But while Hef knew many of the Playmates were moonlighting as call girls, he and his detectives were still completely oblivious to the business Vicky was apparently conducting under his very nose with his own girlfriends.
Why didn’t I tell Hef what I believed about Vicky? Because I knew that if I told him that I thought Vicky had tried to recruit me to be an escort, he would run and tell her verbatim what I said. She would of course deny any involvement; Hef might choose to believe her, reprimand me for spreading catty gossip, and then I would be subjected to Vicky’s vengeful wrath.
No, thank you.
Even after reports came out implicating Hef’s girlfriends in the Nici’s Girls escort ring, I don’t know if he ever figured out who was Braun’s inside girl. In the end, it was a different moneymaking scheme that sealed Vicky’s fate.
Back in the early 2000s, invites to the mansion were still a prized commodity, and there was a market of wealthy men willing to pay top dollar for a spot on Playboy’s exclusive party guest list. As girlfriends, it was understood that we could invite a few family members and friends to attend each of the mansion’s decadent soirees. Ever the hustler, Vicky saw this as the perfect opportunity to make some extra cash. Like she said, she was going to milk this place for all that she could.
For a small fortune, Vicky would secure eager partygoers a spot on the coveted guest list under her own name (telling the office they were cousins or close friends). And because greed seeped out of her pores like sweat, she couldn’t help but recruit the other girlfriends to do the same. Vicky would do all the heavy lifting (for a cut of the profits, naturally) and all the girls had to do was give the names to the office administrators before the party. I believe I was the only girlfriend she didn’t approach about this scheme. My reaction to her hooking proposal must have turned her off.
Vicky’s greed became her own worst enemy. While it was in everyone’s best interest (the clients and the girls) to keep the escort ring as discreet as possible, the Playboy guest list racket was less distasteful. So, naturally, people talked . . . and word eventually found its way to Hef.
A few days before the annual Playboy Halloween bash, I had come down with a nasty case of the flu. I curled up in bed all day, barely able to move a muscle or even lift my head off the pillow. Unbeknownst to me, Hef had recently found out about Vicky’s guest list scam and confronted her. He was furious with Vicky and the “Mean Girls.” When some of the names on the guest list aroused suspicion, the “paying customers” were called by one of Hef’s secretaries, asking how they got the invite. They simply told the secretary that they paid one of the girls to get in. Amazingly, Vicky had neglected to tell them it was a secret. Needless to say, they were totally busted and even Vicky couldn’t deny it.
Of course the evil witch was convinced that somehow I had been the one to snitch, even though I hadn’t even known about the scheme at that point. Part of me wishes I could now take credit for what would be her demise, but it was not my doing. None of that mattered, because regardless of what I did or didn’t do, Vicky was hell-bent on making my life miserable.
“Honeeeeyyyyyyyyyyyy, weeee’rrrreeee hooooooommmmeeee!” Vicky squealed through the doors of the master bedroom, dragging out each word in a singsong childlike tone. Terrified they were going to get kicked out, Vicky and the “Mean Girls” had all gone to a local tattoo parlor to get bunny head logos inked on their ankles (an expression of their undying devotion to Playboy and Hef).
“Honeeeeeyyyyyyyyyy,” she cooed again, only louder. Uninvited, she flung open the doors and screeched like nails down a chalkboard, “We have something to showwwwww yoooouuuuu.”
“He’s in the library,” I croaked from what felt like my deathbed.
“What?!” Vicky shouted, as if she was shocked I dare even speak to her. Leaving the other girls in her wake, she charged up to my side of the bed, her nostrils flaring like an enraged bull and her fists clenched at her side.
She came on so aggressively I worried she might hit me. It wasn’t out of the question. I’d seen some of the girlfriends resort to throwing punches over things as trivial as someone cutting the bathroom line at a nightclub, but I’d never seen Vicky so incensed before. I think mansion life was eating away at her: she had become desperate, paranoid, and apparently volatile. Panicking, I felt my sore muscles tense, preparing for a blow.
