He didn’t bother moving deeper into the room. Standing with one hand on the door latch, he waited for her response, appearing anxious to escape her company.
Rubbing her arms, she lifted her chin and stared at him coolly. “My freedom would be nice.”
His lips twitched and for a moment she thought his implacable exterior might crack, that he might actually smile. Then his lips stilled, his mouth a hard line again.
She hugged herself, shivering.
“Are you cold?” he asked, his gaze flickering to the smoldering fire in the hearth. “I’ll have someone fetch more wood.”
“Where are you going?” she asked abruptly.
He stared at her with his black gaze. “Why? Will you miss me?” There was no teasing in the question, no humor. His intense stare only made her flinch.
“Of course not,” she replied, her voice quick, overly loud. “Why should I care?”
“It’s not unheard of for a woman to care about the whereabouts of her soon-to-be husband.”
“Indeed, a wife would care. But according to you, I shall be a wife in name only.”
He cocked his head, dark eyes glinting. “You accept my proposal then?”
“I did not say that,” she retorted, cheeks warming. It did sound as though she were relenting. Her gaze drifted over the long length of him, standing so strong in the threshold. Perhaps she was.
She could not deny that he drew her, affected that part of her she had thought immune to men. The secret part that longed to know the mysteries that passed between a man and a woman. Except, according to Madame Foster, experiencing those mysteries with her husband would lead only to her demise.
Fortunate for her he did not appear the least inclined to make their union anything more than the business arrangement he proposed. She swallowed against the bitter taste in her mouth.
“You need to decide. We’ll reach Scotland tomorrow.”
Tomorrow.
She shrugged, pretending not to care, pretending that his announcement had not spiked her pulse against her throat. “I’ll decide tomorrow then.”
He cocked his golden-dark head. The move struck her as somehow dangerous, menacing, like a predator evaluating its prey before the final pounce. How was she to trust him? If she were wrong … the price was too high. How was she to believe he would return her to London if she refused him? Or try not to seduce her if they wed?
As little as she knew her father, he’d taught her much about men. They were not to be relied upon for anything.
She inhaled a wet breath, a sob caught thickly in her throat. Nothing about this was simple. Her head pounded. She pressed her fingertips to her temples, where the dull ache throbbed.
She only wished she knew whether marrying him would set her on a course to certain death.
If she wasn’t so convinced he would stick her in an asylum, she would explain everything to him. Except she wasn’t so certain she wasn’t mad to believe it all herself.
“Tomorrow then.” With a nod, he pulled the door shut after him, leaving her with the image of his handsome face. Her thoughts a wild jumble, she paced the small space. Tossing her muff down, she pulled a glove free and began gnawing at the edge of her thumb.
She couldn’t marry him. Nor could she refuse him and trust him to accept her refusal. There was doubtless any number of unscrupulous reverends that wouldn’t bat an eye over a reticent bride.
She didn’t bother trying for the door. Her gaze flicked along its length reproachfully. It would be pointless. Someone likely already guarded the outside.
But she would escape. Tonight was her last chance. She moved to the window, wiping her bare hand over the frosted panes with a squeak, clearing it enough to peer outside.
The back of the inn loomed beneath her, bare mostly, except for a shed and a pen with four fat hogs.
A servant girl emerged, dumping a bucket full of scraps into a bowl near the shed. Two dogs snarled at each other for the fine fare. The girl’s voice lifted on the evening air with hard words of reprimand for the scrapping mongrels.
Marguerite eyed the sloping porch swooping out beneath her window. Even if she fell off the edge, it wouldn’t be such a steep drop. She couldn’t injure herself. Much.
She nodded determinedly. She’d do it. Time had run out.
A knock alerted her that her dinner had arrived. Turning, she bade entrance, a calmness suffusing her that hadn’t been there before, a peace with the decision she’d reached.
She’d be sure to eat every bite. She’d need her strength for what lay ahead.
Chapter 11
Ash sat at a table alone the following morning, staring through the window at the flurrying fall of white, wondering if the snowfall would delay their journey.
