by Vikki Vaught
Jonathan came over to the bed, pulled back the covers, and climbed in beside her. “Your hair is even lovelier than I remembered. Would you mind if I touch it?”
Kathryn hesitantly smiled. “Certainly you can. I left it loose tonight because I thought you would like it better that way. You’ve mentioned several times that you find my hair attractive.”
Jonathan ran his fingers through her hair and watched it fall onto Kathryn’s breasts. His breathing was shallow and his hands trembled. She could tell he was trying to control his desire. A few nights ago that realization would have scared her, but she actually found it tantalizing tonight. As he reached for her, she went willingly into his arms. Kathryn saw the surprise on his face as she laid her head on his chest.
When he leaned down to kiss her, she kissed him back, and he deepened his kiss. While he nibbled at her bottom lip, she sighed in enjoyment, and he slid his tongue into her mouth. Again, she parted her lips to allow him further access. She placed her hand on his chest, felt his heart beating rapidly. Kathryn felt her heartbeat accelerate too.
Jonathan continued to kiss Kathryn, and she felt her belly knot with anticipation. She groaned just as Melody and Helen had told her to do, and Jonathan gently placed his hand on her breast. As he rubbed her nipple through her silk gown, it grew taut. Kathryn was surprised, but she liked the feelings that were surging through her body.
He trailed kisses down her neck, then lowered his head and slowly took her nipple into his mouth through her silk night rail. Kathryn felt a jolt of electricity shoot through her lower body, and she moaned softly. His hand reached down and pulled up her night rail. When he touched her bare skin, she felt his hand trembling as he ran it up her leg toward the apex between her pretty thighs.
Kathryn was trembling with excitement as he parted her thighs and touched a spot she wasn’t even aware was there. The most incredible sensations burned through her body. She felt as if a coil was being tightened inside her body as he stroked the tip of his finger over her cleft. Then she felt his finger begin to slide inside her, and she stiffened.
He immediately pulled his hand away and pulled her gown back down. “I’m sorry. All you have to do is tell me to stop, and I will. I don’t want to scare you, but my dear, you don’t know how much it means to me that you have trusted me enough to allow me to touch you.”
Kathryn timidly looked at him and murmured, “I was enjoying the way it was feeling until you did that last thing. Can we just do everything else except that last bit?”
Jonathan gazed into her eyes. “We can do whatever you’re comfortable with. I sensed you were enjoying my touches until the last. Kathryn, you have such a beautiful body, and I desire you desperately. This is the beginning stages of making love. I’m glad you found it enjoyable. Can I kiss you again?”
“Please.”
Jonathan tenderly kissed her. While raining kisses all over her beautiful face, he gently kneaded her breasts. Soon her breathing quickened and her heartbeat escalated. She was moaning from the incredible things she was feeling. He kissed her with more passion, and she followed his lead. He continued to fondle her breasts with gentle touches. The feeling was mesmerizing as she felt a rush of desire deep inside her body. She knew she was close to something very special.
They lay there for quite some time as he softly stroked her breasts, arms, and back, then slowly, he raised his head and smiled at her as he pulled her close. “I think that’s enough for tonight. We’ll just lie together until we fall asleep.”
Kathryn smiled and closed her eyes. As they lay together, she felt so safe. She was overjoyed that she’d taken Helen and Melody’s advice. She had enjoyed everything they did except for that one thing. Then she had grown a little fearful that what he had planned to do would hurt her, so she had stiffened up. But he had immediately pulled back, so she knew she could trust him to stop when she wanted him to. Kathryn was so grateful that she had listened to his plea when he asked her to marry him, for the children’s sake. With a beatific smile on her face, she slowly drifted off to sleep.
Jonathan lay there for a long time just holding her in his arms. It had been the hardest thing he’d ever done, when he pulled back, but he knew it was the right thing to do. He’d kept a tight rein on his passions. He knew that his patience would bring much greater rewards later. He was amazed that she had responded so passionately. He knew he was taking a big risk, pushing a little further than she was comfortable with, but he knew that if he didn’t take some risks, they would never reach his ultimate goal of making love to complete fulfillment for both of them. Just as soon as he felt her tense up, he knew it was time to pull back.