“He’s in the library,” I croaked again, a bit softer, praying they would all just leave.
“He’s in the LI-BRAAARY,” Vicky shrieked, raising her pitch in an attempt, I assumed, to mock me. She was hovering over my quivering body, her eyes crazed and a vicious smile creasing her puffed lips. I stiffened, half preparing myself to run towards the door. I had no idea what had set Vicky off this time.
“Fuck!” one of the other girls shouted, sounding similarly enraged. “Let’s go!”
Relief washed over me as Vicky turned around and began stomping away. Suddenly she spun around and at the top of her lungs screamed, “FUCKING BITCH!” and slammed the heavy door so hard the pictures on the walls shook as if an earthquake had rattled the house.
What had just happened? I thought, adrenaline pumping through my veins. I took a few slow, deep breaths to calm myself so that I could process the encounter. I was so rattled that I lay in bed paralyzed by fear, praying that Hef would quickly return.
It felt like hours before Hef finally returned to the bedroom. He relayed the story to me about how he had caught the girls adding names to the party guest list and how upset he had been at each of them. For a moment, I felt relief.
Oh my god, I thought. He’s going to kick them out. They’re actually going to be gone.
But when he got to the part where they had gone to get their bunny brands as a sign of loyalty and how very sorry they all seemed, his eyes started to gleam with pride as a small smile spread across his face. His voice was shaking in that way that it did whenever he told a story that “touched” him.”
Are you fucking kidding me? I thought. He wasn’t actually falling for this . . . was he?
“You mean, you’re really not going to do anything?” I asked, my raspy voice barely escaping my mouth.
“What do you mean?” Hef asked, truly befuddled. I could sense he was shocked by my response. “They are genuinely sorry, Holly. They said they didn’t mean to hurt me and are now more devoted than ever.”
I didn’t say anything, but it was clear my silence spoke volumes, so he continued.
“They said they’re going to put in a lot more time around here,” he proudly stated. “They even expressed an interest in coming in and watching movies with us at night. Do you know Dianna actually loves black-and-white movies?”
I could feel the tears burning my eyes as I tried to hold them back. Of course, I didn’t know Dianna liked old movies—because she didn’t! All the “Mean Girls” rolled their eyes behind Hef’s back whenever he made mention of his beloved black-and-white films. Hef and I usually watched movies alone most weeknights, which for me was a much-needed reprieve from having to be around all the other girls. Surely the Mean Girls would have made good on their promises to Hef, not only in order stay in his good graces, but also to drive me crazy with their ever-obnoxious presence. There was no way I could tolerate any more time around those girls than I already had to.
No, I thought. I won’t. I just couldn’t stay any longer.
“I can’t believe you aren’t going to do anything!” I cried, tears now cascading down my cheeks. “I can’t stay here anymore! I can’t live in a house with Vicky—someone who is that mean to me!”
Even though we never talked about it, Hef knew the girls were terrible to me. He just chose not to do anything about it.
“This is my house!” Hef screamed at me, his face red with anger. “How dare you complain to me! I treat you like a princess!”
More like Rapunzel, I thought. I shifted my gaze downward and refused to react to his tantrum, which luckily proved to be short-lived. Hef calmed down
just as quickly as he became upset.
“Well, I’m hesitant to get rid of Vicky, because other girls seem to really like her,” he said thoughtfully, folding his hands in his lap. This was code of course for her ability to recruit other girls into the bedroom. While he knew I was in the room, I wasn’t completely sure if he was talking to me or just aloud, so I kept quiet.
As he sat there weighing his options, I felt defeated. Supposedly I was the “love of his life,” as he liked to say, but he was weighing my worth against Vicky’s. We sat in silence for a long while.
Maybe no one would recognize me as a former Playboy mistress, I thought. That was it. I would leave the mansion for good, my bunny tail tucked between my legs—and Vicky would win. Just as I was about to pull myself from the haze I’d been living under, Hef broke the silence.
