She didn’t say anything to me until we had loaded everything into the trunk and were seated in the car.
“Why did you apologize to that woman?” she asked me.
“I…well, she seemed like she was in a hurry.”
“You never apologize for taking up space, Yasaman. You have just as much right to take as much time in that line as you want to,” Grandma said.
“Oh, no, that wasn’t…”
“You don’t apologize for who you are. I’m an old lady now and perhaps that doesn’t mean much in the world we live in, but I exist and I shouldn’t have to be sorry for that. As a woman, you have to know that. Don’t ever apologize for who you are,” she said.
I nodded and held her hand. It was wrinkled but soft and smaller than mine. I kissed the back of it.
“You’re right,” I said.
“I’m always right. Tell your mother that,” she said. “Now let’s go! We have to get to the market before the good vegetables are gone.”
* * *
• • •
I had spent the past two months on weekends preparing the dishes Grandma taught me to make. My parents were starting to get sick of kuku sabzi, a vegetable herb frittata, though they were pleased to see that my attempts at making it were improving. I had also enjoyed going with Grandma to the ethnic food markets. We went to an Armenian-owned store for fresh and cheap produce and to a Persian bakery for dried barberries and chickpea cookies.
When Grandma would ask where the limoo torshi was at the Armenian grocery, no one would bat an eye, but rather would lead her to the sour dried limes. They had shelves full of items from different countries, all to remind the shoppers of their favorite dishes from places they or their relatives had connection to.
I was doing my best to follow the recipe in Grandma’s kitchen.
“Are you sure I can’t help you with anything?” Grandma asked. I had spent all day peeling onions and garlic, boiling and stirring rice, and washing vegetables, and I was exhausted. Each dish I made took at least two hours, not including half an hour of prep time. No wonder my parents were fans of ordering takeout.
What I had loved the most about preparing adas polo (lentil rice), kuku sabzi, and fesenjan (a pomegranate stew) was spending time with Grandma and hearing about how her mother had prepared those meals. And the parties she went to as a kid with her parents and the celebrations she hosted when she raised her own children.
The doorbell rang.
“I’ll get it!” I shouted as I tried to beat Grandma to the door. I opened it to find Hannah, wearing a dress and holding a bouquet of flowers.
“I know I’m early,” she said. She was never early. She was almost always ten minutes late for everything, which I had factored in for the evening, but she didn’t need the extra time. She was wearing a dress I had never seen before. I didn’t think she wore anything but jeans and a sweater. Her curly hair was pulled back into a bun. She had taken out her nose ring. Her hand picked at the plastic around the bouquet. Hannah smiled, but there was a look on her face I had never seen before. She was nervous. I didn’t think that was a feeling she knew anything about.
“Your timing is perfect,” I said as I let her in.
“Do I look okay?” she asked me. I felt the Stay Puft residue bubble up inside me.
“You’re perfect too. But you didn’t need to, uh…You could have come like you usually dress.”
“Oh, I’d dress like this if I were visiting my grandma. But she’s no longer with us.”
“I’m so sorry for your loss,” I replied, concerned.
“Oh, no, sorry! I meant she’s no longer with us in Massachusetts! She moved to Florida two years ago,” she said. Both of us laughed. I led her to the dining room, where Grandma was already seated.
“Grandma, this is Hannah,” I said. I didn’t say my girlfriend, but I didn’t say friend either. I hoped that would be a start.
“It’s very nice to meet you,” Hannah said.
“Hannah! You are so beautiful!” Grandma exclaimed.
“Thank you! So are you,” Hannah said. “These are for you,” she said, handing her the flowers.
“Oh, thank you,” Grandma said as she kissed Hannah on both cheeks, which I had prepped Hannah for. The thank sounded like tank because the th sound was difficult for her to say.
“I can put those in a vase,” I said, extending my hands for the flowers. Grandma passed them to me before she sat down again. Hannah sat across from her, and I really wish I had put on some music or something so it wouldn’t feel like I was leaving Hannah alone when I brought food in and out of the kitchen.