When she asked him if they could continue, it just about brought him to his knees, but he stayed in control and continued to tenderly stroke and pet her until she again was feeling the beginning sensations of desire. As he continued to lie there with her in his arms, hard as stone and filled with so much passion that it was painful, he still knew he had done the right thing. Eventually his body calmed down and he fell asleep.
When Jonathan woke up the next morning with her body pressed up against him, spoon fashion, it felt sublime. Her sweet little bottom was nestled against his loins, his arm was around her waist, and he was in paradise. He didn’t want to waken her because he just wanted to enjoy feeling her so close against him.
He knew that when she woke up and felt his cock stiff against her derriere, she would pull away. The progress he’d made last night was truly astonishing, much more than he would have ever dreamed in so short a time. This was just their third night together, and he had expected it would take weeks, or even months, before he would actually be able to touch her beautiful body, and yet it had happened last night.
Jonathan felt her wiggle and then stiffen and knew she was waking up. “Good morning, my love. Do you feel as marvelous as I do? I just love waking up with you in my arms. Why don’t you turn around so I can give you your good morning kiss?”
She turned toward him and shyly said, “Good morning to you. I’m glad you slept well. I know that I certainly did.” She pulled his head down to hers and gently kissed his lips. As she kissed him, she parted her sweet lips and invited him in. While he kissed her deeply, she tentatively probed his mouth with her tongue.
It was the most erotic experience of his life when he felt her untutored attempts to return his passion. As she kissed him, he gently stroked her luscious breasts. She rubbed up against him, so he slipped his hand into the neckline of her night rail and took her nipple between his thumb and forefinger and gently squeezed. Her nipple pebbled up as hard as a small stone.
“I want to see your breasts.” Though she blushed, she nodded her head, so he slowly unbuttoned her gown down to her waist. Pushing her gown apart, he gazed at her luscious breasts. She had the prettiest nipples with small dusky pink areolas. Lowering his head, he sucked her puckered nipple into his mouth. He gently massaged her other nipple as he suckled. She moaned with pleasure as she tried to get closer to his hand.
Jonathan reached down, pulled up her gown to her pretty red curls, and touched her sweet little bud of desire. He flicked it with the tip of his finger and felt her tremble in his arms. He wanted to bring her to satisfaction for the first time, so he continued to rub her little nubbin until he heard her gasp and whimper as waves of ecstasy rolled over her. He looked up at her, and she had the most incredibly beautiful smile on her gorgeous flushed face.
She opened her lovely violet eyes, filled with wonder, and said, “What did you do to me? That was the most amazing feeling I’ve ever experienced.”
Pulling her close, Jonathan said, “My dear, God designed your body to feel pleasure, and what you felt was the sexual fulfillment of desire. It pleased me greatly to be able to bring you your first experience of pleasure. With what happened to you when you were a child, I wasn’t sure you would be able to relax enough to feel pleasure. Thank you for trusting me, and I promise you have nothing to fear from me.”
“Surprising enough, I wasn’t scared. I trust you Jonathan.”
“Any time I do something that makes you uncomfortable, all you have to do is tell me, and I’ll stop. Now, as much as I love lying here with you, I need to get my day started.” He rolled out of bed and stood up, leaned over and kissed her on the nose, then smiled as he turned and walked out of the room.
When Jonathan entered his room he was in severe pain from the stiffest erection he could ever remember having. He knew he would have to find his own release, so he took care of business and breathed a sigh of relief.
Oh God, how in hell was he going to do this every night…until she finally allowed him inside her gorgeous body?
Jonathan was determined to find the strength somewhere, because when she did finally let him in, it would all be worthwhile. He just knew that if she fell in love with him, her passions would overrule her fears. The expression of wonder on her pretty face when she reached her fulfillment made him feel his love for her in the very depths of his soul. Her pretty cheeks, all flushed with passion, were fulfillment for him. That was the first time he had ever pleasured a woman without any thought of his own sexual gratification.
