It was an opening she’d been hoping for. Rachel quickly typed, Tell me what happened to him. To you. Conyod says you’ve both changed so much.
Erybet’s full lips pressed together, thinning. He shook his head. “It’s classified information, Ray-Ray. If I tell you, it could put me in prison.”
Rachel felt shock reverberate throughout her body. He could be jailed for revealing his pain? To anyone? She scowled. If Erybet and Sletran were suffering, they needed some outlet to express themselves. They wouldn’t heal otherwise.
You are my clan. I would never keep secrets from you because I trust you. You can trust me to keep your secrets no matter what. You know how strong I am when it comes to keeping my mouth shut.
Erybet snorted dismal laughter. “A little too strong, my love. To the point where you can’t even speak your own language.”
He’d called her his love several times over the last hour. It warmed Rachel’s heart, and she reasoned it had to count for something in the realm of trust. You are healing me. Let me do the same for you.
Erybet’s struggle was evident in his face. She sensed he wanted to tell her, but fear of authority, of punishment, and maybe even more was making it difficult for him.
He finally sighed. “Secrets are destroying my clan. A unit such as ours cannot survive under their weight. I nearly lost Conyod because I kept quiet. I still may lose Sletran if we don’t handle the issue carefully. His life would be at stake if it all came out.”
Rachel’s eyes widened. That was serious.
Erybet sat in silence for so long that Rachel thought he might not speak after all. It gave her time to wonder if she really wanted to know what had happened during the war.
When he spoke, it was so sudden that she jumped. “You know of the New Bethlehem Slaughter of Innocents?”
Rachel nodded. It was the worst crime to come out of the war next to Armageddon.
“Sletran and I were there. We gave the orders that killed those people.”
Rachel stared. Her heart felt as if it had stopped. She couldn’t believe it. Wouldn’t believe it. She shook her head.
Erybet stared into her eyes, and she saw the truth in them. “Yes, Ray-Ray. We are the men directly responsible for the murders of over twenty Mataras and their children.”
Her heart lurched into gear again, thumping painfully against her breastbone. Betrayal and rage lit and burned in her head. Words of hate wanted to spill from her lips, but she couldn’t utter them.
Over and over in her head the words ran. I am clanned to monsters.
She typed with shaking fingers. How could you? The war was over. What could you gain by slaughtering those who had never harmed you?
She was crying again, crying in fury that she had been so stupid to trust in these men, these brutal killers. Her instincts had been all wrong about Erybet and Sletran. Completely, totally wrong.
Erybet didn’t try to hold her in his arms, perhaps discerning she would fight him. “It was a terrible mistake, Ray-Ray. Please, for your sake and mine, let me tell you how it happened, from start to finish.”
A mistake? How did one call that massacre a mistake?
Yet something inside Rachel made her sit there, made her listen to Erybet. Perhaps it was because she still wanted to believe. It could have been the naked anguish in his eyes that froze her there. And as he related the story in a voice shaken with emotion, she slowly came to grips with the horror.
Her anger dissipated when she heard that Erybet was not to blame. He’d trusted Sletran to make the final decision and to execute the mission properly. And what of Sletran’s hand in the slaughter? Could it be he truly was as much a victim of circumstance as Erybet?
She’d seen nothing in her Nobek that could make her believe he was a coldhearted killer.
She worried that her ability to assess the true natures of people had faltered however.
Kalquorians were of a different species and many of their ways were foreign to her. Was she ready to believe Sletran was a victim of circumstance because of wishful thinking? Because she didn’t want to admit she might have committed her life to a monster?
She was sure of one thing: the massacre was not the result of a simple mistake.
“Gurlucks,” she spat.
Erybet paled. “Matara, I swear to you we didn’t know—”
She quieted him with a gentle hand pressing against his lips. She typed, Not you. Not Sletran. Those who fed you lies that the insurgents were the ones who were in that building.
Those who set you up, possibly one of your own.