“Yasaman tells me you are a big fan of Dancing with the Stars,” Hannah began. It was the first time I had heard her say my full name. Everyone at school called me Yasi or Big Y, like the New England supermarket chain. Only the assholes called me that, actually.
“Oh! It is the finals! So exciting,” Grandma said. I walked into the kitchen to put the flowers in a vase. I could hear Grandma trying to remember the names of the two finalists and Hannah saying she could look up the contestants on her phone. I scooped rice from the pot to a platter. I was grateful that I had plated the other dishes so as not to leave my guests alone for too long. I carried in plate upon plate of food to the dining room.
“There’s more?” Hannah exclaimed.
“Hannah, I want to thank you,” Grandma said.
“Oh, um, how come?” Hannah said. I could hear her usually confident voice waver.
“Because I think you are the reason my granddaughter learned how to cook!” They both laughed at that. I took a deep breath before I joined them with a dish of kuku sabzi.
“Everything is vegetarian friendly,” I said, sitting at the head of the table between Grandma and Hannah. The adas polo, basmati rice with lentils and dates, smelled of butter, ground cinnamon, and sweetness.
“That’s my fault,” Hannah said.
“Okay. But next time, Yasaman will make you lamb,” Grandma said. Hannah looked at me. “I’m joking. You know, like in Greek wedding movie when the husband doesn’t eat meat.”
Hannah laughed, but I blushed profusely. I couldn’t tell if Grandma quite understood how spot on her joke was.
“Befarmaeed sham. Dig in,” I said. Hannah looked at me like I was James Bond ordering a martini shaken, not stirred. I guess she’d never heard me speak in Farsi before.
“Hannah, you must come over always,” Grandma said as I loaded rice on her plate until she told me to stop.
“I’d like that,” Hannah said, placing mint leaves, radishes, and feta cheese on her plate. This was going so much better than I think either of us had anticipated.
“You can tell me who is sending Yasi the texts that make her face red,” Grandma said as she bit into the kuku sabzi.
I didn’t say anything but just looked at my plate.
“Oh, I…I don’t know who that could be,” Hannah said, not so relaxed anymore. She distracted herself by asking me what was in the fesenjan. I explained it was a walnut pomegranate stew that usually included chicken.
“Now you are red!” Grandma said excitedly to Hannah.
“I am?” Hannah asked in a panic.
“It’s all right,” I said to Hannah. I touched her shoulder to let her know it was okay.
My grandma noticed. Her eyes widened. I smiled at my grandma and nodded a little to let her know that, yes, this was who made me blush over text messages. Grandma blinked but didn’t immediately say anything, which made me worry.
“When I first cooked for your grandfather, I wasn’t a very good chef,” Grandma explained to me in Farsi. Out of the corner of my eye I noticed Hannah tense up. “But he always lied and said everything I made was delicious when we both knew it wasn’t. He said it was delicious because I put so much love into it. Your dinner is good bec
ause it was made from love, but you don’t need to lie. And neither does she.”
I hadn’t planned on crying at dinner, but plans changed as my eyes welled up.
“Hannah,” my grandma said in English. I turned to Hannah. She looked petrified. “Yasaman has done a good job, but if you really want delicious food, you are welcome next week.”
I wiped my eyes with my palms before I smiled at Hannah. She laughed in relief.
I really hoped Hannah liked Persian food. She was going to be having a lot of it at Grandma’s for the foreseeable future.
Gather, my children, I have a story. This was many years ago, before the Four Corners War, before steel towers devoured the sky, back when Brooklyn’s gaslit avenues dipped and curved around great oak trees, and long-necked sauropods loped glumly in the East River, dangling steel rails from their harnesses for the brand-new suspension bridge. These were days of revelry and masquerades burning through the wide-open nights, when we were flickering shadows burgeoning along the dawn streets.
But this story isn’t about us, of course. It’s about you.
And on this night, a group of you gathered as you always have, night upon night, here at a dim saloon in old Crow Hill called the Bochinche, a few blocks from the penitentiary. And Ramses Garcia Garcia sat in his same spot as always, silent as always, and just seventeen, hands plunking away on the congas, eyes scanning the crowd.
