by Cat Brown
Dexter takes the next exit and pulls into a parking lot and unbuckles his seat belt. He reaches over to my side of the car and unfastens my seat belt as well and then he pulls me into his lap. He gently rocks me back and forth as if he were comforting a small child.
“Shhh baby it’s all going to be okay. Everything will work out to the way it is supposed to be. No matter what you decide it will be the right decision.” Dexter’s soothing words and touch calms me down immediately. I lay there with my head on his chest for a while longer until I feel ready to return to my own seat.
“Thank you Dexter. I don’t know how I would ever get through all this without you. You are so good to me. I love you so much baby.” I tell him and then I kiss his lips slowly and gently trying to convey just how much his words meant to me.
There is no way I can walk away from this man in a few weeks. He means too much to me to just vanish and never be able to speak to him again. I am just not strong enough to let him go. The more time I spend with Dexter the more I want to stay. I had just gotten my life back.
The fact that Dexter and I had sex without a condom and I am not on the pill plays through my mind as well. I told Dexter that the timing with my cycle wasn’t right but honestly after the accident and everything that has happened I am not exactly sure if that is correct. So I guess we will find out soon. There was no way I would be able to leave if I was pregnant with Dexter’s child. I couldn’t take that away from him. But isn’t that what I would be doing to Dave if I chose to stay? Keeping his kids away from him. Ughh this shit sucks ass.
One minute I think I have made up my mind that I am going to stay, then a second later I change my mind and say I am going to go with Dave. If only there was a way that the kids could have their Dad in their life and I could still stay here with my family and still be with Dexter. That would be the desirable outcome.
After that we steer the conversation onto safer topics. My job for one. I have only been working there a little while but since I have been away from work I actually miss it. I would like to open up my own bakery some day and I think I am going to take Elizabeth, my manager, up on her offer to take some baking classes that they offered to pay for.
Just something else I will have to give up if we leave. Ugh.
Working to support my family is something I have never had to do, but now that I am the one bringing in the income it makes me feel proud of myself like I have something to do other than just stay at home all the time. Working does have its downfalls though. I loved getting to spend all of the extra time with the kids and I miss them so much when I work. It’s really going to suck now that it is summer and they will be home all the time and I will be working.
After a while my thoughts drift off and I fall asleep for the remainder of the ride home. I know I am terrible company but I was mentally exhausted. So much for taking a road trip to be able to spend more time together. All I did was sleep most of the time.
When we get home the house is quiet and for once I am glad the kids aren’t here yet. I need some time to reboot my system so I can be in a cheerful mood when they get back.
I tell Dexter I am headed to the shower that he can make himself at home. I can tell by the mischievous glint in his eyes he wants to join me but I don’t offer and he doesn’t follow me. I lock the door to ensure that he doesn’t come in while I am showering. I just need some time to myself to get my head back on track.
I wash my hair and body quickly and dry off and wrap the towel around me and head to my room to get dressed. It’s amazing what just a shower can do to put you in a better mood. Dexter is there waiting for me sitting on the edge of the bed.
“Feel better hun?” Dexter asks and holds his arms open and I go to him. I stand between his knees and he hugs me around the waist laying his head on my chest. I run my hands though his hair.
“I do feel better actually. I am sorry I slept most of the ride home. So much for spending time together on the ride back.”
“It’s okay Courtney you needed the rest. Besides you may have been asleep but just knowing you were there in the car with me was enough. I love just being near you. When are the kids going to be home?” He asks as I walk over to the closet to pick out something to wear.
“They should be here in about 30 minutes or so.”
“Why don’t we all go out for dinner tonight? I am sure the kids would love that and that way we won’t have to cook and we can just have a nice relaxing evening.” That’s Dexter for you. He’s always trying to make things easier for me.
“Sounds like a great idea babe. Maybe we could take the kids to play some mini golf and to ride go-karts after dinner too?” I look over at Dexter. He gives me a thumbs up. It’s adorable.
“Cool I can’t wait for the kids to get here they will be ecstatic.”
A couple minutes later we heard the sounds of little feet pounding up the front porch steps.
Chapter Twelve
Dexter
When Courtney walked into the bedroom in nothing but a towel looking sexy as fuck I wanted nothing more than to take her right then and there. I knew the kids would be home soon though and that she was still fighting some inner demons with herself after the car ride home, so I kept my hands to myself for now.
You could tell the minute the kids arrived home from the clatter coming from outside. We headed into the living room to greet them when they walked in. Miley and Caleb shocked the hell out of me when they ran up to me first before saying hello to their Mom. They were excited to see me here and that warmed my heart.
“Dexter!” They both shouted as they ran up to me.
I scooped them both up. One kid in each arm and they both gave me a peck on the cheek. The size of the grin I was sporting had to have been visible in outer space. My heart never felt so full. I fell in love with these kids more and more every single time I was around them.