Erybet’s brows knit together. “No one would do such a thing. Not any of the men I worked with. Not my fellow soldiers.”
Rachel gave him a bitter smile. My government’s military did it all the time. Lies, torture, murdering of their own citizens. It was part of what I fought against. It’s what people I loved died for. It’s what gave me the scars I still carry.
He looked horrified. “But the war was over. The Earther colonists were being victimized by the rebels as much as we were. There was no need for any of us to kill women and children.”
Trust me on this, Erybet. I know treachery. I can sense it from miles away. You were deliberately misled. That’s not the worst part, though.
She could tell he didn’t want to believe her suspicions, and it was with great reluctance that he asked, “What do you mean?”
The bastards who are really responsible for the massacre got away with it.
Erybet had nothing to say about that. He was fighting the idea that one of his own had turned on him and Sletran, using them to kill and letting them suffer for guilt that didn’t belong to them.
Rachel believed it though. She had to, or the blame sat squarely on Sletran. She didn’t think her newfound love for the Nobek could survive such a thing. So someone else was involved and the slaughter had been carried off on purpose.
It was a hard thing to bear. She either had to despise her clanmate, something she rejected utterly, or seethe with impotent rage at a faceless enemy. The lack of constructive options pissed her off the most. The old anger at injustice burned bright within her, and just as it had been on Earth, there wasn’t a damned thing she could do about it.
Chapter 15
Conyod and Sletran left the Imdiko’s office after he’d finally finished delegating his workload. Fortunately, Conyod’s Nobek father Vel had stopped in, being in the capital on one of his many business trips. Sletran had been happy to converse at length with the elder Nobek about the clanning of Rachel, the needs of Mataras, and the myriad ways Sletran could ensure his new mate’s safety. Then to Conyod’s chagrin, the two men cornered an unfortunate supervisor of the hospital’s security and grilled him ruthlessly on the safeguards in place for doctors on staff. Sletran had already gone over the situation, but that had been a month ago. Sometimes administration made budget cuts and security suffered. He would not allow his Imdiko to be at unnecessary risk under any circumstances, and having Conyod’s father along to impress the need for the best protection possible was a bonus.
Conyod buried himself in his work and pretended he didn’t know the two men.
The security supervisor, a much older Nobek named Nar, patiently assured them nothing had changed since Sletran’s last check. Then he looked Sletran over, as if sizing him up.
“Are you still on leave from your military duties, Nobek?” he asked.
Sletran stiffened. It was humiliating to have been put on leave, no matter the reason. He hated discussing it with anyone outside his clan. “I am.”
Nar seemed pleased. “We are hiring more security due to the issues of Matara safety. Your name came up as a good candidate for the work for as long as you remain off duty. If you’re interested, I can have you fill out the necessary forms.”
Vel prodded him. “That would be perfect, Sletran. Having you here will go a long way to easing my concerns about Conyod’s welfare.”
Sletran considered. He liked the idea of being h
ere with Conyod, with all those at the hospital who needed his protection. Rachel would have Erybet to keep her company during those hours, and there would still be plenty of time to work on her language skills – as well as other things. He nodded. “That sounds like a wonderful opportunity, Nobek Nar.”
“Excellent. Give me your contact information and I will send you details on the position as well as the forms.”
Vel left twenty minutes before Conyod shut his computer down and announced he was ready to leave. As Sletran walked at his side through the psychiatric wing, Conyod checked his handheld.
“Message from Erybet. He says he and Rachel are picking up the midday meal and meeting us at home,” he reported.
“Excellent,” Sletran said, realizing as he spoke he sounded anything but pleased. At Conyod’s questioning look, he added, “I’m seeing a lot of grim faces around here, my Imdiko.”
Conyod gave his attention to the small knots of orderlies whispering amongst themselves in the hall. His brows lowered. “I wonder what’s going on? There are Govi and Kivokan. Let’s see what they know.”