There was a different face amid the revelers this night: a white face, which was unusual enough at the Bochinche, but also with large, bulging eyes and tiny beads of sweat trembling upon his upper lip. The stranger wore a rumpled pin-striped suit, and an ascot that seemed to clamp the folds of his fleshy throat. When Oba Ade Iku took the stage to begin another round of stories, the stranger glared at him, and Ramses Garcia Garcia glared at the stranger.
Rosie Gene Selwin sat in the crowd that night, and everyone knew her being there made Ramses play with that much more fire. Rosie sat just a few tables away from the stranger. She had her quill out and was jotting down sketches in a leather-bound tome. Rosie was the inventor of the crew; most nights she would spend at her regular table, dreaming up ideas for new machines and weapons to the strains of that sweet music. During the day you could find her in the workshop behind the Bochinche, tinkering and drilling, bringing those dreams to whirring, clanking, steaming life.
Ramses kept steady time on the congas, a gentle tap-tapping bolero strut, but his eyes tracked the stranger’s every move. Oba Ade Iku sliced his hand through the smoky air, a warrior king chopping off his enemies’ heads, and launched into another part of the tale. The stranger scribbled notes on a scrap of paper, his big eyes glued to Oba.
Ramses glanced at the girl he loved, and then returned to the stranger. Who was this man? Oba’s story reached another height: the warrior king gazed over the shattered remnants of an army from his mountaintop. The stranger stood, his teeth clenched, fingers squirming like fattened bloodworms after the rain. Ramses stopped drumming. The stranger reached into his jacket, threw two small packets to the floor. Ramses launched across the stage, spilling the congas to either side.
He bolted toward the stranger just as a billow of smoke unfurled from the ground. The Bochinche began filling with a thick shroud of gray. The stranger ducked past Ramses’s swinging arms, dashing toward Rosie Gene. Ramses saw the move, and he hurled toward them as Rosie cracked a bottle across the stranger’s face.
The gray smoke thickened. Ramses lost sight of Rosie, the stranger, everything. He pressed forward, shoving through the crowd, feeling for Rosie, coming up short. Nearly overwhelmed by coughing, he found his way outside, stumbled against a wall, and turned toward the masses fleeing the club. Rosie stood beside Oba. “I’m okay,” she insisted as Ramses ran up. Ramses hadn’t said a word in as long as anyone had known him. Rosie knew how to read the tiny details of his face like it was a language of its own. He started to shake his head. “Stop, Ramses. I’m fine. But…”
“That man got away with Rosie’s notebook,” Oba said. Ramses reeled, caught between good news and bad. That notebook was covered with Rosie’s secret designs, pages and pages of mechanical weaponry and flying machines, transporters, intricate technologies Ramses couldn’t begin to make sense of. “We have to stop him,” Oba said. “I suspect he belongs to the Olritch Scourlings. If they get ahold of Rosie’s plans, things may become very dire indeed.”
The Olritch Scourlings: an age-old fraternal order that had spent generations trying to open a gateway for their foul gods to worm through into this world. The Scourlings would’ve been another hilarious cosmic joke if they didn’t command such vast wealth. They recruited their brotherhood from the upper echelons of Manhattan’s elite, and met in a high-rise downtown that they’d gutted and turned into a shadowy temple. We used to sneak in and laugh at them, rich kids playing silly games, but Oba was right: in the past few years, the Scourlings had taken leaps and bounds toward opening their gateway, and their gods—the Visitors, they called them—were capable of unleashing catastrophe upon us all.
Ramses took Rosie in his arms, kissed her. She whispered a tiny prayer to him: “Take the skies, my love. I’ll take the streets,” and then turned and hopped on her unimotor. Ramses ducked back into the club as the sound of Rosie’s revving engines filled the night. The smoke had mostly cleared out now, and he retrieved his pack.
Fifteen minutes later, he stood before the long, deserted stretch of President Street, strapped up, armed and ready to fly.