“Can I get you anything else, sir?” He turned at the sound of the hopeful voice. It was the same saucy barmaid from the night before. She’d been most solicitous, offering more than a warm meal as she repeatedly leaned close, revealing a view down her cleavage.
“I’m fine, thank you.” Dropping several coins on the table for her, he stood, stretching his tight muscles. No doubt he would have slept more peaceably with a certain raven-haired imp in his bed. Shaking his head, he cautioned himself. Their marriage would not involve any of that.
Deciding it time to collect Marguerite and be on his way, he asked, “Have you already delivered a breakfast tray upstairs then?”
“Oh, yes, but the lady wasn’t there.”
Ice shot through his veins at this bit of news delivered so blithely. “What do you mean, she wasn’t there?”
She shrugged, looking annoyed. “The room was empty—”
“Bloody hell.” He stormed up the stairs, his boots pounding on the steps. It must be a mistake. Marguerite couldn’t have gotten past the guard.
He didn’t bother knocking. Storming past the groom, he flung open the door. Immediately, the chill of the room hit him, whipped straight through his clothes, biting into his flesh and sinking into his bones. The curtains at the window fluttered in the wind, taunting bits of lace damp with snow. He strode ahead. Gripping the sill in numb hands, he glared down at the yard, staring at the sloping roof with reproach.
Damn her.
He shook his head. God help her when he caught up with her. He’d been patient with her, extended her every courtesy and believed her sincere when she claimed to consider his offer. The female lacked all sanity. She would rather jump from a window than face him with her refusal. Did she think he would drag her by her hair to the altar?
With a curse, he pushed off the sill and stalked from the room, barking for the wide-eyed groom to follow. Hopefully, someone saw something. A female like Marguerite would stand out. She held herself with a quiet grace. Her raven-winged hair and whiskey eyes gave her an otherworldly quality, feylike. As though she sprang from earth and woods. She could not go unnoticed. Useful for him to trail her, but not good for her. Not good for her at all.
Buried within his anger lurked fear. Metallic and bitter on his tongue, he worried that she would come to harm without an escort. He knew firsthand how rough and merciless the world could be. A woman alone was especially vulnerable. No more so than in this part of the country, thick with thieves and highwaymen and all manner of desperate individuals.
Swallowing down his apprehension, he told himself she couldn’t have gotten far. He would find her soon, and make her regret she ever toyed with him.
Marguerite woke with a start, disoriented, surrounded in a blanket of darkness, pricked and scratched on every side. She swatted at the offending bramble scraping her face and wondered wildly if she had woken within a thornbush.
Then she heard the driver call out and the horses’ responding whinnies. The wagon pulled to a stop, wheels creaking. She stilled, ceasing her squirming as she recalled that she had stowed away in the back of the wagon.
She’d slipped from the inn window after dinner and spent the night hiding from sight, awaiting her chance, eyeing all
the travelers passing through the village. That chance arrived in the early hours of dawn when she spotted a farmer rolling through the village with his wagon of hay. He hadn’t spotted her. Not even when she slipped into the back of his wagon, folding herself carefully beneath the hay.
She blew at a particularly thick piece of hay stabbing her lip, hoping to dislodge it. Had she thought hay soft? The stuff felt like needles pricking her flesh.
She burrowed a peephole through the hay with her fingers to peer out at her surroundings. Marguerite couldn’t achieve a good look from her vantage, but she spotted several thatched roofs. Her gaze slid upward, eyeing curling chimney smoke against a gray-washed sky.
The driver called out and she jumped, pressing back into her prickly bed, fearful that she’d been discovered. A moment passed, and she realized he only called a greeting. Listening, she heard another voice and then her driver accepting an invitation for a pint. The wagon stilled and shifted weight, and she guessed that the farmer was no longer at his perch.