“Hey guys! I missed you so much.” I walked with them both still in my arms over to Courtney. “How about some love for your mom you guys.” I leaned each child over to kiss Courtney on the cheek as well. Courtney had a breathtaking look on her face. I could tell she was happy to see the kids so excited I was here. She took Miley from me and I put Caleb down and walked over to Jason to say hello.
“How would you all like to head out to dinner and then to play some mini golf and ride on the go-karts?” I ask and it’s followed by a chorus of whoop whoops and jumping up and down by Caleb and Jason.
Okay I take that as a yes then.
“Well let’s get going then.” I snagged the keys off the table by the front door and lead the way to the car. I had already come out here and strapped Mileys car seat into my suburban while Courtney was in the shower. We were all set to head out.
We decided on a pizza place for dinner. It had an arcade so we loaded Jason and Caleb up with quarters to go play until the pizza arrived. Jason and I played a few rounds on a two player racing game and he beat me both times. I told him he just got lucky that next time we came I wanted a rematch.
I helped Caleb win a stuffed bear out of a claw machine. He gave the little bear to his sister. He was such a sweet little guy. Always putting others before himself. For only being six years old that amazed me. Courtney has really done a great job with these kids.
After eating our pizza we head to the sports park for mini golf and go-karts. Courtney dominates on the mini golf course and Jason is right behind her on the score board. They must do this often because I wasn’t even lucky enough to make one shot into a single hole.
When we get to the go-kart track Jason gets his own kart and I share a double with Caleb because he isn’t big enough to ride by his self yet. Courtney and Miley watch from the sidelines since Miley isn’t old enough to ride.
Jason wins the first race and Caleb and I win the second time. Then I switch out with Courtney and take Miley for her so she can ride with Caleb a few times. I hold Miley on my shoulders and we wave to Jason as he passes by. Then we wave to Courtney and Cale
b each time they pass us too. I can really get used to this. This is what I have been missing in my life. This is what my Mom was always talking about when she would say I would meet a woman and my whole world would click into place.
I want to ask Courtney to meet my family but I am hesitant because I am not sure if she is planning on staying in town or leaving. I know my parents will love her and I don’t want them falling in love with her too just for her to turn around and leave. So I am going to give it some time and when I know for sure that she has decided to stay, I will ask her to come home to meet my Mom and Dad.
I know my parents will love these kids just as much as I do. I want them to meet the kids too but the first time I take her to meet them I want it to just be us. My parents know I am with Courtney and they know the situation. They are willing to wait but I know they are chomping at the bit to meet the woman who has roped in their son.
Courtney and the boys finish up their turn on the go-karts and none of us want the night to end, so we decide to go out for ice cream before we head home.
It was all in all the perfect evening.
Later that night while Courtney was curled up next to my side she looks the happiest that I have seen her since before the accident.
“I had a really great time tonight Courtney. I can picture this you know, being like this with you for the rest of our lives doing fun things like that with the kids. Each time I hang out with you guys my love gets stronger and stronger for you all. I know I have kept my silence so far on how I feel about the whole Dave situation.” She takes in a sharp breath. I can see her trying to come up with a reason for me to keep quiet but I continue anyway.
“Just hear me out okay babe.” I kiss her forehead and continue. “I haven’t really told you how I feel about it all. I have been very supportive of you and I know you will make the best decision for you and the kids. I could never live with myself if I didn’t tell you how the situation makes me feel though.” I take her hand in mine and link our fingers together.
“Courtney if you leave… It will kill me. I do not want you to go. I want you to stay. Stay here with me. I can support you and the kids. Forget about Dave and moving away. Stay with me. I will be the father figure they need in their life. I don’t have to replace Dave but I want to be here for them and for you. We can make the decision together about whether or not to ever tell them the truth about what really happened with Dave. I just want you to stay baby. Please don’t leave me.” I break down into tears in front of my beautiful girl. I wanted to be strong for her and here I am sobbing like a baby with her in my arms. My body shakes with sadness of the thought of never seeing her again.
I am hugging her so tightly I am afraid I am going to crack her ribs but I can’t force myself to let go of her. She sits up and climbs into my lap. Straddling my legs. She lays her head into the crook of my neck while her fingers run through my hair trying to soothe me.
“Dexter baby you don’t know how badly I want to stay. Thank you for sharing that with me though. I needed to hear your side and I am glad that I did.” Her lips meet mine in a tender kiss. Her gentle fingers gliding down over my back sending tiny sparks leaving my skin on fire in their wake. The kiss turns hot and seductive and I can’t stop. My hands travel down to her panties and I rip them off her body needing this too much to take this slow. I remove her shirt next. Her silk pajamas shredding like paper from my assault. I throw the tattered garments to the floor.
I need her so much in this moment and by the static vibe between our bodies, if I had to guess I would say she needs me too. The look in her eyes was wild and sexy. She looked like a vixen. She tugs on my boxers and they come off in one swift motion. She climbs back on top of me. The look in her eyes told me she was as ready for this as much as I was.