The half-moon hung low over Brooklyn tonight, illuminating the shuttered storefronts and a small park. Ramses took a step, then another. Inside him, a tiny list unraveled as he broke into a run: our names, his dead parents and grandparents, the elders in his spiritual house. He gunned the tiny motor Rosie had pulled from the junk lot. A warm vibration thrummed to life against his back. He leapt once and hit the power charge. Flame exploded from the pack as the mechanical wings unfolded to either side. The ground fell away. Ramses flew.
Scattered gaslights illuminated the winding Brooklyn streets below. Flatbush Avenue sloped away from the dark trees of Prospect Park. It was four a.m., almost no one out but the night watch and a few straggling drunks. Airships hung just beneath the clouds like great, weightless whales. A mournful horn sounded from the harbor, but otherwise, Ramses’s puttering engine was the only noise. He banked northwest toward the bay. Manhattan loomed tall beyond the Brooklyn clock tower. A single sauropod stretched its long neck out of the dark river: the bridge crews working late. No stranger stalked the streets, though. Almost no one at all.
Ramses swooped low over the tight alley labyrinth of the Harbor District, a clutter of apartment houses squished between the bay and the river. A movement caught his eye and he veered left and cut his engine, gliding along between the dark building fronts. Silence in the streets. Then a clatter of footsteps on cobblestone. There. The stranger stormed along an alleyway and ducked out of sight. A few moments later, Rosie, now on foot, crept along through the shadows after him.
This was back before the bombings; the Brazenvurst Cathedral still reached its twisted spires skyward. Ramses landed on a buttress and waited beside the snarling ’goyles and gnarled saints. Within minutes, the stranger darted from his hiding place and down the cobblestone street. Ramses slid back into the sky, catching a salty updraft from the harbor, and soared through the alleyway and around a corner, following the echoing footfall. The stranger ran into a tenement and slammed the door.
Ramses grinned, eased toward the ground, and landed running. Rosie would be crouched in wait somewhere, preparing. The wings folded back into his pack as he stepped into a dim front room. He took his time on the rickety stairwell. There was no point in showing up out of breath. He let another silent prayer rise inside him, the one said to call on one’s warrior spirits before battle, and we gathered in the thick air around him. He unsheathed the machete as he walked into th
e corridor. At the far end, a single line of light cut the shadows from under a closed door. Ramses walked slowly to it, took a deep breath. And then, with a single kick, he flattened the door and sidestepped in, blade first.
Piles of magazines and ancient books cluttered the tiny room. No stranger. The bathroom, a mildewy disaster, was also empty. A single filth-covered window looked out on the dark sky over the river, the construction lights’ glum miasmas in the night. No stranger, but there on the writing desk near the window—Rosie’s notebook. Ramses snatched it, threw it in his pouch. Stacks of parchment lay on the desk, messy, ink-blotched writing splattered across page after page.
’Twas two-fold, the insult, Ramses read, and soon Frederick took it upon himself to find the blasted monstrosity and destroy it, but alas it lurked deep in the Morgath Woods, where its villainous acolytes patrolled and genuflected alongside the hulking, tentaculous mass, inventing stories and casting shells with trembling brown hands.
Mouth hanging open, Ramses sat. The stranger’s story went on, terrifying and achingly familiar, a broken, mutant version of one of Oba’s tales: Frederick huddled in the bushes as the devilish acolytes prepared their sacrifice, grabbing its horns and subjugating it swiftly upon the killing floor. The monstrosity writhed with pleasure, its cackles echoing into the thick swampy night and mixing with desperate mewls from the goat.
Ramses shook his head, shuffled through the papers. Story after story formed a glimmering, twisted reflection of the tales Oba recited each night at the Bochinche. But these weren’t Orishas or ancestral spirits; they were monsters, demons, phantoms of the deep.
Ramses went to stand, but something wet tightened around his ankles. Two greenish, pale tentacles, dripping with thick ichor, had emerged from the underside of the chair and now held each of Ramses’s ankles fast against the wooden claw-foot chair legs.
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