“Spitting in someone’s face in front of his friends is pretty big. Maybe that was the game changer.”
“Either way, it wasn’t Donovan’s fault. But the guy’s carried the weight of it for a long time.”
David nodded. “Maybe this case is a blessing. Maybe if she forgives him, he can forgive himself.”
“You never know. How are they getting along, anyway?”
David punched a few key strokes into the computer and one screen was filled with an image of Donovan in a pretty intense clutch with his target.
“See for yourself,” David said.
“Is that live?”
“Yeah.”
Ash pulled out his phone and punched a few curt words into his text app. A second later, Donovan pulled back from the girl and studied his phone, quickly leaving the room and her alone.
“What’d you say?”
Ash didn’t answer. He simply headed for the stairs.
“I’m going to the safe house.”
“Well, then you can tell Donovan that the threat was real.”
Ash paused on the bottom steps of the stairs. “How so?”
“The team found tool marks on the outside of one of the master bedroom windows. Someone was trying to force it open from the outside.”
Chapter 11
Donovan
Why did I kiss her? I knew better than that.
I slammed my hands against the closed door of another bedroom, cursing under my breath before opening the door and stepping inside, grabbing a shirt at random from the selection hanging in the closet. It was a simple button-down shirt, dark blue and unadorned. Then I turned back to leave, my eyes moving over the bed. My thoughts automatically jumped to a place they shouldn’t have gone. I could still feel her smooth skin against my hand; I could still taste her lips on mine. But allowing my thoughts to move on from there was irresponsible.
It was fucking stupid to kiss her in the first place. Knowing that Ash had seen it…I could lose my job over this.
Without my job I had nothing.
What the hell had I been thinking?
It was because it was Kate. Any other target and it wouldn’t have happened. But this was Kate and when I looked at her, when I found myself staring into those perfect eyes, I couldn’t keep the memories at bay. And that was my undoing.
I was never shy with women. I never had trouble getting what I wanted. I didn’t need to prey on the frightened CEOs and doctors and lawyers that we protected. I could have any woman I wanted.
But Kate was the first.
High school was a pit of juvenile hormones gone wild. I probably could have chosen better the girl who’d be my first. But Kate and I had a connection. I think I loved her since we were seven. And when she came around, when we shared that first kiss…
“I didn’t know you were here,” she said when she caught me in her family’s kitchen at two o’clock in the morning.
“Parents were fighting again. It was just easier to come over here than listen to them argue over which one of them had the responsibility of paying for my college tuition.”
“Why do they do that? Don’t they know a family is supposed to do everything together?”
“Yeah, well, I’m just the experiment that went bad. They couldn’t get rid of me, so they fight over which one is more responsible for my ongoing existence.”
“Remind me to never marry a research scientist.”
“I’ll do that.”
She came up behind me to grab a bottle of soda out of the fridge. I shifted, thinking I was giving her more room. Instead, I moved in such a way that she was practically in my arms. And just like the little wrestling match we’d had in the rec room the other day, there was something about the way she looked at me that made my heart stutter to a near stop.
She touched me first, reaching up and brushing her fingertips against my jaw. Yet, I hesitated. It was a moment that could change everything. And I didn’t want to destroy a lifelong friendship if I was misreading her signals. But then she drew that bottom lip between her teeth, and it was like an invitation that I couldn’t ignore.
I took hold of her jaw, cupping it in my hand, and tugged her lip out of her mouth so that I could kiss it. She sighed as she climbed up on her tiptoes, moving almost nose-to-nose with me as she returned my kiss. It was sweet and soul touching, the way she kissed me with an innocence I never doubted she possessed. And then the blush that burned her cheeks when she stepped away and offered me a soft goodnight. I watched her go, my heart ready to burst with the realization that she was mine now. That we had a secret that was only ours and would remain just ours for the rest of our lives.
I had to get my head out of the past.
I retraced my steps, returned to the living room and dialed David on my phone.
“Have they found anything?”
“Ash is on his way to talk to you.”
“Why?” I asked, hairs rising on the back of my neck.
“He wanted to speak to you in person.”
“About the alarm? Or about Kate?”
David was quiet for a moment and that told me what I needed to know.
“Tell him I’ll be waiting.”
“Listen, Donovan, Kirkland’s been caught in more than one compromising position. I wouldn’t worry about it.”
“Yeah, well, I’m not Kirkland.”
I disconnected the call and thought about texting Joss. If she had her case nearly wrapped up, maybe we could work something out. She would be the perfect companion for Kate. If she didn’t speak, she wouldn’t have to worry about Kate provoking her into an argument. And maybe Kate would have a great sounding board to get out all her frustrations and pent up anger.
But I didn’t.
I paced the living room, waiting. Kate came out of the bedroom, dressed in a pair of jeans that were a size too big and an oversized sweater that looked more like a blanket draped over her body than an article of clothing. She didn’t say anything; she didn’t even look at me, just took a seat on the low couch.
“Ash is on the way to let us know what’s going on.”