“Well, you know,” he conceded, “I think Vicky was the ringleader in this whole thing. She really was the one that led those girls astray.” I held my breath as he surely pondered his poor little damsels being manipulated by her.
“I think I’ll tell her it’s time for her to leave after the Halloween party,” he said matter-of-factly as he picked up the bedside telephone to order his dinner.
I didn’t say a word. Even to express my gratitude might unintentionally change his mind. I just nodded as if the decision was an unemotional, practical one.
On the inside, I was bouncing off the walls with happiness. Vicky was going to be kicked out! But on the outside, I had to remain calm and unaffected. I knew the battle was over, but I was careful not to rock the boat. That’s always how things were at the mansion: you were constantly fighting just to stay afloat, to keep yourself from being kicked out onto the street. Losing sight of what it was I had even wanted before moving in, I became obsessed with being the last one standing in this perverted elimination game . . . I was determined to win.
CHAPTER 6
“I can’t explain myself, I’m afraid, Sir,” said Alice, “because I’m not myself, you see.”
—Lewis Carroll, Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland
In just one year, I had gone from the newest member of Hef’s Party Posse to the one with the most seniority. Tina, Vicky, April, Lisa, Candice, and Carolyn had all gone their separate ways. In their place was an entirely new cast of characters: Bridget (my sole friend), Daphne (a pretty, cunning girl who quickly became one of Hef’s favorites), Dianna (Hef adored her because she had the helpless “damsel in distress” act down pat), Elizabeth (one of Daphne’s sidekicks who was low on the totem pole because Hef found her shrill and demanding), Whitney (at 30, the oldest girlfriend and Hef’s least favorite because he considered her “pushy”), and finally Amber (a seemingly sweet as sugar, quiet girl who defected from side to side when it came to the battle between the Mean Girls and me).
While the girls were different, some things never changed. With the exception of Bridget, I was no more successful in making friends with this group of girls than with the last. To make matters worse, since none of these new girls were being given the Playmate pictorials they so badly wanted, they therefore weren’t kept busy with photo shoots, video shoots, and promotional appearances like the last batch of girls had been. With all the extra time the new girls had to spend at the mansion counting their frustrations, the claws were perpetually out.
The Wednesday and Friday nightclub outings, which had seemed so exciting to me when I first joined the group, became dreadfully monotonous, not just to me, but to all of the girls. On Wednesdays, we would go to Concord or the Standard Lounge, and on Fridays, we would go to the upscale, but not star-studded, Barfly on Sunset Boulevard. Since there were no celebrities to be seen at Barfly, the girls hated it and referred to it as “Barf Fly” behind Hef’s back. Each night out would begin with a limo ride to the nightclub, with Hef passing out his “thigh opening” Quaaludes to the girls in attendance. I still refused them, but many girls didn’t. The evening out would always end with the girlfriends trying to convince Hef to go home a little earlier than usual. He usually insisted on staying out until 1 A.M., but on the rare occasion he agreed to leave early, we all breathed a collective sigh of relief. Daphne, Dianna, and Elizabeth would beg Hef to bring us to cooler night spots instead of “Barf Fly,” but he was loath to change his routine. Also, his cachet on the nightclub scene had subsided over the past year. He had been going out so often, he was no longer a novelty, and he was too high maintenance (always bringing a huge group and always demanding the best booth in the house) for the A-list clubs to be bothered with him anymore.
The dreaded “bedroom routine” still went on after each club night, but the parade of new girls joining the antics had subsided. In fact, anytime a woman the girls found to be a potential threat got too close to Hef, one of them (I was never sure who) would give her a “friendly warning” that herpes was “going around the mansion” and she would instantly back off. The rumor gained such momentum that I was witness to two instances of girls (who had slept with Hef; one was a former girlfriend, one was a weeklong fling) calling his office and asking that he pay for their herpes medication. Even though he grumbled about how he received a “full physical” every year, therefore it couldn’t have been him that they got herpes from, he always ended up paying for the medication. I suppose he did it to keep them quiet and make them go away.
