many of the homeless do.” Her eyes fixed on Carey Atkinson. “I’m assuming your department won’t be able to find out who killed Al Kelly?”
Atkinson shrugged, spreading his hands helplessly. “You know as well as I do that we don’t have the manpower to investigate every derelict who gets himself killed in this city.”
“You’d find the manpower if you cared as much about the problems of the homeless as I do.” Eve shifted her gaze to Arch Cranston. “Which brings us around to the other reason we’re here tonight, doesn’t it? I didn’t see you at the benefit for Montrose House last night.” Her eyes flicked back to the police chief. “I didn’t expect to see you.”
Cranston reached into the inside pocket of his jacket and pulled out a thick envelope, which Eve eyed warily. “It’s for Monsignor McGuire.”
“Then send it to him,” Eve said, making no move at all to pick up the envelope. “What I’m more concerned about is the way the department is hassling our people.” Her eyes went back to the police chief. “How is it that you don’t have the manpower to find out who kills homeless people, but you always have the manpower to run them off the streets?”
Atkinson shook his head impatiently. “There aren’t that many of them—” he began, but Eve didn’t let him finish.
“There are probably fifty thousand people living either on or under the streets of this city, and you know it.”
Atkinson shook his head doggedly. “There aren’t more than a tenth that number.”
Eve didn’t bother to respond. Both of them were aware of the fact that he knew better. The waiter arrived to take their order, and when he left, she returned to the subject of Jeff Converse. “I told the father I’d look into it,” she said. “Obviously, I’m not going to be able to talk to Al Kelly to ask him what he saw myself, so I’m asking you two—is it possible that what Al Kelly told Mr. Converse could have happened? If I tell him you’re positive his son is dead, is he going to be able to prove me wrong?”
Atkinson shook his head. “Converse made enough of a stink at the M.E.’s office that I heard about it, and I also heard from Wilkerson, the captain over at the Fifth Precinct. Mr. Converse was in there this morning, too, wanting to see the report on the accident.”
“And he saw it?” Eve asked.
Atkinson shook his head. “In the end, he decided he didn’t have to. He talked to the officers who caught the call.”
“Then that’s it?” Eve asked.
“That’s it,” Arch Cranston assured her. “If Converse actually comes back to you, you can tell him there was no mistake—his son died in the fire.” He shook his head with the exaggerated sadness that comes so naturally to politicians. “A terrible thing—no matter what the boy did, I wouldn’t wish that kind of death on him.”
Eve Harris raised her brow but said nothing about Arch Cranston’s transparent insincerity. Instead, she returned to the subject, and the name Keith Converse had mentioned.
“There was also a man called Scratch. According to Keith Converse, this Scratch led his son into the subway.” She pinned Atkinson to his chair with her dark eyes. “It would seem to me that if he exists, someone at least ought to talk to him. Do I need to talk to Wilkerson about that myself?”
Atkinson sighed heavily. “No, Eve. I’ll have someone call the Fifth in the morning—hell, maybe I’ll even do it tonight. But if this guy lives in the tunnels, don’t count on my men finding him.”
This time Eve made no attempt to keep the mocking gleam from showing in her eyes. “Oh, heavens no, Carey. I certainly wouldn’t expect New York’s Finest to risk their lives down in those terrible tunnels. After all, they might get beaten up by a gang of rampaging homeless single mothers, wielding their fatherless babies! Wouldn’t want New York’s Finest to have to risk their lives against that, would we?”
Carey Atkinson chose to ignore her words, but Arch Cranston, his eyes flicking around the room in order to gauge the number of people who might have heard Eve’s outburst, did not.
“Come on, Eve,” he said, loudly enough for the woman listening from the next table to hear it as clearly as she’d heard Eve Harris. “Give Carey a break. You know what kind of people live in the tunnels. Hell, you probably know better than any of us. And you know what it’s like down there.”
Eve’s lips smiled, but her eyes did not. “We all know what it’s like down there,” she said. “And we all know what goes on. But sometimes I think I’m the only one in this whole city who actually wants to do something about it. The rest of you just want to—” She cut herself short, knowing she was starting to sound like a broken record. Besides, each person at the table knew perfectly well what the others wanted.
They also knew that people in their positions never discussed their true desires in public.
The truth, always, was reserved for intimate conversations in the most private of settings.
And that was a rule that even Eve Harris believed in keeping.