Yes, it would all be worthwhile.
All he needed to do was be patient a little while longer.
Once Jonathan left the room, Kathryn continued to lie in bed. She felt so deliciously satisfied. She never imagined that there would be such pleasure found in anything to do with sex. Just thinking about what had happened made her feel a tingly sensation in the place between her legs. She was so grateful to Helen and Melody for suggesting that she let nature take its course.
Jonathan was such a thoughtful and considerate man. She had sensed that he held his passions in check so he wouldn’t scare her. She wondered if she would ever be brave enough to give him pleasure by touching him intimately. She knew he had desired her because she felt his arousal against her bottom when she woke up this morning. She decided that she would try to touch him tonight. She would block out the images of her uncle from her mind.
That morning, Kathryn felt energized as she got up and rang for Sarah. Once she finished her morning ablutions, she went downstairs, had breakfast, and then went to meet with the housekeeper, Mrs. Rollins. They planned the day’s menu and discussed a problem with one of the maids. “Milady, Nancy, the chambermaid, is in a delicate condition, and I think she should be dismissed. It will set a bad example for the rest of your staff if she continues to work here.”
Kathryn looked at the housekeeper and wondered what would be the best way to handle this situation. “Mrs. Rollins, I want to speak to Nancy. Please go get her and bring her here.”
Mrs. Rollins brought Nancy to her office, and Kathryn smiled pleasantly at her. It was obvious she was terrified. It showed in the poor girl’s deep brown eyes. “Nancy, Mrs. Rollins tells me you’re with child. How far along are you, and who’s the man responsible for your condition?”
Nancy started to cry. “Please d-don’t fire me, milady. I h-have no place t’ go. Me parents ‘ill k-kick me out when they find out about th’ b-babe.”
“Shush, no one is going to kick you out,” Kathryn said. “Now continue with your story.”
“I tried t’ stop th’ men,” Nancy stammered, “but t-they forced ‘emselves on me. It was th’ young genl’men t-that comes here from Bath. I don’t knows their names. They was out riding an’ asked me for d-direction, an’ when I stopped t’ tell ‘em…t-they got off their horses and pulled me int’ th’ bushes. I’m a g-good girl, milady. I was… a v-virgin. I thought I’d die from th’ pain. It hurt real bad, milady. One after th’ other did it t’ me. Th’ others held me down.”
Nancy sobbed out her story, and Kathryn was appalled that young men would do something like this. “Nancy, you’re not going to lose your position. Could you identify the men if you saw them again? I’m going to get Lord Sutherland, and I want you to tell him what the men looked like, all right?”
“Oh p-please, milady,” Nancy cried. “They told me t-that they’d kill me if I ever told anybody about this. Please don’t make me tell. They was mean and I…I knows they meant ever’ word.”
Kathryn went over to Nancy and put her arm around her. “We shan’t let anyone hurt you, but these men need to be punished so that they can’t do this to another young girl. Nancy, how old are you?”
Nancy continued to sob as she spoke in a trembling voice. “I’m fourteen, milady, and always been a g-good girl. Them young genl’men don’t live around here. I never seen ‘em afore. Only reason I knows they was from Bath is one o’ ‘em mentioned it.”
Kathryn patted her on the shoulder. “Shush, everything is going to be all right. Stay here with Mrs. Rollins while I go get Lord Sutherland.”
Kathryn left the room, went to Jonathan’s study, and knocked on the door. When she heard him tell her to come in, she entered and cried, “Jonathan, the most dreadful thing has happened, and I don’t know how to handle it. One of the maids has been r-raped by several young men from Bath, and she’s now with child.” Kathryn had tears rolling down her cheeks as she told Jonathan what had happened. “She says that her parents will kick her out when they find out about the child. Jonathan, she’s only f-fourteen. These men need to be punished for what they’ve done! What can we do?”
Jonathan went to Kathryn, pulled him into his arms. “I’m so sorry you’ve had to deal with something like this. Can the maid identify the men who did this to her?”