I watched her face for a reaction to Ash’s name. But she just shrugged.
“What happens then?”
“We stay here for a while.”
“Then I guess work is out of the question for tomorrow.”
I glanced at her, but she wasn’t looking at me. She was staring at the floor. With a heavy sigh, I went to her, sitting on the edge of the coffee table in front of her and taking her hands in mine.
“I know this is all disconcerting, but we’re trying to keep you safe.”
“And if there was someone outside my house? What does that mean?”
“I don’t know. Have you remembered anything?”
She shook her head. “I’ve tried. But that whole day is just a big blank.”
I nodded. “Okay.”
“What if I never remember?”
“It doesn’t matter. The cops are working on it. They’ll find whoever did this to that security guard—”
“Joe.”
I nodded, a little surprised by the forceful way in which she said it. But I knew why. I’d known plenty of soldiers who’d lost friends and were forced to listen to people refer to them by almost any term other than their name. It was dehumanizing and that was painful to people who still felt that person’s presence as acutely as they had when they were alive and well.
I knew how that felt.
“Joe,” I said. “They’ll find who killed Joe and you can go back to your life.”
She turned her hands, laced her fingers with mine. I thought she was going to say something, but the door opened and Ash was there, watching us silently from the across the room.
I pulled away and stood, watching as Ash approached Kate.
“How are you, Miss Thompson?”
She sat back and glanced at him, but then her eyes went down to where her hands were clutched in her lap. “How would anyone be after being
yanked out of their bed in the middle of the night?”
“I understand that this process can be frustrating, but your father hired us to keep you safe and that’s exactly what we’re trying to do.”
“I understand that.”
Ash glanced at me and I offered him all I could: a little shrug.
“If you’ll excuse us, I need to speak to Donovan for a second.”
“Whatever,” Kate said as she drew her legs up underneath her, busy working on a torn cuticle now.
Ash gestured for me to follow him into the kitchen.
“I want to apologize for what you saw on the monitors,” I began the moment we were out of earshot. “I realize it’s hardly professional—”
“We can talk about that when this is over,” Ash said. He looked me over for a long second as though checking for wounds. “Did you hear or see anything when you were getting her out of the house?”
I shook my head. “Not a sound.”
“The advance team found tool marks on her bedroom window. They think someone was trying to jimmy the window open.”
My heart sank. I was really hoping the alarm had been a false alarm, that a neighborhood cat or a raccoon had set it off. But now…there was a real threat against Kate.
“Do you have anything else? Fingerprints?”
“Not yet. I’ve called Emily and she’s on her way here.”
“Good.”
I turned and glanced into the living room, making sure Kate was still sitting where we left her. She was, her attention caught quite soundly by that pesky cuticle.
“Do I need to arrange for someone else to take over here?”
I turned back to Ash. “No, sir. Like I said, what happened before—”
Ash laid his hand on my shoulder. “I’m not worried about the appropriateness of it. I’m concerned about you. With your history with Kate, I just—”
“It won’t happen again.”
“Can I ask a private question?”
I was a little surprised that he would ask such a question. Ash was the closest thing I had to family, Ash and David and the others back at Gray Wolf. My parents were never really parents. I went to see them once a year out of a sense of obligation, but my true family was at Gray Wolf.
“You know you don’t have to ask.”
Ash glanced toward the living room, then focused hard on me. “Why do you let her blame you for what happened to her brother? I don’t know if you’ve seen it, but David showed me the police reports on the attack and there’s nothing—”
“I’ve seen them.”
Ash nodded. “It wasn’t anything you did. It was Joshua’s attempt to defend his sister’s honor that set the whole thing in motion.”
“Yes, well, it is partially my fault if you look at that way. I was, after all, the guy she was sneaking around with in the weeks leading up to graduation.”
Curiosity danced in Ash’s eyes, but he didn’t ask.
“Why not tell her the truth?” he asked instead.
“Because it would crush her if she thought that it was in any way her fault. Because I can’t put that burden on her.”
Ash shook his head. “So much damage from one kid’s stupid actions.”
I knew he was talking about John Kyle, the teenager whom police determined was the instigator of the fight and the perp who wielded the rock that took Joshua’s life after two days in a coma. But it felt like a comment aimed at Joshua—and that made my spine stiffen a little.
“He was supposed to be a doctor. Can you imagine how many lives he might have saved if he hadn’t died?”
Ash focused on me, his eyes filled with a sort of compassion that wasn’t quite pity, but wasn’t quite not pity either. Coming from anyone else, I would have resented it. But this was Ash, the guy I’d been to hell and back with. This was a man who deserved as much pity as anyone, what with the disappearance of Alexi. So I didn’t resent it.
“Things change. He might have changed his mind.”
“No. We were both planning on leaving for Stanford a week after graduation. We had a fellowship his dad had arranged for us through a friend. We had our whole future outlined for ourselves. Premed, medical school. Hopefully we’d match at the same hospital for our residency and fellowship.”
“You were going into medicine, too?”