Holding her breath, she forced herself to wait several more moments and endure her scratchy nest. Convinced the driver was well and truly gone and ensconced with his ale, she climbed down from the wagon, hay flying from her person like feathers from a molting bird. Marguerite landed unsteadily on her feet and brushed at her impossibly wrinkled skirts. The skin-eating hay might have kept her warm, but it had worked horrors on her attire.
Deciding her dress beyond help, she turned her attention to her hair. Plucking hay from her tumbled locks, she eyed her surroundings, recognizing the village as one they had stopped at yesterday to change horses. Well, at least the farmer had traveled south with her. There was that to appreciate.
A modest church loomed across the road, its spire the tallest point in the small hamlet. The humble vicarage nestled beside it. Certainly one kindly soul existed within its walls. She took a fortifying breath and strode ahead, looking left and right in the road before crossing—
And that’s when she saw him. A hazy silhouette against the misty morning.
He stood in the gently falling snow like a character stepped from the pages of a fairy tale. He looked virile and dangerous, snow piling atop his broad shoulders. Sketched in the gray-brushed twilight, he appeared large and muscular even with the road stretching between them.
The familiar carriage sat behind him, the door yawning open. Evidently he had just stepped down. The team of horses huffed foggy breaths and pawed the earth, their dark necks shining from exertion.
He’d pressed them hard … all to catch up with her. A sick feeling churned in her stomach.
She longed to toss back her head and shout at the injustice of it all. First a death sentence, then an abduction, and now this. Her escape thwarted with disgusting ease. She hadn’t even managed to put a day between them.
She quaked where she stood—from anger, from panic, feeling like a rabbit caught in the sights of a predator. She swallowed her suddenly dry throat.
He hadn’t spotted her yet, but he would. Any moment.
Heart hammering, she looked around desperately for somewhere to run. A cottage sat to her right. To her left a field stretched, edged with a rickety fence. Beyond this fence, woods crowded thick and heavy. Woods where she might lose herself.
She dove for the field, intent on hurdling the distant fence and losing herself in the trees.
Courtland roared her name, the sound as angry and hot as the furious rush of blood to her face. He’d seen her.
Legs pumping beneath her skirts, she risked a glance over her shoulder and shrieked. He was closer than expected. One glimpse of his thunderous visage coming after her, closing in with such speed, and her heart jumped to her throat.
She ran harder. Icy wind stung her cheeks and made her eyes tear. The landscape blurred white and gray as she pushed. Pushed until her lungs ached from inhaling the cold-burned air.
She cleared the fence with a graceless stumble, her skirts and cloak a tangle at her feet, nearly bringing her down to the snow-covered earth. Kicking her legs free, she regained her footing. The heavy pounding of his tread was upon her. This time she did not look behind her, too afraid of what she might see.
She dove for the tree line, refusing to entertain the notion that she was well and truly caught. That she had endured a cold, bumpy ride in a wagonload of miserable hay for naught. If she had learned anything in the last fortnight, it was that supernatural forces were at work in this world. Perhaps if she wished it, willed it, she could sprout wings and fly.
The heartening thought did not save her.
A great weight struck her in the back. She hit the ground with bone-jarring force. Sputtering, snow filled her mouth, eating up her nostrils.
A hard hand gripped her shoulder and rolled her over, but he didn’t lift off her. His great weight bore her down into the cold.
“Owww!” She beat him in the chest and shoulder with both fists and arched, attempting to throw him off. A vain endeavor. He was a veritable boulder atop her. “Are you trying to kill me?”
“Oh,” he sneered, his savage expression no less handsome as he pushed his face close, “and you care so much for your life? A woman who jumps from a second-floor window and braves the north road alone is scarcely someone I would describe as mindful of self-preservation.”
“A necessary risk to preserve myself from the villain who abducted me and thinks to force me to marry him, thank you very much. Now! Get! Off! Me!”
“Force?” he barked. “I gave you a choice—I’ve been endlessly patient while you make up your mind, woman!”
Helpless rage swept over her. Helplessness because she couldn’t explain her desperate need to escape him. Not unless she wanted him to believe her mad.