“I need you inside me Dex.” She says breathlessly.
Who am I to deny her that?
Chapter Thirteen
Courtney
The second Dexter ripped my panties off and then my shirt something feral took over my body. My inner sex kitten wanted to come out to play. I decided to let her out in full force tonight.
The second he entered me, my body felt like a volcano about to erupt. I have had plenty of orgasms before but with Dex… he takes me to a whole new level. The sex with Dexter and me. It’s fucking incredible.
He flipped me over onto my back and stroked and kissed my skin like it was his greatest treasure. He was gentle with me but his thrusts were powerful bringing me right where I wanted and needed to be.
“Oh God Courtney you feel so good. So tight and wet baby I can’t hold out much longer. Come with me Courtney.” Dexter’s sexy growl rings out into my ear.
After we both climaxed together in earth shattering bliss we both just laid there beside each other breathing heavily not saying a word. No words needed to be spoken. Dexter neglected to use protection again and at that point I didn’t even care about that. I loved this man with everything that I had. There was no way I was going to be able to leave him. Especially after what he just told me and what we just shared together.
Seeing my strong handsome man sobbing so hard that his body was shaking brought the reality to life. If I left him it would break him and I just couldn’t do that to Dexter. When Dave was asking me to go with him, he didn’t show even a tenth of the emotion or compassion Dexter just showed me when he practically begged me to stay.
When Dave mentioned that we had the choice to go with him, it was as if he was doing it to be polite. He actually acted like it would be better if we stayed, but he was just throwing it out there that we could go if we wanted. He didn’t beg and plead like he couldn’t live another day without us if we decided not to go with him.
Dexter got up and headed for the bathroom and came back with a warm wash cloth and he proceeded to clean me up. He threw the cloth in the clothes hamper and crawled into bed next to me. He molded my body to his. His body was hard and soft at the same time and also warm but the closeness of our bodies caused me to shiver sending goosebumps along my skin. He tugged me closer burying his face in my hair and then he let out a contented sigh.
“I love you so much Dexter.” I whispered into the dark room.
“I love you too Courtney, more than you will ever know. That was amazing. You don’t think the kids heard all that do you?” He asked causing me to giggle.
“No Dexter. We weren’t that loud and they all sleep with a box fan going to drown out noise. They can’t sleep without the fans so I think we are good to go babe. Plus they were exhausted after our night out at the sports park. I am sure they are sound asleep.” I reassured him but he didn’t look convinced.
“Yeah I was trying to keep quiet as much as I could but we kind of got carried away there at the end.”
“I am sure its fine. Quit your worrying. We should probably get dressed though because they do have a tendency to come in here in the middle of the night if they get scared or need something. I wouldn’t want to scare them even more if they showed up in here to us both being naked.” I slapped my hand across his abs playfully and got up to put on some clothes.
I picked up the ripped items off the floor and threw them in the trash can by my dresser.
“I can’t believe you ripped my clothes. That was sexy as hell Dexter.” I say over my shoulder and I notice him staring at me with a wicked grin.
He walked over to me, wrapped his arms around my back and grabbed my ass. “It was pretty hot wasn’t it baby? You like when I get so lost in you that I can’t even think straight?” His sexy as sin voice washed over my ear.
“Mmm Hmm so hot.” I whisper, he just held me like that for several minutes.
He lets go of me and stalks back over to the bed and sits down on the edge of it. He puts his elbows on his knees and runs his hands through his hair repeatedly. I can tell he is still upset. I wish I could tell him that I have decided to stay but I don’t want to do that to him in case something was to happen that caused me to go with Dave instead.
I wouldn’t want to get his hopes up and then have to crush him if that happened.
“Damn it Courtney. I forgot the condom again.” So that’s what is bothering him. My poor handsome guy. So conflicted. I hate that I am doing this too him. I walk over to him and sit down beside him. I place a comforting hand on his shoulder. He turns his head to look at me and I can see the pain clear as day in his eyes.
“Dexter it’s okay, honest. Everything will be fine. Let’s just get some sleep.” I tell him wondering if he picks up on the fact that I don’t mean that I won’t end up pregnant, but the fact that if I do get pregnant I plan on being around to raise the child with him.
“If you say so baby. If you aren’t worried about it then I won’t worry about it. Plus there really isn’t anything we can do about it now and I sure as hell don’t regret what we just did.” He kisses my cheek. I crawl under the covers and wait for him to slip in behind me. When he does my body relaxes into his. I run my hands through his hair until his breathing evens out and I know that he has fallen asleep.
“I love you so much Dex. I am not going anywhere. You are my future now.” I say softly wishing more than anything I could tell him the words when he is awake to hear them but for now it just has to be my little secret.
I haven’t heard a word from Dave and it has been a week. Who the hell does he think he is? He just drops a bomb on me like that then doesn’t show his face again. I know he said he would be back in two weeks for my decision. If he seriously wanted us to go with him I thought I would have at least heard from him again before the two weeks was over.