I shrugged. “Ironic that I chose explosives instead, isn’t it?”
Ash again patted my shoulder. He was about to say something when Kate called out, fear in her voice.
“Someone’s here!”
Chapter 12
Kate
I was fuming. It seemed like every time Donovan had a moment alone with me, someone reminded him why he was really with me. I just wanted a minute; I just wanted to feel his hand in mine and wanted to taste his kiss. But they were always there.
And then those bitter thoughts started biting away at that desire.
How could I want him? After what he did? He was Joshua’s best friend, but he put him in a position that led to his death.
Sometimes I had nightmares. Sometimes I was there when Joshua was beaten, but I couldn’t do anything. I couldn’t stop it. All I could do was scream.
But I wasn’t there. I was at Donovan’s house with him, in his childhood bedroom that was so sanitary that it might as well have been a guest room in the home of someone who suffered from obsessive-compulsive disorder. It was so clean and tidy that I was afraid to touch anything. That was, of course, until he touched me.
We knew Joshua expected us at the party—to arrive separately, of course—by midnight. But we lingered longer than we should have. It wasn’t just the physical part of it—though that was more magical than I’d expected my first time to be. Friends warned me it would be painful, that it would be awkward and embarrassing. It wasn’t. Donovan was gentle and kind, as nervous as I was. Beyond that…we talked. Donovan and Joshua were headed off to Stanford. I was headed to the University of San Francisco just across the bridge. We talked about getting an apartment together our sophomore year. We talked about all the activities we would do together, all the firsts we would share. We talked about the future—when we had a future.
By the time we got to the beach, Amanda was frantic. She rushed up to the parking lot, screaming about my missing brother. Joshua had gone to get some more beer from a local convenience store—with a fake ID—hours ago but hadn’t come back. But his car was there, parked right next to where Donovan had parked his.
“I’ll go north,” Donovan said. “You go south.”
I ran. I knew this section of the beach like the back of my hand because it was where we hung out. It was like an extension of the high school. I stopped and asked everyone I passed who wasn’t too drunk to understand words if they’d seen him. I ran up and down the beach, twice. Three times. And then Donovan’s text.
I found him. Don’t come.
Of course I went. I ran. And he was there, on the beach, his blood washing away with the tied. Tears were running down Donovan’s face. I’d never seen a man cry, not even my dad when my mom died. That frightened me more than the bloody mess that was my brother’s face.
There was a rock. I remember thinking it was odd, that rock, just sitting there. I didn’t realize it was the murder weapon at the time because we didn’t know what had happened at first. The ambulance came, the paramedics trying to clear his nose and mouth so that he could breathe. They worked on him so long that I didn’t know what to think. Then the ambulance left and Donovan grabbed my hand, dragged me to his car so we could follow. I vaguely remember him calling my dad, telling him what had happened. I think that was the first time I heard someone say the word beaten.
The rest…it was a blur. But when they told us that John Kyle, Reese Connor, and Tony Smith were arrested, I knew. And I knew it was Donovan’s fault.
I was there when Joshua warned him to be careful.
“It was just a prank,” Donovan said. “One last hurrah before graduation.”
“Yeah,
but to pin it on John Kyle and the others? Not smart,” Joshua said. “I heard that John was arrested last month for stealing a car. Not the kind of guy you should be getting tangled up with.”
“John’s harmless. Just a wimp trying to pretend he’s a tough guy. I can deal with him.”
“Yeah, well, I hope so. Otherwise you might have just put into motion something we’ll all regret.”
Joshua knew what Donovan had done. And he was the one to pay the price.
I glanced toward the kitchen and caught Ash peeking out at me. I inclined my head and he turned away, going back to Donovan. He touched his shoulder, saying something that clearly upset Donovan. I could see it in his eyes—even if he restrained himself from showing it in any other way.
I knew him so well. Loved him once upon a time.
Maybe that was what it was. Maybe that part of me that loved him then wanted to finish what we started that night. Maybe I just needed to get him out of my system.
Maybe I just…
Was it my imagination, or was someone rattling the doorknob?
“Someone’s here!”
I stood, moving back as far into the corner of the room as I could get. Ash and Donovan came immediately, Donovan watching me, the gun I’d seen earlier in the evening suddenly back in his hands. Ash, too, holding a gun low in front of him.
The door rattled again, and then opened, the woman I’d seen with Donovan earlier in the day laughing as she stepped into the house.
“Oh, hey,” she said, holding up her hands, as she realized how much gun power was focused on her. “I thought you knew we were here.”
Ash relaxed, sliding his gun into a holster strapped around his arms and pulled a cellphone out of his pocket.
What the…?
“Yep, here it is. Sorry, love.”
He kissed the woman’s cheek, as a tall, husky man came through the door behind her. I recognized him immediately as the police chief here in Santa Monica…Jack Warren.
The woman glanced at me, assessing me—did she think of me as competition?—then turned to Donovan. My heart twisted in my chest, as he grinned affectionately at her.
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