Daytime at the mansion was still as uneventful as ever. Looking for something to occupy our time, Bridget and I became official mansion tour guides. The job required that we familiarize ourselves with every fact about every nook and cranny of the 21,987-square-foot house and the 5.3-acre property. We hosted the frequent morning tours—mostly to servicemen and charity raffle winners—and we were even given custom Bunny costumes made specifically for us, which was a real treat considering that even Playmates weren’t allowed to keep theirs. (While most people use the term “Playboy Bunny” to describe anyone associated with the magazine or Hef, the term actually refers to the waitresses who wore the Bunny costumes at the Playboy Clubs, which existed in the middle part of the last century. In the absence of these clubs, Playmates occasionally donned the costumes for photo shoots or public appearances.)
I spent a lot of time in the mansion’s zoo, learning about the animals from the wonderful zoo staff. Hundreds of exotic birds and three types of monkeys called the grounds home. I made friends with a large spider monkey named Coco whom we eventually trained to be able to walk around on a leash.
One day, as a favor to Hef, I decided to take on the project of “organizing” his bedroom. Even for someone with a lot of time on her hands, it was a formidable task that ended up taking several days. From the first time I’d ever seen the inside of his bedroom to my days as his main girlfriend, Hef had managed to collect even more junk. A recent Premiere magazine profile of Hef had referred to his room as “the lair of the Playboy pack rat.”
One of his most prominent collections was his film library. At that time, many of the films he had collected were still languishing in stacks on his bedroom floor, in the form of ¾-inch tapes (which look like larger versions of traditional VHS tapes, all in generic gray clamshell cases). My main order of business was carrying all the tapes upstairs and filing them in one of his many video closets so they could await conversion to DVD by his “video staff” (who also operated as a human TiVo, taping every television program he circled in the TV Guide).
This ended up becoming quite the workout; I must have climbed up and down those stairs more than 300 times carrying heavy stacks of tapes. It was particularly unpleasant when I’d unearth a tape and realize it was coated in years-old dog urine.
As the piles diminished, ornately carved walls I had never seen (and which probably hadn’t seen the light of day in a decade) appeared. While it felt good to see the room come together, I must say I found some things I would have rather not seen. Topping the list? An old reel stashed away in a drawer full of porn labeled “Girl and Dog.”
It made me wonder if Hef had ever thought abo
ut who was going to go through his things one day after he passed away. He was so fastidious about his public image and about having every moment in his life documented and recorded in a way that showed his life the way he wanted it shown.
I was disheartened to learn from one of his friends that he had plans to donate his scrapbook collection to a library or university after he passed, though he hadn’t settled on which one at that point. It was such a personal and private collection, not just for him, but for anyone who’d ever been in his life.
Hef holds the Guinness Book of World Records title for largest scrapbook collection at over 2,000 volumes. He keeps them in his attic along with desks and supplies for his scrapbook staff (yes, he has a scrapbook staff) to paste everything together. Good or bad, anything written about him goes in the scrapbook. Every picture his photographers take ends up in the scrapbook. Every girl he takes out is pictured in the photos, and the insinuation that they slept together is there along with nude photos, in some cases. I’m sure many girls included in the scrapbooks wouldn’t be too thrilled to learn they could be public property one day soon.
I know I wasn’t. Granted, there wasn’t anything scandalous about me in the scrapbooks, but it was humiliating to think that anything personal I had trusted him with could end up public property via their inclusion there, even if it was just something trivial like a sad note I had written to him. It was another thing that made me feel embarrassed, trapped, and forever branded.
In another attempt to occupy my time (and my brain), I began taking French lessons, acting classes, and real estate investment courses at UCLA. I needed to do something to stimulate my mind and avoid permanent bimbo status. The stammer I had developed continued to creep into my speech, and I hoped that furthering my education might somehow help. Bridget and I truly were kindred spirits. She had already received her master’s degree, but felt the weight of mansion life affecting her head, too, and began taking classes as well.
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