CHAPTER 17
Heather Randall stood at the window of Jeff’s apartment, where Keith had been standing when she arrived half an hour ago. On the corner below, kitty-corner from the drugstore, she saw Jeff’s favorite Chinese restaurant, where she had often found him sitting in the front booth, shoulders hunched in concentration as he pored over a textbook. Now she forced that memory away and turned from the window.
The room was exactly as it had been the night of Jeff’s arrest. The last project he’d been working on—a design for a small office–cum–guest house for one of her father’s neighbors in the Hamptons—was still pinned to the drafting board that covered the small room’s only table. Her finger absently traced one of the graceful lines of the unfinished drawing—a line that managed to echo the architecture of the main house without imitating it.
The drawing, like the room itself, felt suspended in time, waiting for Jeff to come back.
But that was absurd—Jeff wasn’t coming back, despite the strange story his father had just told her. Yet even as sh
e tried once more to reject Keith Converse’s fantasy, she imagined Jeff saying, We’ll know when we get there.
Her eyes wandered over the room. Every object in it, from the posters on the walls that depicted Jeff’s favorite buildings to the shelves of books ranging from architecture through poetry to zoology, were as familiar to her as the things in her own bedroom on Fifth Avenue. More familiar, in a way, for despite the cramped dimensions and worn-out furnishings of the tiny room, she had always felt more at home here than in the cavernous apartment in which she’d grown up. “I love this place,” she said, almost as much to herself as to Keith. He was straddling a battered wooden chair she and Jeff had found at a flea market on one of their Sunday walks. At five dollars, it had been too good a bargain to pass up. Jeff had just begun refinishing it when he was arrested. Now his father’s arms rested on its sanded oak back, and he watched her in a way that reminded her of Jeff. “How long are you going to keep it?” she asked, her eyes sweeping the room once more.
“It’s not mine to keep or give up,” Keith replied. “It’s Jeff’s. All I’m doing is paying the rent till he comes back.”
Heather moved back to the window, hugging herself in unconscious defense against the chill that suddenly wrapped itself around her. “You’re so sure he’s coming back?”
“If he was dead, I’d know it. He’s my son. If something happened to him, I’d feel it. And I don’t feel it.” Though she still had her back to him, she could feel his eyes boring into her. “You don’t feel it, either,” he went on. “That’s why you came here tonight.”
Heather spun around, her eyes glistening. “I don’t know why I came here tonight,” she began. “I just—I was—” But then the truth of his words hit her, and her tears dried up. “You’re right,” she said, her voice steady now. “I don’t feel like he’s dead. So what do we do?”
“We find out what happened,” Keith replied. “And we find him.”
Heather dropped onto the chair opposite Keith. “Do you have any idea what you’re saying?” she asked.
Keith’s eyes narrowed and she saw his jaw set exactly the same way Jeff’s did when he’d made up his mind about something. “What is it with all you people?” he demanded. “How come everyone in this city thinks they know every goddamn thing there is to know, and the rest of us don’t know jack shit? Pardon my French, but if all you’re gonna do is patronize me—”
“Patronize you!” Heather cut in. “When have I ever patronized you or anybody else?”
“All you people—”
“All ‘us people’? What’s this got to do with ‘us people’? This is about Jeff, remember? And I’m not trying to act like I know everything about anything! All I know is that you don’t just go out and find someone in New York City. Especially if they don’t want to be found.”
A flicker of uncertainty tempered the anger in Keith’s expression. “What do you mean, not want to be found? Why wouldn’t he—”
Heather was back on her feet. “He was going to prison, remember? So even if you’re right, and he got out of that van, where was he going to go? The police? All they’d do is send him back to jail.”
“But he didn’t do anything, goddamn it!”
Now Heather’s eyes were blazing as angrily as Keith’s. “And who cares about that, except you and me? No one. So tell me—even if we can find Jeff, what are we going to do?” She turned back to the window and gazed into the night. At the corner, a shabbily dressed woman was maneuvering a small wire shopping cart down the stairs to one of the entrances to the 110th Street station. She did it with as much care as if it contained boxes packed with crystal and china instead of a jumbled mass of filthy clothes and blankets. The old woman paused, turned around, and looked up, almost as if she felt Heather watching her. She seemed to look right at the window for a moment, just as Heather had looked up at Keith a little while ago. Then the woman turned away and continued down into the subway.
As Heather’s eyes remained fastened on the subway entrance, something flickered at the edge of her mind—something Keith had said earlier, as he was telling her what happened that morning. As she continued to stare at the subway entrance, it came to her.