They approached the two doctors standing just outside Kivokan’s office. Conyod’s superiors turned to them. Sletran noted how the always pleasant Govi looked not only stunned but furious as well.
Conyod told them, “I just finished allocating my caseload for the week, doctors. What has everyone looking so worried?”
Govi spoke in a low tone. “Body parts were found at the complex for Earther Mataras.”
Conyod gasped. “Body parts? Not of women?”
Govi nodded, motioning for Sletran’s clanmate to keep his voice down. “My Nobek Raxstad says it looks like trophies from the New Bethlehem slaughter.”
The lights emitting from the wall panels suddenly looked terribly bright to Sletran. The heightened illumination stabbed into his skull painfully. At the same time, he felt eyes on him and looked at Dr. Kivokan. The Dramok was watching him with a narrowed stare.
Kivokan asked, “Are you all right, Nobek?”
Sletran’s lips felt numb, and he wondered how he moved them. His voice floated far away.
“This news is terrible. Is it on the news feeds yet?”
Govi nodded. “Apparently, many of the abductions have actually been killings committed by someone calling himself the Beast of New Bethlehem. The details have been kept quiet until now to keep everyone from panicking, but Global Security is giving the public information now in hopes that heightened vigilance will keep the Mataras safe.”
Sletran fought to maintain his equilibrium. Damn it, why were the lights so bright in here?
Kivokan’s stare was also making him want to fidget, though no Nobek would ever do so. He had an urge to claw the man’s eyes out.
Despite Conyod standing right next to him, the Imdiko’s voice was also far away, as if traveling through a long tunnel to reach him. “How many murder victims are we talking about?”
Govi shook his head, as if to deny the words he himself spoke. “At least ten. The killer claims there are more; that he started at New Bethlehem. That he himself was responsible for the massacre.” He turned to Kivokan. “We need to call a meeting with staff. The Mataras in our care here don’t need to hear of this. They live in fear as it is. And let’s see about doubling security in this wing.”
To Sletran’s relief, Kivokan finally moved his too-sharp gaze to address Govi. “I’ll get right on it. Is this afternoon good for the staff meeting?”
“The sooner the better.”
Conyod hands were opening and closing in agitation. “Should I put off my leave?”
Govi patted him on the shoulder. “Go home and take care of Rachel. She’ll feel safer with her full clan around her.”
Unless someone in her clan is the Beast. The thought spiraled through Sletran’s buzzing skull. It was all he could do to not shout it for all to hear. Feeling barely tethered to reality, Sletran followed Conyod out to the hospital’s docking bay.
* * * *
Conyod noticed Sletran’s silence as they rode home. He could appreciate the horror his clanmate felt, given the connection between the terrible events of New Bethlehem and this new development with the Matara killings.
He tried to draw the Nobek out a little. “Are you all right?”
“No. And I don’t want to discuss it right now.”
Conyod didn’t pursue the issue. He’d already poked at Sletran’s problems quite a bit today, and now his Nobek was trying to absorb the latest shock. He should give him time to let it sink in.
They reached home without incident and found Erybet waiting for them in the dining room, along with lunch. Before Conyod could ask, the Dramok said, “If you two can wait a few minutes, Ray-Ray is having a quick bath.” His voice turned sharp as he looked them over.
“Why do you look so grim?”
When Sletran didn’t speak up, Conyod filled Erybet in on the latest news. Erybet’s expression was horrified. All the color drained from his face to hear body parts from New Bethlehem had been found in the Matara compound.
“What nightmare is this?” he whispered. “Why won’t it end?”
“You should take me to Global Security. Turn me in for suspicion of being the killer.”
Conyod and Erybet stared at Sletran, whose low voice had spoken those words. Conyod wondered if his clanmate’s mind had finally broken under the stress.
He said, “Don’t be ridiculous. You’d never kill Mataras. No one with half a brain would believe it.”
Staring at the floor, Sletran muttered, “I already have. The deaths of all those innocents on New Bethlehem preys on my mind. I should be punished.”