She dropped her head on his shoulder. “I don’t think she can. She said they threatened to kill her if she ever told anyone about what happened. Mrs. Rollins wanted to dismiss her, but we can’t do that to her.”
“Which maid is it? Most of them are daughters of my tenants. I’ll talk to her parents and make sure they don’t throw her out. Let’s go find out, all right?”
Kathryn nodded, and they went to the housekeeper’s office together. When they entered, poor Nancy was sobbing uncontrollably.
Jonathan spoke to Nancy in his deep, soothing voice. “Nancy, I’ll talk to your parents, and they won’t throw you out. You aren’t going to lose your position. Lady Sutherland told me what happened. Those young men can’t hurt you, because I won’t let them. Now please, tell me who they are.”
“Milord, I can’t tells ye, cuz I don’t knows who they was. They was just some young genl’men from Bath. That’s all I knows. They talked real fancy like. They was gentry, they was.”
Turning to the housekeeper, Jonathan said, “Mrs. Rollins, see that Nancy is taken care of. I’m going to go see her parents and tell them what has happened.” He turned to Kathryn and added, “Kathryn, please come with me.”
Once they were out of the housekeeper’s office, Jonathan said, “Her parents are very strict Wesleyans, so they aren’t going to take this well. I just hope I can convince them to let her continue to live with them. I don’t want you to worry about this. If they do refuse to allow her to come home, I’ll figure out something. Why don’t you go upstairs to your studio? When I get back, I’ll come and let you know what’s going to happen.”
Kathryn went to her studio, but she had a hard time concentrating. She went back downstairs to Mrs. Rollins’s office and found her alone. “Where’s Nancy?”
Mrs. Rollins replied, “I sent her to clean the music room. I thought that keeping her busy would help the poor little thing. I never dreamed that something like this could happen. Those young men need to be found and punished. If they did this to Nancy, they could do it to someone else.”
“I agree with you, but since she can’t identify them, it’s going to be difficult. It sounds as if they were young gentlemen, and it would be impossible to punish them, even if we could find out who they are. Lord Sutherland told me that her parents are strict Wesleyans and won’t take this well at all. I hope he can convince them to let her continue to live with them,” Kathryn said, as she sat down in the chair.
Mrs. Rollins pushed her spectacles up on her nose and
sighed. “I’ll keep her busy today, and hopefully Lord Sutherland will figure out what needs to be done.”
Kathryn went upstairs and spent some time with the children, but she was too distracted to enjoy it. Since Kathryn always found walking helped calm her down, she went to her room, put on her walking shoes, and went for a walk to pass the time until Jonathan returned.
When Jonathan returned from speaking with Nancy’s parents, he found Kathryn in their sitting room. “I talked to Nancy’s parents, and they were furious when I told them Nancy was with child, and immediately said they would throw her out. I let them know how displeased I would be if they did that, and they backed down. I just wish there was some way to punish these young men, but since it sounds as if they’re gentry, it would be difficult. Who would take the word of a servant over these young men?”
“Thank goodness you were able to convince her parents. The last thing Nancy needs now is to be ostracized by the very people she needs the most support from.”
“How are you handling all this? I’m sure it’s brought up painful memories for you.”
Kathryn bowed her head and sighed. “It has been difficult. Of course, what happened to Nancy is much worse than what happened to me. I can’t imagine being raped so many times and by several different men. Oh, how can men do things like this to an innocent young girl?”
Jonathan put his arm around her and pulled her close. “Darling, I can’t tell you why some men behave like animals. Sweetheart, you were raped repeatedly. Your abuse was ten times worse, because you had to live in fear every time your uncle came for a visit. At least with Nancy it won’t ever happen again.” Trying to lighten Kathryn’s mood, he asked, “Now, did you work on Roderick’s portrait today?”
Kathryn shook her head. “I was too distraught to concentrate, so I went for a walk instead. I also went and visited the children. Poor Nancy, my heart goes out to her. Now she’s going to have to face being a mother at far too young of an age.”