She whirled around and said, “I’ll bet no one ever even talked to them!”
Keith looked up at her in confusion. What was she talking about?
“The homeless people!” Heather said, her excitement growing as the idea gripped her mind. “The people who live in the subway stations and the train stations. What if one of them saw what happened to Cindy Allen that night?”
“The police must have talked to them . . .” Keith began, but his words died away as he remembered what he’d heard at the Fifth Precinct that very morning: “They’re all addicts and crazies . . . you can’t believe a word they say.”
Heather’s voice trembled with excitement. “The police—the whole city—hardly even admit they exist! Daddy says the police won’t even go into the tunnels where most of them live. He says it’s way too dangerous. Keith, what if no one ever even asked any of them? Let’s try!”
He was going to die.
Jeff wasn’t certain how long he’d known—wasn’t certain even if there had been a moment when that terrible knowledge had crept into his mind, taken root, and begun to grow. It was like a disease, a cancer that had established an invisible beachhead on a single cell, then slowly reproduced, spread out, so that by the time it was big enough to be noticed, the tumor had a firm grip on the body. By now, however, the sure knowledge of his coming death was always in his thoughts.
The batteries in Jagger’s flashlight had already died, though he still clutched it tightly in his hand, as if somehow he might transfer some of the energy from his body into the useless cells. Jeff’s light was now the only weapon they had against the darkness. Every time he turned it on, the beam looked weaker. Soon it would completely die away.
Jeff tried to avoid that thought, but it kept coming back, and each time it did, it was harder to ignore. He knew what would happen when the light finally went out: they would have to feel their way along, keeping their fingers in contact with the walls as much to keep their balance as to guide them. But how long could they do that? How long would it be before they stumbled into one of the shafts that led downward, and plunged to an even deeper darkness?
Maybe, when the light finally died, he would find it better simply to sit down, rest against the wall, and wait until his soul slipped from the darkness of the tunnels into the final oblivion of death. By then, death might even be welcome. He began to imagine that the light he’d read about—the light people saw at the far end of the long tunnel that led toward death, the brilliant light that shone down out of eternity—was starting to become visible, offering a release from the darkness in which he was spending these final hours.
“There it is again,” he heard Jagger whisper.
The words penetrated Jeff’s mind slowly, pushing through the fog of exhaustion, hunger, and hopelessness.
How long ago had Jagger started leading? An hour? Two hours? Ten minutes?
When Jagger had first grabbed him in the darkness, jerking him to a stop, muttering about a glimmer of light up ahead, Jeff willed himself to see whatever his companion had seen. But he didn’t see a thing, and when Jagger quickened his pace, certain that something had flickered in the darkness just ahead, Jeff had to struggle to keep up.
“Feel it?” Jagger whispered a little later. “We’re getting close to something.” Then, a second later: “There! Up ahead! See it?” But despite the certainty in Jagger’s voice, Jeff had still seen nothing. He’d followed anyway, letting Jagger lead them toward the hallucinatory beacon. What did it matter where they went? They were lost in the labyrinth, and he was already sure that every passage would ultimately lead to the same place.
Death.
Now, finally seeing a tiny light himself, he wondered if it truly was a flickering beacon in the blackness, or the dying spark of his own mortality, glimmering in the
darkness of his soul.
No, he told himself. I’m not going to die. Not yet. I’m going to live. I’m going to live, and I’m going to get out, and I’m going to be free.
Steeling himself, he fixed his eyes on the faint light. . . .
Creeper peered through the night scope just long enough to confirm that the two figures were still moving through the murky green fog that filled the scope’s narrow field. Satisfied, he let the instrument drop down to dangle from the strap around his neck. He didn’t need it. This part of the maze of tunnels was as familiar to him as the backyard of the house where he’d grown up.
The herders had done their job well tonight—the two men were exactly where they were supposed to be. In another few minutes, Creeper knew, it would be time for him to take over.
Even through the scope, he’d been able to tell that these two were a little different from the others.
Maybe it was just because there were two of them this time. Always before, there had only been one, and by the time Creeper “found” him, the man was usually in such bad shape that he almost had to carry him to the camp. Usually they were talking to themselves. Once, the herders had let someone stay in the blackness so long that by the time Creeper got to him he’d gone crazy, babbling about monsters and demons. Creeper had done his job and gotten him to camp, but the man had screamed so long into the night that finally Willie hadn’t been able to stand it anymore and had made him shut up.