Sounding more tired than insistent, Erybet said, “New Bethlehem was not your fault.”
Sletran’s head lifted and he glared at Erybet. “We have to face the facts: I could be the murderer. For the sakes of the women on this planet, I should be locked up.”
Conyod couldn’t figure out why his Nobek was so adamant about perhaps being the killer.
The man’s guilt was destroying him. “Stop it, Sletran. I know you, and you’re no murderer.”
Sletran turned that burning gaze on him. “What about the time I keep losing? Who knows what I’ve been doing when my mind goes blank? Why wouldn’t it be me?”
Conyod’s mouth dropped open. For a brief moment, he contemplated what his clanmate was saying. Sletran was missing a lot of time, time when no one knew where he was.
But it was Sletran. His Nobek. Therefore, it was impossible. The Imdiko became angry that he’d given the matter a second thought. “Just shut up, Sletran. There is no way you’re this Beast of New Bethlehem. Don’t say another fucking word about it!”
Sletran’s eyes narrowed and he took a step towards Conyod. His hand flashed out and snagged the hair at the back of the Imdiko’s head. He yanked him close. “You listen to me.
You cannot let your loyalty blind you to the possibility that I have lost all control.”
Conyod bared his fangs. His fists clenched. Then Erybet was shoving them apart.
“Let him go, Sletran. Both of you calm down. I’ll decide what to do about the situation.
For now, Nobek, go help your Matara take her bath.”
Sletran turned that hectic gaze from Conyod. “Erybet, I’m begging you—”
“Go.” The Dramok’s tone was firm and brooked no discussion. “You know how much better you feel when you’re with Rachel. I want you to concentrate on her care for right now.”
The Nobek’s shoulders drooped, but he left the room without another word. Conyod opened his mouth and then shut it again when Erybet narrowed his eyes and shook his head. They stood there, looking at each other, until they heard Rachel’s welcome to Sletran from the bathing pool.
Erybet stepped close enough that Conyod could feel the heat from his body. Speaking very quietly, the Dramok said, “I’ve noticed when Sletran becomes upset, that’s when he has those blackouts.”
Conyod matched t
he low volume of his voice, but his tone was intense. “He’s plenty upset now. As am I. I don’t believe for a second that he’s the killer, Erybet.”
Erybet looked down at Conyod, his stare hard and lasting far too long for comfort.
There’s no way Erybet could believe Sletran is capable of such atrocities. Conyod searched his leader’s eyes. Whatever Erybet’s thoughts, he gave no sign.
Still speaking in hushed tones, Erybet said, “He’ll try to leave at some point today. Probably after we’ve gone to bed. We’ll follow him and see where he goes. It’s time we solved the mystery of our Nobek’s missing time.”
“That’s exactly what I’ve been thinking. I was going to suggest it to you tonight.”
Erybet’s next words chilled the Imdiko. “Whatever we find, Conyod, we have to do what’s right. For everyone’s sake, no matter the consequences.”
Conyod swallowed. He again tried to reassure himself that Erybet didn’t think Sletran could possibly be the killer, but the grim set of his Dramok’s face frightened him.
* * * *
Sletran seemed to regain his equilibrium as the day passed. When he and Conyod learned Rachel and Erybet had performed at one of the pleasure clubs, they were first stunned, then quickly aroused by the story.
Conyod wasn’t sure Erybet should have done such a thing, certainly not without getting his input first. However, the news that Rachel had gained some confidence made him keep any censure he might have spoken to himself.
He looked his beaming Matara over with an assessing eye. “So you finally understand what I’ve been telling you all along. That your scars take away none of your beauty or worth.”
She ducked her head and shrugged. So I’m a little stubborn.
Conyod snorted. “Stubborn is understating it.”
Sletran’s big hand stroked over her hair. “Not only do they not make you ugly, but for me and I’m sure many of the Nobeks watching you, such marks only enhance your beauty. There is nothing more alluring to my breed than the evidence of strength.”
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