“What is it you’re running from?” he growled, his gleaming dark eyes crawling over her face with an intensity that made her throat constrict.
You, she wanted to shout. And yet it wasn’t him. She could no longer deny it. She didn’t want to run from him. He was temptation incarnate.
“I hate you!” The words burst from some place deep within her. And that moment she did hate him. She loathed him for tempting her with what she couldn’t have.
If possible, the roiling emotion bled from his eyes. His gaze turned to dead ice. His strong jaw locked, a muscle feathering along the taut flesh. “There now. See,” he murmured with deceptive calm. “We’re already behaving as a married couple. Shouldn’t be too difficult to make the transition.”
“Never!” she shouted, thrusting her face close to his. Foolish, she knew. She should at least feign submission. The man was crushing her in a snowy field.
“Come now,” he mocked bitterly. “We’ve already come this far.” He angled his head closer. The cold tip of his nose brushed her cheek. A hissed breath escaped from her lips. “Why such the fuss?” His rasping breath felt warm as peat smoke on her face. She couldn’t help herself, she inched her face closer into him, into that delicious heat.
His voice continued at a purr. “My pockets run deep enough. I’m no fortune hunter, as all the others sniffing about your father are. And best of all—I won’t try to dominate you as any other husband would.”
As far as solace went, it wasn’t much. It wasn’t anything at all. She had other motives for escaping Ash Courtland that he couldn’t even begin to guess. Life and death motives. This very moment she was supposed to be on a ship bound for Spain. He ruined that. The reminder fueled her fury.
“No thanks.”
He looked angry again, his dark eyes burning. “Obstinate female. It’s not as though you’re some green girl. You’ve done this before. At least I’ll make an honest woman of you and not demand you serve me on your back—”
“Oh!” Heat flamed her face. She resumed her struggles in earnest then, wedging her arms between their bodies, marveling at the breadth of him, solid and firm and so unyielding.
“Marguerite, enough,” he snapped. “You’ll only hurt yourself.” He grabbed her wrists and
stretched them out on either side of her head. The position thrust her breasts up into his chest. Her cheeks burned at the provocative sensation. The tips of her breasts hardened. Mortification swept through her. Hopefully, he could not feel the aching tips through her gown. Her breath fell in spurts, little gasps of air that betrayed her, revealing exactly how he affected her.
“You needn’t fight this, you know.” His voice dipped to a husky pitch, confirming her worst fears. He was aware of how he compelled her. “Perhaps we should discard the idea of a name-in-only marriage and strive for the real thing—”
“Never,” she cried, her voice a desperate whip on the frigid air. In truth, his suggestion sparked something deep inside her, fanning the flame he’d started upon their first encounter. She tugged at her wrists, more desperate than ever to be free of him.
He angled his head. Waning sunlight filtered through the heavy clouds, gilding his hair. “You’re not some chaste creature—”
She laughed hoarsely, the sound dry and broken. “So because I’m damaged goods I shouldn’t concern myself with whose bed I share?”
“You’re far from damaged goods to me,” he said, his voice oddly thick, breathless to her ears.
He lowered his head, his dark eyes, fathomlessly deep, melting her where she lay on the cold earth.
She scarcely heard her whispered, “What are you doing?”
“Something you’ve been wondering about from the moment we met.” His lips brushed hers as he spoke, butterfly soft but no less shocking. She jerked back reflexively, air shuddering past her lips.
“I have not,” she managed to get out, her voice so shaky she didn’t even believe in her own denial.
“Something,” he continued as if she had not spoken, “I’ve wanted to do since I saw you that first day in the rook.”
She sucked in a breath … his breath, and tasted a hint of coffee. And something else subtle—mint?
His lips lowered again. This time she didn’t pull away as his mouth claimed her. She didn’t move, simply held herself still.
His mouth was firm but gentle in a way that she hadn’t expected. His lips moved slowly, leisurely, coaxing her own to move in response. The sensitive skin of her lips warmed, tingled. Her entire body heated despite the snowy earth under her, soaking through her clothes and wetting her to the bone.
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